So this is going to be a rather interesting discussion. I’ve always been envy of people’s perfect lives. But there’s one aspect of their life that I was once qualified to do. And if I would just put the effort in….I could be qualified again, if I would just get over my fear.
And no, it isn’t registering to vote. Though the only fear with that is a Trump(or Cruz.. or Clinton)-controlled government. Still an Independent for that. I don’t belong to any party, as I’ve seen what both have done to this great country of ours.
Erm.. sorry about all of that political stuff slipping in there. The real fear and aspect, is driving. This is the one aspect that always seems to bug me when I have friends that are much younger than me, such as Adm. zalex and zw98…who can drive. I mentioned in my ‘Space Engineers Fun Time’ video, how they got their drivers licenses. Since then, I felt “now I KNOW I need to find someone else that can play SE, that has a shittier life than mine”.
As they say, driving is independence wrapped up in a pretty little bow. But it can also be a death trap. It’s like being in a moving coffin, because you never know who’s going to pull infront of you while trying to beat a red light on their side.
Anyway, yeah. It’s that fear. Not to mention, having my own car would just add more pollution to the air.
Then again, being able to drive myself up to the dentist, or the doctor when I need to (and not having to depend on my father to get me there) is also a nice thing. Because my father’s getting pretty old. He’s almost 65 years old. Soon he’ll be too old to drive.
My mother is the same age as he is. She used to have a driver’s license, but ended up almost running someone off the road and has vowed never to try again.
My fear is knowing this is no longer a video game, and there is no “god mode” to keep me from being hit by another car.
I used to have a learner’s permit, many years ago (I think back in 2006). Back then, I was playing a Driver’s Ed game (and playing SCS’ 18WoS games) and had a steering wheel. I felt confident enough to try it real life. I knew pretty much all the basics of driving. There was really no way I could fail.
Did my learner’s permit test and passed. Was happy about that. My father was my teacher and I drove his car around. Using my training from that Driver’s Ed game, I did quite well. That was until….
My father felt confident that I could handle crossing the bridge and going to Louisville. Being that close to water (and other cars), my confidence went downhill quite fast and started to panic.
Got off the bridge, and I’m sitting there swerving back and forth on the road as my nerves were shot. He took control and all I could do was apologize. Since then, I lived in fear of ever trying again. I can never get that terrifying thing out of my head.
Parents told me to look for a driver’s ed school around here, but I have yet to look for one. I feel I will fail. And I just don’t want to try what happened back then, again.
Though as they say, when you fall off your bike, you get back up and try again. But a bike isn’t a car. A bike doesn’t require a driver’s license (or extensive training to use one properly). And a bike doesn’t require insurance (well, a motorcycle does).
And until I eventually get over my fear and put the past behind me, I will always be envy of people that are younger than me who can drive.