Two things I want to say before I start this;
1. I told myself before I went to bed, how I “don’t need Jero in my life anymore if he’s going to hate who I’m friends with”. This isn’t confirmed (nor denied) by any means as I’m still waiting for him to respond to my Telegram messages (it’s been a week now). Though my mind really feels Jero truly hated the fact I was with ‘racist’ friends, and was trying to guilt trip me when he exposed himself even more to them.
…But I also just don’t want to believe it. That is not like him at all. I know Jero, and there’s just no fucking way he had bad intentions for this. But, I just don’t know. That was the
first (and only) time he has ever unfriended me (and even stopped caring in order to call
me “really selfish”). This is clearly different than all the times I’ve been without
him, and.. at times it feels like a nightmare that I just can’t wake up from.
All I can keep hoping for is eventually, Mibit (my ‘spy’) will be able to get ahold of him and see if he still uses Telegram. It will only be from that, which I will know if I have truly lost him as a friend, or he just keeps forgetting to check Telegram.
Though I just don’t see how he can ‘forget’ he has Telegram after what he said to me in it. I just.. I fear my gut might be right that he never wants to see me ever again. I just haven’t really thought straight since. Trying to stay focused on the project and losing my sanity in the process (like literally what Baddee said; “a madman trying to bring back his dead wife”).
Mine would be ‘a madman trying to bring back his once best friend’.
….Anyway, the reason why I’m even saying all of this is.. this morning, I dunno why nor how (and this might sound really stupid to you), but I had a very random dream that Jero was my friend in Discord again. And that he read my messages in Telegram…. and then I woke up and saw the harsh reality.
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2. I need to get this project fully done today, for there’s another severe weather risk tomorrow. Mother Nature is giving me a break (yes it’s a scorcher out there as the heat index could almost reach the triple digits), so I need to take this as an opportunity.
EDIT: DONE with the icons! Take a look. Also I moved the project out of my avatar’s submenu.
They’re a little scuffed up, but at least the transparency trick I was given, works as expected. 🙂
It was ‘fun’ to do them.. more like a pain in the ass. The main problem was trying to find a decent green green world (that has a mirror I can calibrate my FBT with). However I forgotten the Photo Camera has a Green Screen filter.
Getting the poses (even trying to self pose myself (mainly in the Snuggle poses)) involved a lot of trial and error trying to get the perfect angle.
The only one I.. well makes me laugh and also confuses me at the same time is the standing snuggle pose one.
Here’s the clipped image;
It screams “Pals 4 Ever!”, but this isn’t what I was aiming for! I wanted a SNUGGLE pose! The problem is my fucking Drex’s ear gestures are (still) broken. UGH!
Not to mention of the other two visual issues with this;
1. Why is the object shorter than me, when in Unity it’s the same size?
2. Why is the object’s feet in the ground? Didn’t even notice this until I was cropping out the green.
But.. it’s whatever. I also witnessed a few other interesting things with the project (that weren’t apparent to me until I was in FBT).
1. Being on my back or side and spawning in an object, the spawn position remains the same as if I was standing up. However this is also cool, because this wasn’t possible in 2.0. And the fact I can grab the object is even cooler.
2. Some of the Snuggle poses are missing their blush [FIXED].
Oh. yes. Something I still can’t believe that Unity actually.. allowed. Apparently, I do not have to convert all of these pictures I did (that I resized to 256×256 and then
to 64×64), into Sprites. I thought Sprites were all that the Icon system allowed, but it’s not! It works with all the .png files I did! That is awesome. One less step for me.
I think I can finally… finally start to wind down because the project is officially completed now!! YES! It’s DONE! FINALLY!! And this time I mean it!
Holy fuck it’s done! I’m so happy. Now I can finally go back to VRChat normally and visit friends again. TJ in specific has been getting quite.. lonely (to the point she’s been messaging me every day).
Also she did this, despite being in an open relationship.
*cough* I both find this a bit interesting and awesome at the same time. But why tell the entire server that you’re ‘my girl’?
Well, I did say I always wanted a girlfriend (to feel ‘normal’). Just.. this feels so weird because she’s in an open relationship. Can I truly call her ‘mine’? She seems to accept this.
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There’s also some games I’ve played in the past that have gotten some really interesting updates I want to check out. Now that the project’s done, I can finally enjoy them.