Benie's General Blog

Another slow day. Most of the day was just to myself, working on that blog post and just overall chilling. But I’ve also off and on been thinking about what MIBIT said. It was so blunt, so “alright hun alright if this is what you want then it shall be done”.
He didn’t even try asking me “why do you not want to change your life? You have the opportunity of a lifetime to be happy and you want to throw all of that away and leave me sad and depressed when you die a horrible death for not wanting to do anything for me?” Half of me feels that yeah “that is what I wanted to see”, but the other half feels quite depressed… almost feeling I’m either guilt tripping myself or he’s doing that.
Only thing I can think of is, to only let that get to me if/when I ever do meet him IRL. I just keep being bothered when he said he “wanted to train me” to do pushups. That’s not being forced to change, that was offering to help. And I turned it down. ..I didn’t even give him a chance.
Maybe just maybe, if/when I ever do meet him IRL.. he might be the one that could finally undo decades of being too stubborn to change for the better. I don’t even know why I feel this around MIBIT that I didn’t when it came to Wolfdog. Just, something about him that I can’t put my finger on. And I don’t want to say what might be, that would likely ruin it.
Nah. I wanna enjoy the rest of my life on this planet with him. He is really special in my life.
Anyway, I’ve said enough. Let’s start this off!
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Trying to remember
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As I said I was doing my own thing. And honestly I can’t even remember what I was doing for some reason. Mind’s a blank. I dunno why.
Ohh.. actually, I do remember asking Jero why he logged out after sending him an invite to chill when MIBIT was offline at the time. Said he was having “a really bad fever and headache”. A friend of his took him into a world with “extremely bright lights with the bloom overpowering so badly I started to feel nauseous”.. hmm. Maybe that club world MIBIT was in?
Then said his Stepmum was going to drop off a COVID-19 test to make sure he’s OK. Hmm. Going by what he told me, I doubt he has it. Probably has that “elliptic
seizures” thing most games warn you about at the beginning. Ahh, poor thing. 🙁
He feels it’s “the common cold”. Nah. Going by those symptoms, you just need to stay away from worlds like that. Then again I don’t know the full story of this.
But I do love how he said “I’ll be back online before you know it”.
I wanted to laugh as that’s a classic Jero response if I ever did see one, where he always finds something else than to keep his promises. But I get that I shouldn’t. “What if you’re wrong and you might never see him again?!” ..I doubt that. I feel he’ll be OK. Jero isn’t someone that takes unnecessary risks. Plus I did tell him “hopefully you’ll be OK” before he said that, so I am praying of a speedy recovery for him. 🙂 I just feel he’ll be good. He’s been through hell and back. He’ll bounce back.
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The next thing remember is asking Klaus for the world that concert which happened on my birthday, as it was supposed to happen again tonight. He gave me the name of it and I told MIBIT we could play Sea of Thieves and then VRChat after.
He said me if we could play SoT Saturday, as he’s going to be doing sports and needs to do this and that to be ready. I was alright with that.
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*’Drool’ emoji here*
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Finally, I did a funny. I was looking around in Steam and came across this..


Myst.. on Steam? 🤤 I remembered Cyan Worlds saying something about this several months ago, about the game coming out on the Switch. Checked it out.. my jaw dropped of the HD graphics, remembering what they looked like in the past.

My mind’s thinking “ok.. is it possible to get every. single. Myst game ever made with these graphics?”
Gaben says..


AND it’s on sale!! 😍

So now I have realMYST, Myst: Masterpiece Edition, Myst 2, Myst 3, Myst 4, Myst 5 and Myst: Uru. So I have three Myst games I haven’t played yet (Myst 4, 5 and Uru). I’ve played Uru Live with angry, years ago. But to have the singleplayer version? HELL YEAH!!
And they’re all remastered with HD graphics. No more need for a CD or some wonky way with Windows to get the videos to play in the original Myst. They even have the old point and click controls like in the past. Mmm.
Well, now I can’t make fun of Kovo anymore of him simping to Destiny 2, because now I have simped to Cyan Worlds. lol
But I honestly I did this for my father. Now myself and his spirit can enjoy what really got me into PC gaming. He never had a good PC anymore that could play the old Myst
games, and now he can “use” mine. Looked at the pictures of the Masterpiece Edition of Myst and can see the classic graphics. Just updated 11 years in the future from its initial release back in 2000. Yet the game’s been out for 25 years, which makes sense.
So that means the game’s been out since 1995, which makes even more sense. Not 2000. So uh.. huh? Whatever, I have it. All it matters. 👍
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MIBIT’s learning Udon
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Now then, it’s time for our feature presentation of what I was originally going to talk about in here, then I started remembering certain parts.
Finally in VRChat after letting Steam update a bunch of games. Saw Melancholy on. Usually when he’s on he’s testing a world, but I sent him an invite anyway. Never received one, but I did get one from MIBIT, from a new world.. with a very.. funny name. He misspelled his own name to “Mipit” in the world title. So now his name will forever
be ‘Mipit’. 😂
Got in. ..Very nice. Said this is his first world in Udon. Wow. Wish I got pictures. Basically it’s a house-like thing. Multiple floors. But honestly I shouldn’t be surprised, as he claims he’s pretty damn good at world building. Says he removed all of his other worlds in Unity and forced himself to learn Udon. ..Well, that’s definitely one way to do it! He added that it was getting confusing which version of Unity he was in. Ehh, doesn’t affect me. I know where most of my avatar work is.
I then told him about the name of the world, and he lost his shit laughing uncontrollably. Can just imagine EXGAMING seeing that name and say “well now you’ll have to change your name to “MIPIT””, and he just kept laughing.
Ahh.. alright hun, alright. It isn’t that funny. Relax. He did. Later he tells me he’s
learning Udon to make some worlds for friends… and for us; our own private world. Oooh. Can’t wait to see what that looks like. 😉
This world even has a bed, that he may or may not had made it even more.. white. 🥰 Heh.
It was past 11pm when we were done. Searched for the name Klaus gave me and noticed there were no instances in that world.. huh? They did say “every Friday at 11pm”, right?
I looked up HoppingMad, and saw she had “At someone’s birthday.” listed as her status.
I asked Klaus if he knew what was going on. He.. of all people wasn’t acting at all surprised by this. Thought he’d be the one trying to invite us there.
I also (as a joke) snarkily replied using HoppingMad’s status with “I wish she was
at my birthday last Friday.” Thankfully he knew I was joking and never stated the
obvious.
Suddenly he’s asking me to join him, saying he got an avatar he’s really proud of.
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Bad memories
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Joined him in a world I swore I would never come back to.. for this is the world I remember meeting Grok in. I just happened to turn around and see… where he was playing those Arma 2 videos. I tried so hard to just focus on what Klaus was telling me.
Told him I have very bad memories of this world. I still remember Grok creepily following me when I was looking around for Wolfdog. While those memories happened about a month ago, they are still as fresh as if it was yesterday. *deeply sighs* I still feel bad
for Wolfdog, of him being kicked out of The Pack because of.. me. Even though he claimed it wasn’t my fault.
But, seeing MIBIT here, I wanted to get new (better) memories in my head. Even Blender joined us, and he showed off his latest work.. and holy fuck it’s so funny! And
then MIBIT felt he had to show off his work that honestly noone never really asked for. After that Blender showed off his channel’s trailer then had to leave as someone wanted to talk to him. Orion’s there and asked me if I ever heard of ‘Swedish Rock’ and showed me a sample. I said “honestly, Rock and Roll is Rock and Roll”, and trying to make it clear to both him and MIBIT that “I don’t really care about who sings it or how it was made, I just like the beat”.. aka, hun you don’t have to explain how you made your music when we’re listening to it, like when a beat’s about to hit and what it’s called. Noone asked to
know.
And MIBIT’s all “oh well if you want rock I’ll give you rock.. after this video’s over”. My mind feels “hun, please don’t embarrass me infront of my friends”. ..And that is exactly what he did when he plays screamer music. Orion’s all “this isn’t music, it’s just people screaming!” MIBIT laughs at him. Orion leaves sometime after, DMing me with his opinion on the music. I agreed with him, and that’s all that was said about it.
Now Melancholy’s in a joinable world.
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#Melan’sShenanigans
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I really, really wanted to go up to Melan ASAP and tell him “hey, the one I’m dating sometimes acts like we’re official by saying ‘back off he’s mine’, so uh watch out for that.” But I didn’t have time to even open up my mouth about it when MIBIT joins. Instead I waited for Melan to get far enough away to explain it to MIBIT. So I was still successful in explaining it. NapPie joins later, having some trouble with his headset.
We head to a few other worlds, two of them are cooking worlds where Melan can’t really help much as he’s in desktop. Then one time I saw MIBIT not moving.. him falling asleep in VR. Uh-uh!! MIBIT, go to bed normally! No sleeping in VR.
He does, thankfully. Told him I loved him and he said the same. Gave him a goodnight kiss and he hopped off.
Join another world, this one is a deceiving game. Blender was with me and even Kovo joined. And Melan was doing his Melan things. Such as one time where Kovo said he’s going to “kick my ass” over something I said to him, I ran over to Melan who was playing and said “so Kovo wants to kick my ass, you wanna get in on that action?”

The reaction I got out of Kovo was priceless when Melan came running full speed towards him! Ohh lord.
He did get me back a bit later, when Melan was like “spit on my ass daddy!!” to Kovo. He was visibly confused and I explained what Melan was talking about. Suddenly Kovo turns it around to “geeze Benie, you act like you’ve done that before!!” ..Only to MIBIT, not to Melan. 😛 And he wasn’t helping my case, agreeing with Kovo.
..How dare you betray your own brother!! lol

I’ll give you that victory, Kovo. Well done. I couldn’t get myself out of that. So, lol.
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…Might have to deal with Garath / Kovo sends his regards
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With just myself, Klaus and Kovo left in the world, Kovo asked us if we wanted to play
the “ghost game” as they’ve updated it majorly. Most of the ghosts now require a new tool to spot them, plus two new ghosts. And retexturing of all tools. It doesn’t look like the same game as it did before.
Had to take an Alka-Seltzer as my stomach was killing me. Plus my track belt was too tight around it. Took care of both and Kovo hopped off to join a call one of Klaus’ friends made.
Klaus on the other hand was happily bitch slapping me. I told him to get in the call and get off but he said he was waiting for someone to join him. But I just the last slap in and hopped off, then said “I’m switching out of VR”.
When I got my headphones on, I hear Klaus screaming my name and asked him “did you not hear me when I said I’m switching out of VR?” he said no, but said “someone’s here to see you, that demands your presence”. I asked “who” and he said “Garath”… really? The fuck does he want NOW?! I fixed the fucking world!
So I DM Garath myself and ask him “is the world fixed now?” ..No response, yet he’s demanding I get back on for no reason. I ask Klaus why does he want me on, and he said he wanted to hang with me. ..He was trying to pull me away from MIBIT several times.
I’m ‘this’ close from blocking him, but I know for a fact he’s going to go after Kovo and any other of my friends he can, demanding to know why I did. Then again.. honestly I’ll have people on my side that would block him too if he annoys them enough.
I’ve tolerated this guy for far too long.
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Now for Phasmophobia. Kovo has an issue now that he can’t pull out his journal anymore in VR. Not sure as to why, but I saw the proof right infront of me. Might be a new bug
with WindowsMR, yet according to the official discord it should still be working. He even had one of Klaus’ friends who was watching through my eyes (aka game streaming), trying to help him out. It’s so weird.
But anyway, we played with the new tool; the ‘D.O.T.S. Projector’. Some ghosts have been changed around to require this tool as evidence. There’s even a new ghost that requires you to look through a camera.. manually, and catch said ghost going through the projector. EESH.
4:30am came. Kovo went to bed. Was just me and Klaus. Both of us went in, up the stairs. I’m going on the balcony.. the ghost begins to hunt. I’m hearing humming in my ears and I’m trying not to scream, quickly darting into a room and closing the door as quick as I could. Klaus is nearly up the stairs and I hear him say “oh shit!!” The humming and lights stop flickering and I open the door. I see the silhouette of the ghost disappearing infront of me and Klaus’s dead body on the stairs.

Back to the van I go! 😂 I wanted to bust out laughing at Klaus, that Kovo got his revenge.
If only Kovo actually did that instead of me, the revenge would had been even more bittersweet. 🙂

What a slow Thursday. Possibly the slowest night I remember since getting in this unofficial relationship with MIBIT. But at least I can say Garath’s off my back (for now).
I also can’t help but think about this future MIBIT has for us, like he’s so confident it’s going to work out. I… wish I had this same confidence. Because if I did, I would had been happy to make this official. I love MIBIT, quite a lot. But I feel nervous.
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World issues fixed
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At least when it comes to Unity, there’s not much to be nervous about (outside of bricking your favorite avatar or world you put so much effort int0). So anyway, today we agreed to play Chapter 3’s tall tale. But I wanted to focus on getting Furry Village fixed.
I tried what I said I was going to do, put a test mirror in the world. Yet I also noticed the main mirror (in Unity) was rendering perfectly. ..The fuck? Well this doesn’t make sense! It’s broken ingame yet it works fine in Unity…? I did an offline test (no VR mode) and got ingame. Got to the mirror, no issues whatsoever.

VRChat, are you trolling me right now? This was NOT what I saw when I was in VR! 😲 So are you telling me, it’s.. working fine in desktop, yet not in VR? THE FUCK?! ..HOW?!?! Garath is in desktop and he saw the issue!

I tried re-uploading again, assuming maybe placing the test mirror.. fixed it somehow? It even works without the test mirror. After uploading and got ingame (in desktop)..
Mirror rendering go BRRRRRT!!


Ok, so.. clearly something’s getting fucked up when I upload the world. So that means the world itself is fine. Either I need to update Unity, the SDK, or both. I chose both (to be on the safe side), but waiting ’till after dinner to do so.
After dinner, I.. well, I never went gung ho on fixing the problem. I didn’t think it would even work. But, I used Unity Hub to download the correct Unity 2019 LTS that VRChat currently uses (‘2029.4.29f1’ by the way for anyone who’s curious), and got the latest version of the SDK 2.0. Made a new project and imported the SDK.
UI looks different. Not really a fan of the ‘dark mode’ but maybe I’ll get used to it with time. Began transferring the entirety of all Kovo’s files (including mine) of the world to the new project. This took.. 20 minutes. Fuckin’ hell. Plus for some strange reason it was bitching about files being replaced.. even though that shouldn’t be happening with a new project. Told it to just go on and replace, praying I didn’t just fuck the world by doing
that.
Finally with the scene file opened, I did a sweep and noticed nothing missing. Looks good.
Then I tried to do an offline test, and this popped up.

…”Setup .. LAYERS”?! Uhhh.. I am using SDK 2.0, right? Yes. So..

Explain yourself, VRChat!! But, I just went on and clicked it.

I love how ‘Do it!’ doesn’t have a “you have no choice” as an asterisk. Did the same thing for the other, and as of now nothing seems broken, so that’s good.. I hope!
Testing passed, the world still works. Now to upload. Cross your fingers and hope the world doesn’t die.
Got in and..


Problem FIXED!! 😀 Now Garath can leave me the fuck alone about fixing the world.
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Slow night
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It was about 10pm when I said to MIBIT “alright hun, I’m ready to get on.” He said how he too bought an avatar and figured out he had the wrong Unity version. Sounds similar
to EXGAMING’s issue the other day. And when I asked him if he knows EXGAMING fixed his avatar, he’s acting like I was talking about him instead of the other one. I get confused not knowing what the hell he’s talking about, and he clarifies what he said. Said he hasn’t seen EX (he never even asked him). Okay then, well I’m hopping on myself.
Went to join a friend. They’re busy talking to someone, then I went to Furry Village to make sure the issue doesn’t happen in VR. No issues there either. …But I’m noticing another issue. Teleporter doors need to be fixed.. badly. Even the one of my ‘house’ is broken. Way to go, VRChat!! Giving me more fucking work I have to do! … But to be fair of how old the world is, gotta be surprised it’s survived this long. Was made back in Unity 2017, and now it’s 2019. So it survived 3-4 versions of Unity and is still ticking! That is impressive.
Looks like those bandaids Kovo placed in the world before, are still holding up.
RedJoker joined me, just standing there staring at me creepily while I’m messaging someone. MIBIT joins sometime after. So essentially I’m now killing two birds with one stone here of finally showing him the world I talked about a week ago.. except he’s already been here before. Huh.
Besides Raymond showing up, nothing much happened. I kept checking my friends lists constantly, praying something would happen. So I decided to get a little frisky as to have something to do, and we went back to MIBIT’s homeworld. He has this leopard Rexalum now that somehow seems to be triggering a phantom touch-like feeling in my arms and chest, where I can’t stop hugging it as it looks/feels.. so warm. He looks so fuzzy with this avatar and OML I wanted to hug and squeeze him so bad.
Anyway, not much more to talk about here.
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Not sure why MIBIT feels so confident
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So I’ve been thinking about this entire thing, of what should’ve just been another one night stand with someone and we are now friends (with benefits), then suddenly it’s like I have
a BF all over again as if I’ve learned nothing from what I went through with Wolfdog.
That couldn’t be any farther from the truth. But.. I dunno.
Since we’re dating, why does it still feel official? Him feeling he has to make changes for me. Him wanting to spend every waking moment with me. Shouldn’t that only be a thing when it’s official? I mean, I don’t mind spending time with him. He’s my cuddle buddy. He’s my.. *cough*.. that other kind of buddy that has to do with 18+ activities.
Well, to be fair, I never dated anyone that was in my timezone before. They were always an hour to three hours behind me (or 6 hours ahead like Jero is). So this is a first.
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I just, a quarter of me feels this isn’t really going to work as we don’t have much in common. He’s into heavy metal music, dance clubs, samurais, and staying fit as part of his training. And I’m… yeah. I’m not really into anything instead of trying not to die in a video game.
Today he told me he “has to teach me how to do pushups”, after I bumped my head IRL trying to get down on the floor to attempt one in full body. “I can do 40 without breaking a sweat” he said. Well good on you hun.. not everyone is physically fit. And I fear (and
for ‘good’ reason) he’s going to force me to be more healthy in order to make this relationship work. And this is where I have to draw the line of what I will and won’t
do.. even if it’s for my own good. Wolfdog accepted this, with him being even more overweight than I am. I need to see if MIBIT will as well, and tell myself to stop
being ‘scared’ to do so.
One reason I don’t, is taking what I say and assuming I’m saying something else. It’s
his ADHD causing it, and man does he got it bad.
I’ve heard of lots of people having this, but I’ve never experienced it from someone I’m dating. It’s annoying, but I know he doesn’t mean to act like this. Deep down he’s warm hearted and doesn’t want his heart broken again. I have no intention of doing that. Like, I want this to work out between us. There is so, so much I love about him.
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But he also reminds me of how he feels “a year from now at least” we’ll meet eachother IRL, and have sex in a hotel room as likely his family isn’t going to appreciate it (just like they didn’t appreciate his IRL GF moving in with him, because she’s bi).
But anyway, …..uhhh. I don’t wanna think that far? I dunno what the hell is gonna happen in the future, only that I’m pretty sure I’m not going to have a long and prosperous life left with the way I treat myself (and having no desire to change it for the better)?
I’m ‘glad’ you see good stuff for us, but.. I do not, and this is something I dunno how to explain to him, that my mother’s still alive and how I need to stay here for her and she needs to stay here for me… plus the cats. I can’t just leave her to be with someone I love so I can have a one night stand IRL with them.
Might have to ask Frost about it, as this is a very difficult thing to explain. Especially the fact he has ADHD and might turn my words in a different way.
*sighs* Also, let’s say I… haven’t, fully gotten over my.. erm, disgust over watching two guys kiss and do it. I’m not against gay or bi people at all.. I just, eww at times. I’m hoping that I can ease into this new feeling of kissing a guy and enjoying it, to get over this fear in my head that it’s “not normal”.

*sighs* But anyway, I do need to tell him. I definitely need to before we make this official.

A day of more PTSD from Sea of Thieves, but not what you’d expect. And more antics in VRChat. Plus a world that somehow killed my sound.
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“We’re so SCREWED!!” -Me
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With what I told MIBIT what I wanted to say about how I “need more time” and how he needs to stop feeling so restricted with timetables, we didn’t play Sea of Thieves until 8pm. Mainly because;
1. I was having those conversations.
2. We couldn’t play anyway at the normal time as MIBIT suddenly had to eat at 5 instead of my time.
3. Doordash fucked up by not understanding I wanted an order done on Friday.. instead they’re doing it now. Plus they got my burger wrong and I had to wait for that shit.

So we finally played at 8. This time we gathered from barrels instead of buying the stuff from the alliance merchant. I was checking the map in our Sloop and..

Hello red flag!! Told MIBIT to wait, since this guy would be right here with us by going our standard path to the blue beam (far to the west). This took nearly an hour of continuing to load our ship while watching the position of this hostile ship. One time the ship seemed like it had run into a rock or something, sitting there but occasionally spinning itself around as if it was looking for something or being attacked by another ship.
Us looking both at the map, I said “if we go south, and then go around that island, and then turn SW to W, we should be far south enough to clear that asshole.” He liked the idea and we finally set sail.
Another time… it POOF’d. No more hostile ship. Either they sunk, the crew logged out, or they switched their flag to not draw attention to themselves anymore (possibly/or to trick people).
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We reach the island and make our turn, continuing to go south. I see a storm near where the blue beam is. MIBIT thankfully understands about them and knows how to stay away from the core of them. Suddenly, battle music begins to play. A skeleton ship emerges on our starboard side. I’m all “What the HELL?! WHY!! Emergent skeleton ships only show up if you have a lot of treasure onboard!!” MIBIT tries to keep the ship steady while I ready the starboard cannon.
We manage to sink it without too much damage to our ship. Tell MIBIT to look for the debris, but not seeing it anywhere.
5 minutes later… more battle music. This time it’s a fucking GALLEON skeleton ship on our port side! Ohh fuck, we are so screwed!! It opens fire with a cannonball volley, turning our ship into swiss cheese. I quickly run below deck to repair the hull and bail out the water, my mouse hand shaking from the adrenaline rush. I go back up top.. and I’m seeing another Galleon skeleton ship on our starboard side. So we have TWO Galleon skeleton ships attacking us!!
I yell to MIBIT to man the cannons while I try to keep this poor boat from sinking, trying to keep myself focused on that task. We run into a rock, but I don’t care much. I’m only trying to keep us from sinking. ..Then somehow, the two Galleon skeleton ships suddenly change course and leave us. My nerves are still shot from the experience. I
ask MIBIT “what the hell happened?!” he says “we were being calm instead of freaking the fuck out”.. speak for yourself!! He chuckles.
More battle music plays. We’re not moving and I’m frantically looking all over the ship trying to figure out who wants to cause me to have a mini heart attack, but we see nothing coming our way. I try to collect my thoughts and say “let’s just get to that blue beam. I don’t want to be out here anymore”. He understands my fear of dying in a game.

As we’re heading towards the beam, I look behind me (was up at the crow’s nest at the time searching for any player ships on the horizon), I see that cloud ship in the sky.
…OHHHHH!!! So that’s what happened! We accidentally drifted into the battle area! I do remember something on the lines of ‘Battle for the Sea of Thieves!’ showing up on my screen before that first skeleton ship showed up, and noticing its sail was different than what I had encountered solo after doing Chapter 3. So that wasn’t a true emergent skeleton ship. Got it! Now it makes sense!
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For the rest of the adventure (outside of seeing ghost ships happily swimming around to our South as we approach the blue beam).

We had no issues doing Chapter 2. No players this time, and were able to complete it. 🙂 Err I wouldn’t completely say “no issues”, as MIBIT had the key to access the Chest of Everlasting Sorrow. But he acts like a lemming and follows me as I get myself stuck and auto-teleported to unglitch myself, and loses the key.
Mmm. Honestly, good thing. He’ll likely be all “Ooh rare treasure! Let’s bring it onboard the ship!”.. like I was when I played the chapter with Wolfdog (not knowing it can sink ships by filling them up with water, and there’s no OFF button).
Made it back to an outpost safely. Despite that very scary encounter with the two Galleon skeleton ships, we somehow survived as MIBIT was being calm. Thankful, as I couldn’t.
Both of us were pretty much ready for VRChat at that time.
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“You never bought an avatar? What?!”
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Was still in the call with MIBIT as I was strapping on my trackers. He said Sparky is trying to invite him to that 90’s bar, and knows it crashes me due to its post processing effects (or something, I still don’t fully know). So he tells Sparky and the two meet there.
I finally get everything on, including my new USB Type C charger cables for the
controllers (got today from Amazon). They work surprisingly well. Very happy. The longer distance allows me to calibrate while keeping them plugged in. Very awesome. Now I don’t have to worry about them not having enough charge to get me through the night.
Got in and did my initial calibration, then joined MIBIT. Sparky and EXGAMING were both here. MIBIT said EXGAMING bought a new avatar and is trying to upload it. But since this is the first time he’s ever used Unity.. hoo boy.
I would had named this section to something more relatable to that, but you’ll see why I chose this one (with time). Anyway, MIBIT and myself both tried to guide him. He didn’t know he had to get the SDK (or even the fact he needed to have it installed before the avatar).
Yet from everything we told him, he couldn’t figure out what was wrong with it. It had a bunch of missing scripts, so I suggested he’d do a clean install of the avatar, giving him a protip of how to find what files are what using the .unitypackage file.
Decided to ask him what avatar he bought. Forgot the name, but we started talking about avatar stuff. I said how “I never bought a single avatar”. EXGAMING looked at me in shock, asking “you never bought an avatar?” MIBIT said “nope, he made this” (pointing at mine). Uhh.. no? Explained where I got it and how I had help to customize it in Blender.
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Finally, he found the issue– he was using Unity 2019 and the avatar was still using Unity 2018. Ohh dear lord. Talk about false advertisement. Not to mention, the avatar claimed it was “remade for SDK 3.0”.. yet it still uses 2.0.

He paid $40 for it. lol. Why pay when I’m happy with BTD 3.5?
Said he would fix it later, him starting to get really tired and went to bed, leaving us
alone.
Though I wasn’t really in the mood at the time (thinking someone else would want to see us) until a bit later.. and sure enough as we were doing it, RedJoker wanted to see me. But I ignored it until we were done. Tried to accept the invite but it’s like VRChat wasn’t allowing it to push through. Was weird. MIBIT said it’s because the instance is invite only. Riiight, that makes sense. Anyway, I was bored and wanted to go see some friends. Saw Inari was on and wanted to say hi.
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Helping a streamer / A world kills my sound
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We arrived in the world. Quite a lot of people here. Didn’t realize why until later. There are two people that were streaming.. thank fuck I didn’t have my *beep* out. One of them suddenly tells everyone they’re looking for two people that will follow them to beat their BF in a bet. Inari ran over to me and MIBIT asking us if we could follow the person.
I didn’t feel interested in helping at the time, as I don’t care for streamers (I only care for Youtube videos, as they aren’t 2-3 hours long and it just gets boring). But I felt “ugh.. fine fine, if it would only get you off my back! Geezus.”
So I tried to log into my highly inactive Twitch account to follow this person. And Twitch was being a pain in my ass.. didn’t want to remember my username and password, so I used the way I do it. And then it was all “ohh, you haven’t logged in for awhile! Please type in (number by number) the six digit security code sent to your email!”

COME ON, Twitch!! I’m just trying to help a streamer!! So I painstakingly copy and
paste every. single. god damn number in the boxes and FINALLY fucking log in!
MIBIT followed the person and the person’s all “one more, chat! Just one more!” And I’m frantically looking around for the damn Follow button on their Twitch page.
..And uhh. For some very odd reason, I’m already following them?? The hell? I’ve never even met this person, let alone ever remember following them! Thankfully for them someone else follows them and they win the bet. I’m happy. 🙂
They head off, leaving only one streamer left. I also remember Spitfire arriving in the world and nearly everyone there (except for myself and one other person) runs over to him and says “look at the cutie!!” lmao. That’s what he fucking gets for saying he’s not cute.
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Oh, and there was also another time when someone was at my crotch height and MIBIT was there with me, and he was all “hey back off he’s mine. He’s my boyfriend” (referring to me). *clears throat* Ohh MIBIT, we need to talk. And I reminded him of what I said earlier today. He was sorry for saying it and “I will not do that again”. I sighed and
said “you’re fine hun, but I did tell you I’m not ready yet”. He said he forgot, and I told him I understood and gave him a big kiss. He was happy after that.
And finally.. Novice showed up! “Perfect!! Now I can explain what I meant better!” I thought. Eventually found him and tried to motion for him to meet me upstairs so we can talk privately. It took him awhile but he did. And as I was heading up.. *BRRT
BRRT!!* went VRChat, D/Cing on me. It did this twice. Fucking desync issues.
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The second time when I came back, I noticed I wasn’t hearing anyone speaking after Kovo ran in and started patting our heads and ran back out. Noticed I couldn’t hear him. I asked Novice if he was speaking. He nodded yes.
I could hear their avatars, but not anything else.
So I closed out VRChat, thinking that’s all I needed to do… and I noticed I couldn’t even hear the sound SteamVR makes when switching monitors. So somehow either the world or VRChat itself, broke SteamVR’s sounds. HOW?! Plus, VRChat was taking forever to shut down.
I was forced to get up and restart SteamVR, and that fixed it. Got back ingame. Novice was gone and MIBIT ran up to me, asking what happened. Explained the situation and he assumed I had to do a restart of my computer. No, but thankfully that wasn’t needed.
I focused my attention to Novice, explaining the situation to him as well. I half expected him to explain why he arrived in the world, but said he too crashed and was coming back on.
MIBIT wanted to cuddle me. I had to say “I need to speak to Novice in private, alright?” He understood. I was hoping to just go on and speak to Novice in here but… mmm. There was a good reason, as how loud he was when he spoke. Plus he was in full body, and lagging. So I said “we can go to your homeworld and talk about this, since you’re
lagging” and I didn’t want anyone to hear him talk about something so.. personal to him.
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“Thank you, Benie.” -Novice
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Told MIBIT that I was going to leave and talk to Novice in private, that “it won’t be long”. It uh.. it was longer than expected. *cough cough that’s what she said* Let’s just say I didn’t fully expect it.
I more expected him to be a bit harsh on me, feeling I was “being untrue” to MIBIT by even thinking about what he said to me. But thankfully that didn’t happen.
Before I explained myself, I wanted Novice to have time to fix his defiant full body tracking that was giving him hell suddenly. And then I explained the situation of what is the definition of an ‘unofficial’ relationship, and why he misunderstood it. He was definitely confused, but more of how I tried to explain it in the DM I sent him in discord. So I did my best to clarify what I meant, and he thanked me for doing so.
He said the reason why he showed up was mainly to see a few people and then hop off as it was pretty late for him.
Now I didn’t think about this at first, but now I am. If that was his only reason, why was he in full body?

Hmmm. Usually he only gets in full body when he feels.. frisky. So uh, don’t lie to me Novice.
I know why you showed up.

…don’t you Novice? And he’s like “well, I have time for a quickie.”

Knew it! I know you too well for you to come on in full body just to visit people. Unless he actually was doing that. I dunno. Who knows.
All I’m going to say is he said he “needed that”. And he said “Thank you, Benie.” *smiles* I told him “whenever you’re in the mood, let me know. I love doing it with you.” He said his classic “Yyyeeee..” in a happy, relaxed tone before hopping off.

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Footnote time! While we were doing our quickie, Garath took this time to mass invite me again to Mystery Skulls, even going as far as calling me in discord. I ignored every single attempt he made at pulling me away. When Novice logged off for the night, I then switched to the SFW version of my avatar and went into the world. The horrible lag I got the day before was gone, but the mirrors are still broken.
Well fuck. Then pulled up what Garath was trying to tell me and he was begging me to fix it. Still feeling a bit worn out from the quickie I did my best to type in: “I did upload it, but yeah the mirrors are still broken. I’ll look into it tomorrow. Hopefully I can fix it.”
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Back in the previous world (which had less people in it), I went over to Kovo and explained the issue with the world. He suggested to delete the mirrors and replace them. Good idea.
I’ll place a mirror in the world and see if the bug happens. If it doesn’t then clearly the mirrors are broken. But if it still does… ohh dear.

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“I found a glitch!” -MIBIT / A Griefer’s Life
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Typically we’d (myself and MIBIT) would be playing Sea of Thieves around either 3 or 4pm (what time I usually wanna do it). This time it was 4pm as MIBIT’s brother came over to see him. It actually happened around 4:22pm when he was ready.
This time we wanted to do Chapter 2, keeping the promise not to invite Sparky (no offense to him).
Got everything ready for the journey. A quarter in, it was becoming dark and I noticed another Sloop to my WNW that looked like it was hiding behind an island. It started moving after we passed it, going our course and matching our speed… which had me a bit nervous. MIBIT suggested if we should load the cannons and I told him to wait on that unless the ship suddenly turned toward us.
Then the fogbank develops as we get closer to the blue swirling light. I’m hoping this keeps the other ship from seeing us. We got to the light with no other issues, and head down to the bottom. Pretty uneventful, standard thing. I teach MIBIT how to easily solve the siren trident puzzle and we get to when you gotta fight the sirens for the first time.
As I’m fighting them, MIBIT tells me he “found a glitch” that somehow brought him back to the ship. Said he tried to re-enter the room and got teleported back, leaving me to kill the sirens and I died.
When I came back, the sirens were gone. ..I am feeling a bit annoyed at MIBIT for finding this bug. Half of feels he did this delibertly to spite me, but I kept it to myself for obvious reasons. Like.. why in the fuck did he try to go back in there?! The doors are blocked for a reason! But.. he didn’t know. This is his first time. Told myself to calm the fuck down about it. ….Until he says “we can do this tomorrow” “UGH.. why is it
always ‘tomorrow’ with you?! The fuck! Just get down here!” I wanted to say but obviously didn’t. Instead I asked in a much more calm “why do it tomorrow? Why can’t we try this now?” manner. He explained why I wasn’t focused on (at all); him wanted me to have time to eat dinner and we could do it later. Hmmm. I was more annoyed not being able to do the encounter.
I said “well, this might not be bugged afterall” as I spotted another siren (but it wasn’t attacking me for some reason).
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I died again. When I got to the Ferry I noticed another player with me. ..Huh. That’s odd. He never bothered looking at me to say hi, just kept looking away. I assumed he likely died somewhere else and didn’t really think much of it. Came back and tried to hunt down more sirens. As I was chasing one down I saw someone with a gray name. ..The fuck?? What’s another player doing he– the fucker kills me before I could say anything.

My anger (shown above) after that…
OKAY, ASSHOLE!! I didn’t do SHIT to you, and THAT PISSED ME OFF!!! I respawned back, my anger boiling over wanting this griefing asshole dead. “COME HERE YOU FUCKER!!!” I yelled though my mic, chasing his ass down and killing him.
The FUCK did I do to you?! I ended up dying to another siren. Around this time MIBIT unbugged himself and was able to assist me. And now there’s two of them. I yelled at them through the game audio and the other one kills me.
We ended up spawn camping these assholes, myself thinking this is the only way to teach them a lesson of what happens when you grief people. They stopped showing up after
the 7th or 8th respawn. MIBIT noticed this but I wasn’t willing to let down my guard. He convinced me that they learned their lesson and we can go back to questing.
As I’m swimming back, I suddenly have a bad thought. “..They likely sunk our ship. That’s why they haven’t come back!” I tell him, still extremely annoyed by all of this. This slightly eats at me to the point I feel “ugh, just fuck this. We’ll head back and do it another time.”
We go over to the siren statue, MIBIT clicks on it first and I wait for him to tell me what happened. He says “yep, we’re on an island”. …Fuck. I once again am just as mad as I was before as I click on the statue.
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We show up on a deserted island. ..Hoo boy did they piss off the wrong dragon. Our ship was perfectly fine, but all the stuff I bought from our journey was gone. All of that money spent was either stolen or now at the bottom of the sea.
Ok, Rare. I get you. You wanted an authentic pirate game, a pirate game where you have to watch your back as there are liars and cheaters everywhere. A pirate game where your ship will likely be sunk and there’s nothing you can do about it.
But, shouldn’t there come a time when this kind of behavior, of GRIEFING two people who were just mining their own DAMN BUSINESS, trying to enjoy your story content and I’m not allowed to report their asses because this is “intended behavior”?! You are
now, scum in my book.
BUT.. we will try this again tomorrow. And only on the chance of this was “a very, VERY rare incident” and “it will not happen again”. …It better fucking not, as this is the last straw for me. I mean it. I don’t care too much about the wasted gold. ..The fact the developer of this game ALLOWS THIS HORSESHIT as a way to ‘back’ their “HURRRR it’s a pirate game!!”, I extremely do care about (where I want to punch each and every single dev that came up with the idea of NOT having PvP be an option instead of forced.. in the dick).
Huh, a punch to the dick. That’s how your PvP feels to people like me and my BF trying to enjoy your non-PvP content!! Does it feel GOOD?! HUH?! Feels great to have all of that effort sunk to the bottom of the sea, doesn’t it?!
Tell Jack Sparrow to get someone else that cares who will save the precious ‘Sea of Thieves’. More like ‘Sea of GRIEFERS’!!
I had asked in the SoT discord what the hell happened, if the other players showing up was a bug caused by MIBIT not understanding how the encounter works. All they told me
was Chapters 1 and 3 are instanced, via the portal. And that didn’t help to defuse my anger. They didn’t even say “you can report them”. Nah, as long as it doesn’t involve using god tier weapons or god mode it’s OK to Rare, and I’m just a wimpy cry baby that can’t handle it (in their satanic minds). Rare is truly the spawn of Satan for creating this game, and anyone that dares to complain about it is put on a cross and sacrificed to the Reddit gods.
Maybe I’m going a bit overboard (or maybe not enough).
..Though I’m taking a day off to collect my thoughts before we head back out there again. But this is the last time I’m playing if it happens again (unless they finally have PvP as an option, which isn’t going to happen). You know why? ..Very few would actually play it, as
it “takes the fun out of griefing”.
They could had done a similar thing to GTA5, to auto-flag you for PvP if you attack another player (even like Fallout 76 does). That’s one thing I’m glad Bethesda did, to keep the peace. But nah.. “ARR!! PIRATE game! PIRATE rules! KILL OR BE KILLED!! ARRR!!”
And this is why Ninjas are superiorly better. 😛 They would cut down these pirates, with stealth.
Ninjas > Pirates any day.
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“The ending felt a bit disappointing”
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Still feeling pissed of what happened, I didn’t get done with my dinner until 8pm when I finally calmed down. I didn’t wanna eat dinner. I wanted to choke a pig that
had Rare’s logo crudely taped on its forehead, and scream out “YEAH, SQUEAL PIGGY!! FEEL MY ANGER!!” and then have my BF pull me away saying “hun it’s not worth it! We’ll get this done, I believe in us” and then kiss me.
That’s not exactly what happened, but I could feel MIBIT understood my frustration enough for me to focus on eating. But I didn’t hop on VRChat until 9pm. I was talking to Jero instead if he would be interested in joining us for that horror world. Seemed to but never really gave me an ETA on when he’d be on.
I joined MIBIT in a new world. He’s been doing research for me looking for a new homeworld with a bed and seats on it (that he can lay down on, where we can have fun).
We waited for Jero to join us. MIBIT suggested I let him(Jero) know we’re in and we’re waiting, so I did. No response. Waited longer, and longer. I checked again.. saw him in the call with Kovo and Dusky (them playing Destiny 2 as usual). Said to MIBIT “I don’t think Jero’s going to come. We might as well go”. I felt annoyed how Jero seemed interested and now he’s doing this. Nice to see some old habits of his, haven’t changed.
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We do Chapter 4 and complete it, completing the entire horror world. …Huh. So all you do after you defeat the boss, you leave the house (without your suitcase) and that’s it.
How disappointing of you, Sayon. I expected a more satisfying ending (such as the boss coming back as if a ‘Part 2’ is in the works). However it has achievements, with one indicating Sayon expects you to do all four chapters in one run.
It’s definitely doable (if you speedrun it). And we also never figured out what all of the cookies were for. :/
Still feeling annoyed ‘that’s it’, I thought of my options and then remembered the map I tried to do a long time ago and never did; Sad Amelia. I used MIBIT as a beacon to light my way down these very dark corridors. He even told me something I wasn’t aware, that you can look down and see where you’re going. So that’s cool.
There was also this one part where… the controls were inverted as we were upside down. OML how much I now hate this section!! So left is right, right is left. And up is down. ARGH!
It ended without a satisfying ending, only Amelia explaining to the player why she’s so sad. Meh. So, I decided to say “let’s see the rest of Vket 6 before it ends”.
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Checking out Vket 6 (again) / Vket 7 date(s) revealed
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We started checking out the remaining Vket 6 worlds. Sure enough from what Nit found before, they did it differently this time. There was only 6 worlds that ended on my birthday and now we’re seeing the other 6.
Saw an ‘alternative’ version of a world I’ve been to before (different booths, that’s
it.. disappointing from Vket 3).

…And then Inari shows up.

We ‘speedran’ the booths, looking at everything as quick as we can.
But..

Inari catches up to us…

And Inari’s all (to me)…

Ohh lord. Eventually I do stop and totally didn’t lie to him when he asks “why were you running from me?” by saying “because it’s fun”. MIBIT actually told him the truth, but thankfully Inari didn’t take offense to it, and he stopped bugging us with the song(s). Thank you. 🙂
So it was myself, MIBIT, Inari, and a friend of mine (and his); Ravenclaw1998 (that I met through Wolfdog), and we checked out the rest of Vket’s worlds.
After some time Inari went to bed, and Ravenclaw left shortly after. I’m starting to get bored as there was no longer any cool worlds. Also greatly disappointed.. no dragons whatsoever. COME ON, Vket!! If this one’s based off of world festivals, where’s the Chinese New Year with the dragons?! The FUCK!!
Overall, I feel 6 is only slightly better than 5 (mainly for the themes, the train, the Core world, and the realistic marketplaces). They had some pretty good ones this time.. just a complete lack of Chinese dragons.

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Finally, in the Downtown Tokyo world, I came across a poster revealing the dates of a future Vket;

So Vket 7 happens between December 4th to the 18th and signups start the date Vket 6 ends. And also notice it’s not called ‘Virtual Market 7’, but ‘Virtual Market 2021’. 🤔 Hmm… interesting. Maybe it’s a reboot, to bring back a lot of old favorites from
previous Virtual Markets? I hope so.
With both of us getting bored and MIBBIT getting tired quite fast, I thought of chilling with friends. But not just any friend. Novice, who happened to be on last night.
MIBIT was yawning his head off, and I told him “promise me you’ll take off your headset and get to bed if you fall asleep in VR, OK? I don’t want what happened to you the night before.”
He promised it and I told him I loved him, and he said the same thing back in a very sleepy way.
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Oops, I fell asleep in VR again!
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Joined Novice who was in a world with 25 people. Oof. So many that I went around searching for him. Eventually found him in his small Ice Cream Hopkin avatar.
Some time passed of Novice talking with his friends while MIBIT and I snuggled infront of a mirror. The lag was getting to him and he told us “I’m going to head to my homeworld.”
I said “we could join if you want”. Said he didn’t mind. Took awhile until I finally got an invite after he left.
So we’re in his chosen homeworld, just chatting about random stuff like mirrors and how some worlds make you work for it. I kept being interrupted when wanting to state how I remember that climbing world tells you to go up the tower in order to reach the mirror. Novice said he didn’t know that world even had one. I said how I remember there’s a tent with a ‘mirror’ in there and a button, and it tells you to scale the rock wall. Heh. By the time you get up there your arms would be screaming in agony to even click the button for the mirror.
The conversation then goes to avatars, him showing off his ‘tiny Novice’ avatar. I tell him how MIBIT’s looking for an avatar with a proper sitting animation. But when I ask MIBIT to explain it… he’s not responding. *facepalm*
MIBIT, you better not be asleep!! He wakes up and lies to me, saying he was never asleep. Riiiiight. For him to prove this, I ask him if he heard what I was talking about. He said no.
Yeah you’re tired. Go to bed. But he refused and fell asleep again. This time he wouldn’t wake up.
…Ohh MIBIT. Why do you do this to yourself? And also, HOW in the hell are you so tired this early? It’s 2:30 in the morning and you’re already asleep? Are you sure you’re feeling OK?
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Fantasying
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Since MIBIT was fast asleep, I went over to Novice and we talked about some more personal things. He’s telling me how he’s discovered he likes people sitting on his face.
For security reasons I won’t be saying the rest of what he said about this person, but I’m glad he’s happy. It makes me quite happy he found someone to ‘replace’ me since I have a BF now.
He then lowers his voice, wanting to confess something to me. Says he “fantasizes ERPing with (me)” but didn’t want to say anything as he knows I’d be cheating on MIBIT if I allowed this (even though it’s not official. Not yet). I was happy he bought this up to my attention and how sweet it was. But… oof. Infact before he went to bed later on that
morning, he told me he actually got a bit horny thinking about it. But rambling on helped to remove it. He knows it’s wrong to think of it but he can’t get it out of his head. It’s adorable but.. you know, not good too. Because I got to stay true to MIBIT. At least it’s aware of it and is trying to stop himself, instead of being the opposite and begging me for ERP.
But as for my true opinion on the matter, I was worried MIBIT might hear me and take it the wrong way. I wanted to move away and talk to Novice in a more secured area, but I was also worried he(MIBIT) would suddenly move and go to find me when I’m in the middle of explaining myself to Novice. So I took a gamble and told Novice, praying MIBIT wouldn’t hear me.
After Novice said “I apologize for bringing this up”, I said “it’s alright Novice. It’s nothing for you to feel ashamed of… because I feel this too. I loved our ERP sessions. They were wild”, smiling at him as I finished my words.
I then turned to MIBIT and said (incase he actually was listening): “but I have a
cute, handsome BF now that loves to do it with me. He’s also a switch and there was a time I had to remind him I’m a top” in order to express any remaining intact loyalty he might feel he has for me.
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Some time later, MIBIT suddenly wakes up on his own and says “right, I’m going to bed now.” Went over to him and gave him a kiss and told him I loved him. I’m not absolutely sure if he said he loved me too, only that I remember asking Novice of how to pronounce his name. Then he left. I kept thinking about him not saying “love you too” all
morning, more focused on it instead of what Novice told me about him fantasizing of me that way. Told myself “he probably did say it, you likely weren’t fully listening. Just don’t worry about it until tomorrow”.
But.. wow. Seem to really have something that makes people want the D, don’t I? Too bad it doesn’t work on women. Meh. :/ Oh well.

Can’t stop thinking about it though. Oh and I’m happy to say MIBIT wasn’t listening to me or Novice about that. So I don’t have to worry now. Thank goodness.
But.. mmm. What.. even.. IS the definition of an “unofficial” relationship, anyway? And am I still OK to “see other people” at this time?

I have until September 7th to decide to make it official. This will be a month since we started, and it’s when MIBIT starts working. He needs to know his hours to see when he’ll be able to have time to snuggle with me in VRChat, and prays they won’t mess up this relationship (which sadly did when I dated Jero). He doesn’t believe there would be a problem though.
Gonna try to ask Frost about this, as Jero suggested (yes I talked to him about it, and then some). Hopefully he’ll be able to clear up the confusion in my mind.
Though… mmm… I wish Novice never brought this up to me. It’s cute that he still has that desire, but.. yeah, he knows it’s wrong too. But, shouldn’t that only be when it’s official?
That’s why I dunno, but I don’t wanna do anything that could jeopardize this relationship. I love MIBIT to bits!
There was also this thing with Novice that happened sometime after MIBIT left, of him not regretting the breakup. Again it wasn’t me(at all) that caused it to end. I was fine. He again feels he just cannot commit to any relationship like this (fearing he won’t have enough time to be with them). And I told him how it hurt.. a lot, but I got over it and we’re still close friends.. and it’s still a God given miracle Jero and I are friends again. I’ll talk about this in the next blog post.

Yesterday was CDC Blender’s birthday. Yes, my birthday ends when his begins. Freaky huh? But it isn’t the first time I’ve had a friend with a birthday the very next day after mine. I just sadly can’t remember their name.
Anyway, I had a pretty good day today.
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“Let’s not bring Sparky this time. No offense..” -Me
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Played Sea of Thieves after I ate dinner. Would had played earlier, but Sparky was having issues with his internet connection. I wanted to redo Chapter 1’s Tall Tale for him (and told him this before we got ingame).
We took the Brigantine (3 player ship) and set sail for the green portal. I wanted Sparky to man one of the sails and he ends up manning the sail I’m manning.
We make it to where you get off the ship and head in. I tell MIBIT to let Sparky do most of the puzzles. He’s running around the first puzzle, and I ask him “do you want a hint?” He says “I’ll figure this out” and I let him do so. But one time I’m starting to get annoyed with how long he’s taking to solve something and do the same ‘hot, cold’ game I did with MIBIT to help him. He gets a bit annoyed with me saying “I thought you said you’ll let me figure this out on my own”.
“I am” I said, totally not lying. We get to the main area and I said “Alright Sparky, I’ll let you solve this entire thing, just as you want it.” He manages to get some of it… until we get to finding the treasure chest for Poor Dougie. This is when my patience was really starting to get tested. Even MIBIT was losing his patience. Sparky was so. close to getting to the spot the treasure’s at. I tried to tell him how close he was, but he wouldn’t respond. We could hear him, but he refused to talk to us.
20 minutes go by. I’m now at my limit and ask MIBIT “should I go on and help him?” he said “yeah”. Started digging up the treasure. Sparky comes running over and sees it but says nothing. Finally he speaks to us, but not in the way of “ahh.. so here it is!” I was really annoyed asking him “why didn’t you respond?? You were so close to it!”
“I was focused! I say nothing when I’m focused!” he answers. Oy. Could’ve still said something instead of acting like you were ignoring us.
We bring the treasure to Poor Dougie, and typically you’re supposed to use the same key to open a certain locked door to get treasure. Somehow, Sparky lost the key when we got to the locked door. And I was not happy, at all.
EDITOR’S NOTE: Can’t believe I forgot what Poor Dougie’s treasure was for. This was not Sparky’s fault at all. *facepalm* ..It was mine. But, not a huge deal. At least it wasn’t bugged. Just wish Sparky asked “so what I do with this coin?” and it would’ve hit me.
We got to the lighthouse. After the Cursed Captain told the “cowardly curs” to allow
access, Sparky lost him by accident. The level of “OMG Sparky why are you doing this..” in my mind when I heard him say “where did the captain go?!”. Thankfully the captain didn’t get bugged out, or I would’ve been furious at that point.
Sparky literally did the rest, outside of using the rowboat to reach the Ferry. Both MIBIT and Sparky were fighting over who drives it, and MIBIT ‘won’. But I ended up doing it myself as MIBIT wasn’t used to going in reverse.
We got to the Ferry, and Sparky started mounting AFK after AFK. My lord. Finally he came back and we continued. Then came the combat scene. MIBIT specifically said he would man the cannons. Then Sparky later said “cover me! Everyone cover me! I got the cannons!” …The fuck.
Finally it was over. What typically would had taken myself an hour… took three. Yes, three hours to complete that, because of Sparky. And on top of that as we’re getting ready to leave the chapter, Sparky has to leave.
So we’re 2-manning a 3-man boat. MIBIT is driving and I’m trying to control both sails. We’re heading back to the outpost and I see a mast infront of us. We’re heading almost full speed. I’m trying to cut the sails and we start to get attacked by a Sloop that we’re heading right for.. at full speed. Thankfully we were able to get everything under control and stopped.
The person in the Sloop started moving over to us as both me and MIBIT were swimming to shore, trying to show we mean no harm. They ask “tgm?” MIBIT assumes ‘Team Deathmatch” and tells them no, and I said “let’s just get off before they come over here”.
We went to VRChat afterwards. MIBIT wants to do Chapter 2 tomorrow, but we both agreed not to bring Sparky… no offense to him, but we do NOT have that kind of patience.
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Celebrating Blender’s birthday / A Gray hair in Blender’s birthday
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A two parter here. Originally I thought of continuing that horror map that night but MIBIT was in a private world and CEC Blender was in a joinable world. So I went to see him to wish him a Happy Birthday. It was a club themed world that you can dance to the music. Lots of people here.. and the number was increasing at a slow pace.
We’re hanging out with Blender, not really much to say. Random person came up to us and started talking sweet things to Blender, as if he knew him most of his life (either that or the guy’s drunk AF. More than likely that).
I noticed Novice was on. Thought of joining him, but he was in a world with 35 people in it! *coughs* Yeah.. no.
Time goes on. Blender starts talking about “I’m recovering” …huh? We’re noticing he’s lagging like crazy and he goes to do something else. I see a glimpse of something behind me and turn around. There’s a large Hopkin showing off their full body, dancing happily to the music. There’s also a mirror infront of them that me and MIBIT cuddle infront of.
We’re discussing what’s going on with Blender. I check my player list and notice 28 people are in here.. now it’s 35 and increasing. I also notice the red FPS of Blender. Holy fuck he’s in the teens!!
MIBIT suggests we head somewhere else. I suggest my homeworld and I go there. He joins me and I lay down on the bed there, us cuddling and kissing. Send Blender an invite, but it takes him 45 minutes until finally joining us. First thing he says is “my PC hates me, E!”
Poor Blender. He couldn’t do anything with that horrendous framerate.
He wants to use the video player in my homeworld to show off some of his CEC videos. But there’s something very wrong with the video player’s audio. We decide to go to the Room of the Rain instead to watch it, once again me lying down and Blender lying down with me.
An hour passes, people start joining the instance.
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One of them had a very familiar name. GreyTheWolf. He says nothing and leaves 30 seconds later. I decided to ask “so which one has Grey as their friend?” MIBIT didn’t hear me but Blender asked “who, Grey? Yeah I have him as a friend”.
I say “let’s just say he’s one of my EXes”. MIBIT says “I bet that was a bit awkward”. I
said “…yeah” I corrected myself saying “he’s more of an ex-friend”. They didn’t ask anything more about it, only MIBIT and Blender wanting to show off their work. Appreciate this, because I didn’t wanna talk about it.
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Later on MIBIT says to me “you know I still have those cans of beer I was going to drink on your birthday. I’m going to drink them.” Feeling a bit horny at the time, I said “heh
yeah, we can do what we couldn’t do yesterday.” So he started drinking, and I laughed everytime he suddenly blurted out “BEER!!” and drank a can.
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A drunk MIBIT
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More people joined the instance…. including Inari. Both myself and MIBBIT said

He comes up to me and says as I’m still laying on my back: “Hey Benie. Is that song still stuck in your head?” “..Fuck you!! 😂” is my response. lol
And then he starts playing it on the video player (and singing it to us)…

MIBIT is still drinking, starting to get buzzed at this point. Inari tries to lighten the mood to make the song less of an annoyance. I’m standing up as I noticed my hip tracker was a bit messed up. Time passes and now MIBIT is officially drunk. Also Novice joined. Hoo boy. But this time I felt happy to be with MIBIT. He was doing what I wanted Wolfdog to do (who didn’t).
Then one time MIBIT fell asleep while drunk. He had gotten up, was standing up in bed still snoring, then he moves into a corner and turns into a pretzel.


I asked “how can someone fall asleep while drunk?” They all laughed, as in “this is perfectly normal.” Can’t remember what was said afterward. A lot happened that day.
One time I made the mistake of saying “you know Inari, the song ‘this song gonna get stuck instead your head’ was more stuck in my head than ‘It’s a small world’.”
Inari’s all “Ohh. Well if that’s the case…” and played it. And then I said “I found a 10 hour version. Dear god.” …He played it too. Why in the fuck DID I SAY THAT?!? FUCK!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!

Somehow, this caused MIBIT to briefly wake up. I ran over to him and said “MIBIT, are you there??” and I could had sworn his response was “This song is gonna get stuck inside your heeeeaaaddd..” before falling asleep again, as if he was dreaming. Wanted to laugh hard but I didn’t.
He finally became awake sometime later, but moaning as in he’s having a hangover. I hugged him tightly and assured him I wasn’t going to leave his side and we’ll get through his drunken time together. He was really happy to hear that.
I eventually decided to get him to a private instance, to help him relax from all of this chaos.
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Storytelling & “You’re my boyfriend now” -MIBIT
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Another two parter, but the final one.
We had a good time, and wow did I get tired from it (but in a really good way). Let’s just say I gave him the good stuff that helped him get sober. I think back of all the times Nova got drunk and wanted to do it with Kovo (right then and there).
So anyway, I decided to tell him a tale of doubts, a tale of someone who I thought loved me but never truly showed it until the second time we dated. …You know who I’m talking about. I don’t even have to mention the name. And if you don’t, you should when I say how the name starts with a ‘J’.
It was the first time I was able to start and complete it without saying “I’ll continue this story later” and then completely forgetting about it. But now he knows about you know who that is now my friend. Though IMO, didn’t really like when I was really getting into the story and he interrupts me, explaining something similar that happened in his
life, and most of it he’s already told me before (mainly about his GF).
Look MIBIT I’m sorry about what happened with your former GF. But please don’t interrupt me, thanks. 🙂
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Can’t fully remember what happened later, except him constantly repositioning himself with me snuggling him while we’re looking at the mirror. He said “guess I should call you my boyfriend now” (or something like that). When I had said how “I felt Jero was ‘the one'”, he said “that’s how I felt about you when I met you”. I smiled from ear to ear when he said that.
I swear, MIBIT is like, Jero(the good side) and Novice combined. It’s, so awesome. 🧡
Though I have just a few things against him, but nothing major for me to tell him (not yet anyway).
1. Puts more of a focus on ‘vr porn’ (of him blowing his load in VR) instead of us satisfying eachother through ERP. In other words it takes him a very long time to do it and I feel I have to constantly help him do so. It’s fun yes but it’s also tiring on my body IRL (why I try not to take too long). In other words, he doesn’t see himself as a ‘subby boy’. But maybe with time that might change for him to primarily be a bottom?
2. Bit of a language barrier, having to ask him to repeat himself. Though sometimes he hardly understands me. Sometimes this plays with the first thing, where it sounds like he wants to do me instead of me doing him (him being a switch kind of makes things confusing in the bed).

I’m still also a bit nervous to fully explain who I am IRL. I have been giving him a
few ‘bites’ here and there to see if he’s still interested in me (for example I recently told him I’ve been living with my parents all of my life). He seems completely unphased by it. Not sure if that’s something I have to worry about. He knows I don’t have a ‘proper’ job.
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A half an hour before bedtime (I’ve been going to bed at 5:30am now because of him, but I don’t mind it one bit), he says something on the lines of “actually I can’t fully say boyfriend, at least not yet. See I became be-i(that’s the way he says “bi”) because of
my girlfriend. It’s been a week and I’m not fully sure yet. So I want to wait a month to know for sure I am.”
I kissed him and nodded, saying “take all the time you need to know you’re ready. We don’t need to rush this”. I say this to myself too. I know I said that I was happy being single and felt content with it, but somehow the stars aligned on my birth month.. which is funny as during my birth month is when I was in a relationship with Wolfdog.
But from what I’ve seen… MIBBIT > Wolfdog any day. He cares for me, he loves cuddling me. He doesn’t mind spending hours on end just sitting in one world cuddling, snuggling and kissing me. Doesn’t feel he should call me in Discord just to say hi. Doesn’t feel he should watch movies with me in Discord (and then ask “now you see why I like it?”).
He also assures me he’ll be nothing like what Jero was. “I don’t like making people wander” he says.

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I.. want this to work. I want this relationship to work. I just wonder when it’s going to come to a time when I might have to change some bits of who I am to make it work (or if he’ll change bits about himself).

EDIT, August 22nd: I dunno but I think he may’ve just maybe possibly had just just announced he wants this to be official.
“So I been thinking about this all day I am ready and comfortable to say hun sweetie bf and other stuff” -What he said. So either he’s saying he wants to make this
official and/or he’s officially announcing he’s “ready and comfortable” to be bi (which is more likely what he means by this).
I asked him what he meant by that (and saying a whole bunch of other stuff like “heavy baggage” and “personally want to wait another month to know”), all he said was “that we can still wait for the month”. But he responded later by saying “sweetie”. So yeah, can safely assume the latter.