First off.. it is official!! Jero and I are online dating again! And it was Jero himself that let me know over and over again (in his own special way). I honestly never saw this day would ever happen.. for me to be truly happy (with him).
Happened in Kovo’s world.. the same world where the doubts caused us to stop seeing eachother. Kovo was there, and I was cuddling Jero. Then Kovo asks “you know how I’m able to piss off men? ..Hey Benie!” Not really listening to the conversation, I
asked “what?”, and he asked me “can I fuck your boyfriend?”
It seemed as if a chord had hit in Jero’s mind, and he said “no” to Kovo.
It felt like time had just stopped, and my mind was like;
Did YOU just, indirectly, call me…. YOUR BOYFRIEND?! :O
You have.. NO.. idea, how long I have been waiting for this!! And I said “no-one fucks Jero but me!” And Jero felt quite happy of me saying that with the others laughing. He even said “I love you, Benie”.
Oh. my… Lord, if this is a dream, I don’t wanna wake up from it!! 😀
This, is literally what I have wanted since I first met him in June of last year. And I am getting it. To say I’m happy, is an understatement. Just.. WOW.
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That is.. if it was that easy to fall inlove again.
Drama has emerged between Jero and Frost (two very unlikely people to ever have an issue with), which presents a huge problem. Yet this rift in their friendship is not even the tip of the iceberg; it’s feeling Jero might had lied to me about Chris (of how they broke up). I pray my feelings aren’t true, of how two separate stories, may’ve become one.
I’m trying to conduct an investigation into this matter (unknown to Jero), that might force me to say goodbye to him (for good). I already got someone that I hope will give me more details (in the coming days), straight from Frost. I even got some intel in the evening from a person who wishes to remain anonymous.
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Around 1:41pm my time, I get a message from Jero about a “massive argument” with Frost, and how he “knew it was gonna happen”. Said there’s “a massive chance” he could lose the avatar Frost made him, because he(Frost) wouldn’t give him the files to put into Unity.
Hmm. Unfortunate. But, Frost probably has his reasons. Though I wanted to say “well you’re in luck, because I have the design of your first avatar.” He added “I know exactly what this avatar looks like and I’ve taken screenshots. Kat gave me the shader files to
him, but I dunno how to use them.” I can help you with that!
Also, Jero. I don’t think it’s a good idea to flat-out copy Frost’s work. There’s obviously a reason he won’t (at least) give you the textures.
But you must be thinking.. “Benie, why would this make you ever want to leave him?” I haven’t gotten to the second story yet.
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The second story;
“ive blocked wolfie apparently i think hes been screening us having some together time”
…W..wu..wu..WHAT THE FUCK?! Are you, calling Wufy, a spy?? I.. now you see why. He’s labeling him for NO reason! Wufy is no spy!! …But why? A spy of.. whom?
But I felt with what Wufy had told me about this, that it isn’t that big of a deal. So you block him, that won’t really bother him… that was until later.
Later, with me cuddling Jero, Wufy had joined. Jero did say something, which I found
odd (thought you blocked him). Then he starts running off. I follow him, wondering if he’s going to say something to me. He stops, turns and looks at the mirror, does something and then says “he’s hidden”, and runs back to the mirror.
Ugh. Wufy asks me what happened. I’m scared to say anything (as Jero is right there). It takes him ten minutes later to realize that Jero blocked him. And… he wasn’t happy about it. Gets off and starts messaging me, saying he’s being accused for no reason.
I can definitely agree with you dude, but I was unable to say anything as I feared by
saying “I need to talk to someone in Discord”, Jero’s going to suspect Wufy’s trying to talk to me. It was really painful how I couldn’t say anything.
When Jero left, is when I was able to finally speak to Wufy. Tells me this has happened three times. “What are the other two?” I questioned. He said Kovo, and Vale.
If this is about the drama with Kovo (him not liking the new Dutchie model), and about the drama in #nsfw-no-mic in the Discord of Vale posting all of that porn and Wufy asking Vale to consider using the actual porn channels… neither of these were him being blamed for something (so I’m confused).
Backstabs, maybe. …But never as accusations. However, I get what he’s saying. But I also feel he’s making a mountain out of a molehill (especially with the drama of Kovo and Vale). He needs to get away from this mindset that everyone’s out to get him.
I still do feel for him, and really wanted Jero to realize he made a mistake accusing Wufy. But since I don’t know the full story (my mind still trying to process what’s going on), I really have nothing to stand on to prove my point.
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Then Fluffy and Kandy joins. Hmm. KingKandy… if anyone knows what’s going on in Frost’s group, it’ll be him. At first he refused to tell me anything, which was a bit suspicious. Said he didn’t want to be involved in this.
…I don’t want to be EITHER, dude!! I just want to love Jero! That’s all! I didn’t say it like that (as Kovo was there). And I’m glad he wasn’t listening. But it seemed that Kandy saw there was something troubling my mind, and he said “you know, sure. Let’s talk”.
Thank you, Kandy. I ran off, hearing Kandy behind me telling Fluffy to not follow
us (several times).
In a secure area (at least it felt secure), I told him about Wufy: “Oh no! I didn’t know anything about this!” he said. Suddenly, Fluffy teleports over to us. My frustration meter jumps.
FLUFFY!! UGH!! ..Look, please just go back to the mirror. Except he stayed there, as if he was AFK.
*frustrated sigh* Okay, Plan B. Went to my home world and invited Kandy. In my home world, I explained what I knew, and me told me a lot of stuff.
I can feel the pieces of this story (in my mind), starting to come together. I know what lead up to Frost being pissed off at Jero. The second story, became the first. So it seems as if my investigation is nearly over.
…However, there were a few brand new pieces, that weren’t fitting in. And I feel, only one man can help me to make these extra pieces stick.
The ‘new pieces’, is what happened this morning (info below).
The next day (today)…
Before I went to bed, I sent Kandy a small paragraph of what Jero said to me about Wufy. I was worried that he was going to be saying the wrong things to Frost, so I wanted him to make things clear. He was sorry I got mixed up in this; how it should had remained as an isolated issue within Frost’s group (and should had never seen the light of day). Definitely agreed. But, I can’t really blame Jero for wanting to be transparent with me.
Yet is he really transparent? Was he really telling me the truth? This is where these new pieces of the investigation aren’t fitting in.
Kandy told me that Chris feels the only reason Jero wanted to talk to me, was because he has successfully made me jealous– Chris feeling used. I didn’t believe this of what Jero told me.
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Later, Kandy came back and said “I wish I could tell you something better, because this isn’t the only thing he told me.” He posted a small conversation;
10 in the morning, I’m awoken by several phone calls (of our home phone). Since I’m up, I check my phone and see Kandy has responded to my message of what I sent to him that Jero told me.
We talked a bit (how Wufy got blamed wrongly), then it went to the paranoia. I told him that I felt upset with Jero from the way he treated Chris.
tinkerer foxToday at 1:58 PM
fucking bullshit
“hes a stalker” “his stare is creepy” “hes weird” all things j said to me
j fucking ghosted and went to bennie using me either to make him jelous or just as a sex fling
–I. NO!! I don’t believe it!! I REFUSE to believe he would say such hurtful things behind my back!! …Jero is too nice, to say something like that!
This is forcing my hand, though. I have trouble loving someone that.. may be lying to me. I’m going to talk to him (ingame, while recording audio) about Wufy, and about all of this.
When he gets settled into his new apartment (and gets online), we’re going to have
a (hopefully) friendly discussion that will either end my relationship (and maybe even friendship) with him, or fill me with sincerity that Chris is only trying to start shit (which could be a possibility too).
Though it could happen in three ways…
1. “Benie, do you not believe what I told you? I thought you wanted to be happy with me! Yet you’re accusing me of lying?!” -Likely will lead to us breaking up (for good)
2. “…What you were told, is true. I used Scooby and Chris to get back at you. And what I told Chris about you, is also true.” -Likely will lead to us breaking up (for good)
..The 3rd, I can’t really picture in my head of what would likely be said or its outcome. Just he would really have to convince me that he never said those things behind my back.
If it does turn south, and I’m forced to let him go… I still got Suppy, who would be more than happy to fill that void. At least, I think. He’s been acting strangely today, ignoring me for no reason. *shrug*