What a slow Thursday. Possibly the slowest night I remember since getting in this unofficial relationship with MIBIT. But at least I can say Garath’s off my back (for now).
I also can’t help but think about this future MIBIT has for us, like he’s so confident it’s going to work out. I… wish I had this same confidence. Because if I did, I would had been happy to make this official. I love MIBIT, quite a lot. But I feel nervous.
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World issues fixed
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At least when it comes to Unity, there’s not much to be nervous about (outside of bricking your favorite avatar or world you put so much effort int0). So anyway, today we agreed to play Chapter 3’s tall tale. But I wanted to focus on getting Furry Village fixed.
I tried what I said I was going to do, put a test mirror in the world. Yet I also noticed the main mirror (in Unity) was rendering perfectly. ..The fuck? Well this doesn’t make sense! It’s broken ingame yet it works fine in Unity…? I did an offline test (no VR mode) and got ingame. Got to the mirror, no issues whatsoever.
VRChat, are you trolling me right now? This was NOT what I saw when I was in VR! 😲 So are you telling me, it’s.. working fine in desktop, yet not in VR? THE FUCK?! ..HOW?!?! Garath is in desktop and he saw the issue!
I tried re-uploading again, assuming maybe placing the test mirror.. fixed it somehow? It even works without the test mirror. After uploading and got ingame (in desktop)..
Mirror rendering go BRRRRRT!!
Ok, so.. clearly something’s getting fucked up when I upload the world. So that means the world itself is fine. Either I need to update Unity, the SDK, or both. I chose both (to be on the safe side), but waiting ’till after dinner to do so.
After dinner, I.. well, I never went gung ho on fixing the problem. I didn’t think it would even work. But, I used Unity Hub to download the correct Unity 2019 LTS that VRChat currently uses (‘2029.4.29f1’ by the way for anyone who’s curious), and got the latest version of the SDK 2.0. Made a new project and imported the SDK.
UI looks different. Not really a fan of the ‘dark mode’ but maybe I’ll get used to it with time. Began transferring the entirety of all Kovo’s files (including mine) of the world to the new project. This took.. 20 minutes. Fuckin’ hell. Plus for some strange reason it was bitching about files being replaced.. even though that shouldn’t be happening with a new project. Told it to just go on and replace, praying I didn’t just fuck the world by doing
that.
Finally with the scene file opened, I did a sweep and noticed nothing missing. Looks good.
Then I tried to do an offline test, and this popped up.
…”Setup .. LAYERS”?! Uhhh.. I am using SDK 2.0, right? Yes. So..
Explain yourself, VRChat!! But, I just went on and clicked it.
I love how ‘Do it!’ doesn’t have a “you have no choice” as an asterisk. Did the same thing for the other, and as of now nothing seems broken, so that’s good.. I hope!
Testing passed, the world still works. Now to upload. Cross your fingers and hope the world doesn’t die.
Got in and..
Problem FIXED!! 😀 Now Garath can leave me the fuck alone about fixing the world.
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Slow night
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It was about 10pm when I said to MIBIT “alright hun, I’m ready to get on.” He said how he too bought an avatar and figured out he had the wrong Unity version. Sounds similar
to EXGAMING’s issue the other day. And when I asked him if he knows EXGAMING fixed his avatar, he’s acting like I was talking about him instead of the other one. I get confused not knowing what the hell he’s talking about, and he clarifies what he said. Said he hasn’t seen EX (he never even asked him). Okay then, well I’m hopping on myself.
Went to join a friend. They’re busy talking to someone, then I went to Furry Village to make sure the issue doesn’t happen in VR. No issues there either. …But I’m noticing another issue. Teleporter doors need to be fixed.. badly. Even the one of my ‘house’ is broken. Way to go, VRChat!! Giving me more fucking work I have to do! … But to be fair of how old the world is, gotta be surprised it’s survived this long. Was made back in Unity 2017, and now it’s 2019. So it survived 3-4 versions of Unity and is still ticking! That is impressive.
Looks like those bandaids Kovo placed in the world before, are still holding up.
RedJoker joined me, just standing there staring at me creepily while I’m messaging someone. MIBIT joins sometime after. So essentially I’m now killing two birds with one stone here of finally showing him the world I talked about a week ago.. except he’s already been here before. Huh.
Besides Raymond showing up, nothing much happened. I kept checking my friends lists constantly, praying something would happen. So I decided to get a little frisky as to have something to do, and we went back to MIBIT’s homeworld. He has this leopard Rexalum now that somehow seems to be triggering a phantom touch-like feeling in my arms and chest, where I can’t stop hugging it as it looks/feels.. so warm. He looks so fuzzy with this avatar and OML I wanted to hug and squeeze him so bad.
Anyway, not much more to talk about here.
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Not sure why MIBIT feels so confident
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So I’ve been thinking about this entire thing, of what should’ve just been another one night stand with someone and we are now friends (with benefits), then suddenly it’s like I have
a BF all over again as if I’ve learned nothing from what I went through with Wolfdog.
That couldn’t be any farther from the truth. But.. I dunno.
Since we’re dating, why does it still feel official? Him feeling he has to make changes for me. Him wanting to spend every waking moment with me. Shouldn’t that only be a thing when it’s official? I mean, I don’t mind spending time with him. He’s my cuddle buddy. He’s my.. *cough*.. that other kind of buddy that has to do with 18+ activities.
Well, to be fair, I never dated anyone that was in my timezone before. They were always an hour to three hours behind me (or 6 hours ahead like Jero is). So this is a first.
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I just, a quarter of me feels this isn’t really going to work as we don’t have much in common. He’s into heavy metal music, dance clubs, samurais, and staying fit as part of his training. And I’m… yeah. I’m not really into anything instead of trying not to die in a video game.
Today he told me he “has to teach me how to do pushups”, after I bumped my head IRL trying to get down on the floor to attempt one in full body. “I can do 40 without breaking a sweat” he said. Well good on you hun.. not everyone is physically fit. And I fear (and
for ‘good’ reason) he’s going to force me to be more healthy in order to make this relationship work. And this is where I have to draw the line of what I will and won’t
do.. even if it’s for my own good. Wolfdog accepted this, with him being even more overweight than I am. I need to see if MIBIT will as well, and tell myself to stop
being ‘scared’ to do so.
One reason I don’t, is taking what I say and assuming I’m saying something else. It’s
his ADHD causing it, and man does he got it bad.
I’ve heard of lots of people having this, but I’ve never experienced it from someone I’m dating. It’s annoying, but I know he doesn’t mean to act like this. Deep down he’s warm hearted and doesn’t want his heart broken again. I have no intention of doing that. Like, I want this to work out between us. There is so, so much I love about him.
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But he also reminds me of how he feels “a year from now at least” we’ll meet eachother IRL, and have sex in a hotel room as likely his family isn’t going to appreciate it (just like they didn’t appreciate his IRL GF moving in with him, because she’s bi).
But anyway, …..uhhh. I don’t wanna think that far? I dunno what the hell is gonna happen in the future, only that I’m pretty sure I’m not going to have a long and prosperous life left with the way I treat myself (and having no desire to change it for the better)?
I’m ‘glad’ you see good stuff for us, but.. I do not, and this is something I dunno how to explain to him, that my mother’s still alive and how I need to stay here for her and she needs to stay here for me… plus the cats. I can’t just leave her to be with someone I love so I can have a one night stand IRL with them.
Might have to ask Frost about it, as this is a very difficult thing to explain. Especially the fact he has ADHD and might turn my words in a different way.
*sighs* Also, let’s say I… haven’t, fully gotten over my.. erm, disgust over watching two guys kiss and do it. I’m not against gay or bi people at all.. I just, eww at times. I’m hoping that I can ease into this new feeling of kissing a guy and enjoying it, to get over this fear in my head that it’s “not normal”.
*sighs* But anyway, I do need to tell him. I definitely need to before we make this official.