Hey again, still alive and kicking. Thought now’s the time to catch you folks up to speed of what’s been going on with me. I’m actually surprised most of you care for me (going by the number of nice emails I’ve been getting).
Anyway, let’s begin on something that I’m glad it’s done, but I really wish it didn’t have to come to it. This has also been a month of “doing the right thing” or “stepping away and letting them burn”. It felt like an episode of ‘What Would YOU Do?’ Would you stick with your friend and support them, or would you try your best to ignore it and walk away? ..Yet also knowing you wouldn’t be a good friend.
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We found a nice home for the kitten, approximately 3 weeks ago to this day. It was like an angel had arrived at our front door in the form of a woman who was trying to once again sell the whole Gutter Guard thing to my parents. They’ve been trying to get this going, but the first time their creditor turned down a loan because of their credit. So they’ve been reduced to only doing it on one side of the house (that floods the most, our backyard).
Anyway, the woman saw the kitten and heard my mother’s pleas for someone to find him a good home. Though before, my friend (Wildboy) who kind of lives near me in Kentucky, it hasn’t been good.
When I told him about the kitten and how my mother’s looking, he was interested.. but my mother had doubts; saying he’s “too far” for a kitten to handle and all of this– kept on flip-flopping her mind which was only confusing him. There was also this thing my mother didn’t like about Wildboy having to ask his parents. She felt “if he truly wants the kitten, he would be rushing over here”; that he “was never truly interested”. *facepalm*
Anyway, back to the ‘angel’. She called later that day, saying she found a home for the kitten. That’s awesome!! And sure enough, she came in the person’s behalf to pick him up.
Odd thing is she kept calling the kitten a ‘her’. Had to remind the woman that the kitten is a boy (going by the blue ribbon it had).
Anyway, the woman and the kitten left.. I started crying my heart out. I warned myself not to get attached, but I did…. and god damn does it hurt to say goodbye. But she promised me the new owner would send me pictures of the kitten every day. ….That promise has been unfulfilled as I’ve only gotten pictures of the first and second days (and nothing since then). But, oh well. That kitten should had never shown up anyway. I never really owned him… or I should I say “her”: for the woman called back later and said “Shadow is a
girl” (despite the blue ribbon). So all of this time, I’ve been assuming its sex.
Wow.
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(Kovo and Nova in a nutshell)
Alright, second thing. Both this and the 3rd are VRChat-related. This… this has been going on for.. three months now..? But about a month ago, is when everything went south. And who I’m talking about, is Kovo and Nova. I kept hoping the two would be a happy couple. Unfortunately, it never was (and the two are on the brink of losing their friendship too).. all over one lie. But it was a BIG lie (at least in Kovo’s eyes).
I was waiting for Kovo to play Monster Hunter: World with me. I had just got Master rank and needed help from him in figuring out what gear would work (in hopes I could solo these ridiculously powerful monsters). This game isn’t like WoW (at all), where I could go on hiatus for months and wait for the next expansion). No no no.. you have to complete the story before you can play the next one! ..Anyway, Kovo got back and told me that Nova left him to “go fuck someone else”. And this seems to have been her theme since Day 1. Everytime he’d offered to ‘help’ her with her.. sexual desire, she would turn it down. This time, he caught her red handed (and was understandably pissed off).
With how long it’s been, I wanted him to stand up for himself; to stop letting Nova walk over him (if this is the truth– and usually Kovo tells the truth). Wanted him to speak from his heart. And with my guidance, it made Nova realize she needs to stop this.
…Or so Kovo thought. Kovo’s been monitoring Nova’s actions, and discovered time and time again that she’s been lying to him (about not ERPing with anyone else). I, didn’t really want– *sigh*.
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I’ve been trying my damnest to play as a peacekeeper of the two for the longest time, but at times I had to walk away in pure frustration. Every time I felt “I got this under
control”.. it feels Kovo fucks it up with his ‘paranoia’.
Now I know I haven’t really been seeing this from both sides (as I’m more Kovo’s friend than Nova’s). Kovo’s paranoia was fueled of what he went through as he was growing up; literally having to rough it and watch his surroundings all the time. Because of this, he has heightened senses and can see through lies a lot better than most people.
Nova, again I don’t really know her as much as Kovo. I know she gets depressed quite easily (and has lots of panic attacks). And yesterday, I decided to finally have a long talk with her.
…She, admitted, she lied to Kovo (multiple. times). …WHY?!?! DO YOU HAVE NO FUCKING SHAME FOR WHAT YOU’VE DONE TO HIM?! She claims she does, and from what I read her words feel authentic. She wants to end this, once and for all. But Kovo wants none of this. He refuses to hear her out, with how many times she’s lied to him.
I can see this from Kovo’s side, that this is probably more lies. But I also see Nova’s side with how serious she appears in hopes to fix this.
Vale on the other hand, feels both of them are at fault here (and refuses to take either side). I’m just not seeing it though. And I honestly would rather bury my head in the sand and do something else, than hear Kovo continue to say just how much of a bitch Nova is for lying to him.
I would rather the two to defuse the situation on a final chance that if Nova lies
again, THEN it’s over with the two. But at this time, I just don’t see this being fixed anytime soon. Maybe in 4-5 months, there might be a chance? *shrug*
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3rd thing. Happened the day after Kovo caught Nova cheating on him. This one has to do with DJ and Kat. Began to suspect something’s going on with the two few days ago (of when the above started). I saw Kat and DJ in separate worlds, with DJ in the
world “Sad Boi Hill”. Yet Kat still had DJ with him in his pfp. So, maybe DJ was just going through something, and Kat was giving him space..? That was my thought at the time.
The day I was on VRChat, I saw Kat and a few others in the world “Get a Room!” And DJ wasn’t there.
Later that evening, Fluffy starts messaging me; begging for someone to come on and comfort him. Odd. Don’t you have friends for that? He claims he’s “got no one to turn to”. So I get on to help him out with that, then ask him what’s going on. Says all of his friends suddenly went hostile, and “someone” was accusing him of stealing DJ’s fursona. ..Huh??
Fluffy, I know you. There’s no way you would stoop that low. I asked him who was the person that did… it was DJ himself. The FUCK?!
Fluffy showed me the avatar DJ accused him of, and honestly it looks NOTHING like DJ’s fursona!! On top of that, Fluffy tells me the weeks and months DJ has been unkind to Fluffy– literally doing what Kovo warned me DJ would do.
…Ok, DJ. This became personal, bud. Even though he’s not my son anymore, he’s still one of my closest friends. And when you go after him, I go after you. I just, wish I saw it sooner.
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Upon hearing what DJ did to Fluffy, I left his Discord and blocked him. I don’t really care about his stupid Dutchie Meetups anymore… they are literally what you do in VRChat, any day. But whatever.
We were discussing about what happened in VRChat. I noticed DJ had changed his pfp that didn’t include Kat (and he had a broken heart). I said “the two broke up!” Jero was with us, and he said that can’t be true of what Kat told him. And he told us things that apparently, he wasn’t supposed to. He claims the two were having an issue, but were going to “iron it out”. I told him “looks like it may’ve failed from what I’m seeing”. He also personally talked to Kovo about Kat wanting to be friends again.
Nova started DMing Kovo by then, confirming what I said; the two officially broke up. I called it!
Yet there was three problems after that.
1. Kovo felt Fluffy needed to prove his innocence (to get DJ off his back).
2. Jero surprisingly didn’t see Fluffy begging for help.
3. Jero didn’t want to help me when Lich wanted to talk to me about what happened.
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The first thing, I went to my first world so we could discuss this in private. Well, just myself and Fluffy (as Kovo saw Nova on and told us to get to another world). There I saw the proof he never copied DJ’s fursona.. it wasn’t even his fault. It was a friend of his that made the model. The problem with that was finding a name, but I was able to find one.
Kovo wanted me to use OBS to record Fluffy explaining this mess, but.. I dunno how to use it. Have to wait for Kovo to get here. He eventually did, but doesn’t have the space to record. Found out Nova does. And after a few rehearsals (of myself telling Fluffy to keep it short and to the point), she had him recorded. I cuddled Fluffy after that, as he really needed one. You may not be my son, but you still have a special place in my heart.
And all of that time, I couldn’t help but feel.. “where’s Jero?” He was on at the time, but never asked to join us.
*sigh* I’ve noticed he’s been doing this quite a lot lately. Like he wants to let me do what I want. I appreciate that, but… I wouldn’t be a loving boyfriend if I wasn’t there with
him (at least most of the time). There will always be times when one of us will need
some “me time”, of course. I just want to be there with him, whenever I can (and give him all the love I have for him).
I don’t feel he’s doing what Nova is. He knows better, and knows what will happen. I don’t need to remind him.
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Second thing, like I said, Fluffy never told Jero about this. Though it also shouldn’t really be surprising given the hell Jero went through to help him get his PC working again. He says he still cares for Fluffy, and that’s better than not caring at all. ..And this thought is what saved me from ending my relationship with him.
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And finally, Kovo asking me if it’s OK for Lich to ask me what’s going on. I said “sure” and told him everything, word for word… including what Jero told us. I wanted him to talk to Lich too about this, but he wouldn’t; saying he wanted to stay out of this. He also seemed to show great concern that I leaked out what he said to us of what Kat said to him.
He seemed to had forgotten.. he did the leaking, saying that he promised Kat he wouldn’t repeat what she said. If you weren’t supposed to tell us, then.. why did you tell us? lol
But anyway, he also didn’t want to tell Lich anything; feeling it would jeopardize his friendship with Kat. I was very upset at him, as he seemed to not care that DJ was bullying Fluffy.. his son. I told Kovo about this and he could understand my frustration, but said that Jero doesn’t have to tell Lich anything. You’re not wrong, I know he doesn’t.. but STILL. Fluffy’s his SON!!
But when Jero told me that he still cares for him, it calmed me down and I greatly apologized for snapping. He could understand why I got upset, and everything was alright after that.
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I’ve spoken to Fluffy recently. Says he’s staying away from people he suspects are friends with DJ, and hasn’t been bothered by DJ himself. So that’s good. Glad he’s saying safe.
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Forth thing, we move to IRL issues with this and the others. About a week ago, I finally got what felt like 2-3 weeks of not knowing what the hell is going on with my internet connection. The issue was having the connection suddenly drop out with my cable modem resetting. “It could be COVID-related” I thought. “It could be heat-related”.
With the kitten gone, gave me the green light to get them out here and at least take a look. And with mask in hand (and sometimes on my face), I waited for the technician to list the culprit to the issue and got one– squirrels chewing on the line going from the house to the telephone poles. The technician said how the signal was “bad.. very bad”. After he replaced the cable and saw all green on the signal, I haven’t had that issue happen since.
Very happy with the results. 🙂
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Fifth thing, something we’ve been dealing for a few weeks. Our water heater is busted, and it feels we’re getting the run around to fix it. A week ago, got a technician.. that all they did was clean the intake filter and left. The water got luke warm and my parents were told
to “wait 24/48 hours” for the water to warm up, but the heater never kicked on.
This Monday, the same technician came out and saw “ah, you got a broken burner and a gas valve! It’s going to take ANOTHER TWO WEEKS until you get the parts!”
WTF?!?! We waited a WEEK for you to say that, and now we have to wait an additional two weeks?! Mother swears they’re delibertly doing this with how old the water heater is. It’s from 2008, which means the heater is 22 years old.
The parts might come sooner than those two weeks (from UPS). When they do, the technician can get to work making the repairs to our water heater, and hopefully by then we’ll be able to take showers and properly wash our hands again.
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And finally… last Friday, we all (well, I did) waited for Cartoon Network to show the new movie from Teen Titans Go!: The Night Begins to Shine 2.
I don’t typically talk about music, or TV shows in this blog. However, the original and this deserves to be talked about. First off.. I can’t believe this is AN ACTUAL SONG (and B.E.R is an actual band)!! I thought this is something they made up for the first The Night Begins to Shine special. It is.. such a good song!! 😀
However, the second movie they did.. wasn’t so good. The original, was awesome! The dragon (and the person that voiced him) was so badass, that he became my favorite character. It felt, just.. great whenever it went back to him! And the story around it felt tight and powerful; how Fall Out Boy and that one singer came to assist them and those battle scenes.. holy fuck they were so good. I do admit they were a bit corny, but I felt moved during it.
The second movie, didn’t move me. It felt very rushed, and the main baddy didn’t really seem that interested in stopping them in achieving their task (or even trying to slow them down). I was really hoping the plot was to bring the dragon back. Without that dragon, it felt flat. Not to mention they kind of ripped off Tron: Legacy in one scene. I think it’s the fact they went for an episodic approach; having three parts of the movie (so they can throw commercials in later). They didn’t do that for the original– it felt like an actual animated movie.
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A good way of showing the difference between the baddies;
First movie: The dragon was always there, demanding for the song to be returned to him. The voice actor outstandingly assumed a dragon, having nearly unlimited power. Yet he feared the return of B.E.R. to ruin his reign of terror. The only way he could make sure of that is to take the song. And he just kept showing more of his power, even taking the
song “from your metal bones”.. and that didn’t make him badass enough, they had him wear shades near the ending!!
There’s no mistake, the badass level of this character is easily over 9,000. The
artwork, animation and voice is just.. perfect. Absolutely perfect. Sorry for fangirling there. lol
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Second movie: (not trying to reveal spoilers..) All powerful warlord, thought he had defeated them and ‘tried’ to slow them down (more like using his henchmen).. yet literally allowed them to gather the things to bring B.E.R. back. Way too many “long
ago..” sequences. Though I’ll admit near the end, how he crushed the orbs and everyone was thinking “it’s over”.. that was actually pretty good. Then this magical miracle
happens (that honestly shouldn’t had)… again it felt rushed. They could had done this entire movie so. much. better than it was.
Bring back the dragon!! He was beyond badass! Your main baddy is BORING in this one!!
And that completes this really, really long blog post. If you made it all the way
here (without skipping), that’s awesome! I shall see you folks at another time, with more.