(HUGE, IMPORTANT MUST-READ UPDATE… most (if not all) of this drama will soon be OVER! 😀 See the update written below all of this)
“Drama keeps ticking, ticking, ticking, ticking, ticking… iiintooo the fuuuuuturrreeee!”
When I thought we’ve finally moved away, more drama rears its ugly head. One of these is related to myself, but two more serious ones are related to one community taking action against another crumbling community (with the server owner causing it).
On top of that.. against my will, I’ve become a moderator of this crumbling community.
All of this, is starting to make me think…. that Jrock might had been right all of this time. However, not for Kibble, but for Ashi.
So… shall we get started? For I have a lot of shit to go over.
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Drama Bomb #1: Myself -VS- Jeda (-VS- Oliver and his friends). Well, not much of a ‘bomb’ as the detonator has already been set off. But this time, I feel I’ve finally reached remission (and can move on from this). Even though Jada and Oliver are no longer friends, she is still talking about him. And now he’s saying “I’m going to block all of his friends, because they’re ignoring me!” This made me hit a point I just couldn’t keep it back any longer. I told her “you might as well block me, because I’m not going to stop being his friend”. And then blocked her afterwards, as I’m so tired of hearing her bitching about Oliver.
Then she gets Jimmy involved, who tracks me down and forces me to talk about it. This is getting me so worked up, telling him I wish I never met her, and “I’m tired of being too nice”. I’m having a literal emotional breakdown over this, saying “I just want my life back!!” Yet I wasn’t the only one having one, Jeda was too.
Eventually I calm down and tell him I’ll unblock her, getting a clear head again (and knowing what I need to say to her). And what I have to say, isn’t pretty (yet I avoid “I wish I never met you”). The one thing I strongly said was “You need to re-evaluate your life.” ..lol, look who’s talking, huh? 41 and still living with my parents.
And finally, I add “if this causes you to never want to speak to me again… so be it.” And she (including Jimmy) haven’t spoken to me yet. I finally feel free from that drama.
The only thing that bugged me when I had ended it, was Jimmy saying to “lighten up, it’s only a game.” You have no fucking clue what I’ve been through, pal.
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Drama Bomb #2: Oliver -VS- Ashi. This completely came out of the blue when the news struck (from Ashi’s Discord server) a few days ago. Oliver had blocked Ashi “for no reason” (according to him). After all he’s done for him, this is what happened. I of course wasn’t satisfied with hearing ‘for no reason’– there is always a reason to something. And that something happened on another server.. something about Oliver got a well-known member(we’ll call him ‘Lycan’) kicked from a server. Attempting to dig deeper, there’s a mention of a ‘Nora’ being a “butthurt bitch”. I know nothing about this ‘Nora’ (thank God), but I heard (according to Ashi and Lu-C) she managed to manipulate Oliver into doing it.
Now if I could just get info out of Oliver (to feed my inquisitive brain). But, he’ll probably tell me, once again; “I don’t want to talk about it”. And you don’t know just how annoying that feels, especially when I want to be there for him (as a true friend). Yet a ‘true friend’ also knows when they need some time to themself. I will respect that, yet I also worry that he’s keeping it bottled up.
Yet I was able to talk to him, and he said he is getting help from “two favorite people”. So that’s good.
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Drama Bomb #3: Ashi -VS- Kibble (and the Best Boi community). Once again, this came out of the blue. Though, this came from a mod of the Best Boi server. I talked to them (in DMs), and he gave me two pictures of the server’s mod chat, with Twitchin making the conversation. She claims she’s “heard and seen some drama that’s been accumulating with Ashi.” There’s also this picture another mod took, but there’s no possible way to magnify (and clarify) the wording (to see what was actually said).
Even I have begun to notice, that Ashi has been getting quite bitter recently. He pops up in the Best Boi Discord server, then leaves, saying he was ‘kicked’ (when he wasn’t). One time he even tells me someone was “being racist” to him, showing a picture of what was said. At the time, I was supporting Ashi, and said “did you report it to the mods? Are they going to do anything?” And he says “they refuse to take action”, which strikes as being odd (given our ‘Zero-Tolerance Policy’ we have).
Why would the mods do nothing? ..Unless they felt Ashi’s not the victim here.
Yet there’s more to this story. So much more. This showed up after I returned to Best Boi lands (after spending half of the day working on a new world (blog post about that here)). The default Best Boi model is bugged; turning anyone into a ‘Unity Cube’ when they click on it (or maybe it would be a ‘Blender Cube’). It was quite hilarious, walking around as cubes. Yet it was also a bit worrying. As in, “did Kibble break the model by accident?” It certainly felt like it.
… That was until much later, when I read the second picture. Kibble had taken action against Ashi, doing the ‘cube’ thing to prevent people of his community from being able to use it, and closing his portal.. therefore killing off the alliance they once had.
And now, Ashi has banned Best Bois from joining his server. Okay, this is going too far. Especially when being told to “STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS” by the new world mascot (all because I said “everyone needs to take a chill pill”), I had enough and left Ashi’s Discord server.
Yet no sooner than ten minutes after I left, I’m getting DM’d from both Ashi (and then the mascot shortly after). Yet instead of being berated… they’re praising me. What..??
First off, the mascot says it’s “not my fault” and “Ashi is very sorry”. Right. If he’s ‘very sorry’, then why is he enforcing such a ridiculous, wrongful crusade of banning the Best Bois FOR NO FUCKING REASON?? The Best Boi community are NOT your enemies!! They have EVERY RIGHT to be there!
Ashi’s clearly lost touch with reality, and needs to step down as owner of the server. Yet he’s also acting like he’s my best friend, and “we need people like you”. I hardly visit your server. I don’t even feel welcomed by its community. The only reason why we’re hanging out now, is the aftermath of the secret meeting we had.
What you’re saying is all bullshit. Yet I was too blind at the time to look back and realize this. And before I knew it, he promoted me to one of his Hall Monitors (an Admin).
I never asked to be one, and this was nothing but a ploy to pit myself against the community (that indirectly brought me to VRChat). I hate it when I realize I got played.
However, I’m not letting this change who I am. I have new responsibilities now, but I’m still the same Benie as before.
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Drama Bomb #4.. Icebrrgh -VS- the Best Boi community. More arguments are going on of why Kibble doesn’t just release the model to the public.. and I am SO SICK of hearing about this!! It’s like I know what Kibble’s going through (with so many people DMing him about the model). I’ve already went over this (what feels like hundreds of times), that the contact with Telephone is keeping him from doing it.
And I don’t understand why people don’t seem to get it.
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And after an hour of watching them yell (and then Kibble getting involved), Ice and Rabbit both left. Yet as much as I’m tired of Ice’s gay shit, it’s saddening they have to leave (yet I feel they’ll come back sometime). I just hope they don’t try to start shit outside of the community (to affect it).
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Honestly, there’s nothing I can do about any of this drama (except let it play out). Trying to pick sides, will just make the other side more hostile.
Bleh. I need my rest. It’s been a long last night.
MAJOR EDIT: Drama bombs 2, 3, and 4 are either being defused or are in the process of defusing. Thank Christ the drama is being dealt with!
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Drama Bomb #2 has been officially defused (and over with). It turns out the ‘well-respected member’ is the one that made Oliver kick him from the world. However.. Oliver has also been banned from the Best Boi Discord server. But I think it’s just temporary.
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Drama Bomb #3 will be defused during this Friday’s Best Boi meeting. I’m part of an emergency meeting of Ashi (currently), where he says that Crazy Ginger will tell the Best Bois to drop the drama between the two communities (kicks (and possibly bans) would be handled if it’s brought up). This will also restore the alliance between the two.
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Drama Bomb #4 is already dealt with. Ice has come back, but is still pissed over the news. But he plans to eventually turn his anger into action, and possibly make his own model (and world).
And since Drama Bomb #3 will be dealt with, I can stop feeling the pressure ( with the whole ‘ploy’ thing) of my newly assigned position of Ashi’s Discord server. Now I can focus on being a kind (yet firm) moderator, whenever the time comes.
I’m still a Best Boi through and through, though. Even though I am starting to transition away (and to my world).
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…Or so I thought. It seems Drama Bomb #3 may’ve been dealt with (on the Best Bois end), but not with Ashi. Two-faced bastard. Yes, I said it, and he deserves it after what happened to me.
After the meeting (which was surprisingly held at the normal 8pm time(and being the only one at that time due to no one being able to do the EU one)), we all went to Open Mic Night as a way to get rid of the stress that drama causes, by watching our fellow community members embarrass themselves sing like an angel (and the occasional talent show). There was also this hacker that somehow got in, and was playing really obnoxious things (and causing one’s eardrums to burst). It was invisible and managed to hide its name.
Anyway, during the show, Ashi unexpectedly DMs me, asking “did you see the raid”. He claimed the Warhammer 40k clan (the ones Kibble told us not to insult as we’re in an alliance with them), have sided with him and are now in a war with us.
I was on the verge of panicking, and quickly told Charms about this. Ashi seemed to keep me alone after it, but it still had me worried.
20 minutes later, Charms responds telling me that it’s likely Ashi is lying to cause more drama. And as we’re talking, Ashi DMs me again with a very disturbing question: “are you allied with them?”
I freaked out, not knowing what to say and told Charms, praying he had an out for me. But he kept putting more pressure on me, telling me to get Ashi into a state where he reveals his true intentions. WTF?! I’M NOT A FUCKING NEGOTIATOR!! I’m just someone playing a fucking video game! I WANT NO PART OF THIS!!
But it was too late. He made me admit I was allied with the Best Bois, and how they welcomed me with open arms. And I think the whole ‘open arms’ is what triggered him when he said “k bai”.
Noticed I was no longer a part of Ashi’s server, and he also defriended me in Discord. I felt like I was such a failure to the Best Boi community. I wanted peace between the two communities. Yet, there will be no peace. Not after this.
I tried to talk to whoever I could (that I could trust). They all said to not blame myself, that it’s not my fault. As much as I want to believe that, I still feel like I failed as someone they could trust to give them dirt on Ashi. It was actually.. kind of fun, to be honest.
Yet I shouldn’t had been ‘having fun’ with it. It was a pretty serious matter. But at least… now… I can finally say “I’m out of this mess”.
Though I wanted to speak to Lu-c about this (as he’s a friend too). I shot him a few DMs, asking him to please meet me in my world as it’s urgent. He never responded, so I attempted to track him down ingame (as I really needed to speak to him.. I just wanted to see if he was AFK, that’s all). Went into Gaia Night, and found him and Lycan talking with Ashi.. which is going against the new rule put in place during the meeting: “do not talk or engage with Ashi”.
I waited for him to come up to me, hoping he’ll see me (while also trying to stay out of eye contact with Ashi). He seemed to (and also seemed to move his paws in a gesture for me to come over (or to go away.. I couldn’t really tell). I shook my head no and walked back, hoping he’ll come over.
But instead of him, it was Lycan who ran over, and actually threatened to kick me. I said that I just wanted to speak to Lu, and he said to just let them finish (and kept rambling about all of this until I left). Well done, this doesn’t help my emotions.. it only made them worse.
Now everyone allied with Ashi is my enemy! FUCK!! D:( WHY do I keep doing these stupid things to myself?! I shouldn’t had gone there… yet I didn’t fucking know Ashi was going to be there too!
This is the first time, I wish I actually assumed this would happen. As my assumption could had saved me from making matters even worse.
But now I see where Lycan’s loyalties lie. Seriously, saying you’re going to kick me in a threatening matter, wasn’t a good idea. Yet I wasn’t sure if I should report this to a mod (as it was my fault for showing up). So I asked some of my friends. One agreed, while the other indirectly convinced me to do so.
I told Twitchin (as she’s one of the few mods that were on, that I knew well). Yet I also needed to explain what happened prior to all of this (as Charms didn’t tell any of the other mods). She understood what I was going through, but was too tired to do anything.
I also heard from Lu, who said was done with all of this. So at least he’s not allied with Ashi. He also understood what I was going though (yet thought I was overreacting). Maybe. I dunno. But until this mess gets cleared up, I’ve blocked Lycan. I don’t even want to see his posts in Discord. Unless he comes up to me and apologizes, I don’t want to have anything to do with him.
But until the mods do something about this, I really got to watch what servers I join. Yet I hope that if I accidentally join one with Ashi in it, his loyalists will leave me alone. As long as they do, I will leave them alone.
That’s all I ask. Stop treating me like public enemy #1.
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And there’s some ‘good’ news. Last night, Ice (who’s still in Ashi’s server), notified us that Ashi is going to close down his server (and make no more updates), claiming “the Best Bois are still causing drama” (aka probably talking about me). ‘Celebrating’ this would be a very stupid thing to do.
I hope and pray, that Ashi takes this time to get away from VRChat and relax, and realize not everyone is his enemy. He needs to. He needs help!
Something is clearly wrong in his life, and he needs to separate it from his duties as a world owner (and community manager).