Tomorrow’s the first Weigh In for the two. I have been repeatably asking Dan on Twitter, how his father has fared with the whole weight loss thing. And he never answers this question. He hardly (if ever) talks about his own weight loss at all, like it never even happened.
Personally, if Dan really wants this to be a thing, he should be more …. involved in it. Aka, actually share his secrets to weight loss. It feels like…. it feels like this was supposed to be between him and his father. So why did he “drag us” into it, if he won’t give us updates how the two are doing with their goals?
And why am I the only one that cares about this? *shakes head* I think you already know the reason. My attitude hasn’t changed in many, many years.
If this thing was nothing (aka, they might not be losing weight at all) but a way to promote healthy living with the power of his Youtube popularity, it’s pointless to say anything negative about it to a public forum (as I would be the ONLY one ‘against’ it).
Thankfully, this is my blog, and no one reads this damn thing. So I won’t have my words get used against me by commenters.
Where others would be feeling “Wow, this is a really great thing you did Dan!”, I…I half feel like I’m “wasting my time” with this whole diet shit. I’ve always felt that (even before this crap started). Even if I was to have an actual wakeup call where I nearly die to to a serious health thing that happens to me (which what caused my father to change his life), it still won’t make me suddenly see I gotta eat better, and exercise.
It’ll scare me, sure. But it (and this) aren’t going to “wake me up”. I really have nothing to live for. Just put a bullet in my head, as death has to be better than being someone I’m not (a healthy me).
That’s not to say I’m not even TRYING to lose weight(due to this). I am. Since last Friday, I’ve been walking a mile everyday and not eat as much. But I’ll be damned if you think I’m changing what I eat. I like my grilled cheese sandwiches, four-cheese pizza(with nothing else on it), and PB&Js very much to give that up for broccoli or a salad. Seriously, you’re better off ending my life before I go through those extremes…
On top of it, my parents claim I need to walk faster (literally jog) to burn off calories. They also recommend a ‘water diet’. Which is to drink water to curb hunger cravings. Yet I got to eat something, as I’ll be literally starving my body of nutrients by just doing this and this only (and that’s even worse than what I’m doing).
I did made a thing (and an account) on Dan’s subreddit (that never got responded to), telling that community, how I have my doubts what I’m doing is even helping. And also wondering if there’s others like me who are also doing this. Again, no responses. And it’s been three days now. Very disheartening. Especially after seeing one guy who made a thing as well (not directed to me, but it should) that one would have to walk 5-7 miles a day… I can barely handle 1 without feeling I’m going to pass out due to hyperventilating.
Anyway, that’s what’s on my mind right now. I will continue as hard as I can, to focus on just walking and eating less, and hope to God it helps. I’ll settle with losing even a 10th of a pound. Because at least I know I’m actually making progress.
But it all boils down to one major thing; You have to have a positive attitude of yourself to lose weight and keep it off. But oh, what’s that? I don’t? Yep. 😛