It’s been 12 days since I’ve been VR-less (due to a new issue preventing me from even setting the boundary), and I feel like my sanity is cracking. 😖
I also feel so stupid and childish even thinking about making a post like this, yet I seem to be going through the five stages of grief (with my VR headset), and I feel I’m between 3 and 4: Bargaining and Depression (of saying “I wonder if I plugged in my headset, maybe I could get it work just one night.”)
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Another culprit (to my headset issues…)?
This came from what Zagro told me a few days ago (in VRChat), of another possible culprit of this specific type of WMR headset. Said he looked around and read that the Lenovo Explorer (maybe possibly) takes more power than it’s supposed to, out of a USB 3.0 port. I mean, that would make sense of why it suddenly went unstable at times. But, it doesn’t explain why it didn’t happen before (with my old hardware).
That thing is the ‘missing link’ here; trying to link what happened in the past, what happened 5 months ago, and what’s happening now to one centralized problem, just doesn’t seem possible.. let alone just trying to link what happened in the past and the screen freezing issue.
But maybe I’ve been looking at this the wrong way all of this time. Instead of feeling “it didn’t happen before”, I need to look at something that happened before I ever got into VR– something that didn’t come to mind until I started writing this blog post (and its context was quite different than it is now). And that, is that pesky FX 9590. You know, the one that I once thought was a ‘solid upgrade’ from my 4350? Yes, that thing. Of course it was an idiotic move on my part (as the Ryzen 5 2600 blows away the 4350 and the 9590 combined).
But I digress. When I had the 9590 installed, I wasn’t getting its full speed. Discovered my old motherboard doesn’t support it, and got something that does. And when I had this thing installed… that’s when the beeping and the ‘computer shutting down before
POST’ issue happened (and I thought it was the motherboard).
With this known, it seems similar to the headset issue not happening with my old
hardware (because I wasn’t unlocking its full potential). With the upgrade that I did.. hello issues!
See the similarity? This is why I just can’t say it’s truly the headset, especially when I remember getting this one error message I never saw before (and wonder if it could be pointing to the true culprit of what Zagro’s saying);
“…temporarily unplugging any other USB devices connected to your PC.”
Clearly, again, this is not an issue with the GPU (even though it was the first thing I blamed, how it’s taking the full load instead of the CPU). This error is telling me what Zagro has been telling me for awhile; too many things plugged into the back of my computer.
I need to try to have only the essentials (Keyboard/Mouse, Microphone, Bluetooth, and of course the headset) plugged in and see if it happens again (including only having one monitor plugged into the GPU). If it doesn’t, then I’ll know for a fact the headset is pulling too much from the motherboard (and a USB 3.0 extension card should fix that) instead of focusing on a Vive.
But if it does happen, then it’s not the motherboard (or the GPU); it’s the headset.
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Life without VR (when you’ve been used to it for awhile…)
But that’s just one thing, it’s also (still) wishing I could hug people again. It’s like, since I started getting into relationships, I lost all purpose of the true reason to play
VRChat; chatting with friends. Or it’s just what I’ve always have done in the past.. go to an area with lots of people, and watch them have fun. Did it in WoW, so many times. Just hang out in Goldshire (on the Lion’s Pride Inn roof) for hours, watching people have fun dueling and chatting while waiting for timers to reset on soloing old raids (or waiting for auctions to clear).
That was my enjoyment in that game, which is why I kept on asking “why am I playing this? I’m not doing it the way I should.” I feel the same for VRChat now. Except, VRChat doesn’t have a subscription-based service (nor any expansions that kept the game interesting, like WoW).
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That thing about Cola
Now as I said, relationships and Kovo are the only real reasons I play anymore. But one relationship is still in question (and has been for months). ..Cola, which I still feel at times.. he may not really want to be part of my poly (but is too scared to tell me up-front). Funny thing is, I’m too scared to ask him if he’s still interested. I feel he’s only being nice to me, that he doesn’t actually love me.
So basically something very strange happened yesterday…
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Was another one of those days where I wanted to sleep infront of my computer from no VR, then I saw Cola online and joined him. He showed me what avatar he’s been working on, and I felt we were going to cuddle like we always do… until Stylez shows up and I feel like I’m being ‘cock blocked’.
Then Nigh shows up. They’re all talking with Cola, while I stay quiet staring at the main mirror (trying not to tell anyone how I feel). Stylez leaves and Cola comes back to me. Feeling happy again he’s with me.. then he leaves for another world. The FUCK?! And the world he joined.. had Ashi in it. Well this is a big fat NOPE from me!
And he kept doing this, going to another world five minutes after I joined. And in one world I was almost standing infront of him as he ran by me into an awaiting portal to go to a rather boring world.
Felt like I was stalking him, so I decided to stop and got off…. nearly throwing my headphones off of my head in frustration. But, it did get slightly better with Blue finally coming on and talking to him about what I went through. I have absolutely zero doubts if he loves me; he does. And if it wasn’t for Red Fox (he still loves me), I’d probably disband the poly and want Blue to be my BF (on a closed relationship).
Dunno what I’m doing wrong, but I’m pretty sure it’s nothing retarded like “he doesn’t love me because I don’t have VR anymore” He knows I don’t have VR and is saddened it failed on me, so this isn’t the reason.
The only other thing I can think of, is Cola just simply needs to ‘be reminded’ he’s still part of my poly (by showing it). Still been thinking of that pose thing Kovo suggested. Or even better, if Kovo could teach me how he’s able to have a dancing avatar infront of him. I can have one of all three, doing different dances.
Now that would be cool. Heh. 😏 Next best thing to a body pillow (when you don’t have VR), right? This way they’ll always be there with me, in spirit.
Speaking of body pillows, I wish there was a way I could set up a system I could make a pillow appear (and then be able to interact with it, as if I was in a world I created).