My thoughts with this latest breakup with Kovo and Nova

It’s been a day since their breakup, and I’ve been feeling a bit.. panicked at times. As
in “I dunno if I can do this” panic.
This panic spurred off of Kovo asking me to take care of the server until he returns. What if he never does? Would this make me the new leader of the server? Likely. Am I worried about this? YES!! Why? It’s obvious. That famous phrase in Spiderman: “With great power comes great responsibility.” And Kovo’s owner responsibilities would be on my shoulders. It reminds me back in WoW, when I was temporarily in charge of the clan I was in… and I accidentally lead my clan to their death by the hands of the Horde, when I was trying to do PvP practice drills with Horde NPCs in the area. Instead we encounter the real thing and get our asses kicked.
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Scared a slightly similar thing might happen if I was in charge of Mystery Skulls, in the form of a dispute with another server. Never happened before (with this
server) but, there’s always a first. What I’m mostly worried about is I would be responsible for handling inter-server disputes. Though I’d have the Admin team (hopefully) watching out for this as well. …*sighs* That’s another issue. Even as an Admin myself, there are a lot of things the other admins don’t see. I hate sounding all ‘high and mighty’ above the other admins but god damnit, I hate feeling I’m the only one that truly is doing their job moderating the server.
If I’m in charge, I’ll have to be more active in the voice calls. Yesterday was the first time I felt obligated to do it. It was Mibit and TJ in the call. Felt so quiet without Kovo there. Then TJ leaves to go eat dinner and take a shower, and Mibit’s unintentionally boring me with showing what he goes through to render one of his music videos. I was thankful when my mother wanted me, as I never put my headphones back on after I came back (and ended up leaving the call as I wanted to work on my blog post in peace).
This is what I’m going to have to deal with, if I’m in charge of the server.

What really made me panic is checking up on him last night, and he said he might be sick with a fever, and he would try to get an appointment tomorrow.
God, to have him pass away from COVID.. that would be such a brutal blow to the server. However, thankfully that’s not going to happen, as later he said his fever went down and he believes it was just stress. Thank you God. 😌 Phew.