Look what’s back, its more drama with Fluffy. Though this time, I caused it (and I won’t deny it).
In VRChat, after troubleshooting the issues with the full-sized Jero ‘doll’, I went to go see Ninja and Fluffy to show them what I did.
At first it was OK (even Ninja was very happy for me, though I feel he’s lying through his teeth). But if he is, he had the chance to win me back before Jero showed up (and blew it). I even welcomed it, but he did nothing.
As for Fluffy, everything went alright, I even gave him a big hug as a father. However, that all changed when the fire nation attacked…
More like if the fire nation was Kovo and friends suddenly spamming “hmmmmmmm” in the Discord. Started off with Kovo suddenly mass-spamming my name in Steam. Told me to check Discord, and I saw this…
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I asked Fluffy to please go check what’s going on, and waited for a response. ..I did not get one, which made me a bit annoyed (and started ignoring him). A bit childish, I’ll admit. But at the time, I was quite surprised and annoyed at what was going on.
Hearing Fluffy sniffle loudly (and get in my face) only made me more annoyed at him. And eventually I left for another world to see DJ and Kat. I invited Fluffy there, calmed down and letting him snuggle me.
Then one time as I was talking to Kat, I saw Fluffy waving his paw in my face. “I see
you, Fluffy.” I said. This annoyed him for a bit and he left, messaging me later with “I miss the old you…”.
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And that (finally) brings us to the topic of discussion. “The old me is dead” I told him, and tried to explain the reason.. more like I didn’t know the reason, but I didn’t really want to talk about it (even in here). The main discussion didn’t happen until 4 in the morning when I told him to basically.. see Jero as his new father, and myself as just a friend. I don’t want to be responsible anymore, because I don’t want to be harassed anymore.
It’s not that my mind refuses to forgive Fluffy for what he did in the past; I’m over all of that. It’s just.. that voice of his brings me pain and suffering.
I liked him when he used a voice changer. He was cuter, funnier, more lovable. And sadly I’m the one that had to tell him to stop (because he was annoying others). And now he doesn’t seem to want to go back to those days. …I liked him when he didn’t have VR.
I feel bad for wanting all of this, yet also telling him to be himself and make friends. He still is, but he’s still bugging me (which is a problem).
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I don’t know what else to do, but my mind cannot accept this ‘new’ Fluffy. I would rather just not deal with the months of drama, anymore. Yet I guess that’s my fault for not accepting, huh? ..Meh, Jero would be a better father. Sadly he’s not always there to be with Fluffy (as I am), but … I dunno. I just hope this ‘stay as friends’ thing sticks, but I have a feeling he’s going to one day beg to be my son again.
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By the way, Jero doesn’t even know about this ‘forced fatherhood’ I’m putting upon him. I’m waiting for the right time to say it. I feel he won’t mind it, since I still remember him telling Fluffy that he wanted to pick him up IRL and rock him like a baby.
So.. he’s the perfect father material!