Few things that happened yesterday. One is ongoing and makes me somewhat
worried, and the other makes me quite happy I was there.
So let’s get started with some good news (about Fluffy);
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Seems I became the father Fluffy needed afterall
Categories: ‘Personal’
This is the first time (in a LONG time) I’m able to talk about Fluffy without using ‘love drama’ in the category! It. is. AWESOME!! 😀
So, what basically happened is I tried to push that emphasis on him making friends. Remembering how he said he had friends 3 years ago (when his RL father was still
alive), I wanted him to think back and discover how he made friends (and use that).
Told him to push those negative feelings away and think positive. And since then, things have really been looking up for him.
I’m so proud of him. Infact one of his old friends friended him in Discord, which was the first time in a long time he was able to communicate with someone else.
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The foursome of drama battles (in hopes to defeat both Kandy and Chris)
Categories: ‘Personal’, ‘Drama’, ‘Love Drama’
What a mess of a day. Though Jero feels it’s over, I don’t think so. I refuse to accept defeat… even though it’s better than making an ass out of myself.
Kandy became the wildcard (played by his own BF), something I couldn’t defeat nomatter how hard I tried.. as he kept fucking denying everything and trying to make me look bad. GOD it pissed me off, and still does.
…Honestly though, Jero was right all along. Blocking him would had solved everything. And now I caused Jero to despise Vale and he’s blocked too.
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So what the hell happened, is a continuation of what happened a day ago; when I called Jero out with how he wants to keep Frost out of this drama (when his BF was causing drama with me). I just feel we should be dealing with this together (as a couple), instead of him making peace.
I’m actually glad Frost is no longer a threat (and Kandy is). And I told him I was going to tell Kovo and Vale about this (but promised to keep Frost out of this).
Today, I did just that. Kovo told me to tell Vale personally, yet I was hoping he would. So I was forced to.
Vale wanted proof what Jero told me that started this mess, and I sent the recording that I made a month ago. 20 minutes later, Kandy DMs me pissed as can be, saying how this
is “paranoia”. Pfft.. paranoia my ASS! I CAUGHT you, red-handed!! Kovo also did, telling me he heard Kandy talking to Chris yesterday!
Later, Jero messages me, confused of what’s going on. Hoping I didn’t screw myself over for trying to defend him, “I told you I was going to tell Kovo and Vale about this” I said to him. I wasn’t kidding. When someone attacks the one I love, I unleash the fury of a dragon upon them.
Yet he wasn’t mad, he was really happy I went out of my way to defend him.
So now Vale’s getting pissed at Jero, yet I only see that I did good and ignore it. Jero sends me their conversation, with him laughing his ass off of how “butthurt” he’s getting. Then it goes to a really positive note where Vale is going after Chris to fact check him.
The only thing I could think of;
Fry Kandy, AND Chris with one brick! 😀 At least, that’s what it seemed for awhile as the Dutchie Meetup was coming up, and Jero went AFK.
…Vale threw a curve ball at us, calling out discrepancies with Jero’s words (of when him and Chris broke up); Chris saying it was “bad”, Jero saying it was “mutual”. I wanted to tell him “Chris is obviously lying to you”, but Vale had very limited patience (and held my words back). Then he calls Jero “an oblivious fool” (no offense at the end).
Eating dinner, preparing for the Dutchie Meetup. Kandy unblocks me and apologizes for his words, and wanting to talk about this. I’m also being told by [RETRACTED] to be calm about it.
Alright, fine. I’ll be calm. Let’s talk tonight about this. Me, you, and Jero. Fine with me. 🙂
7pm came in, went in VRChat for the Dutchie Meetup. This time I decided to spice things up a bit for me, by standing up and dancing while listening to Elpis (in VR). Definitely helps speed up time, and it’s good for exercise.
Not many people here this time. The time came to 8:15pm when Jero actually joined the world. OSHI–!! Kisses and snuggles! He was in desktop, yet so happy to see me (as I was of him). We talked in one corner of the world about what’s going on. Can’t remember what was said, but I believe Jero wanted to just block Kandy and be done with it.
Sure, go ahead hun. ..But that isn’t going to work with me. I want revenge for what he did to you. Or at the very least, his BF to put a stop to it.
Jero had a trick up his sleeve for Vale, to prove the thing with Chris that it was mutual. He sent me a scrapped DM of their last conversation (his responses deleted). However, I saw my own.. very disturbing discrepancy.
The timestamps…. the breakup happened 12 days after New Years. Jero originally told me it happened, after Christmas. Asking him, it’s like Jero changed his own story to reflect this. Uhh.. Jero, you told me the breakup happened after Christmas (when Frost told you about it). Or maybe he didn’t.. I dunno. I doubt the recording of Jero would reveal this.
Why is this relevant to what’s going on? It could show the answer if Jero or Chris was telling the truth of who broke up with whom.
Reading the scrapped DM… I didn’t realize just how right I was about “losing him”, with Chris trying to get Jero to move to the U.S. and live with him. However, Jero made me realize that I’m the one he truly fell inlove with, stating his relationship with Chris was destined to fail.
Yet at the same time (with him saying that), why did he tell me “it’s going great”, then? Mmmm. I mean, I’m not really mad. Probably a classic textbook way of lying through your teeth to let your ex (or friend) know you’re doing ‘fine’ (when you really aren’t).
But, heh.. I made him blush so hard with my words, to the point he didn’t know what to say. And I’m thinking ”I’ll accept virtual sex as payment.” He’s so silly, and I love him so much! 😀
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Asked him if he wanted to watch a movie. He thought of it, but decided not to. Something about being tired and his headset. Instead we go see Kovo.
We go to the mirror, not expecting what would be there….. Vale was there, and immediately asked me if we had spoken to Kandy. I let Jero do the talking, and I could see Vale was getting annoyed with us. Well, if you go after my BF, I’m going after you. 😛
Do not force me to unleash the fury of the dragon upon you.
The two started talking about the issue, and I’m all “guys, can we please go away from the mirror and talk about this?” Yet it seemed I wasn’t being listened to as they kept it up. Kovo at the mirror was forced to tell the two the same thing.
It died down, then started right back up again.. *sigh* GUYS!! PLEASE.. let’s go somewhere ELSE! I walked away from the mirror, hoping they would follow. They did.
Vale talking to Jero about the ordeal, then changes the conversation about how everyone seems to go to him about drama. Not wanting to be disrespectful, I let him talk all about it.
This conversation lasted for a good 10 minutes, him talking about his navy work and
stuff.
Yeah Vale, that’s nice.. but can we please get back to what we were talking about? You’re wasting my time (and I know I’m wasting yours with this possible foolish endeavor), but I want to get this over with before I die from boredom! Said this with “so, can we go back to the mirror? Or do you need to speak to Jero more?”
Vale unloaded on Jero, calling him ‘no offense’ names and saying how he needs to be more clear and to not use “conspiracy theories”, with Jero standing his ground. FIGHT, Jero! FIGHT for what you know is true! 😀 It nearly turned into a cat fight.
No one won or lost that fight, only that Jero now wants to block Vale too.
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We went back to the mirror. 5 minutes later, I get another DM from Kandy; asking is there a group chat set up. Uhh.. dear? A moment if you will. Lead Jero away from the mirror and told him. He stood there surprised Kandy even wanted to do this.
I felt “Jero, we have to do this. Vale told me to tell him what Kandy says.” After awhile checking if Vale was actually serious about that (and was), he said “I’ll talk to him tomorrow then.” and told Kandy this.
Told Jero that he can go back to the mirror. I could see he’s still bothered by this and hesitated before doing so. I waited patiently for Kandy’s response. Meanwhile, a friend of mine comes up to me when I partially have my headset off (looking at my phone), telling me about his issues with friends and love issues.
Kandy responds as the friend keeps talking. Again I do my best to not be disrespectful, but hoping he would wrap this up (so I could get Jero back over here). I was eventually forced to tell him “I’m sorry man, but my issue.. is a lot more important than yours right now. And I need to get my BF over here.”
He leaves after I promised him I would talk to him again about his issues (sadly I forgot to do so, as I got lost in the moment). Get Jero back over. Now Kandy wants to know who should be in the conversation.. asking if all four of us would be there (including Chris).
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My mind;
NO Chris!! Fuck that BF-stealing bastard! He’s caused me enough pain for several months. Jero, though on a different mindset, agreed to ‘no Chris’. It would just be us
three (myself, Kandy, and Jero). Jero again said we should just block Kandy.
I warned him that it would not be wise, that it would only cause more issues. Yet he seemed to not really listen to me.
That feeling, I used as ammo against Kandy. If Jero won’t fight you, I WILL. Yet I also knew I had to ‘be calm’. …Boy, was I not and told Jero this. He felt I was being calm. But as time went on, I knew Jero was trying to tell me “Benie. Sweetheart, let it go, please. You’re only wasting your time. Kandy will continue denying the lies.”
…He was right.
FUCK!!! I wanted to throw my phone on the floor in defeat, and looked at Jero almost
in.. despise he didn’t want to help me with this. Because he knew it was a waste of time. This whole. fucking. THING was a waste of time!! All I did, was cause fucking rifts! I
didn’t ‘help’ ANYONE!! …..We were literally back at square one.
Plus I knew Vale was going to come after me. Jero, yeah. You can block them, but who’s going to save ME, huh?! I’m the one that defended you here! Blocking would only make the issue worse!
My voice literally cracked when I said “I love you” (because I was so annoyed). It took awhile until I started to calm down and said it properly. I still felt pissed I didn’t win this argument… even though the argument was pointless to begin with. And all I could feel was the repercussions from Vale going after me.
Jero left and then Fluffy went AFK, which allowed me to collect my thoughts. This is when I started to realize that I overreacted infront of Jero, and he was right that everything would be fine. “Even if Kandy goes to Vale and he comes after me for not being calm and stuff, the fuck can he do to me!? He has no power over me!”
Went back to the mirror, but trying to avoid the others. Decided to just start dancing away the frustration, which helped a lot. The first one that said “music soothes the savage
beast” was so right. It soothed me.
I’m not going to block the two. Should had just let Jero block Kandy and that’s it, instead of go though all of this.. for no reason. Well, actually I wouldn’t say that. It did show Jero what I would go through to defend him. I could had done nothing and let Kandy walk all over him.
However… there are a few things that make me question, Jero’s claims. What Kandy claimed that this only happened once, does Jero have proof a second spy attempt, even happened? Kandy talking to Chris, and Kandy showing what he sees to Chris… are two different things.
I think it actually was paranoia, as Kandy said. Plus, even if Jero was right (and Kandy is indeed still spying), blocking Kandy wouldn’t solve anything. Kandy can still do it. Just, Jero wouldn’t see it.
I also question the unanswered thing of Jero claiming the two broke up after
Christmas, when the timestamps clearly state it happened after New Years. So, when in the fuck did Frost tell him about Chris wanting to break up with him?
…Should had just let Jero block Kandy and be done with it.