What a day! Lots to talk about! So much that I’m gonna go to bed 12 minutes early, as I feel really tired.
Goodnight!
*yawn* Good afternoon everyone!.. I overslept by an hour (my alarm didn’t wake me
up.. because somehow I turned it off by accident. GG me). But anyway, how are you all on this nice Thursday afternoon? Doing good? I’m sure some of you are working/at school.
But I digress. Let me get to work typing what crazy he(double hockey sticks) yesterday was.
Before I do, there’s two ongoing topics that will be discussed (in detail); one involves the group, and the other involves Wufy. But I will get to them in time.
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“I just wanna relax with you”
And ‘you’ meaning Cola. As much as I love him, I wish he wouldn’t consume so many energy drinks (swear they’re going to kill him before whatever’s wrong with him does in a few years). But when I got there, let’s just say he.. “looked quite dead” (as in, he was using a skeleton avatar, to express how skinny he is IRL). Asked him if he consumed junk
food (anything to get on some pounds). “Young man.. wait. Old man, I have tried. I have consumed McDonald’s, Burger King, and so many others I forgot their names; morning, noon and night. And I’m still skin and bones!” Told him “I wish I had that kind of metabolism, instead of being very fat to where I can almost balance a glass on my stomach!”
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So he’s bored and wants to do things, waiting for his other friends to come on, but he said they’re “all in small worlds”. What do you mean by that? He means, literally, worlds that only have one room and a mirror. So he decides to go to.. the world Rusty was in. I questioned his sanity, and he says “I know we don’t like him, but I like the world. And I’m going to show you a few places of it that I really like.”
Alright, hun. Let’s do this! We left the courtyard (of what I will forever call it in my mind of playing WoW: The Cathedral District of Stormwind), and eventually we were on the roofs. He lead me to an area that overlooked the sea. Said how all the colors looked natural and it brought him peace.
He laid down and I sat down next to him. It was really nice being with him.. until some of my friends joined the world and attempted to disturb this romantic moment. 😛 So I filled them with lead.
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Fluffy does the plan
Fluffy came on about this time. He’s been doing the plan in the background (where I will no longer see him as a son, but more than that). Now he has to talk to Cola about it. I lead them to the caves and then went back to the spot Cola liked. I actually feel he’s right, it’s quite nice.
Though IMO, it’s not the nicest spot I’ve ever been to. It’s still nice though. So I stayed there for awhile. Almost 20 minutes later, I felt it was taking a bit too long for such a simple question and debated if I should investigate.. but felt “ehh, Cola’s alright. He’ll come back.” And he did, being on Fluffy’s back and having a really good time. The way Cola was having fun, I assumed everything’s quite alright for Fluffy to (maybe
possibly) join the group.
See, I gave him the names of 9 people I want him to talk to (to let them know about this). Three of these are in the group (of course). And so far (as I write this), he’s gotten the green light from 3 of the total 9 (and trying to talk to the others).
Two other names are also there, but they are names I don’t feel are really that important that need to know.
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Cola’s fear (of the group, and myself)
A lot of time passed between then and this point. I can’t remember everything that happened, but I remember Kovo and slowly the others started joining us. And one time Cola (after asking him to talk since Kovo’s here) pulled me to a far away area. Can’t even remember what we talked about (my memory is blank of that conversation). But after
it, he wanted to relax and we went back to that spot (and relaxed again). Him saying “let’s do what you wanted to do”. Well, there’s something else I wanna do, but.. yeah, sleep issues.
Fluffy left some time before this, telling me he wanted to take a nap and how he feels he annoyed Cola (and overall having a sense of fear). I told Cola this and he said that Fluffy wasn’t annoying.. but there were a few parts where he was a bit. However, he likes how Fluffy talks, how it opens up so much for him.
Then he said “he told me.. other things. Things going on that I’m not sure if I should be telling you.” I figured it was something about Fluffy’s real life (how he has trouble making friends and stuff). “he made one. Even two” Cola said as his response to that.
Said “I feel Fluffy will make a good addition to the group.” Cola questioned with “I thought he was already part of the group.” Not sure where you got that thought, but I explained
of ‘the old Fluffy’ (and how there were so many issues). Now there’s this new Fluffy who I actually have strong feelings for. He says “I like this new Fluffy”. I do too.
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The conversation then shifted where he stated about Blue, saying he’s worried of what he’ll become. Saying he likes the current Blue. But he said he likes him a bit too much, to where he said he’ll sometimes feel actual jealousy when others are around him.
So you just confirmed the inter-group relationship Blue told me about (and I prayed I was wrong about during that incident in Moody). Said he’s been trying to get rid of these feelings, but can’t shake them.. much like my feelings with Jero (which I told him).
Then I asked him “is this why you asked that question of who I would pick?” He
said “maybe”.
Told him how Jero has that calming voice that just makes me feel “this is where I wanna be, in his arms”. And Cola said Blue is similar to this.
Then he tells me that he fears when Blue gets VR, that.. he would like him more than me. And this was literally what Wufy told me he ‘wanted’ to happen, where I can “get
away” from the group and just love one person. …It seems that decision that I hope to never make, may become a reality sooner than I expect– the downfall of the group could be happening, and soon. It scares me, very much. Cola doesn’t want to leave me.
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Blue’s in VR
Time to move onto something a bit more cheerful. Yesterday was the day Blue would finally, after so many months.. would finally have “hand DLC”!!
He was in The Box with someone hugging him very tightly, and that of course sparked a lot of jealousy within me. And when Blue was all “Benie, help me!”. I yelled “back off, he’s mine!” The person ran off crying, but I’m pretty sure it was fake tears as they came back later on, hugging Blue. Gave the person an evil ‘fuck off’ stare, but at the end I showed the person no hard feelings. I know they were messing with me, so I played along.
As for Blue, he was laying down on his bed (which doesn’t really look right when you don’t have full body).
But the way he reacts now when I lick and kiss him, is so cute. It looks like he’s trying to push me away, to where I feel I have to apologize. And one time he called me “evil”. Hehe. Not as evil as.. sir evil incarnate (Thresio) sitting next to me. I really wanted to say when I was talking about how evil he was compared to me, that I “didn’t want to boost up his ego anymore than it already is.” Luckily (which saved me), I ended up forgetting what I was going to say. Because he doesn’t like it when you even joke around him.
He will take it literally. I still remember when he was playing one of those Beat Saber worlds and he was singing badly to the music. I said “Hey Thresio! Who sings it?!” Told me who it is, and I said “let’s keep it that way!” …he did not appreciate those words, even though I told him I was completely joking. He doesn’t do jokes. Period.
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Anyway, we went to the movie world to watch Harry Potter. Blue’s cuddling me (rubbing my snout) while I’m cuddling him. Little did I know this very cute, romantic moment would be disturbed by an outside force from Sweden, wanting answers of the one he loves.
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Issues with Wufy
Getting DM’d by DJ while I was trying to be with Blue, asking me if I knew anything going on with Wufy. Hmm. As a matter of fact, he has been acting strangely in the ingame chat a few days ago. Told him he(Wufy) did this thing of Kovo yelling at someone being on his toilet in Starbound, and I sent him a picture of playing this thing 8 times in my browser.
Half-expected a response from him. Nothing. Very strange.
DJ says that this started happening about 4-5 hours ago, so I don’t think the two are related. Said Wufy had his arms folded in VR and then walked away without saying anything. But one key thing he said is two days ago.. he re-friended Frost. Glutton for punishment much?
Immediately had a theory, but wasn’t sure if I wanted to tell him. I felt it could be possible Frost told Wufy of DJ’s past (how he cheated when he was with BlueDrago). Felt this had a high possibility of being true (based off of what DJ said), but I prayed (for him) that I could be wrong. But DJ stayed with us (like that brother who complains about their life and kind of ruins the mood, yet doesn’t really mean to).
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Today, I got my answer. Or rather, DJ got his and told me. Turns out I was completely wrong of my assumption (thankfully). It was something Wufy did mention before, but never once did I use this as a possible reason– he’s tired of waiting for someone that will love him, feeling he’s all alone and forgotten. “I don’t care about love and shit anymore” Wufy told DJ. And this is honestly something I could never help with.
Me and Wufy, as a couple? I mean he’s cool and loving, but I just don’t see it happening. Plus it would cause WAY too many red flags and possibly target me by Foxgrace and his brainwashed friends.
And like I said before, I really doubt he would be interested in joining the group.
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And so that closes yet another day of drama. When will I ever get a break from these constant blog posts? Only the world knows.
Maybe I’ll post them less frequently (and just jot down mini-notes to help myself not forget what happened). Like, maybe do weekly blogs every Monday.