Lots to do (such as maybe possibly forgiving Insanely), but there’s one thing that I’ve been patiently waiting for an answer to; getting Jero to admit he lied to me about once saying he couldn’t get into a relationship over his life falling apart (losing his job and stuff), then about a week later.. he’s dating Scooby.
Maybe he got a new job (or his old one back) in that timespan, who knows. But I decided that tonight is the night when I finally get my answers– and answers I got. I also asked if he could tell me what is unknown to me about him and Scooby, and he delivered.
So let’s go over those answers. ..First off, the question I’ve been waiting for; why did he lie to me?
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The answer actually surprised, and saddened me… it was, about how I cheated on
him.
Said he “wanted to get me back” for the whole cheating thing, even going as far as wanting to know the names of the ones I had virtual sex with, and thankfully never found
them. Because if he did, I would be very much fucked (in the non-sexual way). And the only reason why I told him, is I felt that was it.. we were done and there would never be another chance, so I wanted him to know.
But look, folks.. I completely understand he was hurt and truly feel like an ass for what I did to him, and I probably would had done the same thing (to ruin him)… however, he has clearly forgotten why I did what I did. As again, he didn’t say anything about an official relationship. I gave him all the time in the world to tell me if he wanted to get more serious, but nothing– not a word came out of his mouth (or his fingers from a DM) about it.
So what was I supposed to think, huh? He changes his profile picture in Discord to
us, yet not a peep out of him that he was actually considering of being my BF. Nothing. I wanted him to tell me, so I wouldn’t feel like I was rushing anything.
But.. nothing. And his only response to it was “Im sorry Bennie š “. Meh.
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Now that I know the reason why got together with Scooby, he started telling me the relationship he had with him (and how it’s now on very rocky grounds). However, he tells me a story that Kovo and Frost didn’t (probably them leaving out the finer details). But it also makes me question if Scooby really is scum, or is like my aunt IRL who had asked for money.
So it started with the rent money. He claims one day Scooby was pretty upset saying he was low on his rent and had to come up with the money quickly. Jero originally said he couldn’t as he didn’t have the money. As time went on and Jero got paid early (indicating he got a job) and Scooby was really sounding upset he was going to be kicked out.
Jero asks about Scooby’s roommates, and Scooby said they were mean to him. Whenever he came back with groceries, they would leave him with very little. Knowing this, Jero felt really bad for him and decided to give him $100 to pay for the rent. Scooby thought he was being trolled, but realized Jero was telling the truth and greatly thanked him.
Jero also offered to buy him his own mini-fridge and countertop, to prevent his roommates from taking his food. A pretty scummy thing to do to someone.
However.. when his card was declined, red flags began forming in his head. Though he never explained to me the reasoning behind this. Did Scooby ask more than Jero
offered, or did Jero feel he was making a mistake? I’m going to assume the
latter.
Going back to the story, it was a week after our ‘break up’. This was when I saw Jero since then, and was quite annoyed over this news Kovo gave that Jero is getting crushes.
Meanwhile while I was avoiding Jero like the plaque, Scooby was getting annoyed at him who kept talking to others (deja vu of the day after I asked him to be my BF, when I was getting annoyed). And at one point, he lashed out at him quite aggressively. Jero tried to reason with him, but Scooby didn’t like the response, and felt Jero wasn’t committing towards him enough to make the relationship work (oof, deja vu again).
However, I never asked for money (and never will), Scooby did, and this was quite ungrateful of him. Jero reminded him that he paid him $100, but he never even got a thank you after that point (and then Scooby left the world).
Someone came up to him who overheard the conversation, asking him “dude, are you OK?” He replied he was fine, and the person said “don’t cry”. I wonder, could this had been Wuffer? Because he told me that when we were dating.
Anyway, the person felt pain from Jero, even though he (Jero) felt he was keeping his composure, and then also left the world.
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Then they went to another world to discuss that Scooby made Jero upset with those
words. Scooby still refused to listen, so Jero blocked him for a few days. And this is when Scooby went to Kovo, who went to me explaining an argument between the two. Not knowing the full details, I felt compassion for Scooby. ..Really wish I never did if I knew what I knew now. Because this is when things went from bad to downright creepy.
Jero claims that after he blocked Scooby.. he was still able to follow and stalk him through every world he went in. What was even more creepy, he heard Scooby’s voice in friends mics (who didn’t block him), demanding he speak to Jero.
Jero was forced to go to private worlds, to avoid Scooby. At this time, I assume this is when he had unfriended me as a precaution (incase Scooby joins off of me to get to him. Smart move, dude. I’m serious).
That night is when the second part of the argument happened. Jero told Scooby off about him feeling he isn’t doing enough to be his BF. Said $100 is 12 hours of work every
day, doing crazy jobs to deliver food and other stuff (sounds like a semi truck driver). He adds on that people have died doing his job, and he too has had some close calls.
I remember unexpectingly walking into a part of this argument (to join a new instance of Bedroom Theater, as the video player wouldn’t work), and Kovo looked like he was moderating it (for Scooby). This is also when I noticed Jero had unfriended me. I thought it was from what happened yesterday (of trying to ignore him).
They left for another world to continue their private conversation. Kovo tried to follow them, but the portal closed before he could go through. He felt like he had to be there, but friends told him that they’ll be OK.
And this, is when, I discovered Jero and Scooby were dating, and I was of course FURIOUS of the news. “He LIED to me!!!” I told my friends. They did their best to calm me down, telling their own stories. Scooby showed up later, asking about the video player. I was able to confront about him and Jero, who said he was really sorry.
Eventually I did calm down, realizing there’s really no point of staying mad. But to this day, I have wanted answers from Jero. I have wanted him to work up the courage to come up to me and admit he lied. And as I said, tonight I got them.
But the story doesn’t end there, folks. Scooby didn’t want Jero telling Frost about what happened. And when he found out Jero was friends with Frost and BlueDrago, he lost his shit and started bringing up the past about Wufy and.. ugh. Jero didn’t even know that Blue was Scooby’s ex-BF. And this is where the whole “either be my friend or not” thing came from that Frost told me.
Scooby begged Jero to unfriend Frost and be his friend, but since Jero and Frost are like brothers.. that’s not going to happen. And at one time, when Scooby saw Jero with
Frost, he had the nerve to ask “you’re not Frost’s spy, are you?” And “Why do you see him?” Yadda yadda yadda. Toxic stuff.
To this day, Jero waits for Scooby to pay back the lent $100. Frost told him that Blue gave Scooby (when the two were dating) $300 for rent money, and still hasn’t gotten it back. Even DJ gave him money, who hasn’t gotten it back.
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Going to the present (of Jero telling me all of this), he’s trying to get out of this toxic relationship, fearing what Scooby would do if he broke up with him. Told him I’m going to block his ass for what he did to him, but Jero doesn’t want me to do anything– doesn’t want me to risk my friendship with Scooby.
What ‘friendship’?! You do NOT do that to your friends!! …But, against my betterĀ judgement, I decided it’s best to stay out of it and act like everything’s fine between myself and Scooby. I’m not even going to tell Kovo, not until the time is right. For now, Jero is going to continue waiting for Scooby to pay back the $100. He also wants to give him a chance for Scooby to show he’s not as bad as Frost claims.
Fuck, man.. you are truly a glutton for punishment! And he knows this, but in his defense he says that it’s happened so much, it doesn’t bug him. However, he says if it “gets too bad” he will dump him.
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So, that is the complete story, forever burned in words in this blog post (until unforseen consequences happens to this website, that I hope never happens).
And when (not if, as he feels it’s unlikely he’ll get that $100 back) Jero breaks up with Scooby, I find it unlikely he’ll ever consider getting back together with me (even though I promised I “would leave them all behind and be 110% committed” to him and only
him). But Insanely feels with time, there might still be a chance. And maybe he’s right.