The VRChat friend threat
I knew something was a bit fishy yesterday night, when I logged into VRChat and noticed two friend requests of people I don’t think I ever bumped into. I declined their
requests, and it’s a really good thing I did… as there’s a new threat now going on, of people using bots to mass-spam invites to people using VRChat.com. If you friend them, there are reports you cannot remove them as they have ‘latched’ upon you to grab your IP and use it to DDoS the servers (making you an unfortunate threat and possibly banned from the game).
I have no opinions relating to the current status of VRChat security.. at least, nothing helpful and positive. So yeah, if you receive ‘ghost’ friend requests from people you know aren’t in the world, decline them (as they’re likely bots).
Now then, onto the main event.
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When your mind’s too clouded to think right
Ever had one of those days you get on VRChat, and you don’t know what to do with your virtual life? ..Where not even friends seem to interest you? This is when you know, you got something on your mind (but you don’t know what it is yet). I want to do things I need to do in Unity (to fully remove Cola’s avatar), but my mind keeps getting bothered by something, and it feels like I’m better off removing all BTD 4.0 versions from VRChat and re-uploading only the basic ones.
So what’s going on? Well, two things. The first is how I feel emotionally drained eversince Christmas ended (where for some reason I just want to be alone in a world, only waiting for specific friends to show up).
And the second… it’s obvious: ‘da purple one’ as he calls himself. I wanted so much to be with what’s left of the group (if I can even call it that anymore). To me, it’s now a love battle between Blue and Fluffy for my heart (yet neither of them know about it). And honestly, I would rather be alone than go through it.
You know about Fluffy, how I can’t really stand him at times to where I wish I could
say: “Fluffy I’m sorry, but this just isn’t working for me.” But I know the serious repercussions that will come with that. As I said before, it would be like a ‘death
sentence’ to him… as in, he doesn’t handle breakups.
I’m having serious doubts Scooby would be able to help me, for he doesn’t know how Fluffy acts (and will likely give me wrong advice).
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As for Blue, I would be his BF. Problem is.. Cola really likes him too. This was happening last night (that only made me depressed);
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And Red, I don’t even know about him. I don’t think he would even mind if I disbanded the group. He never speaks to me in Discord anymore (kind of like someone I once knew that I refuse to disclose their name).
Yesterday when I was with him, he said he was going to get off to buy some gifts for his family. Yet when I said “I love you”, he said “bye” a few times as he was leaving and left. It’s possible he had to rush out the door… but how hard is it to say “I love you too”?
Saying “bye” gives the wrong idea… so you can see why it feels like that someone I
knew.
I personally feel, we should just be friends. If he truly wanted to make something work, he would be speaking to me. He’s too busy with work and RL for a relationship, and it honestly never really worked out in the first place.
Overall, the group as it stands now
..it isn’t working for me, and I don’t need to be doing this. I need to find someone I can call my own again (like Ninja).
Yet Ninja also indirectly reminded me just how hard it would be to find someone that wouldn’t mind that I would prefer an online relationship (for many years). Fluffy (and maybe Blue, I’m not sure) are the only ones that don’t mind it. But I have a feeling one
day, Blue’s going to get into a position where he would just become too busy to talk anymore.
I honestly should just drop the whole ‘love’ thing (it really isn’t for me) and stay as a bachelor. I’ll still hang out with them, but I wouldn’t be calling this a ‘group’ anymore. …Yet I’m forgetting that I can’t do SHIT until I deal with Fluffy being inlove with me! I rather not love a childult. :/
But I don’t think there is anything on God’s green Earth that I could say which would let me go, and him to look for someone more his age (that would show true love to him).
…And even that, is a problem. Fluffy’s too inexperienced with love to hold down a relationship. He’s tried, multiple times (and doesn’t understand why they fail). …He TOO needs to stay away from love, even more than myself!
I’m not perfect either when it comes to relationships. My mind feels I have to be with them every. waking. moment and hardly give them any ‘me’ time (or they’ll leave me).
I rather just not deal with ‘love’ anymore (it’s too frustrating and forces change), and I wish Fluffy was the same.