IMPORTANT: A large section of this post is 18+ and has been clearly marked with spoilers. If you’re below 18 and are uncomfortable with this nature, please do not click on the spoilers (for your own safety).
Though I cannot stop you from clicking, you have been warned.
Love, it has many forms. Family, Friendship, and Short or Long-Term Relationships. Not all relationships have to be with kissing and hugging (and not all relationships have to be IRL).. some can just get right to what makes things fun.
So as I said briefly at the beginning of my post of testing my new headphones, there is someone special. But before I get to him, it seems Wuffer has changed his status back to ‘Gay Wulfo’. Seems like he found someone. That is awesome, and I’m really happy for him. I pray the other will love him as I did.
…Though, I’m not sure why I should even care, as he hasn’t responded to a single DM from me since last Friday. So much for things staying the same between us, huh?
But, ehh. I’m fine with it, as I also found someone that not only really likes me, but does his best to (virtually) keep me satisfied. His name is ironic of what we have done; ‘CybermutT’. I’ve seen this guy when the Best Boi community existed, and he’s still as lewd as ever.
It was the same day as Wuffer decided to see other people, where who I thought was his boyfriend was broken up with. But I will get to this part in a bit.
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Now, I probably would had never gotten with Cyber if it wasn’t for Jusper ditching me as I was trying to nuzzle next to him. One moment he was there, the next.. poof, went to another world (probably to hang out with Plasmic), and we haven’t spoken since. Whatever, I guess. So I went over to Cyber and tried to ask him if everything’s OK with his loss of breaking up with the boyfriend. He said he was fine, and tells me his love
life (including once with Ashi). I do my best to comfort him, and tell him that he has friends out there that will support him. He thanks me for the kind words and I tell him what I went through with Wuffer. He cuddles me (in Desktop mode as he can’t afford
VR).
How the whole lewd thing happened between us, is I wanted to french kiss him as we were RPing in Discord. This is when he tells me the catch– he actually has a boyfriend IRL, but he and Cyber have decided on an open relationship (aka the boyfriend is fine with anyone fucking Cyber). I hesitated of course, unsure how to proceed. But I said “I wouldn’t mind a single one night stand.”, and he agreed. And he’s been like this everytime we have virtual sex, making sure it’s OK with me first (though I’m more worried if this is going to be too much for his boyfriend to think bad of me, that I’m ‘stealing his man’), but that doesn’t seem to be the case. But he has been talking recently of trying to get his IRL BF (who he names ‘Max’) in VRChat, so he’ll “be able to meet you”. Well now I feel royally fucked, and not from Cyber’s cock being so far up my
ass.
This is also the same time Lunar has been talking to me more and more (for some odd reason), and expects me to hug and kiss her while I was having virtual sex with Cyber. In other words.. I never told her about Cyber (nor have I told him about Lunar). I wouldn’t say this is ‘cheating on Cyber’ (as Lunar is underaged and I know my limits), but I don’t think Cyber would be happy if he found out. So I’m keeping it a secret.
Infact.. the two nearly met eachother with me in my home world (if Lunar didn’t need to go to bed when she did). …That was a bit too close. Though if they did, I would just tell him the truth (that we’re just friends.. how I used to have a small crush on her back in the day, but not anymore). I don’t even have any feelings toward her. Like Cyber with
me (though we do a lot more in bed), I’m only helping Lunar feel loved and appreciated.
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So yesterday, Cyber finally managed to bring his BF in game, and I’m all “awesome, that’s
great!(purposely leaving out the ‘(‘for you)’ part). And some time after a session of sucking Cyber’s dick off in the Hangout House, the BF of him joined the world. Can’t remember his name ingame, only that Cyber calls him his ‘big bear’ (for being 6’6″ IRL, 3 inches taller than me). He looked at me, then at him and said “this is Benie, the dragon that just sucked my dick off”. I stood there, nervously laughing as he looked at me and him, wishing this was just a dream and I ‘need to wake up'(in more ways than one), yet all he said was “it’s good to finally meet you!” I chuckled a bit nervously and waved at him, slightly relieved that Cyber was telling the truth. I stayed silent as the two talked about eachother infront of me, telling me their various sex stories.
I’m starting to feel somewhat uncomfortable, and wishing I never got involved in this mess. I don’t want to say this to Cyber though, as he did warn me beforehand. But, I did end up introducing myself (briefly, still worried I’ll say the wrong thing).
But, ya know…he’s actually pretty cool to talk to. I would like to get to know him
more (and no, not as a threesome. I mean as a standard friend).
Later I invited Kovo to the world, as Cyber asked me to (so Max could see the crazy shit that comes out of his mouth). The two briefly talked, before Kovo told me that Vale wanted him to join a world. Cyber told me that Max is shy, and I can see that. During that, Max dropped out of VRChat suddenly. Cyber told me that Max had a power outage. Aww.
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Later that evening, in another world, Cyber wanted more of me. For some odd reason, my voice turns him on. He said when he first met me back in the Best Boi community era, he thought I was handsome (when I was straight). Now that I’m bi, apparently I’m even more handsome. That’s a very sweet thing to say. Thank you. 🙂
Then the conversation went about Max, about what I thought of him. I said he’s pretty cool and stuff. He said how he likes a lot of kinky shit (such as threesomes). And I said as honest as I could “I would prefer to do it only with you”, and he is perfectly OK with it.
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So in summary, what Cyber is doing is really nice and is a good stress reliever. I like how flexible he is (with how he’ll pretty much accept anything I wanna do to him when I’m feeling frisky). But, I don’t want him to feel he’s my ‘sex toy’ (as much as he wants to
be, aka calling me his ‘Daddy Dragon’). I want him to enjoy it as much as I do, but I can’t seem to get it through to him. He’s (I’m not even sure if it was physically or not) been beaten into submission, wanting to only pleasure the other and not really care about his own.
Dunno what to do. But, he said that I could find a dick model from Sketchfab. I really want to, though.. hopefully I can find one for free (been wanting to since Wuffer and I were dating). However, I haven’t had much luck. Though I did what appears to be a gold-encrusted dildo.. over 700k polys. What the FUCK?!?! Ouch (especially anyone being rammed by that thing)! That’s more polys compared to every avatar I’ve ever
uploaded (combined). WOW. So Cyber did some searching and found the person who had uploaded all the models to Sketchfab through Fur Affinity. Most of them have been
deleted, and two of them go to a website where the download has no extension (very sketchy).
So, no model right now.
So that’s basically it. And if you clicked on the spoiler and are currently trying to burn your eyes with bleach, I did warn you not to click. 😛