“Ohh why did I come back to VRChat!?” I think of times after what happened last
night, where I feel like a friend threw me to the wall in hopes he could rely on my kindness of wanting to have everyone’s back, yet also placed me in a very sticky situation if I should had put my foot down (in order to keep a friend.. but would also risk losing another).
Oy. Last night wasn’t fun. And it just makes Jusper’s words more and more true (that an online relationship just isn’t for me.. or hardly anyone in this game).
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*fires up Pandora to help me through this one.. gets song that reminds me of what Wufy is going through* Fuck. Next song! *hears something different* ..Better. Anyway, let’s begin with something that happened the day before between DJ, Kovo and Vale (though I was in the room);
The truth about DJ
I asked Kovo if he wouldn’t mind telling me what happened that night. And since a lot happened, I asked for a brief summary. Said he “was right” about DJ; he has been cheating on Blue, but wouldn’t tell me whom until much later.
That later time came in a call to him, and he said it was.. literally everyone (though he had a crush on Frost the most). Aka, he was ERPing with everyone he could. Never knew DJ to be that horny. But it’s one thing to be horny.. and it’s another to be cheating on your BF.
Now that he knows he has an issue, of course he feels like shit for what he did (and understands why I was avoiding him). I mean, we all make mistakes. We’re only human afterall. And the reason why I was avoiding him that night, is I didn’t know what to say to him. It’s hard to support someone where a lot of my friends are against (especially when I have their backs).
Yesterday afternoon, Kovo sent me a semi-long conversation with DJ telling Kovo to ignore and block him for all the shit he did, but had Kovo telling him that he needs to change (and couldn’t do it for him). And at the end, he said he would try, but Kovo wants me to keep my ears open to make sure of this.
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*sigh* I personally feel ‘done’ with DJ (not as a friend, but as for support). Mainly, I don’t know DJ or Blue that well (as I know Frost and Wufy). Blue keeps things to himself. He doesn’t open up to anyone of his feelings. And probably the only reason I’m still friends with him is for helping him with his eyes.
And DJ.. *sigh* I dunno what to say about him. I feel, neutral to him (even though I can’t thank him enough for helping me to think of what was wrong with my
computer).
Maybe, let Kovo deal with this while I deal with Wufy and Frost. And speaking of those two, Kovo feels he fucked up by using Wufy to get the truth out of him. I feel a bit ashamed of Kovo for this, as I told him everything Wufy told me. Yet he apparently wasn’t satisfied with my answer, and he lost Frost as a friend in the process.
Meh. As long as I don’t lose either as a friend, I’ll be happy. I like them both, and want them to be happy.
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Lunar’s nice pic of me
Let’s lighten the mood here (before it gets dark again). Kovo and I were playing ASTRONEER while waiting for Vale to get in VRChat. The reason is this is Vale’s possible last day that we may ever see him again, before he gets shipped out to the U.S. Marines.
So when he gets on later yesterday, we needed to make it the best night we ever had with him (with Kovo ‘joking around’ saying he’ll send him lots of porn).
As we were playing, Lunar DMs me with a “lil sneak peak” of something she’s working on;
Immediately I knew she was drawing my avatar (or at least a form of it). Later on, she sends me the finished product;
I’m not gonna lie, text can’t describe my true feelings toward this (how I was chuckling hard IRL at the ‘From’ tag). I love it, I absolutely love it. *chuckles*
Thank you, Lunar. You are too sweet for your own good. 🙂
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Late night love drama
Time to now talk about what happened last night (and why anything could
happen.. though I pray it’s good). At this time, I just don’t see it. There’s so much missing from this; so many questions, with Wufy asking the biggest.. of what did he do wrong.
Anyway, we were in another world watching a very interesting VR horror survival
game that Scooby was trying to show off; Edge of Nowhere. It’s got me pretty hooked, as I want other VR games to play (besides just VRChat all the time). It reminds me part of the single player story of Warframe (in a way).
Also.. I met the legend PHD Mcstuffin while I was in that room (the guy who does the Baldy VRChat videos)!! HOLY FUCK! I even have proof of him and a few friends going through a portal with him to see his latest video;
I’m such a fan of his work, and to meet him face-to-face is an honor. He knew who I was when he saw my avatar, and said “I remember your YouTube comments!”
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Right, let’s move on. Scooby also wanted us to watch Call of Cthulhu. I’ve already seen
it, but decided to watch it anyway. Now, Wufy was there for most of the time. Then he disappeared, and Frost appeared. I said “hey man!”, but it was like he didn’t see me as he looked around the room as if he was looking for someone. Then he went back to spawn and said in a quieted voice “Hey Benie”. He nuzzled my nose and I nuzzled his, and I tried to figure out what was going on. He said he was “half tired and half depressed”. Unfortunately I cannot remember word for word of what he told me, but it seemed he was still pretty pissed off at Wufy.
Kovo and Vale ran over to try and figure out what was going on too, but then I heard Scooby being all “is there drama? I don’t want to hear it”. Kovo convinced him that there would be no drama while I stayed with Frost (and talked quietly, so Scooby wouldn’t hear).
I seriously wish I could remember what was said by him, but I think Scooby kind of ruined my concentration. From what I do remember, he was mad enough to punch something. …What the hell did Wufy say to him to cause this?! Then he said he needed to go before he trips balls or something of the sort.. he was extremely pissed.
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About 5 or so minutes later, Wufy calls me. ..The HELL?! He never did this before! I was forced to mute my voice ingame and answer his call, and he says “Benie, I need your help. Frost blocked me in Discord!” He says he wasn’t trying to ignore Frost, he had to go do some things (and wanted me to pull Frost into the group chat to get this taken care of).
I was extremely hesitant in doing so, feeling it would just cause more drama. But I tried and thankfully I wasn’t able to (as his name contains special characters that Discord doesn’t like when looking up someone).
So, he found it odd that Frost was still playing VRChat, and eventually told me he was going to confront him about this, and I wished him luck. 10 minutes later, he calls back sounding heartbroken and confused, saying Blue was with him and was hugging him. And when he asked Frost what was going on, he only left the game. Now poor Wufy doesn’t know what the hell he did wrong. Says he was playing a game with him today for two
hours, having fun and stuff like that (trying to show him the love that Frost gave him). Then he tells me that Frost “asked for money” and then said he had to go.
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I am completely clueless on what the hell is going on with Frost (just like Wufy), only that he might be dating Blue (or Blue might be trying to date him). But Wufy feels if that’s
true, then why doesn’t he just come up to him and tell him (instead of running away)..? And that’s the truth.
Could Frost be acting how Wuffer was acting around me (showing his ‘true form’)? Or is there something going on in his life (that he refuses to tell me or him)? It’s like, a complete 180 from how this all unfolded. And Wufy feels that Frost has suicidal tendencies.
But, I told him to give Frost a few days and hope for the best (that he’ll come to him and explain what’s going on). Even if he doesn’t tell me, at least Wufy would (hopefully) know.
That experience felt like it ruined my weekend; felt emotionally drained. But Wufy let me go, knowing that there’s really not much more I could do for him (and I really can’t, unless Frost allows me to, by opening up to me). …Because I’m not going to endanger friendships over this (despite telling Kovo as much as I could while Wufy was speaking to me). But I’m only doing it as both of us care for them a lot.
I did get back on VRChat (my headset timed out while I was talking to Wufy), and did my best to enjoy the rest of the morning (staying up to 5:30 in the morning to give Scooby someone to cuddle with, while watching videos).
So, that’s about it. As I said, I really hope things go better for Wufy and Frost.
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Oh, something I forgot to say, so far that headset disconnecting issue hasn’t happened. However I’ve been getting those issues with my right controller sending inputs that I’m
not (making me spin or turn). This gets even worse if one of them turns off.. suddenly it’s like I no longer have control of what my controllers do (moving back and forth without doing anything).
Going to try to move the cable that’s attached to my Bluetooth dongle to be next to the USB 3.0 port of my headset. See if that fixes the false signals.