This is something that I didn’t really care to talk about (as it was personal for Covita), and I probably never would. But due to .. let’s say “a changed opinion” of the friends of Ashi, this is something I need to get off my chest (and into text format).
Anyway, this started a day after I found out Ashi was betraying his friends (and the day before the ‘game-breaking’ update). Creepery said (in the Best Boi Discord server), that he managed to get in an old version of the Best Boi lands, and is all “come one, come all!!” I decided to hop in, curious. Noticed that this was the world state that I first joined VRChat (when the CowBoi’s were the main thing).
Then I started hearing (as I spawned in) “he’s here. Benie’s here”. Creepery saw me, and asked to follow him into the catacombs. I had no idea what was going on (but went with it), thinking I did something wrong.
We get to a lower part of the catacombs to start talking. And he tells me that “Ashi is in Best Boi”. And I said “wow.. really? Dude, you already told me they allowed him in.” But he said how Ashi is nice and all. Standing firm, I said “that’s good, but I’m leaving him blocked.” He sighs, saying “I know, Benie… but he didn’t say anything bad about you. Just that you blocked him.”
I sighed too, reminding him why Ashi’s still blocked. The fact he lied to me. The fact he fucking framed me (that got me banned from the Best Boi Discord server).
Eventually, we respawned back. There wasn’t as many people here, apart from Covita (aka ‘The Lonely’). Seeing now we’re the only three here, I got them into the chapel and told Creepery that “this is Covita, this is the person that’s been giving me info ever since I was banned.” Then looked at the guy and thanked him for being a huge asset.
We started talking about ‘our favorite subject’: Ashi. And Covita talked about how he has directly affected his life, for nearly 10 minutes (while checking if anyone joined). Suddenly, a few joined and we shut the fuck up.
Then Covita said “we need a private server”, and I knew just the place; my world. But I had to wait for the right moment to get both Creepery and Covita to get over to an awaiting portal (and make sure we’re not followed). But I really didn’t need to, as I could had easily gone to my world and then send them invites (though I never thought of this being an option). Covita reminded me that it was, and I did.
Covita joined the world (my larger world), but Creepery kept having issues (aka, similar to what I’m now seeing).
Seeing how he wasn’t able to join, I decided to try the smaller world (which worked better (and still does to this day)). There, the three of us continued our conversation (with no threat of anyone joining. Private world FTW).
This is when we discovered, a quite messier side of Covita. A side I’m not going to be discussing in here (as I promised it wouldn’t leave the world). This is kind of why I wasn’t sure if making a blog post about this, was really needed (due to all the other shit I was dealing with).
Anyway, Covita does not believe Ashi is suffering from anything. He says, that this is the way he typically is. How he loves to control the situation, and loves to manipulate people.. like Creepery, to unblock him. Creepery too tells us, that Ashi (or someone else), told him to do things that he’s not exactly comfortable in doing. Wow. What a bastard. No wonder he’s betraying his friends.. but he’s trying to turn mine against me.
I KNEW he would do this!
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Now the day (well.. 1am morning since the day the patch came out), here I’m seeing Telephone’s podcast, and seeing Ashi there. Yet I also noticed, Jero was actually talking to him. It started to puzzle me. If he betrayed his friends… then why is Jero friends with him again? This is something I never addressed to Creepery (as I really didn’t want to involve him in this mess anymore). Let Ashi be my problem, not his.
Now it’s day, and I’m still seeing Jero (and all of Ashi’s friends), still talking to him.
“WTF happened?! Why are they friends with Ashi again, after he betrayed them?!” And then it started to eat at me, more and more as the evening went on.. to the point that I finally had Jero alone (in another world, while his friends are busy talking in the center of the room).
I look him right in the eyes, and ask him (in a hushed tone).. “are you still friends with Ashi?” And he shocks me, saying yes (and that he’s his top moderator). So I’m all “but.. what happened before? You guys told me that he betrayed his friends!” And he says “Ashi had a nervous breakdown when he did that.” Could this had been because I blocked him? I didn’t ask that (even though now since I brought it up, I should had), but asked “so, everything’s OK now?” And he said “Yeah.” And all “Alright, thank you. I have no other questions.”
But as he walked away, I said “please don’t tell Ashi we had this conversation.” And he said “I won’t.”
*puts hands to nose and mouth, rubbing it as that’s what he usually does when something’s bugging him*
I still don’t get it. Ashi.. LIES! Have we fucking forgotten about that!? Yet, Jero wouldn’t lie to me. I trust him more than Ashi right now.
I need to talk to Covita about this. Get his opinion, on what I should do. Hell, I almost wish I could just unblock Ashi, get him alone… and hopefully finally settle the grudges I have against him. I want him to tell me, everything. Everything, that started this stupid drama, to what has lead up to this point.
“Why did you kick me out of your Discord server, just because I was allied to the Best Bois? Look.. I’m sorry for being a ‘spy’, but I was worried what you might do to the community! I care for it, so much. Please understand that.”
And questions like this. I want him to answer for all of his crimes against me. This shit is no longer a community drama thing. It’s between myself and Ashi– the once-threat to the Best Boi community (or so the mods had told us). But since they’re no longer holding a grudge (yet I am)…
Ashi… no more lies (or manipulating), And no more “I left VRChat because Kibble picked on me!!” lies. Please. I.. want to be friends again. I want to not ‘hate’ you anymore.
Just, give me a reason to believe that you won’t fuck with me (like in the past)!! That’s all I really ask. I don’t care about your problems. I just want you to STOP. Be the person that I could hang out with again, on your server.
Be.. what I remembered before this mess started.
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Honestly, I don’t even know why I’m like this. Ashi, doesn’t control my life. Why am I ‘allowing’ it? …Because I don’t want the past to repeat itself (like it did when being in ‘defending a community mode’). It’s one thing to give a person a second chance, but it’s another when that second chance could accompany a drama knife to the back.
And I’m not sure if I want to take the risk of being (metaphorically) stabbed.
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UPDATE#1: So.. this is a thing. ROCKET, one of the mods of the Telephone Fan Club (along with 88.24% of people who voted ‘Yes’ in a Strawpoll), wants Ashi to be re-banned from the Best Boi server. Infact he tried to push it to Kibble as a viable option, forgetting that the server is no longer holding a grudge to any community. And after learning it, he immediately said “poll’s closed, we can’t do this”. That’s when I saw the names of the people (not naming names) that had voted Yes (who were quite unhappy with the decision).
I never voted, as I’m trying to remain on a semi-aggressive neutral stance with this (aka, not allowing Ashi to fill my head with potential lies).
Yet, he has none nothing major since being allowed to come back. I don’t understand why the others aren’t seeing this. Perhaps, ROCKET has been touched by the drama in.. quite inappropriate ways.
I might need to talk to him about this. Maybe have myself, Creepery, Covita and Rocket in my world, to discuss this.
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UPDATE #2: After a 5 minute discussion, Ashi has convinced me that what happened during the whole drama mess, none of what he did was targeted at me.
While in Best Boi lands (and showing more people the path to the ‘Baby Boi’), I saw Ashi online in my Social tab, and thought “meh.. fuck it. I’ve got to talk to him. I got to end this, once and for all.” and unblocked/unmuted him. With BestDook there, I tried to get him alone and said I had unblocked Ashi, and wanted to talk to him.. “but on neutral grounds”, and then ran behind the church to do the discussion.
Ashi eventually came to me, as the floating torso avatar. And the first question I asked, was literally what I said above; “did you frame me, and get me banned?” And he said, “No”… adding on: “I didn’t even know you were banned.” And he started DMing Charms about it, while I told him about John and BestDook. He also told me, that he had nothing against me. And said how he kicked me out of his server, to protect me from people that wrong me (and it had nothing to do with me being a spy for the Best Bois). Why he didn’t just say this to me (back then), is unknown. He also adds that “I had to kick everyone out, to protect them.”
So that means Ashi… is innocent. And when I told him about “certain people” (to not name names) said how he’s betraying his friends and being a manipulator, he said that it was “people spreading lies to make me look bad”.
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Eventually, he got his answer from Charms. He said that “multiple people” were trying to get me in trouble. And, I believe him. BestDook has already told me, he was the one that framed me (but greatly apologized). Though, it still surprises me that BestDook would go out of his way to wrong me (and then on top of it.. lie to me saying Ashi gave him the info).
But, screw it. I’ll let it go. All of that is now in the past. He’s convinced me that he’s telling the truth, and only wants to move on from this (as much as I do). And so, I unblocked him from Discord, and he invited me to the ‘New Dook City’ server (his new server, as the old one is gone).
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Let this be a new chapter for me in VRChat, finally free of all the past drama. He also claims he doesn’t stab his friends in the back. So, we’ll see.
I’m just glad that I finally manned up and did it (and now it’s all behind me).