Garruk’s Storytime / Why does Cola’s love not feel genuine?

A few things to talk about today, one more disturbing than the other (as its story is a new window into the Best Boi/Ashi drama that happened over a year ago.. that Aftershock never told me, of his manipulated past). I also learned a side of Garruk he never told
me, which I will be starting with.
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Garruk’s Storytime (His love life, and a new window of the Best Boi/Ashi drama)
First a message from myself: I wasn’t really planning to even talk about this as it’s kind of pointless, but to be honest I really don’t have anything else to talk about. Plus Garruk told me so much that a majority left my brain. I should’ve been recording it if I knew he was going to tell me all of this.
Been seeing Garruk pretty much every day since I made that blog post, learning more about him. But just remember, I’m only there to give him company (until he finds someone else); he’s already turned the group down, so it’s like a ‘friends with benefits’ thing with us. My heart still goes to the group. 🧡
But let me stop digressing here. The time I got to see him, I assumed he would be in bed. Instead he was in Bedroom Theatre, listening to sad music. Started going over his love life and wanting to find true love, but having work and life getting in the way.
One time I actually felt comfortable enough to tell him about Jero, as I felt I could relate to him.
Somehow.. don’t remember how, the conversation went to the Best Boi community. I thought of bringing up Creepery, but I don’t know the allegiance Garruk has with Rusty. For safety reasons (since what happened with Phox) I decided against it.
So the conversation was about the over a year old Best Boi VS Ashi war, and Garruk give me a pretty long story of what he saw.. and the rather disturbing thing he said about Aftershock. Now I don’t remember everything he said, only about how Ashi has been discovered to be a pedophile (for dating a 13 year old and asking for newds from them). Well, that’s pretty disturbing indeed.
Then he mentions something about having proof that him and his now ex-BF of something that Ashi did, and were trolling him. And he says “Aftershock, Ashi’s lackey showed up yet was silent when showing him the proof”.. or something of the sort. Again I don’t remember everything.
But, that’s about it. Then we went to this world Garruk found interesting, then we went to the Japan apartment world where we snuggled until he fell asleep.
Garruk is an absolute sweetie. I know eventually he will find someone special in his life. And when he does, then my mission to help him will be complete. 🙂
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Why does Cola’s love not feel genuine?
And now we get back to the group, where my current love is (with three beautiful souls who I share my deepest love in my heart with). But as usual, I question Cola’s relationship with me every day. And as I said, since his vacation, he’s turned into a brand new person. Now you’re probably asking yourself: “I don’t see what the problem is. He loves you, isn’t that what you wanted?”
…And you would be right, there should be no problem. Yet I can’t help but feel he’s.. faking it. It just, doesn’t feel genuine to me.

That’s the million dollar question– I don’t know! He could be hiding something from
me; a second love? His internal, physical pain he doesn’t want me to see? It could be anything. Or am I just being a bit paranoid, and this is the ‘unlocked version’ of Cola that I’ve wanted for months (who truly loves me)? If I was to ask Fluffy, I bet he would see this being the latter.
Maybe I should see it like this, and be absolutely happy he’s changed for the better.
EDIT: I believe I found the reason he’s suddenly happy– he’s vaping (like Blue), and has been for 4 days now. Yet it’s been a week since he got back from vacation. But he says the vaping has “cleared his mind”, which is why he has no problem saying “I love you” to me.
Says the vaping makes staring at a monitor so much better for him. So it’s to be assumed him vaping is why he’s all loving now.
I honestly don’t know what to think about it, but I should be supportive of Cola (as I am of Blue vaping, yet he’s been doing that for years).