Pic Credit goes to RedJoker
On one hand, I should be thrilled and partying with my friends that I never have to see or hear Chris’ name ever again.
…But in reality, I don’t even call this a ‘victory’, as it should had never happened, and could had been prevented from the start.. if I had used better judgement with my words. *deeply sighs*
Yesterday was quite the busy day, and all started with once AGAIN.. not using better judgement with my words! Though I blame Chris for what I’ve turned into.
So what happened is something I saw the night before (when I went to bed), but I was too tired to deal with it. In the morning, I did so. Ren was talking about issues with his router in general chat, instead of using the new ‘tech-talk’ channel I had set up a few days ago in order to keep things cleaned up.
I asked him to please move the conversation to the channel, but he felt the internet wasn’t part of tech (which it actually is). And this only made me frustrated the more I was trying to explain my point. This got to a point where I was feeling “god DAMNIT, Ren! I’m the admin! Do NOT argue with me!!” And I even said “Ren, don’t argue with me please.” Yet he says “I’m not arguing, I’m discussing.” And this made me even more furious. You are still not doing what I say.
I am an admin, you do NOT talk back to me! If I want you to move the discussion, you will DO SO!! NO ‘discussion’! JUST DO IT!!! And I felt bad for having those feelings afterwards to the point I was considering of retiring as an admin.
Kovo got involved, and again I didn’t want to deal with him. But he was dealing with another issue; Chris, who was on Ren’s side. Kovo felt Chris was starting shit again and gave him a second strike.
Eventually I did apologize to Ren (after Kovo talked to him so I could calm down). He accepted. Then later he does something unexpected; he gets into a ‘discussion’ with
Chris, then creates an important group DM while we discuss what we’re going to do about this issue. Turns out Chris tried to get Ren to make me look bad… by lying to him, which
Ren (thankfully) didn’t believe (and made him do the group DM).
Him and Kovo sent me all the evidence of Chris trying to ruin my reputation (by going after my closest friends, trying to convince them with lies). So far, no-one (of my friend pool) believes him.. or at least has confronted me about it. And if they do, I’ll happily tell them it’s all a lie and they were manipulated by a 15-year-old brat.
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So even with this evidence he’s lying, would banning from from the Discord even be worth it? It isn’t going to make him stop until he ‘destroys’ me. And I started thinking of once again retiring as an admin, essentially ‘letting him win’. But Kovo had another idea, that he secretly told me. For security reasons, I cannot disclose what they are, only that in that time, we had a really nice person we were talking to at the same time that we decided to make him an admin. Later we were notified Chris had fucked up again, and he was banned.
It was not done by me, or Kovo. So.. that’s it. Or so we thought. Kovo, before I went to
bed, notified me that Chris’ friend ‘Silver’ is still in the Discord, and may be gathering intel on me and him for Chris. He has given me authority to kick him out if I see fit, but I’m going to wait as he’s on Strike 1. He also told me to inform Ren incase Chris tries to use Silver to talk to him.
I’ll likely be having another discussion later this evening with Kovo and Ren (and possibly the new admin), of what we should do with Silver.
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..If I could turn back time, I;
1. Would had never invited Chris to Kovo’s Discord.
2. Said no to Chris joining me when myself and my son were having that Father-Son bonding exercise.
3. Said no to Acid when he asked if I would be OK that Chris was in the call when he was helping me with my model (therefore I would had never said that we could hang out).