So this is going to be an interesting blog post for me to write, as both things were happening at the same time. All I will say is Jero.. I have mixed opinions of.
But how it started was me prepping to get on and seeing Jero once again in a public instance… with 65 people in it. I wanted to join since I totally wasn’t wasting time working on JeroWorks and getting distracted by YouTube videos the day before, and I wasn’t going to because my computer wouldn’t handle it.
I asked him why, and he told me his otter friends were there. Alright, that makes sense. But I hopped on anyway, thinking he would join me eventually. I went to go see a friend of his who was in LS Media. They changed the upper floor where the wall I hid from the others back then has been removed. There’s now a nice lounge area, and they moved the mirror to be where the wall used to be. In addition there’s now an ‘Upstairs TV’ button that you can watch the screen from the 2nd floor. I really love this change as it’ll support more people able to watch and not be cramped up like a sardine can downstairs.
Plus it’s easier on my neck, not having to tilt my head to see the screen. I did go to my own instance to really check out the changes.
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Now Malice is messaging me, saying Jelly “doesn’t believe” he could get good at doing dirt biking. I found that quite harsh what Jelly said to him, and wishing I could do something to help him. He wanted to join me, and I’m thinking “OSHI– what if Jero joins. I have to tell him” and did. He ‘thanked’ me for the heads up, and I was about ready to say “you’re welcome” before he said “I almost joined lol”… that hurts. I would had rather spent time with you than Malice. It really made me mad, but I learned from the last time I stated my opinion, and did the opposite (don’t want to lose him yet again as a friend).
Really wanted to, but I resisted. Malice tried to join but his wifi kept having issues. And these issues kept persisting when trying to watch a movie (buffering issues). I felt “well since we’re both here, maybe we can… you know. Since we haven’t done it in awhile.”
He on the other hand wasn’t really in the mood. Instead he wanted me to make the world as another instance, to let his friends in. I didn’t like this idea and never did it, and Malice eventually left me (I do believe why he just suddenly left when we snuggled).
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I waited awhile as at the time I thought he crashed again, while I also feared by me saying nothing to Jero that he would unfriend me again.. thankfully my fear didn’t come to fruition. Jero was still joinable, in a Friends+ world (for once). I assumed he was
with Ferret and his friends. Joined while still laying down in my bed IRL. Gotta say I love the new IK 2.0 of how well it saves your calibration between world loading, which is something IK Tweaks failed to do at times.
Saw Jero with a huge crowd on the other side of the world. Otter friends. Went over and booped him to say hi. He said hi back, happy to see me. I stayed with him, leaning up in bed. Then Jero went deeper into the crowd. I debated if it was worth staying here or leaving and working on JeroWorks. Decided to stay here… which honestly I should had picked the ‘work on JeroWorks’ option.
Staying away from the crowd a bit, suddenly Jero comes running up to me and
says someone tried to crash me. Said he saw someone stare right at me and saw them shoot particle laser beams at my eyes, and “I thought for sure you crashed”. Then he walks away. I stood there, very confused (as I didn’t see anything resembling a crasher) but also a little annoyed of who in the fuck wanted to crash me. Not to mention the way Jero acted. Didn’t at all seem concerned that I was almost crashed, or even asking if I’m alright. I did feel a bit uneasy, but also thankful I got mods that keep me from being crashed.
Some time later, he comes up to me again and wants me to “hang out” with his otter friends. “I don’t ‘hang out’. I observe” I said. And it’s like he had completely forgotten what I said of how I don’t like being in large crowds. He even wanted me to use the awtter model that Mibit did. ..Are you kidding me!? Absolutely not! But he kept on insisting, not wanting me to “feel left out”. I said “I’m used to feeling left out. Why I solo multiplayer games” I said.
So he went over to his otter friends and started dancing. I stayed in the world, jumping up on a roof overlooking them, and playing music. 10 minutes later I saw him waving at me. I waved back, and then he beckoned me to come down.
Someone’s trying to open up a public instance portal. I look at Jero and say “if you’re going there, I’m going somewhere else”. Clearly he didn’t hear me as he asked if I want to join. “I don’t do public instances!!” I said, and he.. it’s like he completely forgot that I don’t go to those type of instances anymore. “If you change your mind..” he said before going into the portal. Ohh don’t you worry.. I won’t. As you just wasted my fucking TIME. ..Wow.
To be fair on him, he did want to be with his otter friends. I should had just let him have his fun. ..Yet why did he say “I almost joined lol” after I told him that Malice was going to join me? Just for him to state his opinion? …I dunno. He should had just left it as “thanks for the heads up” and that’s it. Or say “sorry Benie but I won’t be joining you. I want to be with my otter friends. Sorry”.
Anyway when I tried to pull up my menu, VRChat crashed. So yeah… I worked
on JeroWorks for the rest of the morning. And Mr. “If you ever change your mind” went offline around 3am hopefully realizing I wasn’t fucking kidding with my hatred towards public instances.
I’m not joining a world with 30+ people. Not anymore. My PC is starting to show its age.
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A footnote here: the next day I talked to Jelly about what happened, and he feels the relationship with him and Malice needs to end on a positive note. I dunno if that actually happened or not, but he knows Malice deserves better.