Benie's General Blog

Weee. Long title is long. Anyway, two things I wanna get off my chest before I head to bed.

First is the never-ending battle of me VS them in the DMT group hating me. And .. wow, they’ve won the battle and war. Not just with telling me to fuck off, but with lies. Feelings of false hope from George AKA Roll_Program. And George, if you’re reading this, I’m just going over this with my invisible viewers to this blog. We’ve already discussed it.
I found out after I left, Luxo had a poll asking people to PM him if they want to see me banned from the group. It was a tie. Roll never told me about this. He claims he wasn’t looking when they did the poll, but now I know he would had broken the tie and I would had been banned anyway!

Yes I have no life. But so what? I’ve gone this far without one. What kinda shocked me the most are the ones that I thought were my friends in that group, never liked me.
I can understand with Fishy; he never liked me. This bullshit about him wanting to know me better in the past. And building in my server. He’s probably forgotten everything about that by now, and wouldn’t care that I destroyed his building and underground area yesterday in the ‘friends’ map.
But to hear it from w1z, and several others that don’t like me all because I am a drama queen and they’re not going to take the shit anymore, yeah.

I doubt though everyone in that group hates me. There’s GreenDolphin, and.. well… ok, there’s just him. I actually forgot about the other members. Was thinking of adding him to my friends list, but just to chat, send me pics or whatever. But I won’t discuss about the group.

But yet… it is time for me to move on and go back to the way I was before the group ever existed. This is kinda impossible if I continue to view the thread. Thought of making an alt for a week (until the ‘# New Posts’ thing disappears from it) and avoid clicking the link to the thread.

But probably the best thing about this, is they don’t know my cell phone number or email address. If they were really pissed at me, they would be trying to piss me off by using one of those things.
All they want is for me to leave them alone. Forever. Now that’s something I can agree and live with.

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With that out of the way (may edit it tomorrow), time to discuss the second piece of news. Due to the fact angry’s two friends he hangs around with cannot be reached through Steam, I have to use Skype. One of them, Italian_Life, saw my work and likes it, then had this crazy idea to form a community of Mynecraft servers using my site as the foundation. Or something like that.
In other words, I would have to defeat the purpose of why I purchased this domain, to be a Mynecraft server-hosting site. And like I don’t have enough to think about. First I get banned from the DMT group, now this.

But maybe being banned from that thing actually made a perk. I get to be able to know Italian_Life better and hopefully be able to see his work tomorrow. He says I might find inspiration from it to improve my own work.

I will think about it and let angry know when I have made a decision. I have been slowly resuming work on the ‘residential’ map in my server. I’m also trying to throw in the old apartment complex I used to live in when I was growing up. But having to deal with angled buildings, sucks.
But when I feel like the map is ready, I’ll be scouring the internet searching for house plans, hoping to find ones that can be built in Minecraft.

I’ve decided to say no to the thing of turning the Wurm blog into the Minecraft blog, and will keep all Minecraft-related shit in here.
The Wurm blog is pretty much a museum piece, to me; of what Wurm was like before Rolf fucked it to hell and back.

Anyway, I keep putting this off. And for good reason. Here I have a plan of what to use for the ‘residential’ map of my Mynecraft server, but I just can’t think of HOW I’m going to be able to fit everything in such a tiny 256×256 map.
One of Mr.angry’s friends, Italian_Life, suggested I plan the map in Paint.NET.
I tried, but I just can’t do it. I thought of having the E/W Highway turn into two one-way streets, but as soon as I extend one road using the map I linked, I’m already in the fucking middle of the map!

I feel like telling him to plan it for me, but I can’t do that. I’m supposed to plan and build it! If I let someone else do it, it would throw off what the message blocks say in the ‘default’ map of “maps that Benie makes”.
My guess, if this thing could be .. “Minecrafted”, it would need a 512×512 map.

Well. Screw this. There’s another idea that just popped up in my head. The entrance alone will be epic.

Yet I ask myself, why on top of it. Minecraft is completely different from Wurm, minus /indev/. We can’t have moving boats made out of assorted blocks.
But what we can do is impossible of Wurm — making our own worlds. Even better, YOU can host the server! Want a river? Make one! Want an ocean? Make one! Want a city-themed world made out of blocks? … You get the idea.
Now that’s just Creative mode. /indev/ is very different, and is almost like Wurm. You have to tear down blocks and craft them into tools. Make a block forge. Create a humongous mine/underground house lit with torches.
Worried about hostiles? Switch them off in the Difficulty level and have freedom from being killed.
When /indev/ goes multiplayer, you just know the playerbase is going to explode, and servers popping up left and right.

Best thing about planning in Minecraft? YOU DON’T NEED FOOD/WATER! 😀 The only reason you kill is to give yourself food to increase your health (if you have hostiles on).

But anyway, probably the only ‘purpose’ of the change would be to list status of the portal worlds. Maybe when the server is finally ready I can issue alerts to anyone reading the blog if the server goes down or whatever.

This is probably going to be my last blog entry for a long time. Because what I will say will probably make people laugh at me and tell me to shut up, or tell me to get a life.

I can’t believe it ended over something so stupid as a TF2 exploit. But I knew this day would come.
In ways, I’m happy. I feel free. Liberated. Yet I feel saddened that I’m this way and I don’t wanna do anything to change it, and they can’t accept me for the way I am.

For as long as I can remember, and due to the reason I wasn’t.. ‘born around the internet’, I’ve always been serious around it. I feel like everyone’s always insulting me, when they’re just joking. I don’t know how to tell the difference.

But this latest and final thing had nothing to do with this. It has to do with a little thing called “moral”. Always doing your best to do good (on the internet..), and warning others before they do bad things.
It all started with one of the members said there was a Facepunch thread of how to build unlimited sentries in TF2.
Being moral, I did my best to hopefully make them stop before they do this terrible thing known as exploiting. All they did was laugh in my face and tell me to shut up.
I could had just went back to Gmod and ignored their conversation as they talked about how awesome this exploit is and getting banned from servers and shit. But no… I had to say what was on my mind, with; “You make me sick…” and left the chat.

Later on, hoping none of them would remember what I had said, I hopped back in. One of the members was talking about making a world that would have lizard people, and asked if the females would have boobs. I said no, but that wasn’t the kicker. What was when I said “at least lizard people with boobs isn’t as bad as exploting in TF2”.
Nearly everyone was yelling at me in there, telling me to shut up and I don’t know shit. Including Luxo.
Yet I gotta ask myself “you know why they did that, right? Because you couldn’t just let it go. What they did wasn’t any of your business.”, but at the time, and usually everytime before I open my mouth to say something stupid, I don’t think about it.
Then I added fuel to the fire which was the pit I was slowly going into by saying the word “illegal” in explaining what a exploit was.

What I meant from ‘illegal’ is that you’re not playing the game the way it’s supposed to be played. And I shouldn’t of said that word.
And then I grabbed about 20 kegs of TNT and threw them into the pit by saying “Either you stop discussing exploits or it’s bye-bye Benie”. I was hoping they would pick me over them, and I was horribly…horribly wrong. I was pretty much the laughing stock of the group.. again. When am I ever going to learn that no one gives a fuck about anyone else on the internet?

So to close it out, I dared Luxo to kick me out of the group.. “if you got the guts” infront of everyone. A minute later the deed was done. But I didn’t give a shit at the time. The laughing. The shut ups.. they all build my anger level, which really doesn’t take much to do. I exploded, turned into a “FUCK YOU!!! ALL OF YOU!!!” guy.

It’s been a day since what happened, and I still can’t get it out of my head. If only they could had accepted me for what I am, we could of all gotten along. Angry has. Why not them?
But I really don’t know if to feel like shit for something I did. In a way I’m glad it’s over. They don’t need me trying to bring drama into their.. normal lives, which I do my best not to.

I got JC2 three days ago. Though I didn’t know if I should get it at all. Due to the fact I never played the original Just Cause. But this has nothing to do with the original.

The game is like Crysis, GTAIV, and FarCry 2 in one. Crysis due to the island setting. FarCry 2 due to the factions, and GTAIV for the car chases/hijacking.

It starts as you being a secret agent. Almost like James Bond. Even the music makes you feel like some international spy only seen on TV.
After you do three missions, you’re pretty much on your own. You can go ANYWHERE on this humongous island complex. There is a few places where you will be killed on sight by the military if you decide to just waltz into one of their bases.

As I said, it’s been three days. Yet I haven’t even discovered half of all the settlements. I’ve been dicking around using the BOLOpatch (aka Trainer + Anti-Crash) and other mods I downloaded, with the Military; blowing up their generators and shit and laughing as I take down their Air Support with one RPG. Not to mention boring the Dragon Megathread Chat with my ramblings on how awesome this game is. How I did this and that and found it funny.

Anyway.. the story of the game is about a rogue agent and former mentor of the player character, and a power-happy leader of this fictional island complex known as Panau. You can decide to continue the story, or help out the three local factions, or… do whatever you want. Completing the game isn’t really a requirement, as you’ll still be able to do everything even if you complete it.

Then why am I not doing it? One good reason. I can’t handle “OMG HURRY! BEAT THE CLOCK BEFORE THE BOMBS BLOW!!” pressure. It’s not that I crack up under pressure, it’s the fact of my … high temper level. I will rage and throw things if I don’t win every, and I mean every mission I sign up for.
I am waiting until someone releases a Freeze Time mod that stops the fucking time limits! This is also why I’m not doing the many races available to me. I HATE everything ‘beat the clock’. I know this feature was placed for challenge-loving people. Too bad I’m not one of them.

Still, it’s a fun game. But you got to make the fun happen. But it was worth every bit the $50 I paid, and made me glad I upgraded to Windows 7, since it only works with it or Vista.

A few weeks ago I got this fantastic idea of making a Multi-level Parking Garage on the City side of my map in Minecraft. But I didn’t have any references.
With some help from angry, and him telling me about minerCPP, he was able to move around my buildings to allow for a larger area to start it.
He made one for me, finished, and quit. I pretty much accepted it, but it still didn’t look like what I wanted.

Go ahead a few weeks later to when I started playing Grand Theft Auto IV again. Doing the missions in Alderney, particularly the mission of scaring this guy in a cop car. During my pursuit, I passed by a Multi-Level Parking Garage. After completing the mission I attempted to head back to get a better look at it.

Arriving and driving inside the garage, I noticed the shape and knew I HAD to build this in Minecraft. THIS is what I wanted!

Anyway, skipping this long story, I finally completed a Minecraft version of that garage, and I’m proud of it. Though my idea of a garage was to cross the road, you having to drive under it, turn right and be inside of it and head up.
But why am I posting all of this shit? I have to be amazed of how far this little map has exploded in content in just three months. All started with a bridge, a simple road system that goes nowhere, a house, and no real idea what to do next… into a complex yet beautiful map.

Usually I seem to not care about what I build or put pride into stuff I made (due to Gmod), but this map with as far as it has come, I have to care. I am proud of the work I did. Even though not all of it is mine. About 80% does. The rest is Angry’s, Fishy’s. Or whoever else came and built something here.
Mustn’t forget the time the map was griefed to hell by that guy when my server first launched, and I needed someone from Facepunch to get in and make sure they can connect to it.

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In other news, the thoughts of giving control of the Dragon Megathread Steam Group to Luxo. If you’re reading this and say “quit whining”, I say “fuck you”. I have a right to.
It’s not the fact Luxo’s a bad leader. Infact he’s better than when Fishy was the leader. No offense to him if he’s reading this.

Why am I feeling this though? I feel like I fucked up. I had the chance to undo all the changes Fishy made and finally make that thing, mine. Undo the option of every officer being able to change the main page except for myself. Yet, I have to be fucking concerned about what others would think about it. People would start leaving over it.

But it’s too late now. I made Luxo the owner. I was given a chance to think about my actions before doing, and it would be wrong to take it away from him just like that. Plus what would the others say if I convinced Luxo to give control back to me?

To give him the leader, I had to de-officer everyone except the person to be leader. Fishy gave the idea.

Finally some good news for a change. One being that I now absolutely love Windows 7. Infact if it was a woman, I’d marry it and we would have a bunch of little 7’s running around.
Okay, maybe that’s alittle too much. But what I do love is the fact Oblivion is now studder-FREE! 😀 Remember when it studdered like crazy, just by running around on my horse, due to mobs? Those days are over. Sure, there’s texture loads that do cause some studder, but nothing like what I was getting before.

The 2nd thing, I was browsing around the TES Nexus, just like the Fallout 3 Nexus except for Oblivion.
I checked out the Animals, Creatures, Mounts & Horses link, and the first thing I saw was this “Akatosh Mount”.
What the hell is an Akatosh I wondered. Then I started reading the short description. Noticed the word “wings”, and “Drake”.
Clicked, and nearly peed in my pants when I saw the picture. A FUCKING DRAGON MOUNT!!! 😀

Clicked on the pictures, praying “Oh god tell me this thing flies!”. Sure enough, it does. And I squealed like a pig when I saw “Dragon Rider Cam” with a pic of you on the back of this thing, while flying.
I would be severely disappointed if it was just used as a lame ground mount. Oblivion is based in the dark ages. Shouldn’t there be dragons flying in the sky?

Anyway, I downloaded it, tried it out. You get a spell that you get another spell to control a dragon of your choice. Then you use the new spell to Summon it.
Flying… well. It kinda needs work. I guess I’ve been used to Drago in WoW. But still, this is more epic than a horse. What’s more epic is, well if you’re not riding on it, it will attack with it’s breath and one hit the enemy.

You can also tell the dragon to rest. This helps it regain health and has a pretty cool animation.

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… And wow I just realized I’m late.. real late. Looking through Google for this “Akatosh” dragon showed a picture I saw a long time ago in V1 of the Dragon Megathread, way before I even started playing Oblivion.
http://screens.d00glez.com/akatosh.jpg

But my brain was going “OHHHHHHHH SHHHHIIIIIIIII–!!!!!!!” too much when I saw those pictures to realize it’s old and been discussed.

Something I want to report in. My father is in the hospital after nearly choking to death over something he’s been trying to cough out for years.
Basically what Mother told me (I was at home as usual) is they were going to a restaurant. Father’s Sister was in the car with them. They got there, then Father said he was going to try to spit out something, so they left the car, he got out and started having trouble breathing. Couldn’t breath. So his Sister drove him and Mother to the hospital. Then after dropping him off there, they came here, dropped Mother off, I unlocked the door for her and got the story from her as she cried.

They say he has Congestive Heart Disease. Just a week ago when they returned home, Mother’s telling me that Father’s got something stuck in his throat. Turned out to be nothing more than a scare. This is more serious.

Anyway, he’s OK and he’ll live. So thank the mighty lord for that. They gave him a Nexium.. you know, The Purple Pill? They’re also giving him blood pressure medicine. However they haven’t released him.

Mother’s been crying over it, but mainly about the stress Father gets from working and how they’re going to have to pay such a hefty hospital bill. Me and the neighbors have been trying to calm her down, but being calm isn’t going to pay the bills.

I find that this is his own damn fault. If he went to the doctor when something was wrong with him, they wouldn’t be in this mess. But it’s too late now. Hate to have to come down so hard on her, but apparently tough love is the only thing that works.

Yet I’m being told that since this now runs in the family, the same fucking thing could happen to me. Irony, huh? So now I have to watch what I eat… again. No more heavy snacking when bored. I have to watch my god damn Sodium intake now.

You can’t tell how much this sucks. But our neighbor claims if I want to keep my “loving family” stress-free, I have to set a good example. But enough about me. I’m concerned that Mother may try to commit suicide over this. So I need to watch her closely.

We don’t know when he’ll come back home or if he’s going to go right back to work after this.

What happens when you take a cold front, improve it with wind gusts, lots of moisture, and instability? You have severe weather.

Our first strong cold front of the season and the year will be arriving tomorrow afternoon between 1-5PM. We have Strong storms. But there’s also a chance of an isolated severe thunderstorm.
What could make it worse, is if we get any sunshine, there’s a chance of an isolated, weak tornado.
Overall, the main threats from this line are gusty winds and flooding rains; possibly up to 3″.

Now is a time to pray to god that the severe shit stays away from us. It could be nothing to worry about. We’ve been through worse, and this is only a Very Slight risk, and the dew point isn’t in the 70’s.

But if it isn’t anything to worry about, then why is there an isolated chance of a tornado? My fear has always been killed or badly injured by a tornado, or the house destroyed. We got nowhere to go to in the event of a tornado. No basement.

Our house is over 50 years old. It would be a tornado’s personal toothpick if it went through our neighborhood. Hopefully if there is a actual warning, it’ll stay south of us. That’s still a possibility. Even though there’s a chance of a tornado, it’ll probably be in Louisville, or South Louisville.