I had thoughts of not making this entry since it was just going to be another, depressing blog entry. Or how to write it all down. But I finally decided to say it.
My lock up is not fixed. Only weakened substantially. Every four days or so, instead of frequently, I’ll be playing a game, and suddenly the screen will flash and freeze up.
However, this is not like the way my lock up was before. Only one time did it actually stop my graphics drivers from working and I had to restart.
Updating my drivers isn’t going to fix it. Again, it’s probably hardware-related. My CPU is the only culprit now.
All I can do is pray that it doesn’t get worse by the time I have enough to buy a new computer. At least this, less severe version of my lock up is more tolerable.
Unfortunately, all of my savings went to both fixing this lock up and on a new bike that I rarely use due to a fear of falling off of it and hurting myself badly. So it’s going to take me past 2010 to come up with enough.
Where was I? Oh yes. Why I don’t wanna play Gmod. Well. I’m sure you heard that it got fucked up by some strange reason of it lagging, and I was planning to reinstall Windows to fix it, thinking the new motherboard might be causing it. But I cannot find Page 1 of 2 of what I wrote down of how to reinstall properly, nor do I know where I left that Windows XP CD.
Another reason why I don’t wanna play Gmod is because, well actually I do. Just listen. I wanna re-re-rebuild my Nether Drake, but I have to go into WoW and get pictures of my dragon as references. But that means, having to worry about my fucking addons being outdated, and WoW is boring too.
I had pictures before, but apparently lost them in a reinstall of Windows. Irony?
Infact, all of my games are boring. I’ve been through this before. Game Depression. Too bored to play anything. It makes me… moody, to people that are having fun. Like in TF2. I’m so fucking sick of seeing people dressing up in Spy costumes and doing that stupid “spy crab” thing in public, just to get people laughing at them. And what’s worse, having TF2 music playing.
Fan videos that do this, suck. They should be embarrassed of themselves for being so obsessed over a game.
Even WoW, I wouldn’t be caught dead in a convention, in a Dwarf Hunter costume.
But I guess this comes with age. That my brain just wants me to do other things instead of play games all day. Like get a fucking job. Yet there’s people that have jobs, that still play these games when they get home from work.
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Anyway, it took me weeks to break through it last time. May take longer this time.
“What causes game depression” you ask? It has to do with playing the same thing over and over again. Usually when I win a game, I put it away never to be touched again for a long time. Same as a movie on DVD.
Other games, I get frustrated when I hit a certain spot. Like in FarCry I’m in the area where if the person I’m protecting dies, I ‘die’, even with god mode on.
With The Sims 3, the desire to build houses has left me, and I don’t know why.
And back with WoW, It’s not only the fact I have to worry about my damn addons. It’s… I want to see if my new video card will support dual accounts.
But from what I’ve seen… I’ll never have what I did back then. The fact I can still see flashing issues, and the “green screen” issue in Youtube videos, and also videos in VLC media player are still fucked up. It’s like I wasted my money.