The way I expected to ring in 2022 was do what I did before it came 2020; join the official NYC world made by VRChat with friends.
There was one slight change to that, in the form of Mibit acting like he’s doing what he’s doing as a favor— him telling us in our Discord server of him ‘hosting’ a VRChat world called ‘The Bridge’. I kindly reminded him… that’s not how hosting works (when it comes to VRChat) and explaining the truth (that he’s only the instance owner). Best thing about the conversation is him telling me “I have VRC+” and still claiming it’ll be coming through his internet connection instead of VRC’s servers.
*facepalms and chuckles* Ohh Mibit, the only ones that care about that are VRChat’s investors. You mean nothing to them, only your money. It doesn’t earn you brownie points with the VRC devs, nor does it grant you access to locally host a world. They can never do that as there’s a fuckton of loopholes with rights to host someone else’s world locally.
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Around 8-9pm, I checked VRCX to see if Jero or Blender were on. Neither of them were, but I saw Kovo in the same world Mibit was “hosting”. I would have joined but I had things I needed to do, plus I had told myself I’d come on to count down for the new year around 10pm. Managed to join around that time. Due to the freeze/black screen issue I’ve been having with my headset on joining a world, I took it off and waited 10-15 seconds. Opened my eyes and everything’s good. Put it back on and saw Raccoongamer talking to me. I also saw this black cat walking up to me and sitting down infront of me.
Oh my gosh, it’s so cute! My cat person instinct told me “pet the cat”. Hearts came out of its head and I can hear it purring and being all happy.
Awwwww!! I wanted to stay with the cat for a long time, especially when I heard a video player playing Destiny 2 stuff. I’m thinking “ahh, I hear an orgy going on over there of them jacking off to their precious god rolls.” Still, I went over and saw the ‘orgy’ taking place.
…Debated of joining the official VRChat New Years world, then Kovo came over to me and I thought “fuck it, I’ll stay. There’s a pool table here, so I’ll try to drown out the aggressive moaning as they mow down other players in Crucible”. And that’s exactly what I tried to do– focus on pool instead of them, playing by myself.
Time passed on, became 11pm– Atlantic Time. Fireworks went off for what seemed like 10+ minutes while I was trying to focus on pool. Was getting bored and waited for them to come back, and asked “so who wants to destroy me at pool and make me look bad?” Mibit who’s in desktop offered. But before we started, I nearly lost my shit when VRCX notified me Jero came on. Kovo was a bit surprised to hear me react like this. I told him that we’re just really close friends, nothing more (but again it sometimes feels like there’s more. Heh).
Near the end of the game (I was actually winning and just had to get the 8-ball in), Jero joined. As it was Mibit’s turn at the time, I ran over to go find Jero, but didn’t really know at the time how the world was set up, and went back to see the 8-ball was in a perfect position for me to pocket it, and I won. GG, Mibit. To be fair, he would had beaten me if he was in VR. Anyway, now I definitely had a reason to be here. I didn’t expect Jero to show up. Also, Nova was getting wasted. She approached and kissed me, saying she loves me.
Woo boy, yeah the alcohol is making her say funny things. Soon Jero showed up and I went from pool to cuddling him pretty much all night and morning.
Blender also showed up! Very happy about that. Sadly he couldn’t stay long as he was being invited to another world. He told me he was working on an animation for someone.
So the only one I really got to spend New Years Day with once the clock struck 12am, was Jero. Definitely makes up from what happened when it became 2020 (back then). Really wish I could’ve spend it with both of them but.. ehh. Honestly spending it with Jero is, so awesome.
There was a mirror here, where you can watch the fireworks. Used this to snuggle with him. TJ and Muum also joined, go we had a foursome snuggle party. Ok, I’m officially in heaven now with how much I love snuggles and cuddles (and kisses/licks).
#Wholesome #WasBlushingIRL😊 #HappyNewYear2022 #WishYouWereHereBlender
I’m thankful for all the friends I’ve made last year (and especially becoming very close friends with Jero again). Without all of you, I honestly would not be where I am. Without online friends, I likely would had taken my life (especially after my father passed away and dealing with my mother).
Here’s to a better year– a year that hopefully COVID doesn’t exist and maybe one day being able to meet some of my friends IRL (and feeling like I have a purpose in this world besides “being there for my friends”).
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Before I close this post, three things to discuss.
1. Nova had a pretty bad morning from being drunk, but thankfully she is OK. I sadly wasn’t there with the two when this was going on (was being cuddled and licked). I heard something wrong behind me and ran over to check if everything was OK. Kovo told Raccoongamer to talk to me about this in private. Damn.. that bad?
What I was told, is she saw the cat and suddenly saw.. her old cat and broke down in tears. Ohh fuck. Now I see why! And there was something about bleeding, like she bit her lip or something. Felt really bad for Nova, and really wanted to give her a cuddle. But I’m told that Kovo’s “got it under control”.
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2. Nova got off a half an hour later. Jero went to go check on Kovo to see if he’s OK. I and the others followed him. He took care of it thankfully, then pointed at me and said “I need to talk to you in private as well”. Curious I followed him. Surely it was nothing bad.
…It kind of was. He’s starting to get annoyed with the whole thing of how I say they “jack off to Destiny 2”, and wanted to know if I have anything against them. I told him the truth that “no, I have nothing against anyone playing that game. ..I just, miss the old days. Because all I see is you guys playing either Warframe or Destiny 2, day after day, week after week. And I.. I wish I didn’t feel I had to exclude myself of what you guys are good at.”
But there’s more than just that. And all I could really say is “it’s just… me. I’m sorry”. I’m pure irony– wanting to play with others yet also don’t when they want to play with me. And for some reason I get jealous that I can’t find my own group that doesn’t play Destiny 2 or Warframe all the damn time. The wanting to play with others clashes with how I also want to be alone. I cannot have both. ..Just wish I could find a group (or start one) with like-minded individuals.
Feel like I’m a ‘lost orphan’ with no group. …I dunno. But I told him I would stop with the apparent harassment. (I’ll just keep it to myself, that way I won’t hurt anyone.. *sighs*)
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3. Muum apparently discovered my website though Discord, from a picture I took of Stellaris (though the link). He liked all the things I wrote about him and found it quite interesting how I felt about him back then.
Him: 😂🤭
Me: 😲😐😑🤦♂️😔