What happened 20 minutes before midnight (September 6th), is something I cannot stop thinking about. It’s a feeling I haven’t felt.. since I started dating early this year– a feeling of true love, that just makes me want more of it (I already feel high as a kite, with my heart feeling as if it’s floating in the clouds).
And it all came from what Cola said to me (and I felt). Months have I had doubts if he loved me as I did of him, and he finally told me the reason why he couldn’t say it. The next day, he trusts me. Said that I would one day show him that he could fully trust me, for him to finally express his love.
On Friday I hung out with him as usual, but he had this unusual request to help him find the Shiba model (finding the model really adorable). That and he feels he really can’t do anything else with the Best Boi 2.0 model (as it’s “already perfect” to him). Told him I would talk to Pikapetey (since I’m friends with the guy), and ask if he can get the
model.
But since Pika never came online that night (and I was talking to Nighwolf about something), I decided to ask him (as he’s a good friend of Cola). He spoke to a friend of his, who gave me the link to Pika’s Patreon page and pay $5 to get into Pika’s Discord server (to find the link to the model).
Before that, Cola said that he was getting ready to go on some sort of business trip. Then he took me to one of his favorite worlds; a 1950’s Diner (with the artwork and actual music from that era). There’s even a button in there that makes your screen black and white.
We danced to some of the music. Then there was this slow one that I got close to him, and that’s where the magic happened. For the longest time, me and him were nuzzling eachother as happy as can be.. and I was in literal tears with how happy I was to be with him.
The song ended, and he said something he swear would never.. ever be felt or spoken by him– ‘love’. He said I’m “lovable”, and he.. “loves” me. He did it. He did the impossible. He said the positive ‘l’ word!!
I mean yes I’m happy. Like I said I feel lighter than air right now after that dance! It
was, just.. perfect! But I’m also happy for him. Happy he’s starting to come out of his shell and feel.. good feelings that have been bottled up inside of him for many, many
months (even before I met him). I don’t want him to EVER go back to those dark
days, ever again. I want to hug him, please him, protect him. Cola has gone from nearly dropping off the poly (several times), to being very welcomed (and one of the strongest that loves me).
Fluffy needs to keep working at it, though. Maybe when he gets a mic and grows up a
bit (stop using annoying avatars).. plus stop thinking that we share the same lovers (when I’m the one that started this), he’ll rise up.
The other thing happened Sunday (today). Red Fox is back from a 3-week ‘vacation’ of
hell– having to build a wall of a barn, by himself (and doing literally everything by
himself, with no help). Yet he tells me he’s used to it.
He also wishes there was better internet there (so he could talk to me more). “If I had
that, I would live in the forest forever.” His sona’s a fox, so it suits him perfectly.
Who knows what other things might happen this evening. Maybe a little.. fun in a private world? 😏
EDIT: Well it didn’t happen as expected (as Red Fox went offline after taking a shower). Also, Cola wanted me to hand-hold him to get the Shiba model, saying he’s “quite retarded”. I wanted to say something sweet to have him reconsider saying that, but the proof was kind of right there infront of me.
Mmm.. ‘retarded’ or not Cola, I still love you with all my heart. 🧡 So I guided him through the process and he got the model. Then I watched him in a Discord video
call, spend nearly 4 hours painting it as close as he could to his sona (and I enjoyed every moment of it, even though my bored brain wasn’t.. but it can STFU because I was with the one I love).
I also know his real name now, but I won’t be disclosing it.
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Interesting choice of paint programs he was using (mainly Paint 3D, and using a bit of Paint.NET to set his avatar’s picture). Surprised he wasn’t using Photoshop.
He asked ten minutes before he was done, how he could repay me. ..I wanted to say something, but the only thing that came out of my mouth was “Ohhh, you’ll think of something.” But all I really want is.. well, him to eternally love me for the rest of
time (as I will of him). That’s all I really want, as payment. 😊
Him, and the rest of the poly, so I will never feel alone again.
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Also, I just might get my hands on a Shiba too, and see if I can make a ‘Dragba’ (or ‘Dragon-Shiba’; a Shiba with my Sona’s likeness). It’s only $5, and I don’t have to keep paying it monthly.
The reason why I’m thinking about it, isn’t just for the sole reason of playfully annoying Kovo (as he doesn’t like the model), but …the tail can be removed (which is unbelievable). The ears cannot (outside of Blender of course), but, I would keep ’em. Plus I could use this Paint 3D (comes with Windows 10) to do the chest, and it should (in theory) be a lot easier.