Editor’s Note: I felt this blog post deserved a complete rewrite, given everything that has happened. It’s an attempt to clarify (and bring light to) the situation that’s currently unfolding… and why I’m powerless to stop it.
But at least I’m with a new community now, who welcomes exiles from both communities (as long as they remain neutral). And I definitely promise to do so. It’ll take some time to forget about what has happened to me, but I’ll ..eventually adjust myself to my new home, even though I don’t know if being neutral is right for me.
And now, on with the blog post.
Since the days I was a moderator of the MRT Server, Frumple (and some of the other mods), kindly informed me that not everything needs to have action taken on it (no matter how serious it might be to me). And that (plus getting fed up with WorldEdit requests), is why I resigned as a moderator. And it’s also why Frumple had said to me; “if I knew who you were in the past, you would had never been a mod”.
But as I told Frumple: “whenever I join a community, my thoughts are to defend it from any threats, no matter how small they may be. As even the smallest threat (if left unchecked) could grow into a much larger threat.”
Four years have passed, and I’m doing it again with the Best Boi community (in VRChat). Though I’m not a mod this time, I sometimes feel I have to be forced to be a ‘backseat mod’. Because it seems the actual moderators aren’t doing their jobs (to how I would like them to). And this is especially true, with the handling of the drama going on with Ashi’s server. Most of the time, there is no transparency with members of the community. And one time, I felt there should’ve been an emergency meeting (it felt serious enough). But it wasn’t done.
But finally, the mods managed to do something.. but what they’ve done, is completely counter-productive to the survivability of the community. Their way to ‘address’ the issue, is to silence anyone (with a week-long ban) for even mentioning the word “drama”! Tell me that is not fucked up.
And that very reason, is why I got banned. It was not because I was a ‘traitor’.
How did I find this out? Well, remember that thing I said about wanting to see Lu-c, and seeing Ashi by mistake? But instead of seeing Lu, it was Creepery. And instead of Ashi.. it was John. And he wasn’t too happy to see me, saying “I still don’t like you”. But I was FINALLY able to convince him that I did NOT send pictures to Ashi! At least, I hope.
John also told me who he got his accusation from; BestBoi, who got it.. from Ashi. Which pretty much proves, ASHI IS THE ONE WHO FRAMED ME!! He’s been fucking pissed ever since finding out I’ve been a spy for the Best Bois. And he wanted to make sure I would never recover from it. Which explains why he hasn’t responded to me, and asked if I would like to come back.
The thing is, I never wanted to be a spy. I never even wanted to get involved in this! But the mods forced my hand — all I wanted to do, was defend the community. All I wanted, was peace… and this is their way of ‘thanking’ me; a fucking week-long ban, for reporting it to the mods!!
Looking back at it (and remembering what Frumple said back then) ..I should had known Ashi was lying about getting the Warhammer 40k clan involved in it. Yet why should this be my responsibility to make that call? CommanderCharms is the one that told us to be nice to them, so I thought he should be the one to be notified. It makes perfect sense to me!
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In addition, if we weren’t supposed to talk about drama (ever since the new rule Crazy Ginger put into place during the meeting).. then why was Charms telling me to “put Ashi in a position to ‘reveal his true intentions'”? He’s not even enforcing the new rule, and he was there during the fucking meeting!! He’s letting the drama continue! And for that, he should be removed as a moderator.
THIS is the shit I’m talking about, people! The mods are NOT. doing. their. jobs! Plus, Charms was supposed to inform the other moderators.. and he never did. He just goes offline. He didn’t even THANK me for giving him that info!
And John has been affected by the same thing that happened to me. On the 3rd, he told me that he got ‘ghost banned’ from the Best Boi Discord server. They gave him no reason, though himself (and I) believe it might have to do with the private conversation we were having with Ginger (who is 100% anti-Ashi). And not only that, we learned that Ginger has been kept in the dark since the past week. Yet all he told us is that we need to chill, and Ashi is the reason why we have so much doubt with the community.
BULLSHIT!!
So this seems to be restarting what Jrock was tying to tell me, that there’s corruption going on within the upper ranks of the Best Boi community.
But I have denied this. There was no proof (back then). …Yet now, that I’ve seen it with my own two eyes (including damnable info from ‘Covita’ (who was with us during our private meeting (during the ‘plaque incident’) who told me something similar), it is true to me now. And now I feel that there needs to be a major shakedown. Persons involved in the toxicity, must be held accountable. And this should even involve Kibble. I want to see them all on the hot seat.
This should had never happened, and this needs to never happen again. But it’s unlikely (at this time), that it’ll ever happen. And that’s sad.
But this puts me in a position of where I can have a neutral stance. And part of that stance (though I know it’ll make me tear up), is to say NO to rejoining the Discord server on Saturday (when my temp ban ends)… there is also the feeling of embarrassment of returning — the feeling of ‘:|’ with everyone looking at you with shame. And honestly, if the mods were doing their jobs.. I would had never been banned in the first place!
And there’s also one major flaw, of when it comes to being neutral. I’ll also have to hide from people that have likely taken a side. And that’s pretty ridiculous.. but that’s what Covita told me (from what he’s gone through).
There’s also a neutral way that we might be able to end this. If any of you have ever played Skyrim (if not.. you’re seriously missing out), you might know what I’m talking about (which happened later in the game).
I propose that we do one of similar stance, but this time.. actually get the two communities to work out their differences. And since Ashi may still want to continue the fight (according to what I hear), someone needs to convince someone else to get both parties to meet under a neutral playing field. Not to mention, it could be used to easily expose any corruption in both communities.
If either of them have nothing to hide, then they should have absolutely zero problem why they can’t defend themselves.
And I feel the person that could get the ball rolling on this, is DarnHyena. Yes, I know he wants nothing to do with this. But I feel he’s the only one that could possibly pull it off. Both parties would listen to him (at least I hope the Best Bois would).
If Darn cares for peace (as much as I do), then he’ll do it. And I feel it should be held in the Hyena world, under a ‘Friends’ instance, and under strict rules that only members (not friends) of the community can join (including rules making sure no one interferes with this special meeting).
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Yet I have my doubts that my hope to bring these two communities together again, would even start. And if my doubts are realized… well, guess I have no choice but to leave VRChat for good. Because I refuse to speak of this toxicity, ever again.
I honestly feel this is likely my only option. Because, to hell with being neutral. It’s not for me. I hate feeling powerless to stop something I care about (and trying to hide from people that have chosen a side).
It’s NOT RIGHT! We shouldn’t have to be DOING THIS!!
VRChat is not like a game (such as The Elder Scrolls, or even WoW), where having wars is how we find out the victor is! THIS is SUPPOSED to be a game of real life communities (in a video game based around VR). And we shouldn’t be fucking acting like spoiled children (and I do mean this.. even though I am one IRL). We should be acting like mature adults, and realize the consequences of getting into an argument with another community.
It should be dealt, with a tough (but firm) punishment (depending on the severity, and/or how many times the individual has done it). But instead, they have resorted to banning you from the server.. for just saying the word “drama”. It’s an abuse of power, and the wrong way to handle the problem.
It solves.. NOTHING (except used as a crude scare tactic to keep people quiet). And sadly, it’s quite effective at its task. But yet you even get banned for reporting drama to the mods?! That is fucked up (and I can not say this enough).
And the same goes for getting banned, just for being associated with the ‘opposing’ community.
*sighs*
All I got left is the Hyena world, with the hope none of that damn drama comes to it. If you two children (aka communities) want to throw your toys and have a temper tantrum, why should I stop you? Plus I have a world to work on, that I can use as my personal salvation from this stupidity.
I don’t even know why I’m getting myself worked up about this anymore. This isn’t my fight. I just hope the friends I have (that still trust me), will feel the same.
That’s right, I give up. It’s not worth it. I’m my own dragon now.