Hey everyone, I hope you all enjoyed your feasts and hopefully you’ll be reading this blog post from your Tryptophan-caused rest from eating too much turkey and all the
helpings, or if you ate ham instead that’s good on you.
My Thanksgiving Dinner has traditionally been pizza from Papa John’s. But anyway, this blog post isn’t about what everyone ate (even though that would be a pretty interesting community-driven blog post), it’s about what happened to, well, myself today. Though most of the day was uneventful, it mainly happened in VRChat (it was pretty active).
But before I even got on VRChat, I was having some really bad issues with my headset. Thought it was dying when everytime I booted up VRChat.. the headset would turn itself off and show the blinking green proximity light. What’s weird is MR Portal wasn’t even saying there’s a problem (showing ‘Ready’).
Knew I did something since the day before. I tried tightening all my extension cables and the cables in the back of my computer (making sure everything’s secured). Finally found the issue– the powered USB 3.0 box wasn’t plugged in to the AC outlet (yanked the cable out by accident). Plugging it back in and trying again, zero issues since. So I absolutely need it plugged in for my headset to have enough power.
I’ve been spending time with someone named ‘ToucanFugu’. Me and him have been friends since 2019, and about 4 days ago he warned me about Grey. The day before, there was a fallout with Grey and apparently one of his good friends. It’s something that happened long ago and this friend wanted Grey to hear him out, but he refused to hear it.
After my fallout with Grey, he started being a lot more friendly with me (more cuddly and stuff which I definitely welcome). And no, I feel nothing with him. We’re just friends. Also something happened with him that messed up his throat, so he’s unable to talk. I can only assume it might be COVID and he’s a survivor.
Hung out with him for awhile, other friends joined me in this kind of interesting world called “Meanwhile somewhere in Finland” with a mirror you see as soon as you enter the world, and a hot tub down the hill for socializing.
Timber and Frosty also arrived. They asked me what’s been going on since I last saw them. So I explained about Jero, and Timber’s all “let me ask you something. How do you want me to handle this? Break his kneecaps?” Timber, you’re my anger for what happened in physical form and I love it. But I know he’s messing around. Still, it made me happy someone wanted to make him pay for what he did to me.
Kandy who was there, told me that Jero did the same thing to TinkererFox. ..Really?! So, it wasn’t my obsession to move on after all? No wonder Jero doesn’t like Kandy, and no wonder why the spy games happened. TinkererFox wasn’t pissed off at me, he was pissed off at Jero for leaving him to be with me. ..Wow. If I had known, I would had said no to being happy with him.
That would’ve killed it for me. He probably did the same thing to Scooby, who knows.
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Later, I saw Novice on (and joinable). Went to go see him. A few seconds after I joined the world, black screen in my eyes. I’m thinking “nooo..!! No no no!! The issue is back!!” Took off my headset and put VRChat on my primary monitor, I saw the screen black. Oh thank fuck, VRChat crashed… not my headset. Not the same issue. PHEW!! Still, a bit concerning. Why in the fuck is VRChat giving me a black screen, though? Is it the world? Is it someone’s avatar?
Tried joining the world by myself, no black screen. So definitely someone’s avatar. I used my safety settings to block everyone’s avatar and rejoined the instance Novice was in. No black screen. So yeah. Only one other person here. Interesting world though. It seems to be based off of a RL apartment (the entire building, not just a room).
Saw the person that is causing me to black screen (with an AFK Novice). He told me “are you fully showing my avatar? Even if you show a part of it you’ll get that black screen”. So I trusted them and hit the Show Avatar button. I could see why I black screen; the avatar has some weird intro that blackens the entire world. Said a friend of his was able to get permission from the creator to do this dragon-like Rexxulum.
It looks pretty good. Later he left and Wildboy joined. We talked about RL things while waiting for Novice to get back from AFK. Said how his driver’s license has restrictions that he can’t drive at night and can only have one other person in the car (it’s not COVID restrictions).
Also telling me he got laid off from his job.. ugh. Never good. And then we talked about COVID for a bit before his BF arrived. He told me that SARS (another strain of Coronavirus) has killed more people than this virus has, and we didn’t freak out back then. Interesting. That and he said his family had gotten COVID but didn’t suffer the same symptoms as most people. Hmmm. What the fuck is really going on here? That’s like the 3rd time I’ve heard this. Even the president when he got COVID, it was mild for him.
So.. what the fuck is going on? Is this pandemic not as bad as the media portrays? Are masks truly worth wearing? Do you know the muffin man? Who the fuck is telling the truth here?!
Are my parents.. right? Is the government just doing this to control us? Mmm.. but, let’s just move on from this rather depressing topic.
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Anyway, Novice left as the two avalis were making love infront of me (kissing and licking eachother). He joined sometime after, and we snuggled. The two were still making out and I said “aww.. that’s cute. You two should really get a room.” and they actually did somewhere else in the house. Me being alone with Novice, and opening up to him of how I truly feel about him (how it feels he’s a carbon copy of Jero). Then more people started joining us. One of them was a member of Kovo’s discord server (zradreak).
Got this picture of the two (zra being an ice cream boi in the past);
Such a humble picture. 🙂
Things were winding down and it’s getting quite early in the morning. I knew Novice would be going to bed soon, so I wanted him to go to a private world, as I felt he was too shy to talk. I was right, and he was unsure how to feel about the sweet words I said to him.
The more he talked, the more ‘Jero-like’ he became; even saying he has a job in delivering food. However it’s not exactly the same thing Jero has (I dunno if he still does).
While we snuggled, he said “can I make a confession?” I said “sure”. I.. prayed (but was ready to accept) him saying that I’m sweet yet he doesn’t feel the same.
…He does, feel the same. 😊 “It has crossed my mind of us being in a relationship”. His confession blew my fucking mind. “And something else I wanna say, but I feel so embarrassed. When I’m with you, your voice and the way you snuggle me gives me (NSFW warning here).”
Hehe.. aww. That’s sweet and cute. You don’t have to be embarrassed of that. But he said the only reason that stops his feelings is the age gap. It’s always that god damn age gap. I can be sweet, I can be charming.. but I can’t do anything about my age. 🙁 But like Cola last year, he’s willing to look beyond it. And just like Cola, he’s unsure if using those three words is wise and feels he’d be lying to me.
I explained to him it’s perfectly fine, that we can take this real slow (and I want him to feel comfortable). But overall he said how he has tried to be in a relationship before and felt no connection. Yet he feels a connection with me, and that’s awesome. 😄
This just might develop into a relationship. He’s even allowing me to call him my “cute cuddly teddy bear” (as that’s what he looks like). He just looks so soft and cuddly and I want to squeeze him. I just feel so happy with him (as happy as I was with Jero).
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I really pray this very close friendship turns into something more romantic. Imagine Novice being my BF before Christmas (or New Years); a complete 180 from last year. It would be awesome to spend the holidays with someone I really like. 🦾