Benie's General Blog

Another week of drama, except this one just might end on a highly positive note. Now to just figure out how to start it off… oh, yeah. One thing before I start this.
Natethief, has decided against confronting Ashi (due to what he could possibly do to him). Instead, he wants to be like Creepery, and defend the community. And I respect his decision.
Now, on with the two topics of discussion. The second one is much, much longer than the first. So get comfortable (if you care to read it all).

Discussion #1: “Is Ashi done?”
I decided to DM Lazerwolf, about a week after Jrock had informed me the drama was isolated. I should had done it sooner, but I felt “there’s nothing I can do”. Luckily, he seemed cool with the delay, thanking me for checking up on him and saying that he’s been doing a lot better (and adding that Darks is taking care of him). Though I was confused why he was calling me “hun” (and even hugging me). I’ve never known him to say that to me ingame. Still, I went with it.
Hearing he’s doing better, it seemed Ashi … maybe finally saw he’s been wrong all of this time. At least, I pray (for his sake). So I told everyone I could of the good news. They all were quite happy that Lazer was doing great.
—
Yesterday, however… I got a slightly different version from an unlikely source; John. The guy that said he was done with all the drama (after what happened to me with the Best Boi Discord server). But due to a discussion (about the second topic I’ll discuss in detail), he told me, that 1) Ashi tried to create another community.. it’s obvious he knows about the group chat Covita set up. But it didn’t last long due to.. 2). Lazer gave DarksAnthro access to his Discord and VRChat accounts, to troll Ashi with it. And Ashi eventually discovered it (and shut down the community).
That also explains why ‘Lazer’ called me “hun”.. that was Darks, not Lazer I spoke to that day. Clever.
In addition, John said that Ashi has quit VRChat and Discord; “and does not plan on returning.” I want to say this is great news.. but knowing Ashi, I doubt this’ll be the last I hear of him. Then again, hopefully he’ll stay gone.
EDITOR’S NOTE: … As I said, I knew he would return. And he did. Bastard’s like Hotel California. He ‘checks out’ whenever something goes wrong for him, but he never (fully) leaves!

Discussion #2: “Could Creepery whip the mods into shape?”
With Ashi out of my life (for now), I can focus on a recurring problem within the Best Boi community. Though.. is it really a problem, or myself overreacting again?
To start off this second topic of discussion, I have some good news: two days ago, Creepery became a moderator! A trial mod, but still a mod! Finally, his life-long dream is being fulfilled (until this Saturday, when his trial ends). I’m so very happy for him, and I hope the mods allow him to be a permanent moderator (he deserves it, for all he’s done for the community).
The reason he’s even a trial mod, is because of what happened to Zura (who will be talked about in this discussion). Though he’s worried that if Zura returns, he’ll be removed as a moderator.
—-
However, this didn’t go without controversy. Lycan, and Iceburg attempted to troll him (at least, from my POV). And like the good friend I am of Creepery, I defended him against these threats. Eventually I toned it down when Impulse had to get involved (after telling him what they said). It ended with Ice attempting to test my patience, but I resisted (hoping he’ll leave me alone).
Also informed Creepery, who was close to leaving the community (but was told “they were just playing around”).. pfft, joke or not, you are supposed to respect moderators. If this was the MRT Server, they would be given a warning (instead of a slap on the wrist, as what I feel they got here).
That evening (with Creepery sleeping), we had another one. They were saying “Creepery is a mod? *multiple laughing emojis* Man that made my day wtf” My response was “How about you actually show him respect?”, followed by “All of you. Stop judging him. Give him a chance. Please.”
Sadly, as much as I hoped I finally got through to them (given how long it took until someone responded), this turned into an argument over a ‘joke’. And then someone else got involved, who was chewing my ass out (saying “he didn’t mean to say that”). On top of it, Impulse (the person I thought who was on my side)… was agreeing to this person (about how I was wasting my time and shit, and even had the nerve to tell me to go outside).
I was fucking furious at this person, who clearly was too blind to see what the fuck was going on (and had NO fucking business being in this conversation). But something also snapped in my brain, where I said “You know, you’re right. You’re absolutely right. It is a waste of time defending my best friend.” And then Impulse said “you could be working on being a moderator instead of causing drama”.
I wanted to rip this guy a new one, but instead I went to Creepery’s Discord server’s Sad Channel, hoping to get some support. I’m all “Impulse (who’s also in the server), you see yourself a failure (from a previous conversation of how bad the last meeting went), look at me. I can’t even fucking defend my friend right!!”
Impulse finally saw what I was trying to do again, and apologized to me. He states the reason why he said what he did, was to get people to just shut up and drop the conversation. I soon felt that I wasn’t a waste of oxygen anymore (which is good). But it was too late to confront the guy that should had stayed out.

The next day, I was ready to ‘talk’ to this guy, who was quite surprised I would come after him. Though, I was too busy being in a blinding rage to see that he was talking to the guy, and getting him to apologize to Creepery. Even though I appreciate him doing so, I was still quite furious (as it seemed no matter how I attempted to approach the situation (even calming down at one time and attempting to get him to reason), he was defending this guy). Why? This was no joke, and I told him that I’m tired of seeing this disrespect.
Eventually it got to a point, where he is getting pissed off at me, and saying he’s going to block me. And I’m all “block me, then. I enjoy creating enemies.” Then I stopped responding to him.
Pal, you pissed ME off first. Don’t play the victim card (like Ashi). After then, I told Creepery that I’m not going to defend him anymore (since this is the result). But there’s one thing the guy said, that I actually agree with; Creepery needs to defend himself (and stop being so nice).
It’s that niceness, that triggered those people to troll him (as they know how Creepery acts). Saying to “have a Happy Best Boi Day!” feels too much, even to me. Plus, he’s also worried that he’s going to lose points for not attending this Friday’s meeting. I have told him over and over, that it won’t happen.
Even on the MRT Server, it’s not a requirement to be on every day (as a mod). However, with the GSMs, I believe you have to tell the admins of why you’re not able to attend. I’m not sure if that’s still the case with that server (not that I care, since I’m not a mod anymore).

As for the guy who pissed me off, I told the Sad Discussion (and a few others) how this guy is pissed off at me (for no reason.. I was quite confused (at the time)), and he hates me now (and blocked me).
It’s now yesterday, and Creepery’s all “no more. I’m done” (after getting what I told him). But like before, some of the admins calmed him down. Impulse also promised him, that there will be another discussion of respect within the community (during the meeting). That also goes to what I went through to defend him.
For the remainder of the day, we had another discussion about how the mods don’t care about the community (in the Sad Discussion). This is when John spoke up, and discussed it with us (acting like “you guys are talking about something I already know”).
This is when John and I started having a private discussion, starting about Lazer, and continuing with the community. He also told me about Zura. From what Creepery told me (who was told by the mods), that “he tried to start drama”… this isn’t true (according to John). He says, Zura had enough of the corruption and tried to do something about it, and was demoted for his action.
This put an idea into my head (that just might work). Since Creepery is so nice (and wants only the best for the community), he could use this to his advantage and get people to support him. However, given the fact he’ll be graded for his performance this Saturday, he could use this time to get the mods to actually care for the community (and enforce the rules).
And if they demote him (because of it), I’ll ask him to let everyone know in the community (with myself (and hopefully John) backing him). If this causes us to be banned, then we’ll go down together (as friends). I pray this causes a civil war, and forces the mods (and/or Kibble) to finally act. With three people (instead of one), people should take notice, and the mods won’t be able to treat it as “starting drama”.
—-
The mods clearly need a wakeup call. Stop only doing something if it’s an emergency, and actually interact with the community. Don’t let Kibble be the only one that does it (when he comes on with his Johnny Bravo impression)! Okay, sure. Twitchin sometimes pops up (with Bassmik), but she’s either getting drunk or streaming (or doing both at the same time). That’s not a good thing to do when you’re a moderator. She could at least use her stream, to show video proof of problems.. but no, she just blocks them (as they interrupt her stream). WTF?!
I mean.. even Ashi was right (when he told me “this is NOT the way to handle the situation!” (during the aftermath of the plaque incident)). Why. Why are they doing this? And most importantly, why aren’t other people seeing this as a problem? It’s like I’m playing as the devil’s advocate here.
There’s a possibility, that not only do the mods need to wake up, but the community as well. It’s time to stop being fed BS, and see that things aren’t nice here. Though that’s easier said than done. And this made me start to doubt myself that my plans even have a chance of working. Perhaps, I really am playing devil’s advocate. Should I even care for this community anymore? Why am I still here, if it’s “so bad” to me?
Because, leaving doesn’t solve the problem. Action, will. Plus, as before, I have no games that are fully pulling me out of VRChat (unlike Wurm, or even Minecraft, which are my fallback games.. both of them are too uninteresting (at the moment) to come back to).
—
All I can hope for, is Creepery to continue working on getting the community on his side.. one new person at a time. He even thwarted a problem on the server, all on his own! And they thanked him too. This erases my doubt. He also got praise on the Discord server to boot. I too would had praised him, but given what happened to me.. I stayed quiet. Instead, I did it in a DM to him.
—
Also, switching gears, the guy that pissed me off (which pissed him off)? John talked to him, who DMd me and was pissed that he never blocked me. Strange, as that’s not how it works. But whatever. First, I tried to convince him about supporting the movement to stop the BS (which he threw away, saying “stop forcing things on people”), then it went back to the argument we had. Eventually, I settled the matter (as it was going nowhere), saying I will apologize, if he apologizes first. And we did. I also apologized for his claim that I was “spreading lies” about him hating me.
—
I actually felt sorry for him, saying I would make it up to him (by him giving me the names of anyone who attempts to ‘defend’ me, so I can talk to them personally).
I wish it never turned into that mess, but I did ask him not to barge in on conversations that he has no business being in. He said he was defending the guy (as I was defending Creepery), but understands what I was trying to do. So now we got two defenders, who wish this never happened.

And that… that is basically all I got for you. I may or may not rewrite parts (or the entirety) of this blog post. Until the next drama bomb.

For those that might be wondering if the drama has stopped in VRChat (because I haven’t been doing any more posts about it).. no, no it hasn’t. However, it made me realize something that I never saw before. But I’ll get to that later.
So, if you remember from last time, where I said that a group chat was created to discuss this (and I was taking pictures of anything noteworthy that Ashi was saying).
Well, he’s said a lot, from saying he was “in a coma” and “just got back home from the hospital” from the drama (when he was actually streaming), to saying he was deleting Triggerpull’s downloaded models (which is unknown if it was true or not).
But there’s one thing Ashi did that was a ‘positive’ thing (despite being a ‘Dramafur‘ as Covita calls him)… he brought us all together as friends.
—
There was also something else going on, that the group wasn’t aware of; a guy named ‘Natethief’, who was ready to tear Ashi a new one (and end the drama). The reason, was because of the life the guy lived. Having been wronged by a mentor who helped him out while being a Youtuber (of doing videos about Uncharted 4 on the PS4 (using the same method I did, when I was doing videos last year)).
However, I don’t think his ‘services’ are needed. At least, not right now. Again, more on this later.
—
And finally, there’s Jrock. The one that ‘introduced’ us to the potential drama bomb that would happen if Kibble didn’t do something (and it’s also how I friended Ashi, and Jero). Seeing him on the Best Boi server (after unblocking him), we went to my world to discuss Ashi’s latest theatrics.. along with a guest, named ‘Alexthewolf’ who only now heard what was going on.
He was as aggressive-passive as Covita said he was (even though he has a few good points). One in particular, saying this drama should had ended a LONG time ago. But just as before, he states “there’s nothing we can do, except watch as one community falls apart”. Then he leaves, and I left with Alex, who tells me a lighter side of Jrock. He says that Jrock called him on Discord late at night, and was “in tears”, talking about his friends and stuff.
I discover a few days later, that he (Jrock) has a plan (that got him as a co-owner of the Discord server).  He’s trying to win the trust of Ashi. But instead of betraying him, he’s going to try to slowly remove the drama from the inside. I wish him the best of luck in his attempts.

Today, Ashi pulled the plug on hosting a VRChat server, and changed the Discord server name to ‘Ashi’s Besties’. Informing the group, they were pretty sure that I would be kicked out of the server.. and they were right. And just like the last time I was booted from his Discord server, it didn’t go any better the second time for me. Again, I felt I ‘failed them’.. especially when one of the people that are with us, was still there.
This was when, the depression started to settle in. Covita, who went through this a hell of a lot worse with Ashi (than I ever did), he never had Ashi blocked. His reasoning was to tease him. And this started to become a theme for some of the others.
—
The whole reason I re-blocked Ashi… it wasn’t because of what he said and did to those guys, it was to prevent him from giving me BS about how they were bad people. I was seeing his lies, right infront of me. And I was sure he would try to tell me alllll about it (didn’t want to hear his lies).
Yet from the moment this entire “Ashi is a lying, manipulative bastard” thing started, he never once wronged me. He never called me an asshole (unlike the others). He never blocked me (I blocked him). And there was never a time, where I heard him (ingame), being like he is in Discord. He never once had bad feelings for me. So why not unblock him (again), and talk to him?
—
But now I won’t have to, for Jrock has given me news of his ongoing mission to end the drama. “Mission completed” he says, stating that “the servers are no more”, and the drama has been contained between himself, Lazerwolf, and DarksAnthro. This is both good (and bad) news. Good news, is this is no longer affecting the Best Boi community (and hopefully never will).
…But the bad news, the drama is still happening. Look, I’m sorry about how I acted before, thinking “ehh, Lazer and Darks can handle themselves”.. NO! I was wrong, very wrong. They. are. my. FRIENDS!!! And friends stick together! I can’t believe, I forgot that Lazer is going through so much emotional stress (thanks to Ashi), that he might consider suicide! How could I possibly be friends with someone that’s capable of doing that?!
I cannot! I have to stand up to my friends.. even though we don’t talk much, they are still my friends!

I think I just might utilize my ‘last resort’, since Jrock seems to not be interested in ending the drama completely. Ashi must be stopped, and held accountable. This has gone on for far too long.

This is something that I didn’t really care to talk about (as it was personal for Covita), and I probably never would. But due to .. let’s say “a changed opinion” of the friends of Ashi, this is something I need to get off my chest (and into text format).
Anyway, this started a day after I found out Ashi was betraying his friends (and the day before the ‘game-breaking’ update). Creepery said (in the Best Boi Discord server), that he managed to get in an old version of the Best Boi lands, and is all “come one, come all!!” I decided to hop in, curious. Noticed that this was the world state that I first joined VRChat (when the CowBoi’s were the main thing).

Then I started hearing (as I spawned in) “he’s here. Benie’s here”. Creepery saw me, and asked to follow him into the catacombs. I had no idea what was going on (but went with it), thinking I did something wrong.
We get to a lower part of the catacombs to start talking. And he tells me that “Ashi is in Best Boi”. And I said “wow.. really? Dude, you already told me they allowed him in.” But he said how Ashi is nice and all. Standing firm, I said “that’s good, but I’m leaving him blocked.” He sighs, saying “I know, Benie… but he didn’t say anything bad about you. Just that you blocked him.”
I sighed too, reminding him why Ashi’s still blocked. The fact he lied to me. The fact he fucking framed me (that got me banned from the Best Boi Discord server).
Eventually, we respawned back. There wasn’t as many people here, apart from Covita (aka ‘The Lonely’). Seeing now we’re the only three here, I got them into the chapel and told Creepery that “this is Covita, this is the person that’s been giving me info ever since I was banned.” Then looked at the guy and thanked him for being a huge asset.
We started talking about ‘our favorite subject’: Ashi. And Covita talked about how he has directly affected his life, for nearly 10 minutes (while checking if anyone joined). Suddenly, a few joined and we shut the fuck up.
Then Covita said “we need a private server”, and I knew just the place; my world. But I had to wait for the right moment to get both Creepery and Covita to get over to an awaiting portal (and make sure we’re not followed). But I really didn’t need to, as I could had easily gone to my world and then send them invites (though I never thought of this being an option). Covita reminded me that it was, and I did.
Covita joined the world (my larger world), but Creepery kept having issues (aka, similar to what I’m now seeing).
Seeing how he wasn’t able to join, I decided to try the smaller world (which worked better (and still does to this day)). There, the three of us continued our conversation (with no threat of anyone joining. Private world FTW).
This is when we discovered, a quite messier side of Covita. A side I’m not going to be discussing in here (as I promised it wouldn’t leave the world). This is kind of why I wasn’t sure if making a blog post about this, was really needed (due to all the other shit I was dealing with).
Anyway, Covita does not believe Ashi is suffering from anything. He says, that this is the way he typically is. How he loves to control the situation, and loves to manipulate people.. like Creepery, to unblock him. Creepery too tells us, that Ashi (or someone else), told him to do things that he’s not exactly comfortable in doing. Wow. What a bastard. No wonder he’s betraying his friends.. but he’s trying to turn mine against me.
I KNEW he would do this!

.
Now the day (well.. 1am morning since the day the patch came out), here I’m seeing Telephone’s podcast, and seeing Ashi there. Yet I also noticed, Jero was actually talking to him. It started to puzzle me. If he betrayed his friends… then why is Jero friends with him again? This is something I never addressed to Creepery (as I really didn’t want to involve him in this mess anymore). Let Ashi be my problem, not his.
Now it’s day, and I’m still seeing Jero (and all of Ashi’s friends), still talking to him.
“WTF happened?! Why are they friends with Ashi again, after he betrayed them?!” And then it started to eat at me, more and more as the evening went on.. to the point that I finally had Jero alone (in another world, while his friends are busy talking in the center of the room).
I look him right in the eyes, and ask him (in a hushed tone).. “are you still friends with Ashi?” And he shocks me, saying yes (and that he’s his top moderator). So I’m all “but.. what happened before? You guys told me that he betrayed his friends!” And he says “Ashi had a nervous breakdown when he did that.” Could this had been because I blocked him? I didn’t ask that (even though now since I brought it up, I should had), but asked “so, everything’s OK now?” And he said “Yeah.” And all “Alright, thank you. I have no other questions.”
But as he walked away, I said “please don’t tell Ashi we had this conversation.” And he said “I won’t.”

*puts hands to nose and mouth, rubbing it as that’s what he usually does when something’s bugging him*
I still don’t get it. Ashi.. LIES! Have we fucking forgotten about that!? Yet, Jero wouldn’t lie to me. I trust him more than Ashi right now.
I need to talk to Covita about this. Get his opinion, on what I should do. Hell, I almost wish I could just unblock Ashi, get him alone… and hopefully finally settle the grudges I have against him. I want him to tell me, everything. Everything, that started this stupid drama, to what has lead up to this point.
“Why did you kick me out of your Discord server, just because I was allied to the Best Bois? Look.. I’m sorry for being a ‘spy’, but I was worried what you might do to the community! I care for it, so much. Please understand that.”
And questions like this. I want him to answer for all of his crimes against me. This shit is no longer a community drama thing. It’s between myself and Ashi– the once-threat to the Best Boi community (or so the mods had told us). But since they’re no longer holding a grudge (yet I am)…

Ashi… no more lies (or manipulating), And no more “I left VRChat because Kibble picked on me!!” lies. Please. I.. want to be friends again. I want to not ‘hate’ you anymore.
Just, give me a reason to believe that you won’t fuck with me (like in the past)!! That’s all I really ask. I don’t care about your problems. I just want you to STOP. Be the person that I could hang out with again, on your server.
Be.. what I remembered before this mess started.
——
Honestly, I don’t even know why I’m like this. Ashi, doesn’t control my life. Why am I ‘allowing’ it? …Because I don’t want the past to repeat itself (like it did when being in ‘defending a community mode’). It’s one thing to give a person a second chance, but it’s another when that second chance could accompany a drama knife to the back.
And I’m not sure if I want to take the risk of being (metaphorically) stabbed.

.
UPDATE#1: So.. this is a thing. ROCKET, one of the mods of the Telephone Fan Club (along with 88.24% of people who voted ‘Yes’ in a Strawpoll), wants Ashi to be re-banned from the Best Boi server. Infact he tried to push it to Kibble as a viable option, forgetting that the server is no longer holding a grudge to any community.  And after  learning it, he immediately said “poll’s closed, we can’t do this”.  That’s when I saw the names of the people (not naming names) that had voted Yes (who were quite unhappy with the decision).
I never voted, as I’m trying to remain on a semi-aggressive neutral stance with this (aka, not allowing Ashi to fill my head with potential lies).
Yet, he has none nothing major since being allowed to come back. I don’t understand why the others aren’t seeing this. Perhaps, ROCKET has been touched by the drama in.. quite inappropriate ways.
I might need to talk to him about this. Maybe have myself, Creepery, Covita and Rocket in my world, to discuss this.

.
UPDATE #2: After a 5 minute discussion, Ashi has convinced me that what happened during the whole drama mess, none of what he did was targeted at me.
While in Best Boi lands (and showing more people the path to the ‘Baby Boi’), I saw Ashi online in my Social tab, and thought “meh.. fuck it. I’ve got to talk to him. I got to end this, once and for all.” and unblocked/unmuted him. With BestDook there, I tried to get him alone and said I had unblocked Ashi, and wanted to talk to him.. “but on neutral grounds”, and then ran behind the church to do the discussion.
Ashi eventually came to me, as the floating torso avatar. And the first question I asked, was literally what I said above; “did you frame me, and get me banned?” And he said, “No”… adding on: “I didn’t even know you were banned.” And he started DMing Charms about it, while I told him about John and BestDook. He also told me, that he had nothing against me. And said how he kicked me out of his server, to protect me from people that wrong me (and it had nothing to do with me being a spy for the Best Bois). Why he didn’t just say this to me (back then), is unknown. He also adds that “I had to kick everyone out, to protect them.”
So that means Ashi… is innocent. And when I told him about “certain people” (to not name names) said how he’s betraying his friends and being a manipulator, he said that it was “people spreading lies to make me look bad”.
—-
Eventually, he got his answer from Charms. He said that “multiple people” were trying to get me in trouble. And, I believe him. BestDook has already told me, he was the one that framed me (but greatly apologized). Though, it still surprises me that BestDook would go out of his way to wrong me (and then on top of it.. lie to me saying Ashi gave him the info).
But, screw it. I’ll let it go. All of that is now in the past. He’s convinced me that he’s telling the truth, and only wants to move on from this (as much as I do). And so, I unblocked him from Discord, and he invited me to the ‘New Dook City’ server (his new server, as the old one is gone).
—-
Let this be a new chapter for me in VRChat, finally free of all the past drama. He also claims he doesn’t stab his friends in the back. So, we’ll see.
I’m just glad that I finally manned up and did it (and now it’s all behind me).

Getting on today, Creepery alerted me to some quite troubling news.. due to the fact we’re no longer ‘at war’ with any community (and (the mods) will not tolerate any future wars), Ashi is no longer ‘kick on sight’ and is allowed back into the Best Boi server.
I don’t think I have to tell you, that this will likely have serious consequences. I don’t even think the mods know, he still very much hates the Best Bois. Though to look at this from a neutral standpoint, the worst that’ll happen is he’ll be placed back on banishment from the server if he tries anything. But one thing’s for sure– this is going to cause unwanted stress on the community as a whole.
Then again, that’s the good, neutral way of looking at it. The bad way, is the members of the community begin to get banned from the Discord server (for the same exact reason I was (except it was a mistake)), even though they received reports Ashi’s starting drama.
It could go both ways. I only pray it goes ‘the neutral way’ (if he starts shit, which he likely will if anyone triggers him). Soooo… let’s not try to trigger him (by not even hinting at drama), shall we?

I pray Ashi never becomes an Admin of the Best Boi Discord server. Because if that ever happened, it would be signing its ‘death warrant’.
—
But there’s one more thing that greatly worries me (now that Ashi has been allowed back in the server). What if, he manages to turn the mods against me (because I have him blocked in VRChat and Discord), and they saw it as an ‘act of aggression’?
My common sense (which I pray is right (for once)) says that this cannot be possible, as you should not be criticized of who you’ve blocked. Plus, who’s to say they’ll even believe him (over me)?
They cannot possibly tell me to unblock him, or be banned….. could they? And if they did, good-bye Best Boi community (forever). I wouldn’t fucking give them a chance to ban me. I would leave on my own free will.. but on one condition: I get to be all Kliener in Half-Life 1, and say “I tried to WARN you!! ALL of you! Ashi is NOT to be trusted! Ginger was right, and so was Bonnie!”
Those would be my last words before leaving the server. And I hope I don’t have to say them.
—
Let’s just say, if this does happen to me (and again, I pray it doesn’t)… the server won’t last much longer (as I will be telling all of my friends, to leave while you can). Hopefully, they’ll listen to me (before it’s too late).
But until all hell breaks lose in VRChat, I will keep it cool. I’ll even join Ashi’s server (since the lying bastard is blocked). I don’t give a flying fuck anymore if this causes an “international uproar” in both communities. Kick me if you must, but I have a right (as a VRChatter) to go to any server I choose (that is public). If you don’t like it, then make it private.

But there’s also something else that got my attention (yes.. always something else with this game). Later on this evening, I was about ready to talk to Creepery again (in Discord).. and noticed the “Vrchat Telephone fan club’ Discord server, is no longer available in my server list. Since Creepery is offline right now (and might be the only one to give me the actual reason), the only way I’ll think of what caused it is giving out several assumptions.
But I’ve come up with two solid ones, based on what happened yesterday;
1. I got kicked.
2. The server was closed by the creator.

I guess I best explain myself… yesterday, there was someone called ‘Glacey’ (who joined the same day this started) who claims they said racist remarks against the Best Bois three weeks ago. But instead of keeping my mouth shut (and watching ToL on my TV), I played dumb and was all “What drama? There’s no drama here.” Not really the best idea I’ve had (especially with seeing Ashi attempting to reply to my responses(only to see ‘1 BLOCKED MESSAGE’ as the response)). On top of that, I wanted this person (in public) to keep talking about what they did.
Let me just do the double facepalm for you guys. Don’t strain yourselves.

Today, I was still in this server. But Glacey (once again) was talking about the drama (yet in a complete 180, saying “let’s stop the war!!”).. so um, why in the fuck did you call them ‘Nazis’ in the first place, dumbass? The irony is painful.
As for myself, I did keep my mouth shut. But I guess the “damage has already been done” and I got kicked.
—–
…But now I know exactly what happened. Ashi. went. insane, and kicked everyone thinking they’re all spreading drama.. even Telephone.
How did I know? The guy who created the server, I was able to access the invite link to the server (that he originally gave me). The server is now called ‘Shithole’.
Climbing through the wreckage of what started out as a fantastic idea, to show Telephone just how much we appreciate her work, I saw Ashi losing his mind talking about “removing all the drama” from the server. At one time it had calmed down (with him talking about working on a few models), then it restarted with someone saying for “everyone to calm down”.. to where it got much worse; arguing with the other mod there (and everyone else). Instead of trying to stop drama, he was causing his own. But instead of the mod kicking him… he made fun of him about Ashi “can’t have nice things”.
About five or so minutes after I joined, I was kicked out again. I didn’t say a word, was only gathering info to post in here. And I’m not going to rejoin (as it would make matters worse). I actually feel pretty dumb for doing that.. but it was the only way to know what actually happened (word for word). And this is probably what’s happening to Ashi’s Discord server. I now have proof to back the claims of people that were telling me, that Ashi is turning on his friends.
But, why now? Why didn’t he do it when he became an Admin? At first I had assumed Glacey was an ‘obvious Ashi supporter’ (never said this in public), but from what I’ve observed, this person triggered him.. and of course my words didn’t help the situation.
I dunno why it’s so fucking hard for me, to think before I react. It’s a human emotion, but it’s also one that can be controlled (with discipline).

UPDATE: Slash has created another server, called ‘Telephone VrChat Hub’. Rule #1 is, Ashi is not allowed (and will be banned if he tries to get in here). Very, very glad to hear that (having an ‘anti-Ashi’ group). In ways, it pains me, but he’s too far gone now.
I also DMd him, asking “why did you make Ashi an Admin?” He says that Ashi ‘wanted to help out’.. ohh yeah, he “helped out” alright, by gutting the first server.
Glacey also joined the new server. But I quickly DMd them and begged them not to post any more drama in there, and they agreed. So as long as they say nothing (about drama), I’ll say nothing.
And unfortunately (thanks to Ashi)… Telephone doesn’t know if she should come to a group chat ever again. But we hope, with time, she might reconsider (and giving it a second chance).

This shit almost makes me want to go back to WoW. Not that I really miss it (which I don’t), but bitching at Blizzard (and whining about how I’m such a shit Hunter with bad DPS) has to be more ‘fun’ than talking about drama in a community-based game.
Infact, most of today I’ve been going over my old posts from four years ago (of before and after I became a beta tester for Warlords of Draenor).
“Good” times.

Oh hey, this mess again! Hello there. Just to make this perfectly clear: this and ONLY this (unless another community owner starts blaming the Best Bois for something) is to remain on neutral grounds — no excuses.
Anyway, even though I ‘banned’ myself from Ashi and his server, I still can’t help but feel to hear him out. That is, until I see another instance (in the Hyena Discord server) of “Ashi left VRChat due to Kibble saying mean things to him”… which I know is a complete lie. “Ashi is still lying, why even bother talking to him (when he’ll just lie to you again)?” I have a reason for this.. there’s a bit of good in every human being out there, even terrorists, and people with a devil ritual symbol on their forehead.
No one was born evil. That’s what I’m trying to say. And so there has to be some good in Ashi as well. It’s all a matter of ‘prying it open’… but is it really worth the effort?

Today, during the meeting, it was announced that we are to no longer have any aggression to any community (even the ‘endangered species’ of the Ugandan Knuckles). Aka, no more raids, and no more Knuckles dropkick animation.
Simply put: no more drama shall be mentioned within the community. As much as I want to agree with this, my gut feeling knows this rule will not be enforced by all. But with that said, they’ll be at the receiving end of Bonnie’s banhammer.
Not to mention, it also feels a bit too strict. What about accidental skirmishes? The internet isn’t exactly puppies and candy, you know.
And with those words said by the mods, made me wonder if should try to convince Ashi to agree on neutral terms (aka.. no more bullshit “Kibble’s mean to me, I’m leaving!!”), and if I could freely go to his server again. Yet how in the fuck would I be able to phrase it (where it won’t come back to harshly bite me in the ass)?! I needed another way to get to Ashi.
—
Seeing Jero (one of Ashi’s inner friends) during the ‘let’s see what Kibble has done for the world this week’ party, I told Creepery that I have to talk to the guy. Yet even that, I wonder if it was worth it. What if it’ll cause more unnecessary drama (and myself getting banned -again-)? But it just kept eating at my mind, trying to come up with an answer.
Eventually, I came up with one. I would do it.. on Sunday (as tomorrow’s ‘ToL(Thunder over Louisville) Day’ in real life). I don’t want any possible drama to affect me during tomorrow (I’m not even going to use Discord). My eyes will be glued on my TV, watching the local broadcast.

But later that day, I just couldn’t take it anymore. Seeing Jero in his world, I went there. At first I wanted to play it cool, then eventually get him alone in order to discuss this. It went as planned, until the discussion came to me in the form of a small group of ….. refugees, from Ashi’s server? What!?
Hearing the stories of these refugees – former Hall Monitors and members of Ashi’s Discord server – are being blocked/banned (sometimes for no reason). Ashi turning against his own friends, was the theme here. I could only feel sorry for them, and told them what happened to me. Jero worried for him, fearing he might hurt himself (and I do as well).
Then I explained how I wanted to speak to Ashi, but only saw this thing about Kibble. Some of them are all “the Best Bois caused this!” Thankfully Jero (like myself) convinced them that the community is not at fault here. He also added that “a few of the admins started this”, which backs Covita’s claim 110%.
I then urged them to remain in a neutral stance at this. I’m not sure if they got the message, but I think they already know it would be stupid to rage war against the Best Bois. Plus, they saw how kind and understanding I was (and how I speak for the Best Boi community).
—
Three other things to discuss. BestBoi (now known as ‘BestDook’), overheard me telling Jero that I feel I was framed by Ashi (when I got banned for a week), and greatly apologized to me.. saying HE is the one who framed me. Yet it doesn’t make sense. Ashi told him these things (that were lies).. which would still prove he framed me.
But what the fuck ever. I don’t give a crap anymore. I just want to move on from that (but my brain keeps reminding me “this happened!!”).
—
Second thing of discussing, I told them how Ashi DMd me, and saying what I posted in here. Jero says “Ashi is always like this”.. proving even more, it’s nothing but fucking lies (glad I didn’t believe them). And what did I say would happen to his community.. that it would die out? It seems I was right. Well, ‘dying’, with the survivors being Ashi’s ‘elite’ (such as Lycan).
—
Final discussion.. as for joining Ashi’s server, one of them told me “as long as you got him blocked, feel free to join anytime you want. He can’t touch you.”, yet also warned me to “not be surprised if you get vote-kicked for no reason” by his true followers.

And so, that’s that. This was literally burning a hole through my cerebral cortex, until I finally got this written down and posted.
ARE YOU HAPPY NOW, BRAIN?! Geezus!

UPDATE: Ashi has been promoted to ‘Leader of the Pack’ (Admin) in Telephone’s fan club. This is very troubling to the future of this Discord server, but I will continue to stay (and monitor).