Trying to be with Grey / Constant issues / The show, the fun, and the talk

Seeing an old friend / Trying to be with Grey
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He asked me if I was going to come on tonight. I said either by 10-11pm, and I came on by 11pm. But I didn’t go see him immediately as he wasn’t on. Instead I saw Mr Mercury. And wow was that a mistake. Let’s just say he’s still as.. awkward as he was before (he was snuggling me as a PAYDAY 2 character), and just as insane.
Insane as in someone you see doing something illegal and you’re watching from a
distance, and he slowly turns his head towards you and starts running. But instead of killing you, he snuggles you (to death). Beware, the serial snuggler.
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Believe it or not, it was Grey now on (and the fact Mercury suddenly left and never showed up) that gave me a reason to go see him.
He was in a world with a pool table, and he was trying to break it. He showed me just how broken the table is with him hitting the cue ball so hard it breaks the table’s physics engine, and was expecting me to laugh about how broken it was. Though I never did, not really liking how he wasn’t playing properly.
“Pool in VRChat has bugs in it”. Yeah, everything does.. but I don’t try to break the game on purpose. And I try to show him how to play the proper way, but he continues playing it the “break the game” way because it’s fun to him. *sighs* ….Why am I here again? Oh
yeah, because I don’t want Grey to feel left out. Yet all it’s doing is making me wish I wasn’t here when he’s going to abuse the system.
A friend of his joins, who chuckles at Grey for breaking the game. But the way he was chuckling, I feel it was only to humor him.
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Grey mentions about a ‘paw-pets show’ that’s streaming on Twitch, and I assumed he was talking about the thing Wolfdog does, and shows me what he means. It’s definitely not what I thought. Still, it was really funny (especially when “the fox gets busy” and keeps humping a pig). And as I watch, Blender joins the world. Head down and go see him, half expecting him to give Grey some love (so he won’t feel hurt).
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Constant issues
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Ever since Grey turned the player on, I start to have issues of VRChat almost constantly disconnecting me. But the worse part about it is having that issue happen where I couldn’t hear anyone.. and this happened twice. We go to another world, only for me to crash again.
The hell is happening?! Take off my headset and notice how humid it is in my room. 84*F.
The cat is in my room, doing nothing to bother me. So I had to lie to my mother after taking the cat out saying “the cat was jumping in my face”.
It was either letting my computer breath cool air, or stop being in VR as it’s much too humid. I had to make a decision. I chose my friends over that spoiled rotten cat, and I cranked my AC back on. I also restarted SteamVR, and prayed the issue wouldn’t happen again.
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The show, the fun, and the talk
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While still in the second world (before I had to do something), Blender mentioned Lostwolf was inviting him to join somewhere but he wanted to stay for a bit. Then after I crashed, got the cat out, my AC back on and back in VR, Blender was in another world. I briefly joined him, then I joined Grey as I felt bad leaving him like that.
But he’s like “Blender left to go see one of his friends”. Though I said “well I wanted to see you”.
And Grey starts talking to his friend about how shitty the Index controllers are, how they feel so plastic to him and stuff. He wanted me to give my opinion, and I didn’t wish to. Then I lied saying “Blender’s sending me an invite to see him” (to get out of there) and he believed it.
Now with Blender, I told him what I had to do IRL; doing my best to explain this, and he understood. Then he told me some ‘good news’.. Raymond had joined seconds after I crashed in the previous world. So, VRChat ‘saved’ me from dealing with Raymond.

He wanted to show me his latest video, but I wanted him to have time with his friends first. Except nothing was really happening, except us snuggling. Soon I invited him to my home world. I ask him “do you want dinner and a movie, or a movie and then dinner?” He wanted the second thing, and we cuddled more. And the love we have for eachother was really ‘lifting’ us (quite literally, as this is a world you can pick players up).
And just like Dogecoin, we didn’t “go to the moon” and ‘crashed’. Sorry, Ellen Musk.
We headed down to watch the video. Was pretty funny; laughed harder than I should had as it was adult-oriented jokes. But the end really had us talking, of how long it took him to render the water that gets dropped on Munch.
After that, we had wild ERP time (he did mostly, to the point he was hiccuping again). He said it wasn’t the first time this happened, of a “horny hopkin”. I asked if he was the one that took it or the one that gave it. He said “both”. Damn, dude. Now I see why you said you were empty before.
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Which, brought me to ‘the talk’. I wasn’t planning on addressing this with him ’till a much later time, but the fact he brought that up I felt it was a good time to do so. And the talk went of “we’ve been together for awhile, haven’t we?” He said “yeah, feels like a month now. That’s a long time”. “Hmm” I replied, feeling the opposite that it’s only been 2-3 weeks at the most. “But anyway, I’ve been thinking. And if we decide to be official, I’d like a closed relationship.” He paused, as if he felt unsure. Then said “yeah”. “Do you know what a ‘closed’ relationship means?” I asked. “I don’t mind explaining it.” “I sort of do but sure, as I don’t know fully.” he replied with.
And when I was done, he looked like as if he was just given the worst news in his life. “This means, no more seeing others for ERP. You must stay true to the one you love. To have and to hold, in sickness and health.. to death shall you part.” I further explained, trying to help him to understand the whole ‘eternal bond’ thing with a closed relationship. He didn’t say much, and I knew I accidentally put way too much pressure on him.
So I cuddled him, and said “Hun, the the least thing I wanna do is cause you stress. Ok? But I want you to think very, very hard on this. This is a huge commitment, I know. And you have to make some changes to make it work. But, what I want most of all, is for you to relax, take a deep breath, and know you have a lot of time to think about this.”
..Yes, looking back at this I can now see I countered by own words, by saying how I want him to think hard and then saying he has all the time to think… I’m not good with
words, OKAY?!
He nodded, said “E!” and snuggled me. Told him I loved him, and he said the same thing.