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🎂 ‘Happy’ 46th Birthday, me… 😞
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Another year I survived the elements (and my bitchy mother). Yet all I see is I’m four years until I reach my 50’s, and according to my mother it’s when my health will go down the shitter. I don’t see myself reaching my 60’s. It’s just depressing, and it’s also perfectly normal to feel this way.
Yet, the child in me still enjoys being told “happy birthday!”, getting cake and pizza. That is what bugs me the most, that one day in the future my body is going to ‘reject my childish ways’ (like what happened to my mother, why she can’t really eat what I like eating without feeling sick).
So for now on I’m going to do what Jero does, and see my birthday ‘being another day’ and not mind it if noone cares. So, child at heart.. it’s time to grow the fuck up and stop being all “WOO BIRTHDAY!!!”. ..I’m too old for this.
Just feel I ‘don’t deserve’ all the nice things that happen. Not anymore. Yet my child at heart refused to listen and still was all “hey everyone, it’s MY BIRTHDAY!!
WOO PARTY!!! 🥳🥳🥳”
*facepalm* ..When am I going to grow out of this?! I don’t know anyone of my age that celebrates their birthday like this. Because usually (by my age) they have a car and can go to a pub and get wasted on their birthday with their IRL friends. That there is the birthday adults typically have– a day that’s unlike other day, to get away from their hectric life of waking up, getting dressed, driving to work, driving home, flopping in their bed and doing it all over again.
But me… my child at heart still thinks like a fucking 10-year-old. Refuses to grow up.
Basically I feel I ‘didn’t deserve’ everything that happened this day, like 10 people saying “happy birthday”/Bubba and Dusky coming into the call and singing the Happy Birthday song/getting a card from my Waffle House server…, especially from Bubba who wanted to make my birthday special. Well, you sure didn’t when Jusper told me you’re
the ‘dom’ in yourall’s mini-relationship, and then expected me to give you two a response of how I felt about it.
Honestly, just leave me alone and let me be depressed on my birthday. I’m not bothering you, so please don’t bother me.
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Needed RAM upgrade
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Finally moving away from the main thing, I did want to give myself a birthday present at least. Something I could use. And thankfully I found one, in the form of hosting a 7 Days to Die server for Kovo, Nova, Bubba and anyone else that wants to join.
What I didn’t realize when my computer was being choked to death after 4-5 hours of gameplay, is the game was taking almost all of my 16GB RAM. I have never, ever seen a game require this much RAM. Usually, most games are either CPU or GPU heavy.. but never RAM heavy. The last time I played a RAM heavy game was back when I
played The Sims Online.
So, I clearly needed to upgrade to 32GB. And thankfully (by the skin of the remaining teeth in my mouth), one seller had the RAM I need and in the frequency of my current RAM.. and they only had one of them left to sell. WOW. Am I lucky or what?!
Originally I had it set to arrive on the 20th, but they claimed it was going to arrive on the 19th instead. Yet it still came on the 20th.
Installation was the same as any RAM install. Just push the two levers down, align the RAM into the slot and apply ample pressure until it ‘locks’ itself in. Oh and be sure to get the direction right, as it’ll only go in one way.
Just… don’t do it like this guy. It hurts. Oh god it hurts.
That poor (ancient) Kingston 256MB RAM stick. 😬 It didn’t deserve such a beating.
Hello! 👋 Once again it’s been awhile since I’ve made a post. I’ve been mainly playing
on Chillout, and recently learned how to bring in JeroWorks 3.0 as a bunch of individual props.
Props to me are really going to make Chillout very interesting.