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JeroWorks 3.0 ‘progress’
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Before I start, I can’t believe it’s been a year since Wufy helped me with the secret project. But when looking in my old DMs to him in hopes to find the link for the VictonRoy
model he sent me (did find it by the way), I noticed the dates and.. wow. April 26th, 2021.
That’s nuts.
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And as for progress for JeroWorks 3.0… I haven’t even started yet. I just don’t feel confident it’s ‘going to work’ (to help me). It just feels stupid, and pointless. I’m going to have a joy for a few days, but then remember a certain phrase I made of “not wanting to love a doll” and “wanting the real you”. Plus having to keep it a secret.. can’t spawn it in a friends+ instance.
I just feel everyone’s going to be looking at me funny. I know I shouldn’t give a fuck what others think of me, but isn’t there some sort of gray area where it becomes a bit shameful?
The other reason it stopped in its tracks is remembering I have to get BTD 3.5 to be what I used for the doll’s poses, as I don’t know a way to make this work in 3.0 with
my BTDrexouium. I’m sure there’s a way with Bools, but I dunno if World Fixed IK and FinalIK would be compatible with 3.0 (or if there’s a variant I could use that’s even better). Ren doesn’t know, and I tried asking the VRChat Discord in the past and got nothing.
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…But after more recent events, I almost feel ‘glad’ I didn’t do it.
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Jero’s awtter friends
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It was a Saturday night, but after what happened the night before I really debated if it was worth getting on. Decided to come on VRCX to see who’s on, and as much to my surprise I saw Jero on. Quickly strapped on my full body, feeling “the one day I decide to take time off of VRChat, you show up”.
And also saying to myself “watch by the time I get on, he would be offline”. And like clockwork, the second I got on.. he was offline. Wow. But I felt he crashed, and waited to see what his next move would be. He came back on and I continued to wait, then got distracted from watching Youtube videos. Checked VRCX’s wrist feed and saw he was in
a public instance. Joined it. It was a large mostly empty room. Noone here.
Huh. Where could everyone be? Found a thin but large button on the wall. Thinking that’s where everyone was, I clicked it.
The moment I did, I started lagging. Ohh yeah.. this is where everyone is.
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Finally went into the new area. Lots, and lots of people infront of the mirror here. Music playing from people’s mics. Lots of awtters too. Stepped back from the crowd, and saw Jero dancing.. in full body. Wow. Also my friend who’s a Hoosier is also here. But with all the people around, I didn’t know if I should say “hi” or just go somewhere else. Instead I stood there looking at the awtters.
One of them randomly comes up to me and says hi. I nervously say hi back, and he welcomes me “to the madness”. I chuckled a bit, then said a few of my friends who
are awtters are over there, but I don’t want to disturb their fun. He asked me their names and I gave them.
He went to go grab Tempest first, as Jero was busy. Tempest brought a few other awtter friends over to me, and they’re loving my avatar. One said “you should join
our Discord server!” Then asks Tempest why hasn’t he sent me an invite to it. Tempest says “I don’t have him on Discord” and thankfully that ended the conversation about that.
Then he went to go get Jero. Finally he came over, but Jero wasn’t in his usual avatar. He said it’s a Quest avatar, because Tempest is a Quest user. Oshi– I didn’t know. Switched to one of the public Quest avatars I have: a literal ball of fluff that can become any animal or object, that rolls around in order to ‘walk’.
It can also be squished, which Jero was enjoying a bit too much. Heh.
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Much later, I discovered one of the awtters was celebrating their birthday (which is why there was a party going on). And also (according to Jero), these awtters were the same ones he met IRL when he went to Philadelphia.
“I hope to one day visit them again” he told me, also wanting to see me IRL. I said to
him “who knows”. Then he asked if I wanted to go to another world. Asked him “don’t you want to be with your awtter friends a bit more?” I can’t fully remember what he said, but all I really heard was “I doubt they’ll look for me” or something like that.
So I went to my homeworld. It took him awhile until he finally joins.
That’s when I told him what happened yesterday. He said about having ‘similar’ moments like that, that it’s OK. I then told him about JeroWorks and how I found out Kat sent
me (by what I assume a complete accident) Jero’s VictonRoy texture sheet, and how “even though I finally have what I wanted, I still don’t feel truly happy”.
I don’t think he really heard me, as he had fell asleep. Nor did I bring it up again.
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“Is something going on, Jero…?”
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After that, Malice wanted to join me. “Well this is a surprise” I said to Jero. I thought Malice was too happy to ever see me again.
Mmmmm… honestly though, I wish him (and his friends) didn’t join. Because Jero didn’t like what they were talking about. I wasn’t even aware at the time Jero had an issue with the dark humor/racism. He was chuckling, acting like his normal self. But deep down he was being hurt by their words. And if I had known this, I would had told Malice to tune it down and… likely the next day’s events wouldn’t had happened.
For something terrible would happen, that would cost me my best friend… 😥ðŸ˜