Day ‘I lost count of’ of even more VRChat drama. But today wasn’t all VRChat-related (or even drama). Before I even left to eat, I was dealing with someone called ‘Lightning Dragon’ of DJ’s Discord, who was in school yet wanted to ‘create a brand new Dutchie’, yet had no access to Blender on the school computer. He had everything else ready, just not Blender.
I wanted to tell him “see the problem is you’re supposed to be learning in school instead of trying to change the skin of the original Dutchie”. Yet I wasn’t sure if that would be a good idea, seeing how he said the school computer has Maya (and that’s what they probably teach). So I refrained from doing so and told him “well, you do need Blender for Unity not to complain about it missing.” Gave him the link to the latest. A headache formed when he didn’t know how to install it. Since I already have it installed (and afraid uninstalling would delete Wolves’ model of my sona).. I tried looking for any video tutorials on how to install and sent them to him.
Seemed he had gotten it and didn’t know what to do next. But before I could continue helping him, told me his time was about over. So I sent him a list of directions.. praying reimporting works (if he has to do that).
Last time I looked, he was asking me how to move the camera in Unity and Blender. But this is when I was really busy in VRChat to use my phone and tell him in detail.
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On a side-note (which will eventually start this post), a response from Chris came in. Yet it disturbed Fluffy and he sent me what Chris said. His response is the confederate flag. Fluffy felt it was hate and stuff (from what he learned in school).. but I thought differently and I want answers why Chris picked that. It’s a sign of harassment of the ‘Alabama 100′ meme; picking on Fluffy, going from father-son to lovers. It’s too obvious with Chris’ dark humor, this is what he did. Yet overall, I doubt he even cares.
This stressed Fluffy enough that he had a headache, and said he would be going to bed and see me tomorrow.
Then I noticed as I happened to glance at VRChat.com..
Wait.. WHAT?!
I gotta get in VR.. NOW!!!
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Jero’s language barrier / Frost blames DJ for Wufy’s issues / Cola ‘meets’ Jero
A three-parter, so let’s fix this..
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Jero’s language barrier (caused by Windows)
Arrived in The Room in the Rain. Jero’s there, but silent and in Desktop. I run up to
him, of course happy as can be after not seeing him ingame for almost a month now. He nuzzles me the best way anyone can in Desktop, then he starts DMing me saying he’s having issues with his Windows settings. Something about Discord is strictly controlling his sound by not letting anything else be played.
He’s trying to fix these issues as quick as he can. But I’m not just on for Jero, I’m also here to say hi to Frost (who I also haven’t seen in awhile).
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Frost blames DJ for Wufy’s issues
Of all the things I came to say hi to Frost for, I never expected him to bring up drama that’s still fresh on his mind (that should’ve been dead months ago). But what bothers my mind is he seems to still be good friends with Foxgrace (even though I still remember the guy calling out Frost for betraying him). Seems the hatchet was buried? .. *shrug*
So he asked me “I assume you heard I was pulled into a call” (or something of the
sort, can’t remember exactly). I asked him if it was about Wufy friending him.
So once again, he puts the blame squarely on DJ. Kovo does too, all because of cheating on BlueDrago. So it seems my assumption that Wufy’s pissed at DJ.. may’ve been right afterall. The “folded his arms looking at me” was a pretty good giveaway.
It was then Jero managed to fix his sound issues and speak, however I couldn’t quite understand him as a lot of people were taking at once in that world.
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Though I heard Jero say he was trying to get his Oculus set up and stuff, saying it’s not fun not being able to move your arms. Definitely agreed. Also Frost left and I didn’t see him for the rest of that day.
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Cola ‘meets’ Jero
Jero went AFK for a pretty long time, so I of course stayed with him. Then Cola joined the instance (as the Roomba). I wanted him to meet “the one who I was talking about”, yet he claimed he had forgotten everything of that conversation we had the day before (even of him having feelings for Blue.. which I mistakenly (in his eyes) told everyone there). For
me, I knew they didn’t know Cola.. so why would they care to know? Plus I hate using this phone when in VR (having to slightly take my headset off and use my large thumbs on that tiny keyboard).
Wish there was a way I could say a short keyword to replace ‘Flashlight On’ in order to see infront of me. …Bleh. Whatever. Then DJ joined (in Desktop) because of the accident he had with a distracted driver hitting him on his bike. He’s damn lucky to be alive, only having cuts on his face from the impact with the pavement. No broken bones. That is also a miracle.
Cola then left to go play Murder 2, but DJ stayed in the room while I stayed with Jero. I know I should be going to see Cola, but I haven’t seen Jero in a long time. I just hope Cola doesn’t get jealous.
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DJ wants Wufy to be loved
4:20pm rolled around, alarm blaring in my ears to go to Burger King. Jero was active again, but sadly I had to leave him (but hoped I would see him again when I got back). Said he would be back later (in VR). So I went to go eat.
Came back, Fluffy’s active now (but not freed from the shackles of school). Said he talked to Chris (which is what I mentioned at the beginning), and he would be going to bed.
Cola at the time was also gone, so I didn’t know what to do.
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Decided to play some VRCDOOM…
*Come And Get Your Love music plays*
Me with every gun in the game, and two chainsaws: Heeeeyy!
Group of Imps: Heeeeyy! …–WHAT?!
*music suddenly changes to heavy metal*
Me:
*rip and tear intensifies*
It was a good run, but I wasn’t able to complete it as not one but two joined the
instance: Acid, and Firey. Acid was primarily there for me to see that he made a model for Firey, and it looks pretty good (he did a great job on it). And Firey’s reaction with how ‘jacked up’ I was on weapons, was priceless. Had to do a new instance as it was waiting for me to get done with the current level (and wouldn’t let them in). We did up to the second level until I saw Cola join, then leave. He’s in Kovo’s world (and Kovo was on). I had to get there. Plus I wanted Firey to go say hi to Kovo.
Well, that introduction eventually did happen.. and Kovo ruined it thinking Firey’s my BF. *facepalm* God damnit Kovo. 😛
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So this starts this section, of DJ suddenly wanting to speak not only to me but Kovo. Told me that Wufy spoke to him and feels upset that no one cares for him, and wants us two to talk to him and stuff. I stayed quiet for most of that conversation, pretty sure Wufy wanted more than just someone to talk to (and knowing I can’t really.. well, give that to him). But I told him that I “would do what I could”, how he’s welcome to talk and stuff. Yet on the back of my mind (which finally came out), how I wish I could say something that would snap him out of whatever he’s going through.
The conversation kept repeating and I was feeling “DJ, can we wrap this up please? I wanna get back to the mirror.” I was forced to stay something similar, feeling this is going nowhere. DJ, I know you’re upset for Wufy, I get it. But there’s only so much we can do!! We will TRY to help him! Okay?! Please get off our backs about it!
I wondered if Kovo felt the same thing, probably wondering “why am I always involved in this?”
With that, I told them I was going to go to the mirror, and if anything came up, to please let me know… and something did, after telling Wufy my honest thoughts. We talked in a group call for an hour (even past my bedtime), and I discovered things DJ never told me. Yes he’s upset (we know this), but he was never upset at DJ.
…This is literally Wufy right now, feeling alone and forgotten. Thing is, he wants more than just someone to talk to; he wants someone that will play games with him. He wants a ‘true friend’. ..And, I cannot label myself one, especially when he brought up Astroneer and how I left him. But I did explain the reasoning (how I wanted someone to teach me these things).
*sigh* …The problem with Wufy is he’s been too used to playing with friends, that he really hates playing alone (which is the complete polar opposite of me, being used to solo games and being alone). It doesn’t bother me to be alone.. but it does him.
I know they say “this is what makes us awesome, how we’re all different.” That’s why it would simply never work between us (and that only makes me depressed that I can’t ‘help’ him, as we’re so opposite). I don’t want him to feel alone, but… I feel he’s only going to drag me down.
I feel like Kovo right now, but I also don’t blame myself. There’s no reason. I’m just being myself. Nothing wrong with that. And to literally change my life for Wufy is just.. too much. But I know he doesn’t want me to have to do that. He wants me to be myself.
Still upsets me though. Mmmm…
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Me: “None of them can replace you”
Was with Blue and Cola at the time, Cola having pulled Blue away (I followed), telling him he’ll fix his Nanachi’s gestures to be more VR friendly. During this time, Kovo and the others were going into.. the best way to say this without eye bleach: ‘a forbidden world’.
Was getting very late for Cola and he went to bed. Blue and I were getting ready to get back to the mirror as I was checking my friends lists (wasn’t many here). Saw Jero on.. in
that ‘forbidden world’. WTF IS HE DOING IN THERE?! I had to investigate and ran in.
*sigh* All all the worlds, Jero. Of ALL the thousands of worlds you could had gone to. Why…. Kovo’s… PORN world?! Ugh. But whatever. Loaded in (Blue didn’t join me for quite sometime).
Found Jero (in VR) talking to Kovo on the bed. Wasn’t sure if I should approach, so I waited. Can’t remember what happened next, only that I was in the main room with
him (and I was kind of cuddling him). Was just, unsure if..meh. The whole thing with Jero and stuff.
But I did loosen myself up, saying a lot of nice things about him. His laugh, his voice. The way he cuddles me. And how I told him that the group can never replace those feelings I had for him.
Then he asked me “what about Fluffy?” I paused for a moment, then said “yeah, he has a good chance.” ..Especially when he gets VR, then he’ll be able to fully express himself to me.
Since then I stopped being so close to Jero (especially when Blue showed up). Told me he crashed when trying to join (and again his computer gave him issues).
That was literally my way of saying (to Jero) “it’s time to let these strong feelings for
you, go. I cannot keep doing this. I keep saying I’m going to let them go, but never do. It has to stop. My deep love goes to the group.. not you. It ends now.”
Soon (by the end of this month), I will have new feelings (with Fluffy and the rest of the group). …Even if I have to force myself to feel them, I’ll do it. I’ll do almost anything, to rid my mind of feelings from Jero. I just want to see him as a friend, nothing more.
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So that’s about it, other than Fluffy has told me today.. he could quite possibly have the hands DLC. So that’s going to be exciting. 🙂 Hopefully he gets the Vive and not the Rift S.