Back case fan may be dying… and I have NO replacements

Posted on 11-30-2022 by Benie

Ohh, fate. You a bitch. “Ooh, he has money to blow on useless things he’s likely going to feel he wasted it. Let’s create some chaos to make him spend more, and endanger his computer to boot!!”
Every time I turn on my computer after turning it off (or using the Sleep option) when I go to bed, I hear the fans and everything kick on. Then about 6 or 7 seconds later I hear the sound of something grinding inside. Keep thinking it’s just a small fan inbalance, as
about 1-3 minutes later the sound stops.
Today, I heard that familiar sound again… then it changed to a loud grinding sound that kept on. Starting to panic I looked all over the case and found the source; the outflow fan on the back. The sound would not stop nomatter what I tried to do. So I took the side panel off and tried to carefully put my thumb right in the middle of the fan. The sound stopped, proving it’s the source.
I let my thumb go, waiting and the sound started up again, same volume as before. Kept doing this over and over, noticing there were times when it sped up all the way the sound had stopped for a bit, then started up again. But thankfully to the lord almighty, doing it enough times finally stopped the noise, and the fan has been behaving perfectly
normal.
With the scary sound gone, I knew I had to find a replacement.. fearing the fan’s going to die on me soon. Went on Amazon and looked up a replacement fan. The first one was
a Noctua fan for $15. 4 pin. But I wasn’t sure what type or size of pins the current one
uses.
Took awhile until my brain finally processed I needed to find the motherboard manual. After a lot of searching I found the official manual, and where it shows the fan pins on the board. Something about ‘SYS_FAN1’ to 4. But I dunno which one it’s plugged into. I tried to get ahold of Jero through Discord, but no use. So I tried to call him and thankfully he picked up.. but he was at work. However he still was able to help me. Hardly could hear him with all the traffic going by of where he was.
He told me to take a picture of the pins, so I did and sent him the picture.

Here I was also able to find out it’s plugged into ‘SYS_FAN1’. He said “see how there’s one pin that’s exposed?” Looking at the picture myself, yes I could see that. He said the Noctua fan should work as a replacement.
Finally I asked how do I get the old screws out, if I can use a standard screwdriver or if I need a special one from an IFixIt kit. He said they use Phillips head screws, so that’s great for me. And the Noctua fan, he claimed it should have its own screws, and ones that I “can push in”. Sounds similar to installing the CPU Cooler.

However, despite the help I still didn’t feel safe. What am I going to do between now and when I get the replacement? I won’t be able to use my computer safely if that fan fails, as it’s the only thing keeping my computer from overheating.
And why didn’t I ask Jero for this advice? …Because I felt I was keeping him away from working and I wanted to end the call ASAP, even apologized for doing so. He said it’s alright, but I just felt bad nonetheless. Told him I loved him and ended the call. But also, I actually did forget to ask at the time. I did ask later on that night, but he’s asleep.
So I asked the Microsoft Community Discord for help. I felt the fact I didn’t have
a Windows issue.. they likely won’t help me. Glad I was wrong, as I was suggested to try and dedust the fan, that maybe it’s dirty. Another one suggested to leave the tempered glass side panel off until I get the replacement, as the heat will vent out through the
opening (since heat rises). However they also said by doing so it would “make your inflow fans useless”. ..Hmm.
I have been checking my temps (though Speccy) and everything seems nominal on the motherboard. So, maybe I can try a game, while also keeping a watchful eye on the outflow fan (making sure it’s still spinning).

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UPDATE (December 1st): It’s the next day, and as soon as the fan started spinning the noise happened. This time I grabbed my phone and was able to record the noise, to add further explanation of what’s going on. Managed to stop the sound a second time. Tapping the middle of the fan to slow it down didn’t stop it, but putting my finger in the middle and then quickly moving to the fan blades to hold it a second, then move the fan slightly in reverse, then letting it go, finally stopped it. I waited a bit to make sure the noise wouldn’t come
back (and I could feel air coming out of the case), and it’s been gone since.
Then I sent the video to Jero, and he said the baring inside the fan is “definitely worn
out”. I asked him “would you know how long I have until the fan dies? Would it possibly survive until I get the replacement?” He said “It’ll keep going for a long time, but you’d have to bear with the noise”. …GOOD. That is a major sigh of relief I don’t have to
panic.
Infact, he said I could do without that fan at all. That I can just remove the fan, close the case and my computer will run fine, that the heat will simply rise out of the case. But that is, if my room doesn’t get too hot. He also said I’m fine keeping the side panel open, as the case would “be passively cooled” with the outside air, hence what the person meant about my front intake fans “would be useless”.
Finally, he suggested I get HWMonitor installed and keep checking my temps to make sure everything stays within normal limits.

UPDATE (December 2nd): Last night when Jero went to bed (spent time with him
in VRChat as it’s been awhile), I was using HWMonitor. And I noticed one of my hard drives getting dangerously warm (47C). It seems I have to have the side panel on there afterall.
After putting the panel back on, the temp, somehow, magically dropped 2C. I don’t think airflow works that fast to cool electronics down, but OK. Then I thought “you know, what the hell. I’m curious if Jero’s idea actually works”. Turned off my computer and unplugged it from the UPS, then pressed and held the power button down to discharge everything. Took the side panel back off, unplugged the fan and with one of those multi-bit screwdrivers my father had, I carefully removed the fan from the case. Honestly I thought it was going to be a bit of a challenge trying to find the screws, but they literally screwed the fan to the back of the case (which made it easy for me). The second screw got away from me but thankfully it dropped on the table and I was able to find it.
With the last screw, the fan was about ready to fall right on my GPU… I will NOT let that happen! Managed to grab it.. barely, and very carefully removed it out of the case.
All there was left to do, was to give my parts a good de-dusting. And wow did the dust fly out of the case.. so much I wasn’t using proper protection to keep it out of my eyes, nose and mouth. Ugh, that wasn’t smart of me! But I’ve never heard anyone dying from
dust, so, I believe I’ll be fine.
Now all there’s left is to put the side panel back on, plug it back in, turn it on, and monitor temps like crazy with HWMonitor, because I absolutely have to worry about them until I get this replacement fan. But from what I seen, Jero’s suggestion is working. Temps seem pretty nominal (even without an outflow fan). My three inflow fans are helping to stabilize the temps.
However, this is just the computer on idle. I’m not using it for a game. ..Actually scared to see the temps soar to dangerous levels. But, I did discover the drive that went from 47C, to 45C in a split second. It’s my external drive. That explains a lot.

Also when I went to bed, Kovo was ranting (once again) in Telegram about how
awful GW2 is compared to other games he likes. Yes I know you’re paying me back for me ranting about Destiny 2, but if you want to reverse roles and act like me.. then I can act like you. Anyway, I told him what Jero suggested (that I did), and he said “that sounds right”.
Then he asked me “what about GW2?” I said I’ll be testing the load. Then he said that
the Steam Deck should support it… I wish it did, but according to their store page, they offer ZERO controller support. Let alone Steam Deck support. Then he asked me “do you have the Dock?” I said “yeah, I do”. He said that he heard you could set up your Deck as a laptop through it, and possibly connect your keyboard+mouse through it.

And sure enough, it is possible! Unfortunately the screenshot here, doesn’t show my mouse cursor. But it does work! So does my keyboard! 😁 Now I don’t have to worry about my computer overheating! ..I could play VRChat like this.
The only problem is, I only have one keyboard and one mouse. So I can’t use them on the dock while also typing in a blog post. But, I was able to discover I can, easily swap from my computer to the dock and back when I need to, just by unplugging the USB cables.
…I wonder if I can connect one of my monitors to this. That way I won’t be forced to play on a tiny screen.

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2023 will ring in bad news for SDK 2.0 users — Prepare for the VRCCC

Posted on 10-20-2022 by Benie

When you wish you were just being pessimistic by not knowing what’s actually going to happen, but sadly it’s real.. and it spells really bad news if you still use SDK 2.0.
What is the VRChat Creator Companion? From what I looked up, it makes uploading content to VRChat faster. However, it only supports SDK 3.0 avatars and Udon-built worlds.
Now this is fine and all, though you’re probably asking “but Benie, why is this ‘bad
news’ for us SDK 2.0 content creators? If this VRCC thing only works for 3.0 and Udon, why would this affect us?” ..Well,

kiss all of your awesome, dedicated work over the years, GOODBYE if you refuse to go
to 3.0/Udon, when 2023 rolls in. Because the VRCCC, will be made mandatory in order to upload content. And there is not a god damn thing we can do about it.
It is funny, how the devs in the recent UI update claim they “hear us” when it comes to transparency. Yet they still pull the same song and dance, never stating “by the way, in 2023 if you don’t update your work to 3.0, well.. FUCK YOU!! 😂”
But at the same time, they can fire back and say “we warned you 2.0 will cease to exist back in 2020. It’s old technology and it’s time to move on.” At least that would be their excuse. But their real reason is.. they really don’t give a fuck about you. If you have old content, they don’t want that anymore. All they want, is their stockholders to see
they’re ‘innovating’. They want fresh faces, new content to show VRChat is getting
better.. while leaving behind the foundation that made them great in the first
place.
But hey Just like EAC, they know they can get away with this. Just like the EAC shitstorm, they’re “too big to fail”. Lots say 80% of VRChat’s playerbase will leave.

…And go where exactly? Chillout? Yeah, they still support 2.0 (because they actually give a fuck about content creators), and likely we’ll see even more worlds available. Which is great!!
Yet… lots of people also say it’s a ‘dead game’ and the updates are never going to catch up to VRChat. Plus, there’s still the “my friends are there” aspect.
Except this would be different than EAC. This will affect old school content creators who don’t want to learn 3.0/Udon. …And now they’re going to be forced if they want to continue making content in VRChat, starting in 2023 (via the VRCCC).
This is the second biggest “fuck you” from the VRChat devs in their (now tarnished
over EAC) history.

So as a 2.0 content creator, you only have two options to prepare for this;
1. Man up and try everything you can to update your content for 3.0. If your content cannot possibly work with 3.0 over how you feel your work is ‘barely held together by duct tape’ (aka BTD 3.5), then go with Option 2.
2. Upload your content to Chillout, and stay on this platform, or go back to VRChat with a public avatar (that’s hopefully 3.0). Then try to find a commission to replace your (now dead) 2.0 avatar, and then watch your paid avatar be stolen by an asshole and placed
on Ripper Store, and the VRChat devs do nothing about it because it “wasn’t a mod
so EAC works ‘perfectly'”.
…Please come on Chillout. Sure there’s less people, but we need more to make the community bigger.

As for me, this likely won’t affect me too much. Yes I’ll miss BTD when it was on VRChat and know my Drex is literally all I’ll have.. and I can’t fucking thank CEC Blender enough for doing that for me.

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Trying VRChat’s “new features” (that should’ve been added YEARS ago…)

Posted on 09-03-2022 by Benie

Right so, before I start I want to give a quick explanation. Two things actually, both related to Jero (of course).
1. I’ve been still trying to work out what days (or times a week or month) in my head of when exactly I feel like coming on and seeing him, but I also want to make it completely fair for Kovo, Nova and the others (if they want to play a game with me). So I tried
asking Kovo if he could tell me what him and Nova are going to do. But after yesterday when I saw all of them (on my Steam friends list) doing a raid in Destiny 2, that isn’t really going to work out.
And honestly, when do I ever, truly “hang out” with them when they don’t really play the games I like playing? Infact they’re bored with 7 Days to Die. So, why not just say to Kovo exactly when I feel like playing VRChat with Jero? And if he wants to play something
else, I will. That would be on his call. I just feel better doing it like this.
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2. A few nights ago I wanted to hang out with Jero in VRChat, but I wasn’t sure. Kovo later told me Jero was in the call and I hopped in.
Turned out, it was actually a good thing I didn’t join him in VRChat. He was streaming the game, and he was in one of those nightclubs. When I first started watching the stream he said there were 70 people in it. At its peak, 80. Geezus! Mibit also joined him. They asked me if I still wanted to join.
I looked at my computer and said…

Pretty sure its answer was a resounding “NO”. Can’t say I blame it.

Finally, so far in my life of playing VRChat I’ve now had two otters wanting to invite me to the main otter server. The second one came from one called ‘Spoon Head’ (or just
called ‘Spoon’ for short).

Anyway, yesterday I was trying out the ‘new features’ the (remaining) VRChat devs have added (that should’ve been added years ago). However the way they added them, only people that used mods for months on end would understand what they do. ..They aren’t exactly user friendly for people that never used them.
NOTE: There are some ‘VR Only’ features the below pictures do not show. So the images are mainly for Desktop users, that VR users can use too.

I’ll go over them one by one;

Top row used to be something I would only use for specific reasons. It essentially overwrites what instance type your homeworld will be when you log into your account. So say you don’t mind your friends joining you when you log in. You can set it to be a Friends only or Friends+ homeworld.
I typically keep it as Invite+ or Friends only.
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The one to the right is something I’ve personally never used (as I don’t mind others cloning any public avatar I’m using). But that’s basically it in a nutshell.
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The bottom one is something I’ve only used a few times. It’s for the assholes that drop a portal behind you (or you accidentally going through a portal a world creator had
placed) and you go to that world without knowing. Instead, it prompts you if you wish to go to ‘world here’, to help prevent you from accidental portals you didn’t tend to go through.
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Top two bars, as the name implies are performance helpers. Say you join a world
with 50+ people. You can adjust these bars to only show avatars that are around you instead of the game loading everyone’s avatars at the same time.
But I’ve got to say, I really like how they also have that second bar for you to say “ok, this world has an X amount of people. Hide them but don’t hide if it falls below this threshold.” …Chillout needs this feature. Like fuck, that would be SO useful in The Madcat.
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The ‘Limit Particles’ one helps with FPS.
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Finally, the feature most (except myself as I don’t really give a fuck how I look
in 4K) people have wanted for a long time; being able to adjust all mirrors to be a certain resolution. This is half performance and half personal taste. Now this also affects the personal mirror (yes, they added that too).
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Going to be honest here, I wasn’t sure the purpose this here served. But after being told what it does… I actually do feel Tupper felt sorry for the large number of people who are disabled, who play the game. While this doesn’t help the deaf, this helps people who cannot (or do not wish to) speak. People with broken mics, is a good example.
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This I never really used, but it’s mainly for people with really small avatars. It adjusts your viewpoint so you can see your hands better (if I’m right on that).
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Moving to the Volume/Mic settings, there’s two new features here.
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Best way to describe the new bar below the Mic Output Volume, is to ‘think Discord’. Just think Discord, because this is literally that feature.

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This is something that Chillout just can’t seem to get right. So it’s nice to have control over the falloff when you’re in a world with large crowds.
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Finally, we move to portal placing. There’s an unfinished feature.
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Now THIS is nice! Wish they had this a long time ago. Insanely useful in public or
even Friends+ instances when you want to have some.. uwu time with your partner, or to get a distressed friend out of the instance in order to better help them (and you don’t want anyone following you).
Hopefully they’ll get this working soon.

The only thing they haven’t added (that I hope they will), is a JoinNotifier feature. Chillout had this since Day 1. Come on VRChat! Add it!

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Biting the paraverbal bullet

Posted on 08-30-2022 by Benie

It was 4:30 in the morning when I tried to think of a title for this rather special blog
post, of …well, I guess going against my own morals in favor of my friends. Was quite tired and almost fell out of my chair.
Anyway, here’s all of the potential titles I was thinking of using;
“I just can’t fight this feeling anymooorrrrre! ..I forgot what I was fighting fooorrrrrrr!!”
And.. that’s it. I don’t remember the other ones as I was tired.
So what happened. I was telling Kovo how I was planning to come visit Jero and surprise him… but also not enjoying it. He offered me to come on Chillout instead. I went in with just my headset and hands (standard VR). Because no offense ABI Devs, but FBT calibration is a pain in the ass right now.
I assumed Nova was going to join us in Chillout, but she “wasn’t feeling good” according to him and was playing another game. Huh, this is rare to see you actually play another game than be with Nova. But Kovo was curious on what has been going on with Chillout, if there’s any new worlds. Never knew what his true intention was.
Visited the CVR port of Luminescent Ledge. Have to say, perfect 1:1 port from VRChat. Everything that is supposed to work, works. Also I saw one of the CVR modders
there, chilling. Was feeling bored (as usual) when Jusper joins us. He asks us if we would like to help him test a world, and I felt “we have nothing else to do, so sure”. He’s working on a Deathrun map, trying to get the first trap to sync properly with late-joiners but was never able to get it working right.
Kovo wanted to show off a prop he made but he couldn’t spawn it there. So Jusper took us to a world he ported in; the SteamVR Setup world thingy (where you set your playspace or place your headset on the floor to calibrate (for room scale or standing play)). So the prop that Kovo wanted to show off was invisible to us. It’s a chair that when you sit on it, you’ll start dancing. Basically, the makings of an MMD world. The music is local instead of global, and it clearly does not work for VR users.
Jusper then looks at me and asks “so, have you truly lost all the files to Furry Village?” I said “no. I still have the files from VRChat. I removed the ported version I had for Chillout.” He understood the hell I would be going through to re-port it all over again and offered to do it for me, which I gladly agreed.
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At this time I see Jero on VRChat and debated if I should just leave and ‘fight my demons’. It wasn’t until the second time we went to Luminescent Ledge when I really felt I had to go. When I saw Kovo leave the world without me, I assumed he left to go do something else. Hopped off, put my head down… and installed VRChat. I kept telling myself
I’m “doing this for my friends”. When the game was installed I launched it. EAC ‘wanted to make changes’ on my computer. For some odd (but cool) reason, clicking ‘No’ still launches the game. Huh. Did I just say “fuck you” to EAC installing itself on my computer? I hope I did. 😆
I kept getting pinged. Assuming it was Kovo, but I didn’t want to see it right now. All I wanted to do was joi– aaaaaaand he’s on Ask Me. Typical Jero. I felt I’ll never be able to see him. Sent him a few invites. I was also surprised I was.. back in here after everything that’s happened. My account didn’t get perma’d. I felt OK with the fact I was forced to remove all those mods I used. All I wanted to do was see Jero, and confront him
for this… this whatever it is that’s been eating at me.
Then I noticed him switching from Ask Me to Online, allowing me to join him. I kept my head down in shame, still couldn’t believe I was doing this. The world was the one with
the blanket fort (that you needed a small avatar or a working Playspace Mover).
Went down the stairs to it, where I bumped into Jero. I slightly waved, saying “hi” and “I’m here, for you. Are you surprised?” He was, but he wasn’t ready for what else I had to say when I leaned up and ‘fired off both barrels’ at him, saying I don’t enjoy having to come here just to see you. But as he talked, I felt my mind starting to finally relax after a month of feeling stressed. It felt great to finally confront him, to express myself.
Said he wasn’t trying to guilt trip me in coming back, and he’s sorry for making me feel this. “I completely understand you don’t want to come back on VRChat. But I just can’t come to Chillout” he said. The reason being was the UI. Said he just can’t be forced to learn it, and I told him I understand that.

He then gives me a proposition in coming on Chillout more often: get an Angel Dragon of his colors into Chillout, and about he “hates Unity”. I put my hands on his shoulders and said “hun, remember, I still have access to your VictonRoy model and textures. I can do it no problem.” He said his usual “thanks Benie”.
After that I no longer felt stressed. I felt happy. Checked my phone and.. saw what Kovo was messaging me. He came on Chillout so I wouldn’t be lonely. Wow, do I feel like an
ass. But he was happy for me that I was able to see my friends again.
Plus I got to see a few friends while I was there: Kat/Breezy/Blender/Novice/and Scooby. This was great. I felt quite silly I let my morals take over the way they did.
Oh, and I asked if VRChat removed movie worlds… apparently they didn’t.
Perhaps, maybe we were all wrong about this being a ‘corporate takeover’? Or their investors haven’t paid them enough to crack down on these. Still, interesting. Very interesting.
Finally I talked with Scooby, who isn’t bothered (at all) over EAC and stuff. He feels the mod devs were “too secretive”, which is why there was never a push to make them part
of VRChat. He also feels Tupper does care for the community, and he was trying to make up for the banning of legit mods (even though he claimed said mods “complicate the support and development of VRChat”).
I also find it interesting that Scooby does not believe in the whole ‘investors come first’ thing. Huh.
…Though will we ever know the true reason why they did what they did? Likely not, as
the VRChat dev team aren’t known for being transparent with their playerbase (what happened that day, proves it). And most people are done speculating on it and have learned to accept… but I’m not one of them.
Finally, his reasoning why he wants to stay in VRChat is the UI. “Everything is already set up for me” he says. Fair enough, man. Fair enough.

So, does this mean I’m going to come on VRChat more often? No. Once a week, is as far as I’m going to go. Maybe once every two weeks. Or once a month. It all depends on how I feel and if Jero is playing. But I’m so glad I was able to get all of this stress I’ve been feeling for over a month, off my chest. I’m glad, I don’t have to worry about “ugh I’m not there for my friends! They’re going to leave me!!” No. True friends won’t leave you over something like this. And I have a lot of them.
Still focused on Chillout though. That is my home now. And hopefully Jero is actually true to his word and will come on that platform more often, if I do what he wants.
…I just, I want to see movie worlds come to Chillout. I will likely be active a lot more often if this happens. The game just needs, more to do. More exciting worlds to visit, instead of just constant ‘chill with your friends’ worlds. They get boring FAST (to me).

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He misses us so much yet won’t come to Chillout

Posted on 08-29-2022 by Benie

Typing this while once again playing 7 Days to Die on my solo save. But one thing keeps rubbing me the wrong way that I can’t shake it off. And of course it’s more ‘Jero drama’. Though it’s more on him of what he one day seemed to be doing.
Five days ago, we were all in the call (most of us were playing 7 Days to Die on Jusper’s server for the first time since I gave Jusper the save to do so). Jero comes into the call and I’m trying to focus on the game, but see him and I’m all “Jero!!” (excited to see him as always). I don’t remember what he said or what we said, but what I do is him questioning himself if he “can stream this”. This grabbed my curiosity of just was so interesting he wanted to show us… and it was him in VRChat, trying to show off this otter
nightclub.
I tried to hold my opinion of what he was doing in there and tried to focus back on the game. Half of me really wished I didn’t click that stream, hearing him being snuggled by everyone. Then Kovo and Nova were called to go raid in Destiny 2, which they did. So it was me and Jusper (being on his save now). Mibit shows up and I hear them having fun there, which depresses me a bit (wishing I was there.. if it wasn’t for what happened that I don’t wish to go over ever again as I’m done discussing that). He then joins the call due to his mic not picking up things. Jusper at this point is starting to become annoyed
by ‘people joining the call and playing their game and talking while we’re playing ours’. I explained that they’re friends of mine.
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What really hurts my soul the most was later on, when I see Jero asleep while still streaming and looking at a mirror. It brought back fond memories of being with him when he did this, trying to get him to wake up and go to bed normally. ..Ugh DAMNIT, VRChat devs!! You fuckers are using Jero against me! Trying to guilt trip me in coming back to be with him! ..It’s not fucking fair!

The next day, Jero joins again. This time he doesn’t stream and just says “I miss you guys!” I said “I miss you too, but we’re staying in Chillout”. He says “I know I can’t force
you!” (sounding very upset and disappointed) then says it again, how he misses us so much. Then he talks about “coming home” and the rest I forgot what it was. But he left and didn’t come back.
And since then I just can’t stop thinking about it. I want him to just focus on Chillout more. But Chillout (as it stands now), just doesn’t have what he’s ‘looking for’. He’s into the night clubs, and any location that would have lots of people in it. And Chillout just doesn’t have that capacity right now. They never really did.
Plus Chillout… sucks without him being there. It keeps clouding my mind, and recently I swear I can almost hear him say to me “how long can you keep this up? You know you can’t handle life without me, and believe me it’s been very hard to live life without you. Look I don’t like what they did, but being without you is even worse. I am willing to live without mods for my friends. Why can’t you do the same for me? Just one time? I cannot be forced to join a platform I’m not used to.”
*sighs* Is it VRChat’s doing, or is it me? Just because one person stays out isn’t going to harm them. And I would only be doing it for my friends. That’s how most of my friends who still play VRChat, to this day, feel. That and they don’t care about everything that happened. There’s also those people who are all “ehh, whatever. VRChat always said mods are against their ToS. That’s why I’m still able to play.”
Jero also told me noone really talks about what happened anymore. So this is on me t
hen, and my stubbornness to understand ‘going back’ is the only way to show I’m willing to be there for my friends.. not for VRChat itself. The VRChat devs (as a whole) shouldn’t be the deciding factor if I’m able to see my friends. …That decision is mine and mine alone. The devs will never undo EAC, but it is good they are finally (even though it’s a bit
late)

He never actually said that, but I feel that’s how he feels. …I just, I want a guarantee if I do come back, I will not be crashed. And you know my opinion when it comes to avatar stealing. Infact, if you’re an avatar stealer who works for Ripperstore (or someone that ‘bought’ my avatar), you better not be prancing around in my Drex (like “lololol look what I did”) with my friends around. They will let me know, and you will have a bad time. Trust me. That is not a threat. ..So, think twice before you steal one of my avatars (or the avatar of one of my friends).
*clears throat* Sorry. I didn’t mean to scare anyone that has a kind heart and would never ever do such a thing. But yeah, I’m going to change course and actually “do it for my friends”. Who knows? I might enjoy it.

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The new RAM helped.. somewhat / Kovo got DDoS’d…!?

Posted on 08-24-2022 by Benie

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The new RAM helped.. somewhat
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Yesterday, Kovo wanted me to launch our old save in 7 Days to Die. The one with all the wooden spike traps, and spinning blades. Loading in at first, sure the framerate was a bit low (felt around 20-25’ish FPS). Worst part is, leaving the base and doing missions doesn’t help. Later someone told me it’s because the base is still loaded because there were people there, and my computer (since I’m hosting the server) loads what they see as well.
5-6 hours later, a few days after Day 35 (blood moon day), I’m on my motorcycle and the ground ahead of me wasn’t wanting to load for me.. yet again. By this time, Jusper joined us. And he told me that this is normal, that it’s not my computer choking to death.
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But what did was when I was randomly looting houses before Day 42 (the next blood moon). Could barely swing my machete at zombies with my computer constantly micro-freezing.. and a few times completely freezing up.
Looking at my resource monitor, my RAM usage was at 82% with 23 of 32GB being used. Fucking HELL. So much for thinking more RAM was going to help me! ..The hell is with this game and its insatiable appetite for memory usage?!?!

Before I went to bed, I had a thought that “what if Bisect supported this game”. And sure enough they DO. This is perfect! Hopefully they’ll be willing to work with me in the afternoon, so this will greatly lessen the strain on my computer’s resources.
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“Your plan was terminated”?! / Jusper the savior
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The afternoon came. After going through my typical day of being yelled at by my
mother (this time for choosing personal comfort by keeping the AC going to keep my computer cool.. over the cat’s overly sensitive health), I was finally able to go
onto BisectHosting and go into my budget accou–.. uhh. Password wrong?! Excuse me!? No it isn’t! I got it wrote down right here, in full!
So I tried to reset my password, and.. it claims there’s no account for this email address. What the HELL?!?! Okay, clearly they ended my account from inactivity. But does that mean I’m still paying monthly for my hosting plan? They better not be. Managed to submit a ticket. Somehow my main account is still here. But what the hell happened to my plan?! Where are my files?!
After giving them some required info (name, address, proof of last payment), they told me my hosting plan was terminated back in March, either from “non-payment” or “a cancellation request from you”. Okay, I believe ‘non-payment’ over the other. Likely not having enough money in the bank in March to pay for it.
“We can bring back your current plan if you want” the person told me. I told them I wanted to have a 7 Days to Die dedicated server. They said I’ll have to pick the plan.
I looked at these plans…

To me, Package 2 seemed to be the way to go. 64GB.. wait. 6144MB?? That’s not 64GB. That’s 6GB! I wanted a 64GB plan to make sure there would be no issues!
Their ‘highest’ plan (Package 4), is 12GB. Uhhh… NO?? This won’t do at all!
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Thankfully for me, after (earlier) announcing in our discord server that I’m going to be moving the saves over, Jusper spoke up offering to take care of the saves (for free). For a long time I didn’t like this idea, feeling if he’s responsible.. that means we have to wait for him to get on and launch. It took a bit longer until “…wait. Maybe what he meant is he has a dedicated server!! This will work!!”
I told him “if it’s dedicated, then sure”. And it is. 32GB RAM worth of it, and he’s willing to host it for free. Sold! Anything to make it easier on my computer!
All I needed to do was send the multiplayer saves to him, which I did (through this website). Arvixe will never know (and slap me with another ‘mass storage
abuse’ ticket). 😇
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Kovo got DDoS’d…!?
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A thing that is still ongoing, that I currently do not know who did this to him and why. But at least I know the ‘how’ (from Nova).
In my solo save after being told how I can get the Cobblestone Rocks I need to upgrade the wall around my base to Tier 2, I go out on my bicycle to the digging site. Kovo starts messaging me saying “I won’t be getting on the computer game tonight”. Yeah, I know. It’s new season time in Destiny 2. And that’s fine (what I told him). “No” he answers.
Huh. No Destiny 2? Who are you and what have you done with Kovo? He says “Apparently I’m being DDOS”.
…What?! Who the fuck would want to waste their time to DDoS a random person on the internet?! Especially Kovo of all people! He doesn’t know. I was in a call with Jusper at the time and told him. He felt that Kovo was likely overreacting, and it was just an issue with his router.
And then Nova messages me, giving proof. Said “someone got in his wifi that he didn’t recognize”. He tried to remove the intruder and assumed he broke something. But he’s unable to get on and has been in talks with his ISP. “He’s got a tech coming tomorrow to get it fixed”.
…DAMN! Poor Kovo! My only thought, this was either a random person who just enjoyed fucking with people, or a targeted attack to stop him from enjoying the new season. Jusper says he could try to turn off his router for an hour (if he uses a variable IP). I relayed this to Nova, and also told this directly to Kovo as well. But he said he already tried this when the attack started and it didn’t help. So he likely has a static IP.
His last message, says he’s going to get his bro over and “test his hotspot on the computer”. I assume this would all be done tomorrow.

I wish him all the luck, and God Speed of him getting back online. I don’t care if he
plays Destiny 2 until he’s blue in the face. At this point he deserves it.
EDIT: He got his internet connection back, and he (understandably) hates everyone on the planet right now. And he (sort of) knows who fucked with him; someone in his neighborhood. And it thankfully wasn’t a targeted attack. Probably someone outside in a black car with a laptop, finding an exploit to get into his router.
But now he’s back and all is good in the world.

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🎂 ‘Happy’ 46th Birthday, me… 😞/ Needed RAM upgrade / Where I’ve been

Posted on 08-20-2022 by Benie

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🎂 ‘Happy’ 46th Birthday, me… 😞
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Another year I survived the elements (and my bitchy mother). Yet all I see is I’m four years until I reach my 50’s, and according to my mother it’s when my health will go down the shitter. I don’t see myself reaching my 60’s. It’s just depressing, and it’s also perfectly normal to feel this way.
Yet, the child in me still enjoys being told “happy birthday!”, getting cake and pizza. That is what bugs me the most, that one day in the future my body is going to ‘reject my childish ways’ (like what happened to my mother, why she can’t really eat what I like eating without feeling sick).

So for now on I’m going to do what Jero does, and see my birthday ‘being another day’ and not mind it if noone cares. So, child at heart.. it’s time to grow the fuck up and stop being all “WOO BIRTHDAY!!!”. ..I’m too old for this.
Just feel I ‘don’t deserve’ all the nice things that happen. Not anymore. Yet my child at heart refused to listen and still was all “hey everyone, it’s MY BIRTHDAY!!
WOO PARTY!!! 🥳🥳🥳”
*facepalm* ..When am I going to grow out of this?! I don’t know anyone of my age that celebrates their birthday like this. Because usually (by my age) they have a car and can go to a pub and get wasted on their birthday with their IRL friends. That there is the birthday adults typically have– a day that’s unlike other day, to get away from their hectric life of waking up, getting dressed, driving to work, driving home, flopping in their bed and doing it all over again.
But me… my child at heart still thinks like a fucking 10-year-old. Refuses to grow up.

Basically I feel I ‘didn’t deserve’ everything that happened this day, like 10 people saying “happy birthday”/Bubba and Dusky coming into the call and singing the Happy Birthday song/getting a card from my Waffle House server…, especially from Bubba who wanted to make my birthday special. Well, you sure didn’t when Jusper told me you’re
the ‘dom’ in yourall’s mini-relationship, and then expected me to give you two a response of how I felt about it.
Honestly, just leave me alone and let me be depressed on my birthday. I’m not bothering you, so please don’t bother me.
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Needed RAM upgrade
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Finally moving away from the main thing, I did want to give myself a birthday present at least. Something I could use. And thankfully I found one, in the form of hosting a 7 Days to Die server for Kovo, Nova, Bubba and anyone else that wants to join.
What I didn’t realize when my computer was being choked to death after 4-5 hours of gameplay, is the game was taking almost all of my 16GB RAM. I have never, ever seen a game require this much RAM. Usually, most games are either CPU or GPU heavy.. but never RAM heavy. The last time I played a RAM heavy game was back when I
played The Sims Online.
So, I clearly needed to upgrade to 32GB. And thankfully (by the skin of the remaining teeth in my mouth), one seller had the RAM I need and in the frequency of my current RAM.. and they only had one of them left to sell. WOW. Am I lucky or what?!
Originally I had it set to arrive on the 20th, but they claimed it was going to arrive on the 19th instead. Yet it still came on the 20th.
Installation was the same as any RAM install. Just push the two levers down, align the RAM into the slot and apply ample pressure until it ‘locks’ itself in. Oh and be sure to get the direction right, as it’ll only go in one way.
Just… don’t do it like this guy. It hurts. Oh god it hurts.

That poor (ancient) Kingston 256MB RAM stick. 😬 It didn’t deserve such a beating.

Hello! 👋 Once again it’s been awhile since I’ve made a post. I’ve been mainly playing
on Chillout, and recently learned how to bring in JeroWorks 3.0 as a bunch of individual props.
Props to me are really going to make Chillout very interesting.

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The great divide that could tear up close friendships

Posted on 08-06-2022 by Benie

Ever feel so empty that you embrace death just to feel ‘something’? I’m sure a lot of you who have to work in this heat, day by day, week by week, feel the same thing.
For me though, this isn’t why I feel ‘dead’. It isn’t how one day I’ll have to be responsible for the cats and I don’t really feel 100% ready for this task (especially if they get sick). It’s more of.. a great divide of “what are my options” from the corporate takeover of VRChat.
Yes I said I wasn’t going to do anymore VRChat related posts, but this isn’t all related to that game.
When you’re faced with a choice of which one do you go to– Neos or ChilloutVR, most people take this choice as ‘who has the more lively playerbase’. And sadly, despite what has happened.. VRChat is still #1. And people who were against it, some are going back all because there’s just more people playing it.
At least this is how Jero sees it, which is the reason for this post. He’s willing to look beyond what happened to the game. All he cares about is ‘it has more players’. But not all of us care about being social. At least care to the point of desperation, to require social activity (before the crying clown shows up to make things worse.. totally not
a The Sims reference). I’ve always said I only played because of him and Kovo. But I cannot go against my morals.
Kovo however, he feels what has happened three years ago (aka the shitstorm of someone who cared more about protecting an avatar than friends), which caused a handful of friends to leave (and “noone cares for (him)”), he has nothing to lose by leaving VRChat. So he’s not the best person to ask for advice.

Jero wanted me to come back to VRChat, saying Neos and CVR are “ghost towns”. While that is technically true as they (combined) don’t even have the fraction of the playerbase that VRChat has, they still aren’t dead games. But this also makes me feel that I’ll never see him again if he chooses to stay in VRChat.
And this is what I mean by “the great divide”.. fighting my morals if to go back or not for my friends. Questioning myself if I ‘even deserve’ the friends I have if I’m not willing to go against my morals to be with them.
It’s very difficult, and it hurts so much… but I have to continue on the side of my morals instead of my friends. If it means friendships get destroyed, then they were never friends to begin with. As true friends would understand and try to join me on these other social VR platforms (CVR and Neos).

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My final VRChat based blog post / Moving to ChilloutVR

Posted on 08-03-2022 by Benie

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My final VRChat based blog post
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Some of you have been messaging me, asking how I feel with the shutdown of
the VRChat mod community. Time and time again I have referenced the blog post where I talked about what happened, with my full opinion. So I want to make the record straight here. This will be, my final VRChat based blog post.

The crazy thing about this entire shitshow is you can come up with multiple theories and most of them might have the chance to be true, such as mine saying the VRChat team always had a vendetta against mod creators. However ThrillSeeker’s latest video, his own theory and opinions (not fact), do help to shine some light on this. He feels investors are to blame and not the VRChat team, while you could say “the VRChat team didn’t have the balls to go against their investors”.
However, the last time I looked I never got a degree in what it means to run a successful business model. So I don’t label myself as an ‘expert’ on this. But the ones that have, seem to back up one of my theories. If this is true or not, I do not know. But, I feel that these investors are now starting to crack down as they aren’t getting enough from
the VRC+ money. And the VRChat team knows this well. They are not idiots, and I was wrong for saying they’re incompetent. They’ve been monitoring the situation for a very long time.
What happened this year, may’ve been a thing called ‘Audit Finding’. The company (aka VRChat Inc.) got an audit report that likely made the company panic. If it’s because the investors aren’t getting enough money back on their investment, I don’t know (as I said I’m no expert). But after it, the company made their game ‘investor-friendly’. This was a gamble they knew it would pay off at the end. I mean, so what if it caused a mass exodus of players from their game? So what if it left a bad reputation on the current playerbase? They’re big enough to ‘take the hit’, knowing they’ll get Meta Quest users to join (which is where the real money is for them).
The VRChat team, are not idiots. They knew what they were doing. They knew the risks and knew players who never used mods will still play (like a handful of my friends who still do). They (the remaining players) probably see this mass exodus as “welp, have fun with your DEAD social VR games!”
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And they’re probably laughing even more with the death of emmVRC’s attempt of doing a private VRChat server, which would had ran an earlier version of VRChat (before EAC was introduced).. getting slapped with a cease and desist letter (with a real threat of lawsuits against anyone in the US responsible with the project).
Also in that message, the VRChat team might be cracking down on avatars flagged
as NSFW content. All for the investors. ..Capitalism RULES, doesn’t it?!

And if you’re still harassing the VRChat team over this… stop. Stop the doxing and sending them death threats. I don’t like them either, but threatening their lives isn’t the way to go about doing this. By law, it’s illegal.
Best thing for you to do (as a VRChat user), is to try to convince your friends to leave the platform. And also if any one of your friends (and/or yourself) is paying
for VRChat+, cancel the subscription. The more  VRC+ subscriptions canceled, the less money they’re going to get from players.
This will be the only way to make them pay for what they’ve done.

The VRChat team has made it very clear, they’re not going to undo EAC. They have said this multiple times. Infact it would be even worse on VRChat’s part if they did, as they might be seen as “going back on their word” by their investors.
The game itself doesn’t need to die. The dev team needs to be replaced by people that actually care about player feedback, and take it over investor money.
Which is why, I’m officially moving to ChilloutVR as my ‘go to’ for a Social VR game.
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Moving to ChilloutVR
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Right now, all we as players can do is wait for ChilloutVR to complete their infrastructure rebuilding (which could take weeks from now). Once this is done and they’re fully ready to welcome in all of these players, let’s make it where the game gets as big if not have it surpass VRChat’s concurrent playerbase.
Plus, they welcome mods (and NSFW content)! They actually care about their playerbase instead of their investors!
But we all could be speaking too soon. Will one day in the future, 5-10 years from now, the devs just suddenly stop listening and completely reverse their promises? That is possible. Yet let’s pray it never happens.

As for me though… I don’t feel motivated (at ALL) to move my stuff over to CVR. Basically I fucked up. Had Kovo’s world and BTD 3.5 ported over during the Closed Alpha era, but I deleted the old Unity project folder thinking I’ll ‘never need it’.. but I forgot the files of these two things are there, and BTD 3.5 alone is having issues ingame. Somehow it
got ‘auto flagged’ for NSFW content, yet there’s no NSFW content there. And it refuses to load even though I have all content set to show.
A simple reupload might fix it… but without the files I can’t, and I don’t feel like doing that all over again. Same for the world.
But, if bored enough I will. I just need to know if Av3 Emulator would one day be compatible with CVR. Kind of a necessity for JeroWorks, especially if I’m able to port it over.
Only one thing I.. kind of like yet also don’t at the same time (that is new to me). So when you want to publish your avatar, you can’t just do it like you usually do in VRChat. You have to log into your Community Hub, and then file out a ticket and wait for them to check your upload to see if it’s against their TOS, before you’re allowed to upload it.
The added security to prevent crashers is good, but for people like me.. this feels bad. They might not allow me to upload JeroWorks because of the file size.
…And how is that going to work if you need to do edits to it?
All I can hope for is there’s variables to this bullshit which will allow you to upload similar to the way you do in VRChat, such as how long you’ve had your account, how much content you’ve uploaded (to be ‘trusted’), and/or if it’s an unlocked account.

…Because if I have to do this every. fucking. time (wait for big brother to
say “approved”) when I need to make changes to an avatar, I’m going to want
my $7.99 back for the unlocked account (or tell them to shove it up their ass if they refuse to give me a refund).
Can you really blame me? I don’t think so. You’d get pissed too with this
constant hand-holding just to make changes to your avatar. Don’t lie to me.

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My mother / Tupper is unhinged / “Are you our Uber?!” / The VRChat dev team got what they want..

Posted on 07-25-2022 by Benie

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My mother
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I don’t know how best to title this, of one hell of an emotional rollercoaster I went through today. My plan to take her up via Uber to the hospital, but she didn’t want me to do so. She wanted me to call an ambulance, and thankfully the person I talked to was understanding and got one here.
The EMS people talked to her and they felt what she was going through wasn’t an emergency, even saying they “could” take her up to the hospital. She hesitated, but said yes that she needed to get this looked at. And they walked her to the ambulance. Before she left she told me I had to feed the neighbor’s cat (since the neighbors hardly feed it).
So I’m losing my mind as suddenly my mother’s responsibilities.. are now mine. It was very hard to stay calm, but I managed to feed the cat, clean out the cat litter boxes, got the garbage wheeled back to the house, spent time with the cats, and after that everything started to fit in place, and I was able to relax. ..But it was 10 in the morning and I’m usually not up this early.
I called the hospital past noon time, thinking by now she’s there. They told me she was in the waiting room, and waiting for a bed. So I was under the assumption that it wasn’t an emergency, and felt she was going to be discharged this afternoon. Well I was half right.
Around 2pm I called again, and… they told me she was in the ER. My heart dropped when I heard this. Ontop of this the nurse told me she “couldn’t tell me anything over the
phone”, only thing she could give me was “she is here and she is stable”.
…I’m the responsible party. Why can’t they tell me?!?! Yet the nurse said “you are more than welcome to come visit her” which raised an eyebrow. Has COVID truly gotten a lot weaker since last year? And as much as I wish I could had come to visit, she told me to stay home and watch over the cats. …I had to get OUT of the house at that point, feeling super stressed out. Walked over to Rally’s to get me some comfort food.
This is when I started getting messages from Kovo, wanting to express his sympathy for what myself and my mother were going through. When I got back home I explained the entire situation.
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Tupper is unhinged
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This is when the shitshow with VRChat started. I was on my computer waiting my
time, waiting for the hospital to call me. Go to the VRCMG Discord to tell them the issue I’ve been happening with Scale Goes Brrr and Avatar Limbs Grabber I’ve been happening for awhile, when I noticed the official channels getting strangely active. There was
no VRChat update.. what’s going on? I was reading things like “all shit broken in 24 hours, blame vrchat team”. The fuck did I miss!?
Then I saw the news. Huh.. it’s an Open Beta. Why.. why would that break shit? I went over the update.

…Wait.



ARE. YOU. FUCKING. SERIOUS, TUPPER?!?!?!?! And apparently, they’re rushing this update to come in the next 24 hours. This is going to KILL VRChat!!!
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“Are you our Uber?!”
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However I had no time to really react as I got a phone call from the hospital. I braced for the worst, and was told she “was discharged from the ER” and asking me for a ride back
home. Holy fuck I was so happy, put my food in my mini fridge, and contacted Uber to get me up to the hospital.
Kovo kept messaging me about the whole ordeal with VRChat as I was riding up to the hospital. I focused on getting my mother back home first. …I was dropped off past the entrance (couldn’t believe this), and had to walk my way around the building. Didn’t know where the main visitor’s center was. Was approaching the emergency area when I noticed someone standing outside near the door. It was mother! Quickly walked over and she grabbed my hand. She can barely see and I had to walk her, and this presented a
problem.. as in where in the FUCK is the Uber driver?!
The Uber I had coming, it showed to go literally back to where they dropped me off. I couldn’t believe this, but I took my mother there. There was this white car that had stopped next to us that I assumed was our ride.. but it wasn’t. I looked at my phone and saw the Uber driver seemed like they were.. waiting right back where we started. So I tried to rush her back up to the parking lot. She almost fell down but I managed to keep her
upright.
Heading back to the parking lot, there were three cars here.. but only one of them was
our Uber driver. I was forced to ask every one of these drivers “are you Uber?”
…Finally, we found the Uber driver and thanked them for waiting for us. And so we made it back home safely.
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Waiting two hours for her prescriptions / My first negative Uber review given
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Fast forward to 5:30pm that day. She wanted me to get Uber to take me up to the drug store to get her prescriptions filled. It was 7pm when I went there as I wanted to get my dinner done first.
Went up to the drug store, the ride was uneventful. Easy 5 stars from me. Went in the building and up to the pharmacy. My mother gave me two cards for ID, incase they ask for it (plus her debit card to deal with the copay). But they didn’t need it. Said they had everything on file, so I was good. Very nice.
..And they said it would take two hours. Ok that hurts my soul, but.. whatever. Called my mother and told her after I sat down, then put my Airpods in my ears and listened to some music. She suddenly calls back and tells me to come home, as it’s going to get dark soon and she doesn’t want me to go in the dark.
Fair enough, fair enough. Got back up and told them I want the prescriptions back and would come back tomorrow. Got them no problem. Also I bought some batteries for my atomic clock (it’s showing the ‘LOW BATTERY’ symbol). Got another Uber.
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This one, wasn’t as nice as the last Uber driver. You know how the driver and passenger seats can be moved forward and back? The driver had her seat forward, but the passenger seat was against the back seat (which is where I usually sit). So I had to worm my body into their car. I told them how this is “a tight fit” and motioned how I’d like the seat to be moved forward, and they didn’t want to do it. Only “the area behind me is open”. Finally managed to get my feet in the car and close the door. I couldn’t move my left leg up to get behind them (it was stuck). So I was forced to hang on for dear life to get back home.
Managed to, and when I got in the house I gave them a bad review. Not to mention their car was very messy.
So that was my worst Uber experience, right there. But at least I can finally relax, and focus back on VRChat.
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The VRChat dev team got what they want, at a huge price..
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Fast forward to tomorrow afternoon. The worst VRChat update in history was scheduled to be pushed to live, but it took several hours. Multiple people said it “will be pushed back two days”… but at the end, it wasn’t the case. They had doubled down on their ‘promise’ to kill the fanbase (and their game).
Though what they have done has further reaching consequences. Most people do not use mods to make other players’ lives as miserable as possible. But some people use mods for a very specific purpose. And those people are the disabled. Ones that are deaf or blind who want to play VRChat just like anyone else. And it’s all been taken away from them.
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But let’s talk about this ‘EAC’ (‘Easy Anti-Cheat’) thing. It’s not going to stop crashers and avatar stealers.. infact it’s going to make them even more bold, as less than an hour after the main announcement, there was reports of multiple programs that can bypass EAC.
Whoever on the dev team assumed this was the best option against malicious
avatars, never really got in their game and saw exactly what was happening. But I
still (firmly) believe the VRChat devs always had a vendetta against mods as they
weren’t ‘getting that sweet VRC+ money’ from people who use mods.
There are also (confirmed) reports that EAC (the program) has been in trouble for
using anti-privacy practices (aka Spyware), plus it bogs down people’s computers (even ones with high end hardware).

If you want my opinion from all of this, I feel.. neutral. And no, not ‘neutral’ as sure the devs may’ve had the right idea and they fucked up. But this is more of a followup of what I said how I “wasn’t going to talk about VRChat anymore” in here. This entire shitstorm is definitely an exception, but I’ve still been sticking with what I said back then.
I don’t care, if VRChat dies. All I can say is “it was nice while it lasted”. Plus.. well I don’t have the same “NOOOO!! My friends!! I’ll never see them again!!” feelings as most people. Though that has to do with being a loner, and I don’t feel I should be ridiculed for not caring.
I never had true feelings for the game, compared to WoW back in the day when it came to that highly controversial EP that I don’t wish to talk about again. Back then I was raging at
Blizzard.
Now? There’s no point to rage at the VRChat team. There’s.. there’s just no fucking
point anymore!! …They never (truly) listened to their community when it came to avatar/account safety issues. And the moment they tried to actually do ‘something’ about it– it just feels authoritarian.
So this is why I feel I.. I lost the ability to feel when it comes to this, and I would rather just give the dev team one last “FUCK YOU FOR KILLING SUCH A GOOD GAME!!!!! BURN IN HELL, TUPPER!!!!!! 🤬🤬”, and move on. Crying about it ..isn’t going to help. Because the dev team are completely unhinged. They NEVER cared for their community!! NEVER!!
I’ve said this before: mods would not be needed if the devs actually allowed mod devs to work with them and implement these changes. I would’ve had no problem paying
for VRC+ if I saw this. To me, this would prove they ‘care’. ..The FUCK happened to all the money they were given from this shitty subscription-based service?! I always theorized they’ve been pocketing most of it.
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Light at the end of the tunnel
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But this should also be seen as a ‘good thing’ for players, as there are alternatives out there. Such as the two highly rumored ‘VRChat Killers’ (NeosVR and ChilloutVR). Though the devs of these games.. honestly should be given a huge raise in their pay (and a huge hug from me) for dealing with the extreme influx of players migrating to these
games (especially ChilloutVR which is like VRChat but with less features).
They were never ready for this many players!! This is both a good and a bad thing. It’s good when you want to see these ‘VRChat Killers’ actually do what they were rumored to do. But it’s bad… it’s bad this shit had to happen (and with very little warning).
The whole “no more SDK2.0” thing, at least there was plenty of warning to either convert your content to 3.0 or get help doing it, or go the route of Sayon and move all of your content to ChilloutVR. But this EAC shit…

Plus, I’m hearing rumors that ChilloutVR is actually saying “go ahead” to modders, even bringing some into their team to make the game better. The level of compassion if this is true, makes me want to tear up in joy.
I’ll gladly unlock my account and migrate my avatars into CVR if that’s the case. Though it’s going to be interesting taking a 3.0 avatar and downgrading it back to 2.0 (as CVR still uses the old system from VRChat I’ve been used to for years).
Might have to be stuck with BTD 3.5 instead when it comes to CVR, as it already is
a 2.0 avatar.

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