Quite a lot to talk about this lazy (but humid in my room) Saturday afternoon of July
27th, 2019, and of course it’s related to VRChat again. Almost considering on making a ‘VRChat Drama Blog’ just for these things, as they’re taking over pretty much everything else (such as drama going on IRL that has nothing to do with me (aka politics)).
But I will leave that decision up to you folks. If you feel another blog would be pointless, or you think it’s a good idea, feel free to let me know.
Without further adieu, let’s get to the latest drama from VRChat.. starting with how I have forgiven Insanely for the lies.
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Insanely forgiven
Section Tags: Personal/Drama/Love Drama
As said, I have forgiven him (but not as much to call him my RP son again). Right now he’s just a friend. I have gotten the picture proof Aftershock suggested, though he never asked to see them– only that if I believe it, and I do.
Insanely still feels bad for what he did, and actually feels I shouldn’t had forgiven him so easily. I actually agree to this, but honestly it isn’t that big of a deal (as Frost had told me the day after what happened). But Insanely still feels really bad for what he’s done.
He still has to convince Kovo to forgive him, which he plans to do tonight. But that’s not all that’s going through his mind. He’s considering on leaving Blueberry, feeling he’s not the one for him. I personally feel Blueberry won’t really care about it that much (though I could easily be wrong). The main reason why he’s considering, is he doesn’t really know how to move on from the past and is scared he will hurt him.
Insanely is also in a second ‘relationship’ (similar to myself and Cola) with WildBoy. How it’s similar is WildBoy’s in an open relationship with someone else. So, what a mess of
love, huh?
Anyway, about Kovo, I promised Insanely I would try to help him if needed, and I likely might have to. Hopefully I won’t, but Kovo’s going to need a lot to convince him. Just hope it doesn’t spur into having to choose a side; Insanely or Kovo. Don’t think it will, Kovo would never do something that dumb. He’s a smart man.
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Wufy returns (as ‘Phantom~Wolf’)
Section Tags: Personal/Drama/Love Drama
Wufy has returned to VRChat, though he’s been leaving and coming back for the past month. It was a day ago where he’s back for much longer. And this time (hopefully), he’ll stay.
Came up to me, asking me who he was. Almost immediately I remembered the voice but didn’t want to say it infront of anyone (fearing of drama). But he said he really didn’t care anymore. Said his name, then he said if I still cared for him. And the answer was quite obvious; “YES” I still care for you, dude! And since then we’ve been snuggling, while I’ve been trying to give him company.
Though there was a time when I had to get up and do something. Was about to do something else and I saw Frost there talking to him and DJ (who I was snuggling both of them).
When I came back, they were gone and Kovo was DMing me asking if I heard anything. Said that I had my headset off but I saw Frost talking to them. Got on my headset, and Kovo wanted to talk to me in private. He was very annoyed Frost showed up all the
sudden (and in his world), feeling he was starting shit. Eventually found the two and brought them back to the private area, and questioned them.
Wufy said Frost was only saying his goodbyes, and “you will never see his face again”. This made me think about Jero, since he’s still friends with Frost. We talked for 45 minutes about all the drama that happened, with Wufy saying he’s really tired about it and agrees with Kovo (and myself).
This drama should had been buried months ago, but Frost can’t seem to drop it. Which also makes me question if Scooby really was the one that started it up (or was it
Frost) after finding out Jero is friends with him.
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But for now, the drama is dead.. and hopefully will be forever. Though it’s funny how Frost told me that Wufy was the one that needed time to think. Now it’s the other way around. To think I actually felt sorry for him.
Vale was right when he said he felt something very odd about Frost, but couldn’t put his finger on it.
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Mercury’s insanity
Section Tags: Personal/Drama
So, something not really related to any of my main friends, but someone I met during Christmastime last year; Mercury_Gaming, now known as ‘MR. Murcury’ and is usually in an SCP MTF uniform (part of the ‘Nine-Tail Fox’ unit). You can usually tell Murcury is around with his infectious, insane laugh. And since I’ve seen his name change, pretty much every time he sees me, I get a hug from who I call “the insane SCP guy”.
But yesterday when I was hanging around with one of my newest
friends ‘DingerFox’ (who’s a blue dragon even though it’s not his actual sona), Murcury
seemed.. different. He was using an avatar I never seen before, which name escapes me. But he claims this is a suit they stick the souls of insane people in. He also seemed very depressed about something, something he declined to disclose.
Anyway, Dinger and I hung out with him almost all evening, RPing with him playing TF2 and stuff like that (with Dinger and myself posing as large dragons).
This lead to going to the SCP facility and playing with SCP-914 (the way you’re not supposed to by placing biological matter in 914, aka themselves).. which caused Murcury to accidentally ‘neutralize’ 914 (by using it too much and breaking it)… woops!!
Dinger then had to go as his friends were calling to play Rocket League, leaving me with Murcury.
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We went outside of the facility, and noticed SCP-682 has escaped containment. Ahh shit. Time to arm the Alpha Warhead, and we do a simulated run of getting to the blast shelters in 90 seconds, which we failed and ‘died’ in the heavy containment unit.
Murcury sees this failure as a failure to his real life and gets depressed again. Great. Thinking about saying I want to go see some other friends, but I also feel bad if I did so and try to stay with him (yet also encouraging him to go to bed).
Told me he was going to do an ‘experiment’ on himself when he wakes up; go an entire day without food or water. Said he was going to go for three days in an attempt to end his
life, but essentially talked himself out of it. Said “suicide is never the answer”. He looked at me and said “you don’t know what I’ve been through”, saying he’s actually insane IRL as well and how he ‘works’ for an insane person of this SCP RP thing. Claims he would work with an insane person IRL too.
Kept telling me he should be dead for all the things he did in his physical life. Told him the same thing, of what I’ve done. Finally I was able to convince him to go to bed, but not before acting like he just swallowed his own tongue and died right infront of me. He did recover later, slightly hugging me and hops off without saying a word.
Made me think that was going to be the last time I would ever see him again, at least until I checked Discord and saw him online.
I hope he gets help, he clearly needs it. I also hope he wasn’t doing that as part of his RP and actually isn’t really insane. But either way, I need to distance myself from him more than I’m doing now. I don’t want to get involved in any drama of taking advantage of nice people. Been through that enough already.
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Plus he’s a bit of clingy person. Don’t really like clingy people who use human (or semi human, like Jeda in the past) avatars. It feels so.. weird being hugged by a human being when you’ve been hanging with furries pretty much all your virtual life.
The only time I would be hugged by a human avatar (and I’m talking an actual human avatar, no cat girls or anime/manga avatars), is if it’s a female and it’s smoking hot, who wants me.
Of course I’ll ‘give’ them to Kovo, since he would rather bang them than a furry.
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And so that’s the news. This post will likely get an edit (or two) of what happens with the convincing of Kovo.
EDIT: Damn.. it’s Sunday already?! Wow did the weekend fly by! So Insanely comes back from his vacation the Sunday after this one. But at one point, it seemed we were never going to see him again… that is if it wasn’t for Aftershock (and then myself) talking him out of it.
So you can safely say, things didn’t go good between Insanely and Kovo. Though I wish the timing was a bit better, especially when I was having virtual sex with Red Fox. Plus, having to deal with high ping (250+) and intermittent disconnect issues (caused by obvious unfinished maintenance in the late morning, that no-one in the dev team wanted to admit their stupidity. Only Tupper did a PA move saying “we are aware, please be patient”).
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Anyway, as I said, this was during an inopportune time when Insanely was all “my phone’s battery is dying, lets get this done now.” Still wanting to be with the one I love, I tried to help him as much as I could (with him not knowing how to start a group DM). I honestly didn’t expect him to immediately start with this. I told him I would help him if he needs
it, not this.
When I finished with Red Fox (and he went AFK for much, much longer than the 10 minutes he claimed he would be back as), told him in a DM I was being invited by a friend to see them. Joined Sparky, who was with Kovo. Pulled Kovo away and told him about Insanely wanting to speak to him, but it was like he was almost purposely ignoring it for the remainder of the evening. This annoyed me, as well as Insanely. Kept occasionally reminding him, thinking he either didn’t hear me or forgot. But no, he acted like he didn’t want to deal with it.
Kind of childish IMO. Insanely’s opening up to you, and you can’t take the time to hear him out? ..Really, Kovo? Time passed as the disconnects kept happening through the night. One time it made Kovo switch to his world (instead of the only world Sparky can handle because of his crap computer).
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Sometime later, Insanely leaves the group DM unexpectingly, and then tells me that Kovo was right, that he’s “just a liar” and sent me a DM between him and Kovo. This made Insanely consider leaving VRChat and Discord.. forever.
I hear Kovo next to me, say something like “he will never get it, he’s just a liar” and then asking someone next to him for a hug. Meanwhile I’m trying to talk Insanely out of leaving, but he keeps saying “I don’t want to hurt anyone else. It’s for the best.” Then a disconnect happens ingame, and I use this to leave it (feeling like I was done for the
night, very much upset at his decision.. and disappointed at Kovo for not giving Insanely a chance).
Asked Kovo, trying to fight back tears: “Why didn’t you want to believe him!? He wouldn’t had left if it wasn’t for you!! I forgave him…” Insanely almost immediately (in his DM to
me) asks me if I was upset at his decision. Told him I was disappointed in Kovo for not willing to listen, and he said not to be (that it’s his decision). But I felt Insanely shouldn’t be making this one because of Kovo. Yet he still felt he didn’t want to hurt anyone
else.
He also tells me that Aftershock said to him, he would “cause more drama” if he left and is now unsure if he should. I said “Yeah, what about Blueberry? What about WildBoy?” …He legitimately forgot about them! Wow. Nice save, me! He then sent me a DM of him and Aftershock, with Aftershock saying “you can leave them but you don’t have to leave
us”.
I used this to further convince him not to leave because of Kovo, and he said that Kovo is like family to him. Meanwhile, Kovo was explaining himself to me, which calmed me down. He convinced me he wasn’t against Insanely.. he actually made me realize a flaw that should had hit me a long time ago. To quote a famous phrase said by Lincoln: “actions speak louder than words”. Aka, Kovo doesn’t trust him. He needs to win back that trust with actions, not words. With this, I did my best for further convincing, and it seemed like I finally had it when he asked me “can you be my rp father pls”.
I decided to say, “Yes”, if it would keep him from leaving. And he was absolutely thrilled to hear it. Told him “Because I feel you want to prove this isn’t going to happen again. You need to show Kovo this, in order for him to believe you.” And he swore he will. So I’m going to hold him on this promise.
And he assures me he won’t. And this is all he needed to know that leaving would be a really bad thing.
Finally, to make sure he never feels he needs to, I found something he said earlier in the month that was really sweet and quoted it. This brought him to tears and hugged
me, thanking me for reminding him all the nice things he said about me (and my ‘goofy face’). Heh.
Something in the back of my mind though, just doesn’t feel right. But I can’t put my finger on it. I guess I feel this is going to happen again. Doubts maybe, similar to what Kovo’s feeling (while not admitting to it). Insanely’s going to really have to prove to us that the lies will be in the past.
I want to feel as happy as I was with him, before all of this love shit started. We need to do more father-son bonding exercises. Just us two, as RP father and son (taking care of his needs as if he was my son IRL). Taking him to McDonald’s, giving him a happy meal. That sort of thing.
Maybe have one of my friends with benefits as acting like his second father, of giving him an RP family. Perhaps, Red Fox (once I tell him that Insanely has changed and promises to be a better person).