So I said I wasn’t going to talk about it, unless something major happened. And something major happened… something I have wanted to have happen for what felt like forever.
I…I am absolutely speechless, right now. But I’ve been brought back to the Best Boi Discord server (after speaking to the one that Creepery said I was ‘a disgrace’).
Just eating dinner, as usual. Suddenly, I get a friend invite from Charms. I tell Lu and Creepery, both of them are confused as to why.. but maybe, just maybe, could this finally be when I’ll be able to clear my name?
Hell, I’m done with the whole “corruption” crap.. I don’t fucking care anymore! As I said, I just want things to go back to before this whole mess started. I.. want to be a Best Boi again. And if I can finally get my name cleared, I’ll be happy with whatever.
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Charms spoke to me about what happened, with myself and John, and I got to speak the truth that I have never sent pictures to Ashi. He said the reason it took so long for a mod to address this, is.. they actually forgot I was banned. Wow. Charms was doing some archive work, and saw my name as being banned. And while he was talking, my hands were actually shaking in fear. I could not type right, due to it.
Moving on, after finally pulling up my entire DM with Ashi (from the start), we did a video call (and began to record our conversation for his records), and I showed him the entire thing. But as I showed him, he was telling me things about Ashi doing this and that (though I forgot most of them). My dinner’s starting to get cold, and I tried to eat it as quick as I could (while he talked, as I couldn’t scroll with my right hand holding the plate). But soon, I was able to show the end of the conversation, proving I did NOT send any pictures to Ashi.
With that, he ended the recording, having all the evidence he needed to clear my name. He also told me (now that he’s no longer recording), that some of the ‘mods’ aren’t really there to be a moderator (no shit, dude.. I could’ve told you that). He states that himself, Dragon Nuggets, and Twitchin are the only ones on long enough that would be classified as moderators.
I told him about how Ginger was ‘out of the loop’ when John and myself spoke to him. He claims the reason for that, is all he does is say the code and attend the meetings (aka, Charms also feels that Ginger isn’t really a mod).
And finally, when I mentioned what ‘someone’ (to hide Creepery’s identity) had told me about him saying I’m ‘a disgrace’, he cleared it up by saying “it’s a disgrace to know this. Why would he go back on us after telling me all of this?”
He wasn’t insulting me, he was confused. Perhaps Creepery didn’t hear everything.. which Lu had told me not to jump to accusations. For that, I apologize (to my blog post) for typing what I said.
Then Charms says “right, I’ve sent it all to the mod chat”. I took a deep breath… then I heard words that nearly brought me to tears. But it wasn’t tears of pain, it was tears of joy! “He is to be unbanned immediately, this was a huge misunderstanding. His rank is to be fully reinstated”. I wanted to say “THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!!!!” to him (but to save myself from embarrassment, I never held down my push to talk when I said it).
Though I never received an apology (from what I’ve been through), hearing “it was a big misunderstanding”, is pretty much the same thing as saying “we’re sorry” (but without being formal).
And with that, he gave me an invite link, and I came back to the Best Boi Discord server. Immediately, my ‘welcome back Benie’ party wasn’t a good one. It’s just how I felt; the feeling of disappointment staring at me. It feels cold, and unwelcoming.
But it’s something I’m going to have to power through (such as ‘convincing’ people who still think I’m a traitor). I have to earn that respect back, one person at a time.
As I told Charms; “I’ll do whatever it takes”.