Having to get up earlier than I typically do is never fun, even though I shouldn’t be cranky at all as father’s going in for a checkup… yet I can’t help it. I hate being pulled away from my friends (even though that’s a normal thing to happen).
And the only reason I even have to, is because of the cat and how mother feels it needs someone around to keep it company (even though it won’t come in my room and typically stays outside).
All I’m saying, if the cat really needed attention, it should come into my room then. I do love that cat, don’t get me wrong… but I don’t love how I have to work for it.
So anyway, enough of that. I wanna talk about a few things that happened yesterday night in VRChat. One was… interesting, and another was confusing (but I don’t think is going to really affect anything, as we know the truth).
But before I start, we never played Space Engineers as they all were too busy to do so (and Kovo’s going through some things IRL that he feels is his fault). I honestly wish I had that second computer I could set up as a dedicated server (so they can join and leave whenever they wish, instead of rely on me to launch it).
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Is Ron’s age true?
Now, let’s begin to get something off my chest of my continuing uncertainty about this relationship with Ron– his age. Claims he’s 21, but at times I’m not sure if he’s telling the truth (I think he might be 17.. or younger). It just bugs me, how this guy not once has said how he wishes he could move out. It’s like, he has the same mental capacity as me (but in an alternate timeline where I was forced to work, yet actually understands the importance of it). Does he have a car? He never told me. Maybe he rides the city bus to work and
back (or uses Uber).
Having his computer in the kitchen is what initially made me question his age. Why doesn’t he have his own room? And yesterday he tells me he’s “using a new computer that my sis got last year”. When questioning (without trying to ask any really personal questions) if this means he’ll have his own room now, he says he’ll still be using the one in the kitchen, claiming they live in a small apartment.
Mmmmm….
Another thing that makes me question his age, came in the form of Ren informing me via a DM that something happened during our SE run the day before (with him and Ron).
He claims that Ron was belching on purpose, and he asked whoever was doing it to
stop (as it was annoying him). I unfortunately never heard Ren say this, as I was focused on other tasks in the game. But I was forced to ask Ron about it, and he admitted it.
…Why, though? I was willing to defend him feeling he didn’t hear Ren saying it or he was just bored, yet he admits doing the immature thing.
No. “I’m sorry” shouldn’t cut it. You’re supposed to be 21, act like it or I’m going to break up with you! Wuffer is that age, and he’s a lot more mature than you are… even though, I am glad Ron was honest with me (unlike Wuffer…).
*sigh* See what I’m dealing with? Honestly, this whole thing is my fault. I don’t know what I was thinking when I asked him if he wanted me as a boyfriend (when I hardly knew him). I shouldn’t had rushed into it! Never rush, dammit!!
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But, I’m not going to tell him how I feel– not yet (unless he brings it up, which I don’t think is likely due to his Asocial). I will explain the reasoning in the last topic of discussion for this post.
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Had to tell Klaus off (And it hurt as much as I thought)
Few days ago, he tells me Sayon showed him a sneak peak at Part 3 (and how he’s super hyped). I was too busy to respond at the time, and yesterday he tried to remind me (which only annoyed me). Yes dude, I heard you before, do you want a cookie!? And I sadly had that mindset and used it on him.
That’s when I had to tell him what was on my mind (of course stating “This is going to hurt me a lot more than you, of what I have to say”). Told him that I’m just not that big of a fan as you are. How I love Sayon’s work, but not enough to kiss the floor where he walks. Even if I was to somehow get (as an example: PHD Mcstuffin) to come to Kovo’s Discord, I wouldn’t be a fanboy of it.
He admits being a fanboy (getting carried away), and being bossy by enforcing the world rules. There’s some points he was right, though (keeping the group together), then says “i wont ask anymore sence u dont like going with me”… no, that’s not what I want to happen. I want you to try to tone it down, dude. I wouldn’t mind going with you, if you would let others go their own pace and do what they want. Let people enjoy themselves. And he didn’t say anything after that.
*facepalm* Really? Really, Klaus? I expected a bit more maturity than that.
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The ‘new’ guy (who’s really sweet, and a ‘potential replacement’ of Ron)
As you can tell from the extension, this is why I’m waiting to tell Ron (because I’m not even sure if this guy is just being nice, or actually has some feelings for me). And no I’m not cheating on Ron; let’s just say I’m doing what Nigh said he was going to, if he found someone he really liked, that he would let me go for them.
Met this guy (his name is ‘Jeromeah’) in Kovo’s world (and funny, in the bar of his world). He’s sitting there enjoying his drink and sees me and waves, I wave back. Then he hops out of his chair and walks over to me, saying “woah, I like this!” and started cuddling
me, saying he liked my pokadots. *slightly nervous laugh here*.. thank you. He seemed completely blown away at my avatar, asking if this was a custom Dutchie and stuff. Told him it was, but I had it made by a friend of mine.
Even more snuggles after that (caressing his cheek on my palm), showing me the big eyes of this avatar that Azure made and chuckled when I looked at him with the closed eyes animation. Mmm. Whew. Is it hot in here or is it just me?
I also noticed he was a new guy (white name), and asked how long has he been playing the game. Said he’s been playing about 3/4 months now, and originally created his account through the Oculus store. He knows he’ll need to create a VRChat account to rank up, but says he doesn’t want to lose “the awesome avatars” people had that were public, that he cloned. He also doesn’t want to lose his friends (which is more understandable). So I suggested for him to use something like ShareX and take pics of his friends lists. Then when he creates the new account, he can go over those pics and re-add them.
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Now as I said before, I’m not 100% sure if he only just likes my avatar and all of
that (or has feelings for me as a person). But I’m going to take it SLOW and get to know him a bit more. Hell, he probably already has a boyfriend.. who knows. But I friended him and he friended me on Discord.
I know he’s from the UK (which is several hours ahead of me), has a job, and is either bi or
gay (though I would lean more on ‘gay’ of the way he was acting, which also explains how he was acting around me). But I do find it interesting when I playfully licked him, he started smelling me. Weird flex but OK.
He loves cuddling, and is also opening up to my friends. So that is two huge +’s in my book.
But something confuses me about him. If what he claims is true that he’s been playing for 3/4 months, then how come he’s acting like a brand new player that just came to
VRChat (by being blown away with so many different custom avatars)?
I don’t get that. I was blown away too, but that was within the first week of playing the game.. not 3/4 months (which is when I started dealing with drama in the Best Boi community).
Something tells me he’s been away from the game for 3/4 months (probably only played a few days), and has come back after that long hiatus. Don’t think he’s telling the truth there. Need him to tell me.
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And finally, some closing arguments of this thing I’m trying to do. This ‘Jeromeah’ (but I’m going to call him ‘Jero’ for short) has VR, which is how he’s able to express himself. What if Ron had VR? Would I have less doubts of loving him? ..I dunno. And this is
why, of Jero VS Ron;
-Jero is more expressive with his words (and speaks more), where Ron is Asocial and hardly talks (even to me). I have to say something for him to speak.
-Jero’s opening up to my friends. Ron is trying, but also acted immature around Ren when told to stop.
Notice none of these have to do with ‘who has VR’. True love doesn’t need to be seen, but felt (aka you should feel love even from someone using Desktop mode). And I’m just not really feeling it with Ron. I think he’s only using me as a ‘sex toy’. Jero on the other hand, I can feel the love and caring. It felt like a similar love that Wuffer gave me (when we were dating). But with this thing how he’s surprised by seeing custom avatars, I don’t want to ‘taint’ him with drama.
I need to be careful, to not scare him away. Because he feels ‘pure’ to me (as in, probably hardly if ever has seen drama in this game, as he has said he really enjoys it). And if so, he is DAMN lucky (especially when claiming that he’s been playing for 3/4 months)!!
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Spoke to a very tired Kovo about Jero, and he said “Avatar thief you know”… no way, but he might be on something with this. That could be used to cover his tracks. This just makes me more and more want to question Jero. I don’t believe his story, and I’m hoping he’s going to be honest with me (even if he admits he’s an avatar stealer).
So that’s about it (for now).