Happy Christmas Eve afternoon, everyone! Tomorrow is Christmas.. the (IMO) most depressing time of the year! And there’s nothing like waking up at nearly 1 in the afternoon feeling like I got a hangover (my head is spinning, as if it thinks I’m still in VR or something). I also woke up to five DMs; most were wishing me a Merry Christmas, one was questioning wtf I was doing in my sleep (probably why I’m dizzy), and the other seems to have an issue with one of my Kovo Quote recordings (asking me if I made it without giving further context).
Pretty much all day yesterday (after finishing up other blog posts), watching movies of the new movie world.
Much to my surprise, they have two movies not in the other one: Wreck It Ralph 2, and Captain Underpants. Saw the first movie, tried to hang with Kovo.. but he left to go play another game. Seeing I had nothing else to do, I watched the second movie (then tried spending time with Kovo again, this time actually spending time until he went to bed).
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…So much of wishing for a week of no VRChat drama!
Usually whenever Fluffy’s doing something, this comes back at me to deal with it. And sadly this was the case when I was trying to enjoy some time with Kovo, Jusper, and
Nova; getting DM’d by Ruffy and Aftershock both wanting me to deal with him.
Ruffy’s a bit annoyed that Fluffy’s not talking to him (feeling he hates him), and Aftershock is annoyed because Fluffy told him to change his status about having a BF.
They seemed to let me go so I could complete this adventure world with the three. Saw Fluffy in a joinable world (but wanted to wait ’till something happened with the three). All of them went to bed, and I joined Fluffy.
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It’s a public instance of the same world, with him and a random. The random started the adventure while I tried to tell Fluffy to let the past go. Like, there’s this one time when I tell him that Aftershock’s got a boyfriend now.. he freaks out and tells me not to say that.
Fluffy, you’re dealing with the same thing I dealt with Jero. Do NOT make the same mistake I did!!
Having felt satisfied in myself (at least I hoped) that Fluffy understood me, I told him to “fix it” by apologizing to Aftershock. Yet that’s all he did; saying “I’m sorry” to
him (without anything else). WTF?? Fluffy, do you suddenly not know how to take responsibility? You’re 18 now! I shouldn’t be having to teach you how to fix your issues!!
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I went to go see Scooby, who was hanging out with a bunch of Shiba friends of his (all busy talking to an obvious mirror that I didn’t see the button, or want to interrupt their conversation to ask where it was). Instead I went off exploring. The world looked a lot like a game I saw IGP play quite a lot; Osiris: New Dawn. It has a ship I swear was in another world, that has crash-landed (and went to go investigate). Garruk and this random wolf guy were in the world and they tracked me down to the ship to ‘attack’ me with licks. Hehe. Ok, I’ve been defeated with cuteness. 🙂
I friended the random wolf guy (who’s friends with Garruk and Scooby). Fluffy joins the instance and… teleports to me after the two respawn. Ugh. Fluffy.. WHAT did I TELL you about using Teleport?! You’re lucky no-one saw you! Now I really don’t care if he gets banned from VRChat for this (it’ll be on him), what I do is I like to explore ALONE!
But whatever. Fluffy, please talk to Ruffy now. He wants you to talk to him.. and all he says is “hello”.
So you literally did the same thing to Aftershock; saying one thing without anything else.
My GOD! It’s one day until Christmas and I’m dealing with a childult!! WHY ME?!
God, what have I done to deserve such a punishment?!
I wanted to go explore the world more, so I respawned and went in another direction. Fluffy’s following me, which I don’t really mind. Find an underground area with a campsite. Kind of cool. Seeing nothing else I respawned again.
Fluffy’s asking me “is there something wrong?” I said “no” followed by “I just want you to talk to Ruffy”, and he leaves. Ugh.
I tell Ruffy what just happened, while Fluffy’s DMing “Sweetie pls love me…” How can I love a childult who can’t think for themself?! Ruffy’s now telling me that Fluffy’s with him. Good, I’m going to go back to the movie world and try to get my mind off of– and you’re sending me an invite to join you!
Now in The Box, I see Fluffy with Ruffy. Fluffy then teleports over to me and.. seems to forget why he’s doing here. So I have to remind him to.. talk to Ruffy about the whole thing with him claiming you hate him.
“Oh, ok” he says.
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If I may quote a line from The Angry Beavers, and have Norb as myself and Dag as Fluffy.
Benie: I just wanna know why, Fluffy. Why. why. why. why. why. WHY!!
Fluffy: Um.. which, why in particular?
Benie: PICK ONE!!
…I wanted a week of no drama after what I went through with Ruffy! And I can’t fucking have it! I stayed at the spawn area, hoping to not talk to Ruffy (as I’m still.. you
know).
Then they start to be annoying, which I’m already annoyed at Fluffy for the way he’s acting. Then I finally lash out at Ruffy about what happened last week (after he
wanted ‘snugs’); “You scared me half to death with the whole police thing!!! You really think I’m going to forgive you?!”
He starts saying that he’s sorry for what he put me through, and talking to two people in a group call of them convincing him to do it. I’d like to know the names of these two.
I tell Ruffy “I kept feeling you were going to do it even when this was all supposed to be over with. I was.. scared of you.” Says he would never do that, because he loves me too much as a friend to be that cruel.
I took a huge sigh and said “I forgive you” (wanting to forget about all of this and move on), yet he tells me he can never forgive himself for what he did. He also feels Fluffy will also never forgive him. So I had Fluffy make sure he would. But Ruffy still feels he should blame himself, telling me he’s been blaming himself for something that happened three years ago (and what happened a week ago isn’t going to be any better).
That night (sometime after bedtime when this was fresh in my head and needed to be
typed), Fluffy wanted to call me just to hear my voice. I just.. don’t know how to handle him. And Aftershock doesn’t either.
He just seems so.. needy. The way he said “pls love me…” really bothered me. You got something wrong with you, pal.