Benie's General Blog

As always, lots to talk about, including a very unexpected thing that happened at the end of the day (that has me both happy and unsure at the same time). Is he lying to me, or telling the truth? And how in the hell am I going to explain this to Kovo and the others? ..I don’t think I can, and feel I alone have to make a decision on who to believe (yet I still have to explain it to Lone and Moon_Shadow.. both may leave me as a friend).
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“The drama is over” (Yet Jusper still won at the end)
Waiting for SteamVR to be updated, Kovo sends me yet another DM between him and Lich. Ugh.. seriously, Lich?! Grow up!!
And it appears he actually did do so, telling Kovo that he talked to Sarge and said “I’m taking down all of my posts about Jusper. The drama is over.”
Cautiously optimistic of hearing this. But later on (while ingame), Jusper sent Kovo and myself a long DM between himself and Sarge, granting full access to the model (with the only exception is to never distribute it again). This vote was between him, Nappz and Lich. And by a vote of 2/1, he’s cleared of all wrong-doing and no longer has to hide the model. So in a sense, he still won nomatter what the outcome was. He’s one smart son of a
bitch. Heh.
EDIT: Today (4/27/19), Azure in behalf of Lich and everyone, personally apologized to me and then apologized to our Discord. She gives great regret for this mess, and the pain it caused. Thank you, that means a lot.
I am SO glad this is now behind us. I mean, what Lich did, was blinding rage. Because he was pissed for paying money for a model that Jusper managed to find a loophole.. even though, he told Sarge he was willing to pay full price for it and still was denied (just because he has a modded client). If that’s not bias, I don’t know what is.
Let the end of this drama mark a new revelation in VRChat, that not all who use a modded client, steal avatars. And in this case, Jusper claimed the model cannot be ripped due to the way it was rigged.
Unfortunately, Vale isn’t so forgiving (and is only making things worse by holding a grudge). Hopefully with time, he’ll calm down.
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Is Micro$hit now to blame (for my thumbpads not working)?
In other news, I’m still waiting for SteamVR to get updated. But, nothing. Checking the discussion forum, someone gave a suggestion to clear out their bindings. What an odd suggestion, but I thought “what the hell” and did so. Don’t get what the purpose of this
is, but it didn’t make the issue go away.
I then noticed something that had downloaded in the background.. owo what’s THIS?! SteamVR got UPDATED?! HELL YEAH!! Now I can get into V– wait, FUCK!! God DAMNIT! The SteamVR Beta got updated! -_- And when I saw that, I no longer feel this is a fault with SteamVR, but the drivers making my headset work with it (aka Microsoft). Yay. Terrfuckingiffic!!(Yes, that’s a real word I made up) So we have to wait for them to update. Ugh.
Ingame, Jusper gave another suggestion that he’ll send what worked for him to me, so I tried it.. *sighs* nothing. I truly feel now, I broke a $200 headset of the way I’ve been rough handling it due to once again getting 11 FPS while tying to hang out with
friends (when it’s not even the headset’s fault).
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Today, someone by the name of ‘Yessy’ posted an earlier version of the drivers (just before this issue happened). I seriously have my doubts this is going to work, as it’s literally what I did yesterday. But after I’m finished with this entire blog post, I will try it.
EDIT: Despite all of my anxiety over possibly damaging this $200 brick that sits on my face, the fix.. WORKED!!! 😀 😀 😀 I CAN MOVE IN VR AGAIN!! I didn’t break my headset afterall!! WOOT!!!

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‘Free’ food from Burger King!
Random funny, short story happened on my typical walk up to Burger King for my Friday dinner. I don’t typically talk about things like this, but this one was quite unusual.
So anyway, I’m eating my dinner as normal, nearly almost done when I have a sudden urge to take a dump. Had to get up and use the public restroom for awhile.
Got back, and my jaw dropped to the floor when I saw the tray with my food was no longer there. WTF?! No! I wasn’t done eating! One of the workers saw me with my index finger up and I said how I wasn’t done, explaining what I had. She’s all “Oh I’m so sorry! Here, we’ll replace your order for free!”
I got my fries back and my cookie (told them I finished off my burger, so I didn’t ask for another). Took them back to the table, thanking them. Then I had an evil idea, went up there and asked for a to-go bag, which they happily provided. Went back to the
table, putting the food in. Took the tray and put it on the garbage.. walked out the door and rushed home just incase they came out and were all “HEY!! You didn’t pay for that!!”
But I did pay for it, it was you dumbasses thinking I was done. So, thanks for the free dinner for Sunday! HAHAHA!!!
Still have to go over there tomorrow, and get another burger. Heh, I saved so much.
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Wuffer and I are back together?!
Now, to the highlight of the night (and the morning). Was hanging out with the guys in Kovo’s world, but most of them left except for myself, Kovo and Vale. We decided to have some fun by going to the brand new grenade toss world (with even more types of grenades). 10 minutes (as I was getting my tail handed to me by Vale), Wuffer DMs me unsuspectingly. And the only reason he did, is because he saw my status change to announce I’m bi (and this time it’s official). He thought I had another
relationship. …Am I sensing jealousy, from Wuffer?
Also… boy, you got a lot of nerve DMing me. Let him have it with the whole cheating thing. He was surprisingly shocked to hear this, and said “I would never cheat. What are you talking about?” Told him how it happened, and then he starts laughing and says “Benie,  you don’t understand. I started dating Ballistic after RPing with you.” ..Wait, WHAT?! You
mean.. when we broke up, you were really hurt over my words to the point you didn’t feel like looking for another? *deep sighs and looks down* ..I feel really bad now. He told me he still has feelings for me, and he couldn’t stop thinking about me.
And as for the friend who was RPing the same way he was, he’s incredibly sorry for what happened there, said he didn’t know what he was thinking, and he’s no longer friends with this person over what happened.
At the end, he said “I’m fully committed to you and you only”. *sighs*… I forgive
you, Wuffer. Thank you for apologizing.
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Now, when it came to the whole thing with the stolen money (and him being robbed), he was shocked of this news of what Ballistic told me. Now he admits a quarter of it was
true (that they were going to rob him), but he said they stopped when finding out himself and his parents are well-armed. He also said that they didn’t even know why they were there, saying he did nothing wrong.
How the thing happened (in his own words), is the time he bought his Oculus from some guy who uses foreign money. Friends of him said not to do it (as he wanted to use Wuffer’s bank account to take the money), but the guy assured Wuffer that everything would be OK. He said for the first few days, things went as planned. But as it progressed, Wuffer saw the guy was taking a lot more than said.
He confronted the guy, who apologized and said it won’t happen again… it did. Another
confront, the guy paid him some money to cover the cost. But the cost didn’t cover even more money leaving his account. He was forced to call his bank and freeze his assets.
This made the guy quite pissy, accusing Wuffer of not paying the money.. which is probably where Ballistic got this info (and then twisted it to make Wuffer look
bad, because he’s (obviously) still pissed about the breakup).
Since this method clearly isn’t going to work, he promises to pay the guy another way, and has until the end of the year to do so.
He also said he has a job now (that he got three days ago); a pizza guy, which he hopes would develop into delivering them for more money. He says he’s got his life all taken care of, and I ‘shouldn’t worry’ about “not being able to support him” (as he can clearly support himself). This is fantastic, and kind of gives me hope for my RL future.
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With all of this said and done, do I say that we’re officially back together…? Yes, and No. More like unofficially. The only thing I truly believe he’s telling the truth, is his feelings toward me. If he felt it was done between us, he wouldn’t had even bothered DMing me (or cared for me anymore).
No, I can feel the passion in his words that he had for me when we were still dating. He still loves me, and I told him exactly what I meant by “wanting it in the confines of VRChat”. He said “oh, so that’s what you meant, silly.” I told him that I was scared how someone would react if I actually wanted to know them IRL, and he said not to be; that he has me. And, I smiled.
But for the rest, I’m still confused– do I believe him, or Ballistic? Plus if we
do (officially) get back together, how in the fuck am I going to explain this to
Lone, Moon, and the others?! Lone alone, with the way his life has been treating
him, would feel Wuffer is clearly lying in order to get back together with me. ..But what if he’s right?
Ugh! DAMNIT!! Ballistic, I want answers!! Did you truly start dating Wuffer after what happened with me and him? Did you lie to me about Wuffer getting robbed?!
I know you’re done with Wuffer, but I want answers and I want them now. But Wuffer said he will “forget what was said” (about breaking into his house), still calling Ballistic a liar. Also, I don’t think he would even care if Wuffer and I got back together.
Still have to inform people I have told, so they don’t ask later and having to go through hell to defend both of us… especially before tomorrow, as that’s Moon_Shadow’s birthday (and I told him I would attend).
EDIT: Told Moon. He’s confused, but doesn’t really care (just as long as he’s not
involved). He also said Wuffer can come. Thanks for understanding. 🙂

It was April 15th when I said “it’s been awhile” since I made a post, due to no drama going on. Now there’s too much for my heart to take.
So I’m going to leave the virtual sex parts out of this post, and flat-out say “I am now bi and don’t mind it anymore.” Yes, you heard me. That first ‘one night stand’ with
Garruk, I feel I can no longer declare myself as straight (and I’m perfectly fine with
it).. though there’s still one side of my brain that’s all “…WHAT THE FUCK AM I SAYING?!?!”.
Bi-curious is my new orientation.
But of course, these sudden things happening, my brain wanting more (then drama
hits) is becoming a toll on my mental health. What’s bad about the second one, is this is the same Jusper that has a modded client. Sarge, Lich and the others are of course labeling him as an avatar stealer (as that’s easy to do). At least, if there was no proof of what he
did, I’m curious if Jusper actually had feelings for me (and would be willing to turn it into an actual relationship).
Honestly, though… I never even expected this to happen!! When he was snuggling me, I thought that was how it was going to stay. Then he asked “do you feel it”, I was shocked. This is a guy who told me over and over, he isn’t interested in online relationships… yet he’s asking me this?? I said, hesitantly “yeah.. kind of”. Then he blew my mind again by saying we can go to a private world and “do it”.
Did he truly have feelings for me (or feel sorry of how lonely I am)..? It’s driving me insane. Maybe he doesn’t know why he did that. I wanna ask him, yet at the same time I don’t..
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Because, just like the drama that happened after my time with Garruk, drama happened here as well. And this drama is 5 times worse than cheating on one’s boyfriend.
Essentially, Jusper broke our trust for distributing the Dutchie 3.0 model. He also broke my heart. So the question is… why? Why did he do this? Since Drafy of all people is the one that accepted the model, I have to talk to him. Had to coax him as warm-hearted as I could into talking, with the hell he went through having to explain it to several others. And he told me the truth that he did indeed take the model (and knew it was stolen). Disappointed in him. But when he told me he got rid of it, I forgave him.
For the next day, I tried getting some more detail about what happened with the time of him receiving the model from Jusper. I was only able to get one thing, before he was done dealing with the drama and wanted to move on. As much as my brain demanded knowledge, I obeyed to his request. It appears my answers are going to have to come from the source– Jusper himself. After sending him a friend invite in Discord (that he quickly accepted), I was able to get all of them answered. And this is what I know;
-He “doesn’t know why” he gave the model to Drafy, but later feels he may’ve felt sorry for him.
-Plasmic legitimately got the model from Nappz, making him clear of all accusations.
-He is unaware of any link to the model that Kovo claims. For the longest time, he felt he’s the only one that got the model illegit.
-It’s now confirmed Kovo was right of how Jusper got the model (from NapPie). Which means he was only lying to protect him.
-If he gets banned, he’ll come back, remove all of his friends, and start over.

That evening, war was declared on Jusper, and I became the monkey in the middle. Started with Sarge randomly DMing me as I was working on completely rewriting this post, wanting my ‘permission’ to ruin Jusper’s life; saying how it’ll be “across the board”. I was originally going to say “do whatever you want dude, but I want no part of this”. But I felt by saying that, he would get highly suspicious that I was defending Jusper.
Instead, I decided to use his bias against modded clients by playing along. I even
said “yeah, death to all avatar stealers!! They need to burn in a fire!!” Just trying to ham it on Sarge and his biasness. At this time, I was also sending everything being said to
Kovo.
He (Kovo) called me to discuss what’s going on. Then I saw Sarge and Lich start flooding our Discord with proof Jusper distributed the avatar. ..Wait, what?! This isn’t what I mean by giving them permission! When they said “across the board”, I thought they meant about contacting the admins and getting Jusper banned.. not post it here!! FUCK!!! GOD DAMNIT!!!
Scrambling to prove to Kovo I never gave them permission to do this, Sarge then posts the DM that he and I had as an attempt to show ‘proof’ I gave them permission. This forced me to defend myself that I never said that they could post it in the Discord. When that got out, Kovo got pissed at Sarge and started deleting all the pictures they sent, while I’m still scared I’m going to be forced to choose a side (and lose friends).
Vale joined the call about that time, and Kovo showed us the DMs between him and Lich that lead up to this. In the DM’s, Lich claims that he tried to make peace with Jusper, then saw that Jusper was going to release the model to the public. Wow. I went to Jusper in shock that he would say that, but he convinced me he was bluffing, and said he doesn’t believe in the BS that Lich wants peace.
Went back to Kovo and Vale, Vale’s telling us Sarge threatened to unfriend him for “taking sides”. He now pissed at Sarge over that. …And then I found that Jusper is now pissed at me. He saw the DM and said “Nice man.” I pray he meant it as a compliment. …..It wasn’t. He blocked me. Fuuuuuuck!!! God DAMNIT, Sarge! I lost a friend because you backed me into a corner and I couldn’t think straight!! And now my mind sees myself pulling out a gun and ending it. Felt like I nearly lost my will to live. So Vale tried to explain to Jusper that those words were only used as an act to keep Sarge from getting suspicious. But he was still mad, and Vale told me to give Jusper some space.
*deep sigh* Fine, but I felt like shit since then. ..Yet, why did Sarge come up to ME in the first place (instead of Kovo)?! It’s HIS Discord server, why come to me?!
The two had theories, but nothing really made sense.
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Things started to slightly die down and Kovo went ingame, hoping not to deal with the drama. But the drama came to him, and he discovered the reason why Sarge came to me. First off, Sarge is all all “I’m done” with all of this (and has left that group). Then Kovo tells me “Ben, you were used”. ..Used?? Yep, Lich is calling the shots now, and he’s still hellbent on ruining Jusper’s life. So.. he ruined my life by getting Sarge to tell me. That means both Sarge and I were used. So, Sarge isn’t the bad guy. Lich is.
Lovely. He won’t have that fucking smug face after I’m done with him!! He doesn’t realize the pain he just caused. I might never be able to tell Jusper how sorry I am, thanks to
you, asshole. May YOU burn in a fire.. *sigh* I don’t actually mean this, but getting in the way of love pisses me off. 🙁
Lich clearly cares more about that model than his friends. It’s childish. He’s only going to ruin his reputation (and possibly his relationship with Azure) when it’s all said and done. And I’m all for it.

Half an hour passes as things continue to die down, Vale gets out of the call and Kovo’s also getting ready to leave it, then suggests that I write an apology letter to Jusper and he’ll screenshot and send it to him. Vale comes back and kind of agrees to Kovo’s
suggestion (even though he feels Jusper just needs some time). So I get started typing my feelings in. Takes me 15 minutes trying to think of the best way to say it, and then send it to Vale when I feel I’m ready (so he can go over it and make sure I’m right in my words). With everything good, he sends it.
20 minutes later, we go in General chat as things have died down. Jusper sends me a friend invite and then also joins the chat. I hesitantly say “Hey” and “I hope this means you have forgiven me”. He says it’s all good. Thank goodness. And thank you, Kovo.
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So we’re all talking now, and one time both Kovo and Vale go AFK. This gave Jusper the green light to talk to me about how I felt about him (as a person), which was part of the apology letter. He told me “it wasn’t pity why I did it with you”. The word ’embarrassed’ wouldn’t work for this scenario, as Kovo and Vale were still there listening in.
Dunno what to say. Feel like I just lost any chance that we’ll ever get that feeling again that we had the night before all of this shit hit the fan. Scared to ask now, especially with Lich going to every Discord server he can on his ‘righteous’ smear campaign to ruin
him.
I think it’s time to take Lone up on that offer, to help find a group outside of Kovo’s and hope I can find someone that would share the same interests as me (and would think I’m pretty cool to hang around). But Lone himself, when I asked for a hug of what was going on, seemed like he’s either neutral or siding with Lich. So much for relying on him to help me fill this (unintentional) void that Jusper left.
So.. once again, guess I’m on my own. Either I let the pain heal on its own and move on from it (which is what Lone said to do), or I try to find someone myself (without feeling desperate). It’s going to be very hard, since I’m shy and have little to no social
experience. 😐
I dunno why I even have friends. Well, apart from true friends. But some of them could be influenced by Lich. Others (like Dorrvivx), don’t really need to know. Because he nearly did the same thing Lich is doing, but for the Sunken Boi. If it wasn’t for Kovo and Vale calming him down, who knows what would had happened.

(IRL) the fun of installing AC’s
With temps staying persistent in the middle to upper 70’s, I felt it was time to get my AC in. No more having to wait ’till the temp gets cool enough to VR. 😛 Of course, my mother wanted me to also do my father’s AC, which I agreed to do. She’s even going to pay me next month. Personally, she doesn’t have to.
But, I did go through hell (with father’s AC mostly). Mainly because of his SiriusXM antenna stuck where the AC needs to go. Tried our best to get it off.. father accidentally used a crowbar on it, breaking the glass. Smooth move. But, persistence eventually paid off and we were able to remove the sticky part of it.
As for my AC, it was a problem of getting the damn thing aligned to the window sill.
Also, one of the blinds to close the gap was missing its frame. After getting it in, mother and I tried to think of ways to get the thing to still work. Thought of taping it with duct tape, but it wouldn’t stick to the groove of the blind. Thought of using a piece of
board, but the fact our water drainage system is so shit for this old house, there’s a waterfall that goes down the backyard wall when the rain is heavy and persistent
enough (and it’s where I typically put my AC). It would just rot the
wood.
Was close to using that glue gun.. you know, the one I thought was going to fix my headset’s foam pad? But I went back to using duct tape, and this time it’s holding.. for how long, I don’t know.
Think the true test is going to be tomorrow, when it’s supposed to rain here.
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…Did history just fucking repeat itself?!
After cleaning up everything and turning it on (making sure this 4-year-old AC is going to keep working), I went back into VRChat. I never expected what would happen much later into early this morning.
Jusper eventually came on, and I tried to be with him. He was in this very interesting world that’s supposed to simulate the satisfying fun of a marble machine. You can set up ramps and stuff for the balls to follow. Later, others started joining us. I really wanted Jusper to slow down so I can closely be with him. Did finally get that chance and we went to a Friends+ world (because there were others around us).
Me and him cuddled while the others talk. I tried my best to keep my lewdness greatly suppressed. One time, everyone had left. Then they rejoined and stayed with us.
Damnit. 😛 I wanted to be alone with him.
Around 1am, he told me he “had to go to do something”. Didn’t think much of it and let him go, only feeling a bit depressed after. Then I went to go see Scooby.. and really wish I didn’t.
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I overheard Sarge in this room, talking about Plasmic and stealing avatars. I’m slightly praying that he’s not talking about the matching avatars that Jusper and him have. Then he comes up to me and asks how I’m doing and stuff (as if nothing’s going on). Told him I’m alright and tried to get him to talk about the hell is going on. He says “Lich has been updated” and goes back to what he was doing.
I’m now too busy talking to Rivers who’s in the room, then I hear Sarge talking to someone to the left of me. I hear Jusper’s name. Go over and try to piece together what’s going
on, and it is indeed the model Jusper and Plasmic are using. Then I hear about he “gave the model to Drafy”.
…The FUCK?! Jusper, why? You told us you don’t do that sort of thing! Ugh. First Garruk and now Jusper who I have to leave over something that’s bad. This is getting ridiculous. Why is this happening to me?!
DJ comes along and sees me like this, yet is asking about how I’ve been doing after my 3rd breakup. I get him away to talk to him in private and tell him about how Wuffer stole money and stuff, now he’s back, and I blocked him. Then the conversation goes about Jusper, and I had to tell him we’re in a ‘secret relationship’. Then Kovo shows up out of nowhere, and I tell him what’s going on.
He feels Jusper’s guilty. I’m not so sure. I say someone framed him (since he has a modded client = stole mai avatar!!). At least, I pray he’s innocent.
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Later on, we’re in another world as I saw the two disappear infront of me and bailed back to my home world, thinking there’s a crasher somewhere. But there wasn’t. Then we went to the box world and I invited Vale who wanted to know what’s going on.
DJ had to go, and Kovo crashed again. This time it could be permanent, and we talked about the rest in a group call. At the end, Vale and I decided to play it cool (pretend we never heard this drama). As for me, I want Jusper to either tell me he’s innocent or admit his guilt. It’s up to him if he wants to.
But, there’s something more pressing I need to talk about.
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Kovo’s (possible) departure from VRChat
I’m still shocked at the news, that Kovo’s going to be gone for 2-3 years (or more). He won’t tell us the reason, only that “it’s complicated”. I mean, I could understand 2-3
days, or 2-3 weeks.. but YEARS?? That’s a long time!
The way he was talking, this might be the last time I ever hear his voice again. But, I think he’ll leave next month. I really hope that wasn’t the last time we’ll ever speak again!! What’s obvious, is VRChat is never going to be the same without him (IMO). No more jokes of people thinking he’s gay (when he’s not). No more “R U OKAY?!” No more “horror naps”. Wow. Yeah.. it won’t be the same.
🙁

A sign of my future (IRL)
Yesterday, my parents took me up to the store (except it was much later in the day). My father has been feeling sick and losing his memory, so I wanted badly to just order it online and let someone bring my usual Sunday groceries to me.. but he wanted to take me up there. And I feel this is going to be the last time.
Usually the two stay in the car and wait for me to get done, but this time my mother convinced my father to go in after I did, to get some water and other stuff. I heard her tell him “we’ll come back here and wait for him”.
Did my shopping as normal for a Sunday. When I was done and went to pay for it, I noticed no one was using the U-Scans. Perhaps going later in the day has its perks, as usually I have to wait for a spot. Get it all done and head out to the car, expecting them to be there waiting for me. Get to the car.. no parents inside. “How long does it take to get water?!” I exclaimed.
Waited what felt like 20 minutes, dealing with the glare of the Sun in my eyes while trying to look behind me back at the store, to see if they’ll pop up. But, nothing. It was this point where I wish I had my own license, so I wouldn’t have to be dealing with this (and embarrass myself by standing there infront of the trunk waiting for my parents).
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Decided to go back in the building, worried the cold food I had was going to perish quicker by being out here in the warm heat of 71*F. Thankfully they have a place to sit in this
area, sat down and continued to wait.
It’s now nearly 7pm.. almost two hours since we left home. Something may’ve happened to them, and was getting ready to go track them down. Finally, mother showed up and then promptly asked for my debit and Kroger card, saying father forgot his wallet.. *facepalm*
Gave her them and continued to wait almost a half an hour, and the two finally came out of the building.
Oy. Yeah, I think this’ll be the last time. This is too hard on father. There are other options.
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Being love sick sucks
Finally back home (and doing my other Sunday chores), I was unsure if I wanted to get on after what happened in the early afternoon (finding out Garruk has a boyfriend). Though I’m pleased to report that it’s starting to look better for the two. Always a good thing.
Just wish, it was better for me. :/ But I eventually did get ingame (in VR, after making sure the batteries in my controllers STAY charged for longer than a day). Really getting tired of dealing with batteries losing nearly all of their charge in less than a week. It’s
ridiculous.
Kovo and friends are still hanging out in his world, but I wasn’t really in the mood to
say “hey” to them (as Kovo isn’t the best person to go to when your heart is partially broken). Neither is Vale. So I stayed in the shadows watching them infront of that
mirror. I then had the idea to use an avatar that I can turn myself invisible, and listen into their conversation. Unfortunately, this avatar doesn’t make my name invisible, and Kovo was easily able to see me. But he never asked that ohh so annoying “You doin’ OKAY?!” line. He means well, but like I said.. wasn’t in the mood. Also, Kovo thought I was avoiding him due to him having one of his MMD avatars (aka his ‘sex bot’) as a companion next to him, and made fun of me over it.
Lone showed up. I tried to get his attention by jumping up and down and hoping he would follow me, but he was too busy talking to Vale about getting some sort of ‘rainbow rifle’ in a game.
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I then saw Jusper come into the world, and quickly teleported to spawn. Tried to call out his name, but I was too late and he hit the portal to talk to the others. So I tried to do the same thing I did for Lone, and it eventually worked. Started telling him about
Garruk.. then Kovo and Vale ran over trying to figure what’s going on. I ran the other direction, and got to talk to Jusper alone (finally). He told me another side of Garruk, that he was aroused by me when he first met me (possibly from my awkward position of laying on my bed IRL). He also told Jusper that he was trying to move away from it, hinting he has a boyfriend.. why he didn’t tell me. *sigh*
He finally told me the reason why he’s not looking for a relationship; doesn’t want to deal with the drama of an online relationship. Then he said “stay away from Garruk. He wants an RP relationship”. Told him I wanted the same thing, due to my life.
Again, Garruk is so like me it’s frightening. Probably how I’m able to communicate with him so well.. because I’m literally communicating with myself.

Moving on (as this topic is going too long), Wuffer was there (in VR).. the FUCK?! I thought he was DONE!! Blocked his lying ass (and then tell Jusper all about what he did to me and Ballistic).
There was also an instance of someone pissed at someone else by making fun of them for sounding like a girl (yet is a guy). Kovo was called in to help with it, but he created a new instance. Eventually joined it, but Kovo wasn’t there. Then Jusper starts talking to
air, and getting ready to ask me “did you block Wuffer?” I respawned and then joined another world.. a world sooo not optimized for VR. Every second or half a second, I was locked at a horrible framerate. Was so bad I was forced to manually close out the game.
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Jusper the lover?
Felt pretty much ‘done’ with VR after that, but something told me “VRChat was probably too big for your computer to handle. Try rejoining, see if it happens again.” So I did, and this time they were scattered in multiple worlds. But I joined Kovo, who was in quite a familiar world I haven’t been to in a long while (this marks the second time I’ve been here in VR). It’s a retro-like world, where you can go anywhere in it. There’s no invisible walls or anything.
Jusper was there, and we talked for awhile. He asked “what are you looking for in a potential relationship? Cuddling, lewd, or a bit of both?” I said “both, but more on the cuddling side”. Kovo happens to barge in unannounced, and we tell him “we weren’t talking about you, Kovo. Just having a private conversation.”
Later, Jusper asks “when it comes to cuddling, can it be anyone, or are you looking for a specific someone?” I honestly said “if anyone is willing to come up to me and give me snuggles, I welcome it.”
Can’t remember exactly what happened next, but I remember being away from the
group, Jusper comes over to me and starts snuggling me. Never expected him to ask
me “are you feeling it?” So we went to my home world.. I’ll spare the rest as it’s TMI, but it was pretty interesting. And this lasted ’till it was time for me to go to bed (him as well, as he’s in the same time zone I’m in.. he also lives in Ohio).

Was a pretty bad day (IRL and ingame), but it ended on a quite awesome note. 🙂