I honestly don’t know what I’m doing wrong, but Jero clearly doesn’t seem interested in forgetting his past love and starting a new chapter in his life with me. I feel I have tried nearly everything to show him that he should see me more than just a good friend. But everytime I try, he says “awwww.. thanks Benie”.
I have even changed my Discord picture to show him that we were meant to be
together (a picture of myself and him). And I thought I actually had it, but then he says nothing after his initial reaction.
I keep wondering this. What else do you want, for me to show you that I will never leave you? And as I write this post, I wonder if I should just give up trying (as it seems impossible). However, Kovo feels there could be more to this (of ties to FOXGRACE, the one he feels is spying on us).
After that thing with DJ coming up and playing the victim of the big bad Frost out to get him, Kovo wanted to talk to me after we were just wrapping up the Space Engineers run. Got online and invited him to my chosen home world, but he was busy. So I went to go see Jero. Stayed with him as long as I could until Kovo was ready to talk, and told Jero I would be back with him when I’m done (and he showed no “awww, hurry back soon!”).
Talked to Kovo. After that was all done, Scooby wanted an invite to the world (and so did others). Thought of making a Friends Only instance of the world and did so, hoping Jero would join me. Sent him several invites, but he never came. So I resorted to DMs in hopes he’ll come. He told me “im in the strip room with frost and loads of furys” and asked if I wanted to come. Said “I was hoping you would join me. Hanging out with Kovo and several others.”
No response since then. I didn’t wanna go there because of Frost and deal with the drama that DJ claims he’ll turn me against him. Kovo feels that Jero is more than just friends with Frost (and could had been lying to me all this time as being one of FOXGRACE’s friends(using ‘jeromeah’ as an alt account)).
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I personally feel Kovo’s being a bit paranoid. Because.. why? If this is true, why would he even bother doing so? What would FOXGRACE even get out of this? He’s not pulling a Rusty and trying to make my life a living hell, for trying to help my friends. At least, not yet.
But, if Kovo’s right, this would explain why he didn’t say anything (and why he didn’t say anything after asking him yesterday if he wanted to join the group chat Ren set up for my Space Engineers server). He promised he would “always stay with me”, yet I have to talk to him to join me. This is why I feel I’m being friend-zoned.
I really hate to say this, but I’m starting to feel that he’s no different than Ron. …At least Ron said “love you babe” to me.
On top of that, yesterday I tried to break the ice by trying to get him to talk more (about his job, and if he has pets). But when the conversation stops, he doesn’t continue it. He even went offline (never came back online in VRChat) without even saying bye.
Alright, Jero (if that’s really your name… I don’t know anymore), I’m about ready to
say (but not directly to him) “clearly you don’t want to start anything more than just friends. Have it your way. I have tried everything I can think of to open my heart to you; to show you that you can let go of your past and start a new chapter (with me), and at times you take it, but only toss it away by saying ‘thanks Benie’.
I’m getting tired of this. I’m tired of my heart being tossed away like a toy. Even if you aren’t deliberately doing it, you’re not seeing it from my perspective.”
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Going to give this one last chance. One of these days when he comes online, I’m going to ask him to come to my world and try to get him to talk more about his past love. If he continues to refuse to let that abusive relationship go, I’m letting him go as a potential BF.
Can’t go to Frost about it as I don’t know who’s side he’s on, and Aftershock has his own love drama to deal with (of Blueberry).
This is something I have to deal with on my own. I started this, I have to finish it.