More health concerns / “This better NOT happen again, TWC!”

A few days ago, I’m playing ESO while eating some Jelly Beans. All the sudden I feel something wrong with my neck; like a bulging pain. I rubbed the right side of my neck, and I felt something that scared the shit out of me… a lump. A HUGE lump, about the size of my palm.
Now I felt this a week ago, but I tried to not worry about it and it actually went away. And now it returns and it lasts longer. Fearing I may have…. cancer, I look around Google and all I see are people scared shitless of the same thing I’m going through, and I’m reading about “have it looked at by your doctor” and things like that.

I’m losing my mind. “What will my parents say?!” I go to bed and tell them in the morning. My mother rubs my neck and feels.. nothing. She doesn’t feel no bulge or lump. But I don’t know if I should feel relieved or feel like she’s lying to me. But I know I can trust her.
But I’ve decided to just ignore it. They both tell me that as long as I eat and swallow OK, it’s nothing to worry about. And I am still doing that. Possible that just my lymph nodes are just trolling me. At least, I hope they continue to do this instead of make me worry about them. My nerves could also be a possibility.

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With that out of the way, there is another matter to discuss. It’s my ISP. Around 11:53pm last night, I was playing ESO — asking for an upgrade to my gear. We were discussing a set and then suddenly it’s like the game crashes on me. I get taken back to the main screen where you login, yet I’m unable to login. So I’m thinking “Seriously?! The servers are down?!”
I check the website, and it’s not loading. I then glance down at my cable modem and notice two orange lights. Lost connection for no reason.
Immediately I call my ISP, and usually the computer says “is this number correct as the phone number associated with your account?” and I would say Yes. But this time I have to enter the phone number… and it says “we can’t find an account with that number”. So I’m thinking “Oh my god. Did they disconnect me?!”

I still managed to get ahold of their support, using my limited resources. Spoke to a woman that I can barely understand. She asks for my phone number… again, it doesn’t seem to work for some reason. So she asks for my full info and I give it to her. Thank god she manages to pull up my account! She said that my account is in good standing. It better be, because I paid my bill. I even have proof.
As for the downtime, she said there’s an outage in the area. So at least my Cable Modem is still OK.
I ask her if she can tell me what the hell caused it (didn’t say it exactly like that). And all she says was “emergency maintenance”. Maybe a squirrel bit the dust and knocked out my service, or a car hit a pole somewhere. But she never told me the exact reason. Maybe she did, but as I said.. I could barely understand her.
She did offer a callback of when my service would be restored. So I told her my number and she said she would call me back.

With this rather raging (yet “I don’t have a fucking choice!”) feeling, I was forced to wait for it to come back. 1:30am came…..still down. I called back, this time actually speaking to someone I could understand fully. I ask her how long will this thing take, and she says “ohh.. 2-3 hours!”, followed by “it should be back by 3am”. She too offered a callback, but I was too fucking pissed off and hung up!!
2-3 HOURS?!?! FUCK!! Of all the times.. WHY WHEN I USE IT?! Why couldn’t they do this shit when I was in bed?!?!

Fuckers! It was then when I decided “fuck it! I’m going to bed…” Because what else could I do? Without internet service, going to bed was the only thing I could do!
What really burns my ass, is why couldn’t they had informed me BEFORE this surprise emergency maintenance?? Not even a god damn txt message!
The next morning (today), it’s back up. Never got a call back, by the way. That just sweetens the deal. This shit just better NOT happen again! ….. Of course, this hasn’t happened for months. It happens once and I lose my shit.

Am I really that addicted to ESO? Don’t think so. I’ve never really been “addicted” to a game in my life. Well.. maybe when I was younger, I was.
This could’ve been any online-based game. It just had to be ESO at the time. It’s just the fact I wasn’t notified beforehand, or even what was the reason for that ’emergency maintenance’. Just better not happen again. And 99% of the time, it doesn’t. Time Warner Cable (formerly InsightBB locally before they were bought out years ago) has a pretty good track record of having a reliable internet service.

And I always hold it to them, and they seem to always deliver. I am happy with my service… well, except when it comes to going to Youtube. But I blame Google, not my ISP, for making the buffering speed ridiculously slow. Though I wonder if that’s on purpose to deter people from using an Ad Blocker.

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EDIT: What I thought was heavy lag on the server’s end (ESO), is actually an issue somewhere on my end. An issue that they need to get a technician out here and get it looked at.
Since the outage, I’ve noticed severe lag in ESO. What was confusing me is no one else was bitching about this, yet everything outside of ESO (except Youtube of course) was running normally. Decided to run a speed test both with and without ESO running, and the results were troubling. It is indeed my ISP and not ESO’s servers. I owe ZoS an apology.
So I called TWC about a half an hour ago, and they say there is indeed a problem. Something about the signal to my cable modem is “out of range”, and is losing a lot of packets… which is why the speed is so low. It’s obvious they done fucked up my connection when they did their ’emergency maintenance’.

So I have to suffer with not being able to play ESO the way I want ’till Saturday, for them to get a technician out here. Managed to get the time around 10:00-11:00AM (about the time I wake up). Going to have to go to bed early tomorrow night.
They assure me they will fix this problem. I also have to leave my cell phone on (I can keep it on its charger), as they say they’ll be calling me back three times.

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EDIT2: Of a stroke of luck, I managed to reschedule the tech visit for tomorrow instead of Saturday! SO happy! And the only reason is because someone canceled their appointment for me to get this done. Still set for 10-11AM, though. And that’s fine.

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Zenimax and Blizzard…. twin assholes?

Yesterday, I finally fixed the framerate drops when moving. That and the mod authors also did. It was mod-related, as I feared. But thankfully it wasn’t one of the critical ones I use.
With the game now perfectly stable, I was happy. Still getting my ass handed to me even with V1 gear, though.. but at least my game was stable.

……..And then, comes a patch. A patch to bring the Thieves Guild into the game. A patch.. that brought nerfs to the Sorcerer class. And no option to reset my skills. Here before, I was pissed they resetted them (but I never bitched in the forum). Because of this, there’s no more resetting. Instead, you now have to pay money for crowns, to buy a scroll to reset your skills.
Here yesterday, I spent about 3k to get them reset. If I had known this update would hit, I would had waited.

But what makes this company similar to Blizzard, was the way they handled the update. Because the differences… are eerily similar(if not WORSE).
1. Didn’t listen to their Beta testers about serious framerate drops.
2. Charging people to reset their skills via real money.
3. EU people cannot connect to the game. Multiple errors.
4. Update servers are shit. Right now, my speed is… nothing. Stuck at 84%.

Let’s talk about the first thing. The lag that should had been fixed. There’s a 40% drop in framerate for 32bit players, and a 20% drop for 64bit players. And now it’s live, instead of fixed. And now everyone has to suffer as they will take forever to fix something that should had been fixed months ago.
Great. This is just.. great.

This is why WoW, even though it’s dying, can’t really die. Because we don’t got any real good MMORPGs out there. I hoped this would be the one for me. The only thing I am glad, is not paying a penny for this game. The only money I gave which was to buy that mount when my DK was at a low level. But since then, I have not paid.
I thought of getting a few of the DLCs, but that has changed completely over this incompetence. These guys are worse than Blizzard. Can you believe this?

*claps* Brilliant service, Zenimax! Brilliant! Top notch servers! I love sitting there watching my speed at 0.00KB/s and not even trying to go back up! So awesome the way you handle patch day! Not to mention, when I join the server, to barely be able to play due to heavy studdering! Fantastic!… even Blizzard was better than this. It makes me sick.

I am glad I only paid $15 for this, instead of fucking $60(which is still the current price). They can forget me EVER giving them another penny.
What’s hilarious, is this is even affecting people that pay for their monthly subscription fee. You’d think they would be treated better than the F2P people(like me). But no. They’re treated the same way. Equal stupidity for everyone!

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EDIT: I finally got in. Only three of the list of addons I use were updated. Do hope to see more updates. However, they aren’t really needed. I seem to be just fine (as far as studdering/framerate).

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I found Windows Movie Maker… the next step

So I finally found where Windows Movie Maker has been lurking all of these months. Instead of coming with Windows 7, it’s packaged in with this ‘Windows Essentials 2012 program suite’. Yet when I tried installing it, I still couldn’t find Windows Movie Maker.

… This is because it’s now part of Photo Gallery. Apparently they thought it was a great idea to bundle it to a point it’s ridiculous. Also, it’s called “Movie Maker” now. To access, you must have an existing video somewhere on your computer. You then go to the ‘Create’ tab, and under ‘Share’, pick ‘Movie’ to launch Windows Movie Maker. … SMH Windows. :/
Well, whatever. This is good! I finally have a PC video editor again (that I wasn’t forced to learn how it works)! As for the encoder, I decided I’m going to create a Twitch account and record via streaming.
However, I got questions for them. Though I annoyingly have to create the account before I can do so. That’s stupid, but whatever. Their site, their rules.
Anyway, I wanted to ask about this conversion thing from their format to MP4. That if I was to record under 30 minutes, will the video once it gets converted, be under 30 minutes? Basically, do the same thing I’m doing when recording PS4 videos.
If so, this opens up a door to PC game mini-playthroughs from this website.

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Why ‘I Hate Everything’ has changed my opinion on doing my videos Public

I’ve seen a few videos saying to just not give a fuck to what Youtube Commenters say, yet they never really went over “I’m coming to your house… I know where you live” comments that would scare the fuck out of me.

That was until I laughed my head off after watching a Youtuber named ‘I Hate Everything’ (or ‘IHE’). I never seen or even heard of this channel except after the fiasco of The Fine Bros wanting to trademark the word “React”, and causing this guy’s channel to be literally shut down for such moronic reasons.
He had so.. so much support to get his channel back up, even unlikely allies from 4-Chan’s \b\ area.

So, IHE does his videos a different way. He does “I HATE (BLANK)” videos, and he does them to get his point across. Also, he goes after what people really like, such as Minecraft. He knew he would get comments of people saying “FUCK YOU, Minecraft is AWESOME!!” Yet in his video, the only thing he “hates”, is because it’s over-saturated, which I completely agree. Not once did he say he actually hates Minecraft. And he says this again and again. He likes Minecraft.
And he proved points, again and again, that people will go out of their way to defend their favorite things of doing a ‘Comment Comeback’ video of going over the most stupid thought comments that he’s totally never seen being repeated.

My point is, he too when he started, he was offended by Youtube comments. But as time went on, he felt how ridiculously stupid these comments are, and just laughed at them. And this is the same thing other Youtubers have said. But what was different about IHE… he knew how to handle ‘threat’ comments. Because he knew 99% of them are from 9-12 year old kids who cannot do a fucking thing to him. This has even lead him to sometimes not even bother reading the comments; to let them fester for a bit.

And my second point, this is just one guy. He’s doing videos. And he’s having to comment him all on his own. So, if he can do it… why can’t I? Why can’t I get over my stupid, ridiculous fear of being insulted and just do what I love doing?

Remember in my absolutely embarrassing post in here when I admitted I lied about getting opinions, and how I said “I love feeling I’m in control”?
He knows he’s not in control of what people say. And really, that’s not even his job. He even said in one of his videos, he’s against censorship of anykind. It’s really the job of parents, not him. If parents raised their children better instead of been so busy with their lives, don’t you think the Internet could had been a better place by now?
I really love his attitude; how he either just facepalms and/or laughs at hateful comments, and I feel it’s time to change mine to reflect his. Just.. don’t give a FUCK what people tell you. Don’t feel you have to be nice to them! If you do what you love, then keep doing it!!

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Why taking advantage of the unknowning will never die

This is going to be a fun one, full of delicious tears for all the buttholes to drink. The first one goes to Time Warner Cable, my ISP.
As I mentioned earlier in the month, we switched from DirecTV to Dish. Well, the installer connected a Ethernet cable from the receiver to my cable modem. And since then, I was having ridiculous throttling of my speed.
I called TWC and they said it was a fault with the modem, and fixed it. Now I’m getting 30MB again. Then the guy tried to entice me to upgrade to their 50MB package (the top tier package).
I’m paying $65.33 a month, and that to me is a bit too much already, and he said it would go up to $75.33. Then he told me how there’s a promotional thing of that the bill would go up slowly, and I would be able to downgrade at anytime. So I agreed.

Now I find out my bill is $77.00, and it’s due on the 2nd of next month. What the hell happened to this promise that it would go up slowly?! But that wasn’t my only concern. Youtube has been acting up lately, getting ridiculously slow in the late afternoon and evening hours. Basically it’s the buffering speed. I like watching videos in 1080p, like most people. But when the issue happens, Youtube sets my setting to 480p for no reason. I have to force it to go at 1080p. And when I do, the buffering speed is horrible. Some times, when I have it paused, it just stops buffering. It’s a mess. And you know Google isn’t going to say “yeah, we’re doing it. We can’t afford better servers for Youtube, even though we’re swimming in cash.” They’re going to be pointing fingers at my ISP.
What’s funny, is this is exactly what it was doing when I had the 30MB plan(which is the $65.33 a month thing). So, what the fuck am I paying $12 more for?!

So I got ahold of TWC via their Live Chat, pissed as a wasp. Nearly lost it by saying “I heard ISPs like Time Warner are being paid by Google to throttle clients’ speed on Youtube”. The person never answered that question. I did eventually calm down, and all she did was transfer me over to Tech Support (in other words, putting the blame on my cable modem and not them).
Guy told me if I used other browsers to access Youtube. Said I only used Firefox. When he told me to access it through IE, I’m all “That’s just asking for viruses!”(didn’t say that to him).
I lied and told him that I was having the same issue there. At this time I came to the realization that I’m wasting my time; gotta do this when I’m having the issue instead of before.
He then tried to send a signal to reset my cable modem. It never worked. He told me to clear my cache… bad mistake on his part, and it caused the Live Chat to cancel itself. Should had told him “I was told to do this before, and it canceled the chat”, but I forgot. Also, before he sent this signal, I asked him “is Time Warner.. ‘Youtube HD Verified’?”(as I read from an article online of possibly why the slow buffering is happening, and he said Yes.
I don’t understand why he would be suspecting my cable modem of causing this. It’s Youtube! All the other websites I go to (even mine) work just fine!

So, I’ll deal with this problem later today (when it happens again.. and it will). I went back on to complain about where in the fuck was this “promotional offer” the guy on the phone promised. The person in Live Chat said “this IS the promotional offer”, and saying how it’s $109.99 normally…. $109.99?!?! That guy on the phone NEVER fucking told me this!! Nor did he tell me this new $77.33 bill will go up in a year. And I’m amazed of how brutally honest this person was with me.
So I tell them to go back to the 30MB plan.. and refused to pay the $77. And they do it without question. And before I ended the chat, I asked him if the bill will go back to $65.33 this month, and they said yes.
So now it’s down to 30MB, but the bill is now $69.67 instead of $65.33. I have to ask them once again, what the fuck is going on. This woman says “it’s the fact you made changes during your billing cycle”.. what a load of horse shit.
Then she says “after you will pay”….. I’m sorry, but you have no right to say “you will pay” to me. I will drop your service like a hot potato, bitch!
But she told me after the $69.67, it’ll go back down to $65.33. Then she tells me this too will go up in a year. Just can’t win, when they have no competition. I’m stuck with them.

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Well, now we move on to Gamefly. This has to do with this and this thread in my Games blog, related to Fallout 4 and Just Cause 3. With those links, I don’t think I need to give a brief overview.
I went hard on the rep here. She seemed to understand, yet says “I can’t do anything about it”. Bull-SHIT you can’t!! And I kept pleading her to do something, even going as far as saying “either fix this issue of people not sending back their rented copies… or I stop sending my payments”. And it was just more of “I can’t do anything”. Plus, she’s trying to change the conversation to “did you send back the game you rented?” And when I tell her yes, she says “well good, you’ll get your next game” instead of fucking doing anything about this.
I kept my cool, saying “You can’t do anything. You can’t give this to the higher ups? You can’t have a discussion to change this?”. Wanted to add “Then I guess I can’t seem to come up with the money to pay my bill! Yet there’s nothing I can do about it!”, but didn’t.
And then she finally says “I’ll send your concern to the higher people for review”. This unfortunately is all I’m going to get out of her. If they actually give a shit about one person’s opinion or not, remains to be seen.
But I did give her and Gamefly a warning: “If I’m not able to play and review these two games by September of this year, I WILL cancel my account.” and closed the window without a word. And she just seemed like “whatever, sir” through that entire chat. She didn’t give a fuck about me. Probably because I’m not one of their high-paying customers….

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The Hopper 3, a ‘beta receiver’ from DISH

If you’re here, then maybe you’re curious of the hardships I’ve been having with the Hopper 3. As I said in my Games blog, the Hopper 3 is very new. It came out in January 2016. Because of this, there are several things that need to be fixed with a patch.

The first thing.. well, actually this issue somehow fixed itself. But the Hopper 3 has apps, such as a Weather Channel app. When I went to it, the sound gets muted. I close out the app, and the sound is muted on all channels. So I turn off the Hopper and turn it back on. This restores the sound… yet I lose the picture.
So I have to preform diagnostics. And since I have the main receiver (the rest of the house has a Joey system), I can take out everyone’s signal to preform this. Of course, this is bad. This is why (obviously) I’ll only use it if there’s a real problem.
But by doing this, this restores the picture. Thankfully, the issue has fixed itself. So now I don’t have to do all of that shit.

The second issue (still waiting for a fix), the Pandora app thankfully links to my existing Pandora One account. So I can listen to my music on my TV, without using the app on my computer. And in the words of direwolf20… “Nice!”
The issue is the music channels. We have SirusXM, and DISH’s own music channels. The Pandora app, if you leave it alone for about a half an hour, will activate it’s ‘screen saver’ mode. It dims the screen, and shows the CD of the song being played in random locations of your TV. This is needed to protect the screen from being burned out. When we were with DirecTV, and you viewed their music channels, the screen would darken and you would see a box drifting around your TV, bumping into the sides that contains info of that song (Title, CD, etc…).
The music channels, do not have any of these features. The screen dims, but not anywhere as much as the Pandora app. Plus, the CD of the song isn’t bouncing around.
I called DISH about this problem, and all they did was leave it as customer feedback (and as a suggestion). So it’s unknown when (or if) we’ll see a patch for this. What really annoys me is I called before, and the guy told me the Hopper 3 does have an option. Yet for some reason I cannot access the diagnostic settings; it goes right back to the DISH Settings menu. And now I’m being told there is no screensaver for the Hopper 3.

And the final issue. When I load up my Hopper 3, it goes to the Home menu instead of what I’m currently watching. With DirecTV, I was able to turn on my receiver and switch to a channel before my TV shows the screen. Now I have to wait for it and then hit the Back button to be able to do it, as I cannot change channels on the Home screen.
There has to be a feature to make it work the way I want it. If not, I guess it’s something else they’ll leave as a feature request. 😛

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There is one more thing. It’s not an issue, but a slight annoyance. The Netflix app, I cannot access it ’till February 11th, yet the Joey system can. The reason is, once again, the newness of the Hopper 3. But the cool thing, is we get a year of Netflix for free (a $119.99 value).

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“Your ‘unlisted video’ idea is flawed”, most people say

Right… so I’ve been getting a few disturbing (yet also true) emails that how I’m uploading my videos, “is flawed”.
How? It’s obvious, really. See, I’ve told everyone who joins from my website, to not share the video. Yet there’s a few that have, and others even question why I’m doing this.

I think it’s time to give a confession. A confession a few people I know IRL(not naming names), would not be surprised at all. All of these “emails” that I claim I’m getting? Yeeeeeeep… they’re all made up. It’s my insecurity. I don’t know how to respond to ACTUAL emails about my website.
I can respond fine in forums and places like this, because they don’t have to do with my videos or any of my content. Yet this… this I can’t handle. Even writing this, I know no one is going to read it. No one comes to my website.

So why have I been making shit up like a unstable retard for several months? Because I like feeling like I have control in my life. I like feeling I can control what people say and do around me. Without control, I feel timid and unsure of myself. For this reason alone, is why I make up these email responses. It makes me feel popular, without having to deal with actual people who have their own opinions.

My main reason, is pretty obvious; there are unkind people in the world. You have to be pretty dumb(and lived under a rock since you were wearing a diaper) to say there isn’t. The internet breeds them like rabbits… rabid rabbits (aka Youtube’s comment section). Pretty much every video I’ve watched, there’s just so…. so much toxicity. And it isn’t just Youtube. It’s pretty much everywhere. This is why I just don’t wish to deal with the toxicity. Can you not blame me?
When it comes to people viewing my content, I have no problem with. Hell, I still remember how famous TheBeaverDam.com was… until I got the big head. You can read all of that in the History page on the website. And how I got that fame, was advertising my website. And the way we advertised websites back then, was using Guestbooks.

Now it’s 2016. Guestbooks are dead. News tickers.. good luck finding one that you don’t have to go through hell to install (and/or it costs money). Those were the old HTML4 days.
Also, that was a fan site of a popular TV show. This site is not related to anything. In my honest opinion, it really has no purpose of its existence. It’s just me, ranting after playing a game or discussing the future of whatever. It’s not a fan site. It’s not somewhere that you can get your sports scores or even give you your 7 day weather forecast… it’s really just, nothing.
To say “does a website HAVE to be something”.. in my eyes, yes. It gives it a purpose. Then you could say “then GIVE it a purpose!!”.. tell me how. I have no idea on how to improve this site. The ‘Blog Portal’ is still not done yet, because I just don’t like it.

So what does the website have to do with the Unlisted videos? I’ve explained this before I started. The reason is because, I want it that people who come to my website can view my videos, not Youtube(the toxicity I mentioned earlier). The only reason I use Youtube to upload, is because I can’t find any other place that will do this.
Yet like I also said earlier, this doesn’t stop people from sharing this with their friends (aka why it’s ‘flawed’). Yet it’s not really, because the source (of new people) is still the website. Even though the videos are on Youtube, you need to come to my website, the reason for said videos, to watch them.

So how do we fix this? Advertising the website. How? Beats me. Plus, who wants to see such a shitty-designed website anyway? Yes, I had that option to drop Arvixe and go to Weebly, but I don’t know what theme would work for my website. Even before, when my contact was showing me all of these templates, I couldn’t really decide. They all looked… not me. I don’t know how to work with them. I like simple designs that are easy to work with, yet I know most people do not.

It’s that unsure feeling; the feeling of not having control. “What will people say/do?” To say “SCREW other people’s opinions!!”… I can’t do that. I hate upsetting people (unless they deserve it).
Plus there’s also going to be people who try to help me by giving constructive criticism. Yet (I feel) often it would be advice that either I’m going to refuse to change (or I can’t do anything about it).
One of those refusals is moving away from SHAREfactory and using another editing program (such as “UGH.. why is this not in 1020p?!?!”). SHAREfactory is all I really need to do these really basic videos. There we go again, stating how I like “basic designs”.. just like my website. Hell, if it wasn’t for SHAREfactory, I wouldn’t even be doing videos.
I don’t even need people telling me how to improve. I know how I can improve, but improving requires effort that either I don’t have the time or the will to do.

So, now you know this, you’re probably asking me “why do you even waste your time doing videos and these reviews when no one watches them?”… consider it a hobby. I don’t need to be paid by Youtube. I don’t need the money. I actually love doing these videos. I love doing reviews. Yet like my blogs for many.. many years, I’m doing them for no one but myself. I guess I can say that this is similar to the way I play MMORPGs; by myself. I’m a loner, and I will always be a loner.


^ This is exactly why I don’t do my videos Public. Replace the clown with me, and the ‘ONK’ with my “Hey everyone!” video intro.
The last frame is me uploading anyway to no one, forever alone.

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Update: I’m still sick. :P

Today is officially one week since I got sick. My sore throat is pretty much gone. All I have left is an inflated head (stopped-up ears/stuffy nose/lightheadedness/occasional sinus pain) and coughing/congestion. Typical headcold.

It seems everything I try to take isn’t helping to ease the symptoms. Am I worried? No. I remember having similar symptoms before when I had occasional sinus infections. They always went away without any drugs in about a month. Though sometimes I had to go up to the Doctor and have my ears flushed out with water. Had it done twice. It both hurts and feels wild at the same time, especially afterwards when I’m suffering from severe dizziness; feels like the entire room is spinning and I’m going to faint at any second.
But when it fades, I feel better and it literally flushes my head to get rid of all of that mucus.

I’ve been spending my sick time watching Youtube videos; mainly of Vanoss and his many friends. They tend to play Gmod a lot, and also four of its popular mods; ‘Prop Hunt’, ‘Hide & Seek’, ‘Deathrun’, and (recently)’Guess Who’. They also play GTA Online, Dead Realm(that some of them helped to make the game), and… I think that’s pretty much all the games they currently play.
They’re really funny, and I recommend you all watch their hijinks(and also subscribe to all of their channels). Though it’s also bad when sometimes I laugh so hard that I can’t stop coughing.

So yeah. That’s what I’ve been doing. This Friday (during ‘Winter Storm Jonas’ as The Weather Channel calls it), I think I should feel good enough to restart my recording. And the next game I believe will be sent to me (that’s being delayed by the weather), is Knack. Going to be an interesting mini-playthough.
EDIT: Due to issues with the audio somehow being longer than the video (and other related issues), I’m delaying the recording for tomorrow.
I don’t know what happened, but I believe I know how to prevent it from happening. It’ll be done by tomorrow. I’d do it tonight, but it’s much too late (parents are sleeping).

EDIT2: I just got some emails, some of you are looking forward to tomorrow’s video. Again, I’m sorry I couldn’t do it today. I wanted to get it done, yet some reason when I stopped the recording after doing my outro and threw both parts in SHAREfactory, Audacity’s recording didn’t match up with the two parts; even after removing the initial delay before I start doing my intro. I just couldn’t figure it out. It was bogging my mind.
So I have no choice but to try again, but this time I need to watch my timer very closely (got it set to 29:59) and then stop it. An initial test of this was successful, and then I discovered the game has subtitles. And it’s kind of a rule for a video to have subtitles of the game they’re showing (for the hard of hearing). Also, it’s the right thing to do.

The other emails ask “Are you going to do videos of games you’ve reviewed in the past, but never did a video for”. That answer is No. It would defeat the suggestion you guys gave me of having initial reaction videos. I do see from some of you, that my earlier reviews (that didn’t have a review) aren’t as helpful as my current ones. For that I apologize, but it was the reason I started doing the videos.

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“Do a mini-playthrough instead of a Review video!”

Right, so I apologize for how long it’s taken to get my latest video review out. I’ve been having some issues with trying to get the audio set right. Mainly, I’ve been experimenting. But these experiments are making me really lose interest in doing these videos.
My main issue (and complaint) I’ve been getting from my videos, is the fact I studder.. a lot. Unfortunately, studdering isn’t something I can just edit away. Well…. actually I could, but, my editing tools are very limited. With SHAREfactory, there’s no way I can edit the audio and the video together, to ensure that both are perfectly sync’d. Plus, I hate cutting the video. I feel like I’ll leave out parts I actually like (and then be pissed I was forced to cut them due to my damn studdering).

And the reason I studder, is because I don’t use a script when I explain about the game. As I said before, reading off of a script doesn’t feel natural to me. But there’s more of a personal issue. With the way my eyes are, they have trouble trying to find the exact line I need to read in a split second while also playing the game. I suck at multitasking. I can only do one task at a time.
In doing videos, I cannot read a script and play a game at the exact same time(and expect not to studder while doing so). Even when both monitors are at eyesight. Plus, my brain preforms slower than most people. It takes time for it to produce words.. even ones on a script. I often have to ‘wing it’, especially when I’m about to run out of time of the 15 minute PS4 recording limit.

All of this is making me … just not want to do these videos anymore. As much as I love doing them, it’s just too stressful for me. I’m trying to make them into ‘oh so serious’ reviews, and I end up ruining it.
Thankfully, there is help out there for people like me. Such as a website called ‘YTtalk.com’. It’s a forum with a really nice community of Youtubers. Though most of them are small channels, or don’t do any of the content that I do.
The reason why they’re so nice, is because of auto-moderation of new posts and responses. It’s a bit of annoyance, not going to lie. Especially when I need to make a fast reply to someone that responded to my post, and the response won’t show up publicly for 10+ minutes due to auto-moderation. But it does keep the toxicity in check.

Anyway, I’ve asked them if it was worth doing these videos. I told them all the hell I went through when recording — how I could never get the volume level the way I want (but that’s been fixed by not using the cheap ass mic that the PS4 comes with).
I even showed them some of my unlisted videos, and that’s pretty brave of me.

And then the responses came in. There were plenty. A few suggested that to just drop doing the videos, as I don’t need two sources of reviews. Others suggested to find a friend that could help me manage this. Meh…
However, a good majority liked one particular post who suggested I take this in a different approach. He suggested to leave my ‘oh so serious’ reviews on my blog, because he sees I’m better typing it out than I am explaining it in a video, and this is very true. With a blog, my brain (and myself) have all the time in the world to think of what to say. Also, he didn’t understand why I’m doing my review in two formats; blog and video. I responded saying that the video was a way to explain what I mean in my written review.

So his main suggestion, is to do the video first, then the review. What he means, is the video will be my ‘first glimpse’ of the game; to base my review off of this.
I asked him how should I go about doing this. He suggested I call the videos “PS4 Mini-Playthoughs”(as they pretty much are).
He also suggested for my actual review, to make a list of all the things I saw (a ‘report card’ of the game) by doing the following;
Info of game (he said to keep this).
Features. (A brief description of the game)
Story (explain the plot).
Main Character (explain abilities).
Side Characters (any other known characters the game is trying to show me).
Enemies.
Levels.
Final Review (he said to keep this).

With this, I feel making videos will be less stressful. I’ll actually have fun doing it, as I’m supposed to. He also suggested not to be ashamed of my studdering. I can’t thank him enough for this suggestion.

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Happy New Year from Benies-Blogs.com!

HAPPY NEW YEAR, readers!!! 2015 is over in EST. The holiday season is over, and 2016 is here to stay! To mark this day, I have have the first blog post in my General blog of 2016!
Let’s hope this is going to be a good year for all of us, with no fears or major setbacks.

2015 brought a lot of hardship to me, yet it hasn’t been as harsh as other years. Angry left me(and to be perfectly honest… was one of the best things to happen to me), but I’m now in full control of a website since the late 90’s(but this time, it’s not a fansite), and I’m not about to stop any time soon. As long as my hoster, Arvixe, keeps my website up, I won’t bitch! 🙂

*raises a toast* To another year of good reviews, and hopefully good games! Here to Blizzard (hopefully) learning from their mistakes of WoD! Also, here to exploring new areas in Wurm Online and staying alive long enough to make a blog post about it!
CHEERS!!

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