Not sure how to explain yesterday, but it was certainly something. It honestly didn’t have to happen, period. But when you care for someone as your RP son (and you see them do things you typically wouldn’t), you have to take action and do things you don’t want to do in order to protect him.
Sure, he’s going to not understand at first (and think you’re a really bad person). But, you can only hope he will.. in time.
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All started with coming back from Burger King, telling my son that when I get back, we would go back to watching movies. Instead as I’m getting in my normal house clothes, he calls me. Luckily I still got my phone by me and answer it, telling him I’m not by my computer yet. He starts a screen share of a friend talking to another friend. One friend is on the ground looking quite upset.
Looks like I need to get on and see if I can help. Insanely’s all “are you sure, for what you went through yesterday?” I said “he’s my friend, I have to help in anyway I can. Or at least find out what’s going on.” So I got on and joined him, asking others of what’s going on.
Friend 1 says that Friend 2 (the one on the floor) was breathing weirdly and collapsed on the floor. Someone else said that Friend 2 said, someone was “trying to kill him”.
Fucking hell, attempted murder?! This is definitely not what I would typically hear on a Friday evening.
I stayed with him as much as I could, trying to get the same answers out of him as the others. Time passed, and Friend 1 suddenly revealed new clues of what happened. Said he has an avatar with Friend 2 on his left arm. Said he touched him on the head, then suddenly Friend 2 collapsed on the floor. Said Friend 2 has phantom touch. DAMN! Here I thought SKYLOOP’s phantom touch was bad; this is 5x worse.
Friend 2 somewhat recovered about 45 minutes later, telling me he was “possessed” and someone tried to kill him. Friend 1 kept pushing Friend 2 to go to bed (or the doctor). yet Friend 2 didn’t seem to listen.
Friend 2 then logged out, with us not knowing what to do. Asked Friend 1 to let me know if he finds out anything, and he said he would.
EDIT: I have a theory of what happened, though it doesn’t really explain the ‘possessed’ thing the troubled Friend 2 mentioned: since he was in the Murder 2 world, that’s possibly where he thought someone was trying to kill him. Again, it’s only a theory and an assumption, and may not be the actual truth.
Once I know more (and/or find the truth), I will update this.
With that (temporarily) taken care of (and seeing Red Fox online), I joined him and invited Insanely to join me. Red told me he couldn’t be private as he had family (and how it isn’t going to get any better). But I didn’t care (only wanting to show I’m a good friend and I care for him), and cuddled him as long as I could. Insanely at first didn’t really seem interested in saying hi to ‘Mister Fox’ (for some odd reason).
One time, Red went AFK. Claimed he would be back ‘in a minute’, but I know better. Whenever he says he’ll ‘be back’, it takes a half an hour or more. Getting bored, I decide to go to another world and see some other friends. Hit the center button of the joystick (of my WindowsMR controllers) to check something on Discord, and noticed Insanely is still in a call with me while also in the world I just left (showing his screen)… and what I’m seeing is quite disturbing. He’s trying to hump a random person who keeps trying to get away from him.
I come back to the world and catch him red-handed, and he’s all “what? I wasn’t doing anything.” Told him I’ve already told Aftershock, and he starts freaking out and crying. I’m sorry son, but what you did was wrong. You have a boyfriend, you are supposed to be committed to him!!
Yet I wonder, and I really hate to think this.. could be true, but….. what if he’s ‘learning off of me’ from my whole friends with benefits thing? He is just like me; desperate for
love (and probably being scared his BF will leave him over doubts), which is scaring me as it reminds me too much of Jero. Yet, HOW?! He’s never seen me in the act!! So let’s just assume it’s not true, and I won’t have to end it because I’m worried my son is learning without understanding the reason I’m doing it (as a coping mechanism for not having someone to call my own).
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Three hours pass and he’s still doing it with people (after Aftershock told me to let him know if he does it again). But I decide to not tell him, only saying I will.
We’re in the movie world with a few friends. A rather disturbing idea comes to mind of how Insanely could relieve any stress he’s going through, but only as an option and as a test. I pull him away and talk to him in a secret area of the world, and offer the option with two choices.
1. Keep this a secret from everyone and agree. Or 2. Keep this a secret from everyone and don’t agree. And he happily chose the second option, saying that he promised (proving to me he was going to stay committed to this boyfriend). So I said to him “no more
humping, no more cheating.. or I will tell Aftershock” and he agreed. And I thought that would be it.
A friend of mine showed up while we were watching a movie. I’m going over to do something, turn around… and see him humping the friend. That’s IT! I’m TELLING Aftershock!! He starts screaming in my ear “NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!”, and then tries to pin the blame on the friend. Too late. I told you, no more. And you did it behind my back. I am tired of this. I am tired of you not listening to me! As far as I’m
concerned, Aftershock should be your father! Because you’ll listen to him! But I also tried to explain that I was only doing this because I loved him, yet he didn’t understand that.
I just didn’t want to deal with this anymore. I hate it when people won’t listen or believe me.. it makes me so frustrated and angry.
I would had just let Aftershock take over for him, but Kovo who finally came online after kicking lots of ass in Monster Hunter World, talked to Insanely in a much.. much calmer way than I ever would had. So, as much as I didn’t want to, I….. decided to give Insanely one last chance to redeem himself. He thanked me as I deleted what I said to
Aftershock, then he said “im scared”. I asked “what are you scared about? I’m giving you anothe–“.. I stopped talking when he said “of you”. I didn’t know what to say after
that (especially infront of Kovo).
Almost felt like saying “if you’re scared of me, then go find another RP father. Because I don’t know how to control my temper sometimes.” But I didn’t. Instead I pulled him away from Kovo without saying anything and tried to calm myself down.. trying to realize he’s “just a kid” (just like Chris). I apologized for scaring him, and explained once again why I had to do what I did. Again, he didn’t understand, but he gave me a story that.. nearly brought me to tears.
He said I reminded him of his real father, who passed away from cancer one year ago. And his father was abusive. He continues saying I give him a reason to come online, saying I’m ‘life-changing’ to him, and how he cheers up whenever he sees my ‘goofy face’, and it brings him happiness. Then asks me never to leave VRChat.
I have him a huge hug, saying “I’m not going anywhere”. I could feel myself tear up with how nice those words were to me. First, he wanted to be my BF, and now this. He truly loves me as an RP father and a best friend. He too was tearing up from happiness.
Told me he has learned his lesson and he will never, ever do that again. And that is all I want to hear. IMO, this only made our Father-Son bond even stronger than before. 🙂