Happy (late) Thanksgiving to all of you in the U.S.! Wow has time flown, now it’s Christmastime once again. Day after tomorrow (Sunday), I’ll be doing the traditional ‘Light Up My Room’ by putting up the Christmas Tree (while listening to music). It’ll be the second time in history I did it since being in VRChat.
And that, is where the topic goes. Not of Al Roker during the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade yelling “GET OUT OF HERE, YOU BUTTER!! :D”, which I swear is going to go viral and turn into a meme quite quickly.
Nah nah nah.. at least that’s not how things work around here. There’s no drama there! Gotta have your daily dose of drama! Though, yesterday wasn’t all about drama, but more of “okay.. so that’s the second time in my virtual life this happened!” Of what also at one time felt as if a way to leave the group I ‘lost control of’ (without them feeling broken hearted).
All happened from after dinner (and seeing the DVR recording of the parade, because FUCK getting up at 9 in the morning.. which I’m up at 9 in the morning right now because my mother’s got to renew her ID (on her birthday), but I digress. I went to go see Blue, the reason being of what Cola told me (of needing to be with Blue more often).
Got bored quite quickly of this Legend of Zelda world, but I stayed with Blue for as long as I could. Then someone by the name of ‘Virtual-Ninja’ joined the instance. What grabbed my attention was the avatar the person was wearing (and their voice felt like a
magnet). It was the avatar shown off during the Virtual Market 3, of that Angel Dragon-like creature I so wanted.
For some reason, I wanted to be with him. He friended me and things started getting more and more interesting; him snuggling me (and I did as well).
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This was also the time, Blue was going through some harsh drama. Dealing with Thresio and getting into a major argument with him, and now Cola strangely removing more avatars he made for him. And speaking of Cola, he joined the instance a few times. But I noticed something was really weird with him.. he was avoiding Blue like the plaque. First he deletes avatars, now he’s hiding from him? The hell’s been going on since I took that small break from the game?!
I was forced to leave the new guy behind to investigate what’s going on (Cola running around the world as the Roomba). Told me he was never ‘deleting’ them, only fixing them up… yet he never warned Blue beforehand. Then it turned into an argument with him and myself, where he’s acting like a child not having the balls of apologizing to Blue (and wanting me to do it for him). “Cola, I didn’t do this. You did. You have to tell him.” I kept trying to hammer into his head. It took him way too long until finally doing it.
Ugh. WHY do I have to play peacekeeper for my friends?!
With that taken care of (at least I hoped so), I went back to Ninja and cuddled with him more. Though this cuddling was getting almost.. passionate (as if we knew eachother for a long time). Funny thing is, I swear I’ve seen his name before. Dunno where. This is when he wanted to pull me away from the mirror, and worked up the courage to say “I really like you. 🙂 Are you single? Are you gay?” And wanted to get to know me more.
Wait, do you have a crush on me?! Wow. That’s like the second time in history, someone has feelings for me (before I have for them)! So, I told him the truth. “I’m in a small
group, but I don’t have an actual boyfriend.” I also told him how it recently became a
poly, and how I don’t really feel happy with it anymore (as I miss having a closed relationship). He seemed to agree with me, saying how it’s so hard to find someone to call your own. You speak my mind dude.
Asked what state I live in and told him. Said he lives in Canada (on the East coast). Said he was in a relationship for 9 days “with someone from Louisiana”. How he “was ghosted” for two of those days.
Someone from Louisiana?! … No way. So I asked “I think I may know this someone. Was
it… ‘Wuffer’?” He said “yes, that’s him”. ..You dated Wuffer TOO?! Wow, it’s a small world we live on. Said he “heard what he did” to me, confirming Garruk’s statement.
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I swear though, this felt like a gift from God for me to leave the group, and actually be fully happy. He gave me his Discord name (about the time Fluffy joined the instance).
…Yay. Now he’s involved in this. Well, at least it’ll be easier to explain what the heck just happened.
So I wanted to tell Ninja something very critical that could make or break this– my age. Let’s just get this out of the way before we go any further, shall we? I want to be as transparent as I can.
Before I could do that, one of his friends showed up (who said they only had 5 minutes to be on). Ninja went back to licking me when he was done talking to him, saying we could go to another world to talk. Said we could go to my chosen home world (HomeBox).
There I told him, which he was quite shocked to hear the news. Sorry to have to tell you the truth, man. Said he needed time to think about it, but decided to overlook it with how sweet I am. That’s nice of you.
1:30am rolled in, and he had to go to bed. Ok, already know off the bat, you have a job. Probably have a car and a life. You’re already better than me. With him in bed, my attention shifted to Fluffy. “Well, I guess I owe you a huge explanation as to what just happened, don’t I? Heh.” I said to him. Told him everything, and he was happy for me. Now I have to tell the others in the group.
Now in DMs with me, Ninja was going beyond “taking it slow” (told me he would, and I wanted him to).. told me his RL name, and showed me a picture of him. Heh.. dude I just met you. We’re still trying to get to know eachother more. Please don’t be another
Fluffy, who rushes relationships.
Told me he has social anxiety and ADHD. So, you’re like Cola but with the want to actually feel love for someone. And that’s when I told him more of my sad life. His transparency, I really enjoy seeing. It disturbed him for sure, but not enough to say “I’m sorry but I don’t feel this is going to work”. Infact the only thing he was against, was how I have to stay in an online relationship. He, like Wuffer (when I dated him), prefers an IRL relationship.
Ninja ultimately decided to do an open relationship, to hopefully find someone who
can.
So yeah.. now I have FIVE people (of late 2019) that love me more than a friend; a
group, and an open relationship. Heh, might as well just join the group, then! Make it easy on him. Who knows, maybe he will. Up to him though.
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Though my love for Red feels at times it’s hanging by a string. Its pictures of him (and the memories I had) that keep it there. He is, in a sense, one of the ‘founding members’ of the group (myself being the main founder, for obvious reasons).
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As for the drama with Cola and Blue, I think that’s all sorted out now. But as for the drama of Blue and Thresio, I did my best of encouraging him to man up and speak his heart over the issues. A friend of mine also helped me out with this.
Hopefully Blue will finally free himself of that heavy load from his chest, and be able to make his own decisions in life.. instead of being treated like a child by Thresio.
Footnote: I also had to help Nigh out with his depression of feeling no one loves him. We also talked about Justin, and he found out the reason I blocked him (feels I made the right call. Thank you Nigh).