What a bizarre twist of events that happened. I’m not even sure what happened, but I feel I was caught at a time where I wasn’t thinking straight (or Garruk wasn’t). Then again, who knows.
It’s going to take time for my brain to process words into text. Feel like I want to be as brief as possible, yet it won’t cover everything. Hell, this could be a repeat with April 21st of this year.
Okay, I think my brain is ready. So if you all remembered what happened that day, I discovered Garruk had a BF (a day after having virtual sex with me), I did my best to distance myself from him since then. Now with the group, I don’t really have a want for the past anymore (besides Jero, but that’s not really the point of his post).
So remember the day before when I was reporting of (mostly good) news with the
group, and being with RedFox? He left for bed and gave me a goodnight kiss (which is sweet of him).
Faced with the reality of having no one else to join (as I usually don’t play VRChat at this time of day), I saw Garruk was on and joined him. Seeing how he had no one there with him, I decided to come over and give him snuggles. This ended prematurely about an hour later, with a few using obnoxious avatars. Plus it was pretty close for me to get off and get dinner down my RL throat.
After I fixed it and was eating, Garruk DM’d me in Discord saying he enjoyed the snuggle time, and how it had to end because of toxic players. I asked if it would continue again in an hour and he said it can. But 5 minutes after 7pm, he told me he had to “break his promise” as it was late for him.
Understandable. You have a good night. Didn’t think much of it after that, only that it could happen another time. Little did I know that time would happen yesterday.
I was still slightly depressed over feeling I wasted my time thinking Jero would join the group. Wasn’t even sure if I wanted to come on, yet I knew I needed to. And what drove me to come online was Kovo being online (in the movie world). I also updated a few mods that showed updated on the VRC Tools Discord– JoinNotifier now shows the name of the person (or persons) that join the instance. Additional features (once enabled) also show who leaves the instance. So if Fluffy joins the instance, it would show their name with a flashing join icon below it.
This mod ‘paid for itself’ when I surprised Kovo, who was watching Toy Story 4. Then I saw ‘rruk the WildSpooker’ show up on my HUD as joining. Wait.. Garruk? What brings you here? It seems he actually wanted to see me, and started snuggling with me again. It got to the point where he didn’t care about the movie, only me. Then Garruk looked off to the side and looked like he was about to drop a portal down, and did to an Invite+ instance of The Room in The Rain.
Okay, this just escalated quickly. Does he actually want to have virtual sex with me…?
Yes, yes he does. I knew I should’ve been asking questions, such as “didn’t you have a boyfriend several months ago? What happened?” But I didn’t. Sex first, questions later. 🍆
And I definitely will be asking them, but not before feeling like..
…”🆗, that just made up for Jero!” Hey, if you want to be the ‘new Jero’, please say so! Because that was awesome! 🚬 He even said he needed to take a shower over how hot that was, and then head to bed.
Before he did, he said “Thank you you are a dear”. You are welcome. 😁
So, when’s the time he’s going to tell me he fucked up by cheating on his BF (again)?
Who knows, but I’ll be asking these questions as soon as I see him up and about again. Maybe he’s single now, having just broke up and was feeling a bit lonely. And if that’s the
case (and if he’s interested).. ehh, I’m gonna hold onto that thought (for now).
First I need to know if he’s single (top priority), and then get to know him more (if he is). Hell, he could turn out to be another Raymond for all I know (not having true feelings for me, yet not minding doing it with me (and others)).
There’s also the possibility he’s in an Open relationship, when he said before he’s not into those. A lot can change in 6 months.
Anyway, I’ll get my answers and go from there. And before I feel I’m going to get yelled at for not being assertive by asking questions before sex (to not just protect him but to protect myself)… yes I wasn’t thinking! I actually wanted him to come clean with me! Sadly that didn’t happen. But it’s going to happen now. Infact before I go to bed, I’m going to ask him.
Questions such as “how old he is” have already been asked back then (and answered).
EDIT: He responded this morning… with 8 messages.
Took awhile to actually build up enough courage to look at what he said, and it wasn’t surprising– turned down the invitation to join the group. A bit upsetting, but completely understandable. Had a feeling he’d turn it down, but his reasoning was a bit
surprising.
Said the group “sounds great”, but “that is too many people for me to stay close to”. Adds on feeling it “sounds like a polyamorous relationship to me. I don’t do such things”.
Alright, understandable. However, to call the group a ‘polyamorous relationship’ is simply untrue. It’s similar in a sense, but the others aren’t exactly having relationships with eachother (only with myself).
And as for that boyfriend, he uses the last 7 responses to explain that the two “broke up already due to a lack of communication”, however “we’re still now texting more to each other” and it’s “sort of on a pause as someone might say”.
Finally he said he plans to meet him in person and see if their relationship will actually work out, and he “still thinks about him”.
Disturbing (as the BF that I last reported is 16-years-old, but could be 17 by now), but that’s not my problem. You do you, Garruk.
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Secondly, he brings up Wuffer. Oh boy, what about him? Says he’s “saying some mean things” about me. And what he said that Wuffer said.. nearly made me start laughing my head off! WOW.
So get this: Wuffer thinks he can ‘ruin’ me by saying I’m in my 40’s and living with my parents (which is stating the obvious). Garruk also says that Wuffer said more bad things about me but can’t recall what they were.
First off, come ON, man! Try harder to troll!! 😂 I’m on #TeamSneaky all the way, pal. Rather believe a U.S. Marine from Texas than some random douchbag from Louisiana.
Second of all, this is just simply…
…on Wuffer’s part. If this had to do with that obviously leaked conversation when I was dealing with Fluffy, Aftershock, and Blueberry that one night, I said nothing mean to
him. The reason why I feel it was leaked, he was friends. Next day, he’s no longer
friends.
Interestingly enough, after my time with Garruk, and I went to go see Blue.. Wuffer actually joined us… and hung out with myself, Blue, Fluffy, and even Thresio. Why..? I wish I knew. Plus it looks like he has full body now. Cool, I guess.
But what was fucking hilarious is I now have this public Jack Septiceye avatar, that just got updated with even more obnoxious emotes. One of them is Jack screaming “LOOK AT MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!” which causes a fake crash and a VRChat loading screen to pop up.
I was in spawn (by myself) when I did it (as I was curious what it does). I saw the avatar’s body suddenly stretch out and then saw the black screen. Laughed my fucking head off and said “oh god I hope they didn’t see that!”
Fluffy shows up and says “we heard it from here”. Ohh fuck. Moments later, I see ‘WufferTheWolf’ showing up on my HUD as leaving the instance.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! WOW!! …I didn’t even intend to make him leave! That’s what makes it hilarious!! HAH!!
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Anyway, let’s close out this post here. So yeah, Garruk doesn’t want to join the group. Yet he never said anything to me about “lets just be friends, that was a mistake” or anything of the sort. He’s clearly lonely, so I will be with him (when I can) until someone else enters his life or when he goes to meet his once-BF IRL.
And before you say “there’s a chance he could change his mind about the group”.. I find that highly unlikely at this point. He has the same mindset of favoring
standard (closed) relationships as he did back then. I did too at that time (even though I was still in a ‘friends with benefits’ thing since Jusper).
A lot can change in 6 months. I did, somewhat. Garruk’s mindset of relationships, hasn’t.