There’s an old saying, that you “gotta take the good with the bad”. Or there must always be something bad that happens that balances the good as too much good is ‘boring’.
…I disagree to both of these statements when it comes to my close friends. but balance gives me the big “fuck you”.
Seriously, Sunday (yesterday)… felt like a god damn weekday for me. But sometimes even the weekdays have even more fun than what I went through. Dunno what the fuck happened to have it feel like (or what I did to ‘deserve’) a dull weekday-like Sunday.
Bad wasn’t on. Blender wasn’t on. TJ was on but left a half an hour after I joined. Most friends I wanted to join were either orange status, in a private world, or both.
And Jero… ooooh Jero. The words I have for him. Again, orange status. Unjoinable. Again wouldn’t respond to messages. I even asked him “․․․Please let me see you‚ Jero․ Or tell me why I can’t․ ∗sighs∗”. Nothing. So I removed him from my Friends With Benefits list and swore never to send him another invite ever again).
I’m sorry Jero. I’m sure you have your reasons why you can’t invite me. Could’ve fallen asleep or been with a group that doesn’t allow others outside of said group. Hell, last time I spoke to him, he’s still trying to save up for a trip to America to meet the otter group IRL. Dunno if he’s still doing that.
But god damnit man. You won’t even respond to any of the messages I’ve been linking to you in Discord. Of course I’m not the only one. I still remember Bandana getting pissed over this. Probably upsetted him too of having to ask why.
Well I’m done asking (unless I bump into him through one of my other friends). If you don’t want to take the time to say anything, then I guess you don’t really need me in your life. Who knows, maybe he found someone who swears won’t hurt him, and he feels he won’t hurt this person. Though that’s highly unlikely.. relationships like that wouldn’t blossom in a few weeks. Think a few months for Jero to trust the person enough for a romantic relationship. Though I’m sure somewhere he’s still thinking about me. He just can’t really think fully. That or he’s really been busy. Because he’s posted nothing in the extreme-wtf channel for awhile. That’s kind of unlike him.
I still see him coming on in Discord. He just doesn’t respond to messages. It’s about time for me to learn.. to stop sending him anything and accept I might never see him for a very long time (or a short time, as I said I might run into him via another friend or a friend of his. I dunno).
I’m. just. tired of dealing with this. No more. You tell me you “don’t want to hurt
me”, yet you’re not thinking your silence is hurting our friendship.
So just keep it up. Because one day I might get so tired I’ll unfriend you, and declare you forgotten. Likely jumping over the deep end here and the next day it’s going to be like, all good again. Now that I had a bad day, maybe I’ll have another good one…? …Maybe?? What do you say, fate? Wanna stop being a bastard for once?!
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Moving on from Jero, TJ as I said earlier, was on. Yet she never sent me an invite either. And half an hour later, she leaves. My only guess is she was going to bed to prepare for work. And Blender, likely was busy doing animation work for friends (or was asleep almost all day).
So I tried to hang with whoever friend I could that was joinable.. even going as far of trying to join Orwin as I was that desperate. But VRChat lying to me that he was in the room and an issue my trackers caused (of walking instead of running) made me lose the opportunity to say hi to him. Instead I hung out mainly with Stray. He absolutely adores my Drex. So much that it brought back.. really, really, REALLY cringy memories of being friends
with Raymond of him singing… singing that.. that… song. I was seriously about to scream when Stray and his friends started to sing that song while all being around me!! AAAAHHH!! MAKE IT STOP!! CRINGE OVERLOAD!!!
Outside of that madness, Stray took us to several Jurassic Park themed worlds. Was pretty damn cool of the way they modeled a Brontosaurus as its 1:1 replica to show how fucking huge those passive creatures were, 65 million years ago.
Then it went to whoever was remaining when Stray went to bed (again.. that wasn’t in a damn private world), before I got fed up and left. For example, hanging with Drowsee and hearing his BF talking who’s discussing how they should be running their Discord server. I had to get out of there as I was getting Grok vibes at times (thinking any second I would be given an invite to their server).
However something good came out of this. Drowsee completed the Pop Escape world– she got past the laser part that I assumed was ‘bugged’. And unlike others who told me
they “had to use mods” to get past it, he got passed it legit. Says it “takes time but you’ll eventually get it. It took me 20-3o tries until I mastered the pattern.” I said “I can’t even get past the first laser in that room! It keeps detecting me!” His answer is something I never factored in– avatar height. That and having to use precision movements. So I might give it another go one day, if there’s noone on to do it with.
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Finally I hung out with Spitfire, and also who I assume was a good friend (or his BF). They were busy jamming to a song at the time, and I went off after that.
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Last thing before I actually go to bed: I found the Orifice in the DynamicP[Naughty]System, and I -think- I got them properly attached to my hands. There’s a way to turn them invisible, but I’m holding up on that until I test them out. But since I’m too tired and annoyed at life right now, I’ll be doing testing tomorrow evening. Once I know they’re placed correctly, I’ll remove the render and then I’ll add a simple toggle (via that mod Blender sent me) and add that to the Naughty submenu (as another submenu).
Though I wonder how you do that. It clearly is possible, as the naughty I have has done this. Just need to look at it closer, see how it’s done and try to recreate it using the mod.