Today was supposed to be a day of happiness (of feeling like a kid again)! Easter, and April Fools Day; a rare event of having two major holidays merging into a single day. But sadly… there would be no laughter on this day (nor was it an April Fools joke). Only a feeling of being framed, and ended with being banned from the Best Boi server.
Most of the day, was me ‘working’ on my world. Though it was more like, trying to figure out how to make a chair that’s both sittable, and throwable. As I stated in the post made in the Games blog, I have future plans – and most of these ideas, are being inspired from the world: ‘Ferret Lake’. The sloping terrain (to the large lake). The log cabin. The trees. And of course, the lawn chairs.
Those chairs are what I’m talking about, and I managed to get someone from the VRChat Discord server (named ‘vampireofh8’) to help me with this problem. And let’s just say, it’s a lot more complicated than I thought it was going to be. Yet it works!
However, it was short-lived. I personally feel that a key component was removed, but I continue to wait for the person to get back.
In the meantime, I’ve been fiddling with it the best I can (and not having much luck). Then Kibble chirps in and says he’s made changes to the Best Boi server (in the form of Easter Eggs being added). This was mentioned during the meeting, but with the drama (and hearing you guys don’t really care to see what happens in these meetings), I didn’t post it.
Came into the world, partially excited (as I said about WoW’s event with Easter, this is probably going to feel quite childish). But it was actually pretty cute. Some were able to get bunny ears and a bunny muzzle of their Best Boi.
As I’m clicking on eggs, someone I met in Ashi’s server (named ‘James’) attempts to call me. However (as I’ve heard this person speaking before), I can barely understand him. Only a few words make sense, but the rest sounds like it’s another language.
I discover that he got banned by Ashi, for no reason. My assumption falls on the “you’re siding with the Best Bois! GET LOST!!” reason (as he claims one moment he was talking to Ashi, and next minute he was kicked).
I told him to come be part of the Best Bois, how we’re a fair community who only want peace, and he liked the offer.
And I thought that would be it, and we would have fun clicking colorful eggs for the rest of the day… but then things got dark quite quickly for me. And sadly, this was no April Fools joke.
‘John’ (a member) DMs me. A few days ago, he almost got himself banned from the Best Boi server over being pissed off that someone was messing with one of his friends.
But now…now, he’s calling me a traitor, sharing pictures with Ashi. ….Unfortunately, I never once saw the “sharing with Ashi” part, and thought he said I was “sharing private messages about Ashi”. I ended up wrongly defending myself, for not paying attention. And it came to a time where I said “Then stop talking to me, if I’m such a ‘traitor'”.
A bit later, one person asked me to follow him into a private area. I did, and saw John. Immediately got out, as I didn’t want to hear the berating. I felt like “you already spoken your mind! Leave me alone!” And all of this, was when I was still in a conversation with James.
Speaking of that, I got out as I didn’t want to be bothered by this, and asked James to come to my world to discuss this. I also felt that soon I was going to be kicked from the Best Bois……. and it happened.
Now I’m A FUCKING REFUGEE!! What’s worse, I started feeling that John may had been right, that I deserved this. I KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN!!
Yet when looking back at what was said, I then noticed “woah Woah WOAH!! WTF?! He’s saying I shared pictures WITH ASHI?! NOO!! I NEVER DID!!” Yet it was already too late. No one would believe me. Everyone was blocking me, before I could clear my name.
Clearly I’ve been framed, but by WHOM?! I can only think Ashi. He may’ve used my inability of dealing with pressure, against me.
I talked with my friends (who still support me), and one said to give it a few days (and then talk to a mod).
But I feel beside myself….
On one hand, I NEED to clear my name! I NEED to gain my respect back! I DID NOT DO THIS!! | Yet on the other hand, I feel “why bother? I’m done with this bullshit toxicity.” Yet that other hand doesn’t realize the serious repercussions of not clearing my name. No community (that are friends with Ashi and/or Kibble) is going to welcome me now. No one will ever listen to me.
If I do this second thing, leaving VRChat for good might likely be my only option.
Yet at the same time, I feel that attempting to say “I didn’t do this”.. would be a lot more strenuous, than just leaving a game full of toxicity (as I would likely have to provide proof that I never once sent Ashi a private discussion about the Best Bois, which would require several hundred screenshots).
My best option, is to wait a few days for things to calm down, and then talk to a mod that would (hopefully) know me enough to realize, that I would never do this. Doing it now, would only make things worse on me.
And there are also the “what if”‘s that are plaguing my mind. “What if the mods have all blocked me?” “What if they refuse to listen to me (by not accepting my proof)?”
But NONE of this shit is going to help me right now. Hopefully, time will. As someone said; “time heals all wounds”.. even emotional ones.
Yet even from saying this, I can’t stop thinking about it (in order to do something else for a change). Part of me feels it’ll only get worse, before it’ll (eventually) get better. And the person trying to help me (with the chair issue in my world) is somewhere else, and it’s unknown if they’ll be able to help me anytime tonight.
I know I need to find something else to occupy my brain, but the anxiety is so strong right now.
In closing, if I find out who framed me, that person will pay. And it’ll be in the form of notifying the VRChat admins, for toxicity.
And also, if I do manage to clear my name, I’m going to want an apology from John.
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Small Edit: It’s been a day since what happened to me. I did manage to get the chair working (with help), and then some. I’ll do an update on that in the other post.
I’ve also been speaking to PainKillerGP, and his name definitely suits him (as he managed to ‘kill’ most of mine). He also suggested that I DM Charms, in order to clear my name. I’ve wrote down what I’m going to say to him tomorrow.
I asked Lu if he would read over my attempt of redeeming myself, yet he wants me to join him in the Best Bunnies world to do some kind of new Easter maze that Thresio set up (almost as he forgot I’ve been banned from it). Not to mention also forgetting he told me to wait a few days for this to blow over.
He tells me that I’ve only been banned in the Best Boi Discord server, and not this world. But I greatly hesitated, knowing if I join, I’ll hear “…You have a LOT OF NERVE showing your face here, traitor!!”, and be kicked almost instantly.
But he talked me into it, yet I still felt like I was being dragged into the server (by him) while kicking and screaming, fearing the worst. So I tried to do the maze, still feeling someone will see me and ‘alert the others’. Not only do I suck at being a spy (for the good guy), I suck at being a ‘bad guy’.
This maze was really pissing me off, too. You’re supposed to find an egg and click on it. I found one egg and spammed my left mouse button, and then went in a complete fucking circle for a good half an hour, trying to find this second fucking egg! I was also (at this time) semi-focused on my world in Unity (after having posting my latest work to my private world). Eventually went back to it, after getting super frustrated (and telling Lu about it, who agreed).
It felt like the first egg was bugged, yet I’m hearing that people have taken 2+ hours looking for these damn things. What a waste of time.
(The rest of this blog post has been made into a new post, found here)