Benie's Games Blog

Day 2 began where it ended: She left me. God DAMN, Time Warner! I was SO CLOSE!! And you RUINED it! D:(
But in reality, she wasn’t online when I logged on. But thankfully there were no mobs around to bug me as I hopped back on my horse. With it now day, managed to make my way back to the main roads. And with the map, I was able to get my bearings.
Since CD wasn’t on, I decided to explore her village on my own. It’s..smaller than I pictured it. I pictured a huge field of trees, and a romantic patio in the middle that she sampled her wines (in a champagne glass).
However, this little town definitely had flair. It was prettier than my place at least. There was this one area where it was a one-tile road, surrounded by iron fences. And behind them was grass and houses. It felt so European.
Also was a properly-named house called “The Dragon’s Lair”, made out of wood. Infact, every house she built was made out of wood… wow. She works with wood too.. *smiles*.
So I never found her 4×4 Greenhouse. I think she meant a 2×2, as I did see a wood house (named ‘Champagnedragon’s cottage’) with a bunch of flower pot planters against the wall.

With this done, it was time to continue to head further south to reach the Southern Coast (and stay clear away from the Rift that opened to the Southeast, as I hear all of these bad things happening). I also discovered I wasn’t South enough to get to her place (as I found this bridge she kept mentioning about in her PM, when I asked her last week if I could come visit).
So I turned south, crossed the bridge, then headed inroute to FM. One of the reasons being, I’m planning to get a new horse to… well, replace Flashsilver. She’s been a great horse, but she keeps stopping and starting and that’s becoming annoying (and too risky). I’m almost convinced that she might be a 3-speed. This became more apparent as she’s struggling to get up the path that connects to the NW highway.

Reached FM. There’s a pointing sign on the West side of FM, stating they’re selling 5-speeds for 40c each… yet the sign was pointing in the direction I just came from, and I saw nothing that looked like an area you can buy a horse by buying a key.
I asked kchat, who never gave me an answer. Thinking I may’ve just not been paying attention (as I was taking pictures with the UI disabled), I turned around and went back on the NW highway.
Two people showed up in Local who were talking about grapes and stuff. I asked them about the sign and where is this place that I go to buy a horse. ‘Freddy’ is the only one that spoke to me, and said he would wiki it. When he got done, he said how he didn’t find anyone giving away free horses… wat. I said SELL!, and explained it. Yet he’s clueless and tells me to “ask the help chat”.
Ask in kchat again, they too are clueless as to what I’m talking about. So whoever the person was that offered the service, isn’t doing it anymore (yet never took down the sign).
I saw this two more times just by roaming around the outskirts of FM. These areas actually had an area that existed, but the deed was.. gone, and so were the horses. It seems my only option is when I get home, to trade for a better horse (or use one of my other faster horses).

Set up camp and logged out at the second one that’s just off of the ‘Great South Mountain Road’, due to Sol setting (and it being dinnertime). Now as I type this and watching Wurm Clock, Sol is going down within the next 1-2 RL hours. Had to eat before the large, circular atom-smashing machine could rise. I imagine when I reach the outskirts of Gurubear’s Crater, it will be close to Solset once again.

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Logged back in after saying what I said above. Picked up camp and got back on my horse, and continued to head South. Didn’t encounter any mobs, which was a shock. And the views… those views. Wow. I even got to the highest point of the route, which is marked by a colossus and a sign stating that this road was done back in 1021(Wurm year) to ‘conquer the mountain’.
My next leg on the Indy Romp is to finally head to Gurubear’s Crater. Last time I attempted, I was far West and tried to use the new ‘Magranon’s Scar’ road (but back then it was still being worked on, and felt unsafe to continue).
This time, the roads would (hopefully) be done. Finally found one of them, but the way up felt like it was taking way..way longer than what it showed on the map. Ran into a few mobs, but nothing I couldn’t handle. But as I continued to go up, I decided to get on the Plate armor, which would be a good idea later on.
Came across a guard tower…that would fucking save my life as all the sudden, it was like the darkest parts of hell just opened up over me, and death was certain. Started with a troll up the road, with another troll further up. Tried to get the guards to deal with the first troll, then I had a wolf biting my shins (that I disposed of). Went back to assist with the troll, yet I was being attacked. Didn’t understand why, ran off to heal up.. then saw the other troll is now after me. Thankfully the first troll died and the guards were able to engage this one.
With everyone died, I hopped off my horse to go butcher the corpses. BIG mistake as a hellhound popped up out of nowhere and started attacking me! Was able to get the guards to assist with that while I healed up. FUCK..that was close.
Managed to butcher the corpses no problem. Someone in kchat said that butchering humanoids (aka trolls) have a chance to drop recipes.

Finally made it to the top.. and there it was. FINALLY made it to ‘Gurubear’s Crater’! The area was littered with scorps as far as the eye can see. Had a few come close and engage. With the plate armor, I never got a Medium. Though I had several sub-meds (10-14 damage) that I was able to heal. Waited for Sol to rise again, as I didn’t want to risk running through fields of scorps to get to where I need to go. As I waited, I checked kchat to see if CD came on and did her normal small talk. Well, she did. But… it wasn’t pretty;
[20:25:59] [Champagnedragon] I see Dragonhead got himselff off my farm
[20:26:49] [Pingpong] relative of yours?
[20:27:06] [Champagnedragon] Nope. Some stranger that wandered into my area
…Ouch. So I’m a “stranger” to you? I thought we had something, with both of our names having ‘dragon’ in them. Plus how you say I ‘wandered’ into your area? Do you not remember a week ago(the 2nd) I asked if I could come over and see your deed?

Dragon’s got bite, that’s for sure. Though I still don’t like being called a ‘stranger’ (and being humiliated). Being serious now, you should expect that to happen (of a random person coming onto your deed). This is an MMO. It happens (the irony in my words right now of being anti-social). I also have to deal with it. Plus, you were the one that offered me to see your deed. I never once asked (except in that PM, which you were fine with).
What a feisty female, you are (and a typical bitch). Obviously she’s playing the “I don’t need a male in my life” card (even though she has a boyfriend).
As I was contemplating the thought of “maybe it would had never worked out between us”, an Anaconda showed up. Tried to engage it, but decided to run back to the tower as I was taking too much damage. Had a bear and a wolf both after me. Normally I would engage, but not with how low my health was.
Lured the remaining bear to the guards and healed up as they killed it. Headed back up. Didn’t see the wolf or the snake. At this time, Sol was starting to make its arc up and the sky was slowly getting brighter. Going over the map, I discovered I went too far South on the mountain road and took the SE route into the crater (which is MUCH longer than the East one). I also saw a route near me that would make a B-line for the center of the crater (which according to the map is a guard tower). So I went there. There’s another guard tower here, which saved my life even more.
At last count, there was two scorpions, a bear, a hellhound, a spider, and a wolf. It felt like I couldn’t even get time to breath until another mob showed up to try to eat me.
With them all dead, I found the route to the center of the crater. I stood on the road, thinking about what CD said about me (and also focusing on when I should make a run for the center). Finally just ended up waiting for Sol to start lighting the crater enough. When it finally happened, I went for it, and made to the center of the crater! Flashsilver gave it her all. I guess she knew she was going to be replaced and wanted to prove to me that she’s still a reliable horse, and it definitely showed.

Having a 360 view of the crater, was pretty wild. There was a village welcome sign and a regular sign here, and a NPC called “Crater conservationist”. Looking at the signs, it showed a link of why the crater is here (link here), and it’s mainly to do with this dev (Gurubear) who strangely likes open spaces (with no trees). Though IMO, instead of making a crater in the middle of nowhere (that’s hard to reach), go live in The Grand Steppe. But.. it’s there. Though it’s also nice, I’ll give it that.
The only thing wrong was the NPC’s ‘Talk’ option wouldn’t work. There’s also another NPC named “Wanderer” (near the East route) who also won’t speak to me.
When I had enough pictures, I left through the East route. It had two options to get down the mountain; a 20 slope and a 40 slope. Chose the 40 slope (as that’s the limit a horse can go) and I was flying down the mountain. Though there was this one time the road ended of what looked like a mine door. Yet I saw it snaking around to the East again and made it back to the main roads. Yay!

Continued South, following the route until I ended up at a place named “South Newberry”. On the sign of the road was a sign saying “4 and 5 speed horses 4-sale PM Bismoll”. Wow. A person calling is name “Bismoll”. I can almost see what made him choose the name;
“Ohh god, thank you Pepto Bismol! ..Wait a minute. I shall honor this relief of my stomach by naming my Wurm Online character ‘Bismoll’!!”.. lol.
Anyway, I went on following the road as it was going to take me all the way to the Indy/Deli Boat Bridge. Came up on another town named “Dead Man’s Drop”. Person named ‘Ancil’ is in my local. Said hi, he said hi. Asked him if he lives near the town to the East, and he said yes and asked me. Told him I live on the NW side of the server.
Then I asked him if this ‘Bismoll’ guy comes on, and he said yes. Asked him to please inform him that I’m interested in buying some horses from him.
He then said that he too has horses to sell and asked if I wanted to see them. Thought ‘sure’. He lead me to this pen with all of these horses, young and old.. with one sadly dead in the middle of the pen.

Asked him if he had high AH(Animal Husbandry) to tell the traits of the horses. He says he has 58. So I went around the pen while leading my horse, looking at the fine specimens. At the end I found this brown one, who turned out to be a 5-speed. Asked if I could trade my horse for his, but that didn’t happen (he wanted money). Told him “since people in FM are offering 30-40c for a 5-speed, I’ll pay you 50c”…but the bastard wanted more. He wanted 2s. Wtf.. that’s the price of a sailboat! Tried to haggle my way to get the price down (by offering the two Valrei items I found in The Grand Steppe). After telling him what they did, he didn’t want them. Then he offered to go down to 1.5s, “if not, np” (as in “that’s as low as I’m going”).
I reluctantly agreed to it (still feeling that was a bit too much for a 5-speed) and asked him where his token was. But before I gave him the money, I told him to bring over the horse (to make it a fair deal). He did, and I paid him. Yet instead of saying “thank you” after seeing the coins in his trade window, he says “whatok”. Said that this is what you agreed on. He says “fine” and takes the coins.. dude, you said 1.5s. I gave you 1.5s. WTH is with people nowadays? If you didn’t want to sell the horse(guy probably thought it was worth as much as it costs to found a deed(5s)), then speak up!

Tried to Lead the horse, and I couldn’t. Started to get suspicious he wasn’t holding up his end of the deal, but found out he was still leading the horse. He stopped leading and I tried again, couldn’t, and told him I couldn’t. So he lead the horse off-deed (after I told him that the horse should still have a Lead option (aka to set the perms)), and I was able to lead it. And instead of right then and there checking if I had full permissions and moved what Flashsilver had over to the new horse, I thanked him and ran off, continuing going South. I had already planned for B2 to come sail down here and pickup Flashsilver and take her back home.
Reached the end of the highway, and got off the new horse. Got off the saddle from Flashsilver. Then I turned around…and she disappeared. That “OSHI–” feeling filled my head as I frantically started searching for her. Found her up the hill, but I was too heavy to go up there. Got several ouchies from fall damage that I was forced to heal. After two attempts, I dropped everything I had on me (armor, weapons, tools.. everything) to be as lightweight as possible in order to get up the hill quickly (before the Stamina bar dropped to 0). This finally worked, and I got her back down to my other horse.

My joy then turned to anger as I couldn’t put the saddle on her, getting “You are not allowed to do that.” messages. The guy…forgot to turn over perms to me. Trying to reach him through PM, and he was offline. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUU—!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I felt it was deliberate for awhile, with him thinking I cheated him. But then I calmed down and remembered when he was saying how he was new at this. And so, here I am, sitting in the same pen that I got the horse while typing this, and waiting for him to get back on in order to give me perms.

Decided to go ask Tulsi to do something…evil for me (which is to make CD’s life a living hell for humiliating me in kchat, yet not mention myself in it). He asked why, and I sent what she told them about myself being a “stranger” to her. And he hopped on and got to work. 🙂
Do I feel sorry for what happened to her after Tulsi did his thing? In ways, yes. I do feel ashamed about this whole “she has ‘dragon’ in her name, I must impress the female and get her to like me!” crap. Yeah, that was stupid. But thankfully she never caught on, or that would had been even more humiliating. Yet even if I didn’t feel like that and just wanted to be a friendly person in the community (saying hi instead of helping out by being a contributing member), I don’t like what she said about me.
I will say this, though. She doesn’t really like her boyfriend (but knows she has to deal with him). Saying if she ever dumps him, that she’s not getting another (aka going for the ‘strong independent woman’ thing, which is a good thing).

So, yeah. Gotta wait for this guy to come back on (or at least someone that has control over the horse). I actually blame myself for not telling him to change the perms so I’ll be able to lead the horse (or anything about perms). He obviously doesn’t know that horses are like boats; both have their own permissions. Well, at least now. Way back in 2010, horses had no permissions (which also made no sense as trying to lead while on deed ended up going to “this would be very bad for your karma and is disallowed on the server”).

So, I am currently sitting here typing all of this in a txt file on my computer, in order to paste this when either my main internet connection -or- my WiFi goes back up.
Now before I start, a word of warning. That whole thing about crying over a bunch of code that represented a dragon? What’s in this one is way…WAY more awkward (yet funny in my head) than that.

So let the awkwardness… begin!
Where I was forcefully logged out, I was checking out Champagnedragon’s Orchard. Being suave, I tried to impress her (even though she already has a boyfriend) by saying that this is very impressive. Then go to her deed and talk while sampling her fine wine (in a champagne glass), then try to make the moves on her (show her that I’m a strong male dragon warrior and could protect her), then she would drop her boyfriend and I would have her, and she’ll be all “Ohh Dragonhead!”.
But then Time Warner cockblocked me with an internet outage!! D:(
Seriously, though.. this is bad (not to mention only doing this because she has ‘dragon’ in her name.. wtf is wrong with me anymore). Because I’m outside of her deed, on a hill, on horseback, and I have no idea how to get back down and find the main roads if she’s not there.

But since I’m forced to wait hours on end watching the US/DS light on my cable modem slowly flash on and off, I might as well go over how this day went.
It started with myself at home(no shit) getting ready to head out on my (second attempt of seeing if the roads on the map actually exist ingame) grand adventure. Also, project’s completed by the way. Sadly, I had forgotten Tulsi cannot work on a 3×3 house as he’s non-prem; 2×3 (or 4×3) is the max that he can have, but he also has to grind Carpentry… and that’s going to be ‘fun’. I could do a 3×3 for him, but it won’t teach him anything. Especially if the game is right for him (by doing the work himself).
With that out of the way, I had B2 hold onto a few items for me until I return (aka my pelts), because “LOL dont matter if u put in a container that is on deed it still will decay unless it is in player inventory lololololol!!!” -Wurm Logic

With tar and cotton on hand, I get on my main horse (Flashsilver) and head up the side path. Within two minutes later, I encounter my first hostile; a spider. Remembering that I can now handle spiders since heading up to that really tall place to complete some unfinished business, I managed to kill it. I also discovered I can handle bears now– mostly. I -can- take them on, but the vern bears are a NOPE to me (as they will go for your face).
With RL calling in the form of having to go, and it becoming night, I tried to head for a nearby guard tower that’s near El Rancho. As soon as I ran in, I had a wolf, a scorp, and a hell hound chasing after me. Told the guards to deal with the hell hound. Thankfully I remembered back in JK-H that scorps are slow and are easy to outrun, and then dealt with the wolf. With both the wolf and hell hound dead, I found the scorp and lead it to the guards, who killed it no problem (with my help of course).
I then see a Bull in the distance. Remembering of seeing a cow in the Steppe near my deed, I thought of getting the two back and letting them live in the new farm. Also it gave me a reason to go get the plate set that B2 won during the Impalong last year (incase I need to deal with a hell hound without a guard tower nearby).

With the bull and the cow in the farm and grabbing the backpack that has the plate set (and taking care of my bio issues), I headed back out. Killed more spiders, bears, and wolves (oh my!) until I was on one of the main roads, trying to get South to head towards Darkenstone. This guy named “Fidelis” in Local (never saw them in person), we talked a bit. They asked me if I was hunting, and I told them ‘exploring/hunting’. Then told him where I lived, and they asked me “Stone Rose?” Told them I didn’t know what they asked, and said “It’s on the south side of F9″(which is close to where my deed is). Told them that there’s several abandoned villages around me. They said “used to be more players here…most left before or at the time WU showed up”.
So, maybe that’s what happened to the previous owners of my deed? They left because of Wurm Unlimited? It’s possible, but I don’t think so. Wherever they went, they shoved everything to my clay pier (as if they moved to another server). As I’m speaking with him, a hellhound shows up. I quickly get on the new plate armor and go after it..and killed it! NO mediums! 😀 I can kill hellhounds with this!
Anyway, made it to Darkenstone and crossed the new bridge there (back in early 2016, there was no bridge. You had to cross the canal on foot). And then instead of following the coast to go visit Williamweird’s place (and hopefully talk to him), I decided to go inland and catch the Freedom Highway. By doing so got two more people in my local. They didn’t really speak much, though.

Made it to William’s place, he’s not there nor any of his villagers. Yet the old place where Impalong 2015 used to stand is still there (and looks like hasn’t really changed over these short years since I started playing again). Explored the area, remembering the “fun” Enki had with us, and the custom-named Christmas-themed mobs. So sadly I never got to speak to him and see how he’s been holding up. So I went back and got on the Freedom Highway, and went on the Colossus Lake Highway. Once again, more spiders, wolves and bears met their demise. Though there was this one time where I had two bears, two spiders, and two trolls chasing after me (while going up). Holy fuck I still don’t know how I was able to escape that.
Made it to Colossus Lake no problem, then went over to what really drove me up the wall last time with roads not being the same on the map. Thankfully everything was good and I made my way to Savage Lake. Though I had to deal with several ‘lurking’ scorps. Managed to kill a Young scorp, though! Maybe that’ll show them not to mess with a dragon warrior!
Here I tried to go see “Eyywa”, a friend of Ivan and the one that gave me a rowboat (also convinced me to get a Knarr).
Getting to where I assume they lived, the landscape was completely different. Hell..there wasn’t even a village anymore. It looked nothing of what I remembered (and where they told me to go to get that Loom I have in my Cart Shed).
I had to leave and go eat dinner (after killing another spider lurking nearby.. LOVE the fact I can kill spiders now). Came back and left with no mobs camping the area. Got to the NE corner of the server, and saw the two NE islands (with the left one being where Angry and I used to live in 2010). Going south, proved challenging as once again…the roads infront of me were NOT matching up to the map. There was a road going South. Followed it, and the road ended, but then continued going East (which was on the map). But instead of going SE, it went due East, then due South, passing by a guard tower which is on the WRONG fucking side (as it shows on the map)!
Somehow I made it to Mist Lake. It was dark again, and I felt so unbelievably lost. I thought once again I was going to have to go back, get B2 to help me, and scrap this whole damn thing all over again!
But no. At least, not now. There were two people in local, but both didn’t speak to me. So I went to one of the sides of the lake and set up camp(aka the tent), and tried to wait for Sol to rise before continuing further. As I did, one of them (named “Dorian”, assumed male) actually spoke to me. Asked him “is this Mist Lake” and he said yes. Felt relieved that I got my bearings. We talked a bit, and he actually resupplied my dwindling supply of cotton (already had burned through 5, and brought 20 on me) and a meal to replenish my fat layers. He also gave me a temp place to stay for the night; an old farm he has that he’s not using, but he says anyone can use it to keep the “critters” off of them.
He lead me to the place. I saw how freakishly fast his horse was compared to mine, and told him “I think mine’s a 5-speed”. He was able to examine Flashsilver and discovered..she’s a 4-speed (missing “It has strong leg muscles”), but said “still a very nice horse”. Well that’s great! The girl has gotten me through so much. A shame she’s not a 5-speed, though.

With that, he logged off as Sol started to slowly rise and I was on my own once again. With the ground (and surroundings) bright enough to see, I left the area. This leg of the journey, I was to go to ‘Steve’s Tundra’ while following the lake. Though I hoped for some breathtaking views of the lake, I didn’t really get them (just more hell hounds). I also had crocs to deal with, this far south of the server. First encounter, I thought I could take one out.. that was until I see I’m being hit ‘extremely hard'(the same damage I can do) and run to a nearby guard tower. ! Soon I reached the south side…and then the road once again wasn’t going the same route as the map. Yet nearly when I see water, I see what looks like a massive spider convention going on in the woods. So. many. lava spiders (and spiders in general)! All aboard the train to NOPEville!
Somehow I made it to ‘White Sands’ (which was on the map).
Person named ‘Smilingcat’ was in my local this time, who lives in the area. Know I was forced to once again ask for directions, I asked them how do you get further South. And they’re all “Wait.. you’re going South? No. If you value your life, turn around”, telling me that they died down there, with 70+ Fight Skill, and a set of QL90 plate. ..That… yeah. I’m not going to risk that. I may -think- I’m strong and brave, but I’m also not stupid. 😛
The person tells me if I’m going to The Grand Steppe (which was going to be the next leg), to go back North to the north side of the lake. So literally through the fire and flames I went back up north, managing to outrun everything.

Stopping at the guard tower, I came up with a few ideas of how to reach Champagnedragon’s place. Though I ultimately decided to go West then South through The Grand Steppe, then connect to where Cybaru lives and make my way back to the center of the server, where I’ll go south of Quincy Mines and get to her place. Going through the steppe at solset… breathtaking. I’m on this high area, looking over the entire steppe. Holy hell, ’tis amazing. Got some hunting done in the form of a few wild cats and a wolf.
Swinging around the two lakes, I made it to where Ghost lives. Both him and ‘Elvenwing'(someone I saw in the alliance) where there. I once again welcomed myself, hoping to get a welcoming response. Though this time, I get a “do we know you?” response from ‘Elvenwing’… wow. A bit cold.
Ghost did a ‘o/’ to me, and so I tried to get him to be his friendly helpful self as he was back then, saying “this is the guy that got me on my feet and got me this studded set!”, and his response was “yea”. I left without saying another thing. So cold. Just because I left the alliance, doesn’t mean I have the right to be shunned by people who helped me in the past. Kept thinking about this as I continued west to reach the Inner Sea again. Almost missed the bypass of Quincy Mines due to what I was feeling. Maybe Ghost had just woke up (or either wasn’t feeling good). Though he could had said more than just “yea”. Eesh.
So I went through the bypass and I’m now on the coast to the Inner Sea. CD enters my local (with another person who’s name skips my mind). I see someone on the opposite side of the road, approaching on horseback. I stop for a bit to check the name..and it’s her. My mind is thinking “Ohh damn… she’s coming to me! I KNEW we had something in common!”
She stops infront of me and says “hey…”. My mind is thinking “she meant that is ‘*blush* ohhh hey. *shy wink*’ instead of ‘uhh.. who are you?’ She asked if I wanted to see her deed, so I said sure (because that’s what I asked to do in a PM to her last week, as I was going back home via my Knarr after doing my finished business).
Tried to follow her, attempting to catch up to her. Felt so romantic, as if she was playing hard to get.. except it kept getting shot down with Flashsilver being slower than her horse (and running into everything while trying to type didn’t help the situation). Way to go, lover boy. 😛
We went further South than I thought we did on horseback, with her telling me about a neighbor rerouting the road so all local traffic goes through his deed. A bit of a dick move there.
Finally we arrived close to her deed. She wanted to first show me her orchard…so we can run around it and get all swea– I really need to stop this awkwardness. She showed me all the trees she planted, going up a few hills. Tried to say “This is quite impressive” (aka, make the female feel proud someone appreciates her work)…and then a second after I said how it’s quite impressive, the cockblocking happened of my cable modem’s connection going down! The RAGE in me when that happened.
Though, I do hope when (or if) I can ever log in, there will be no mobs (and I’ll be able to find my way back to the main roads).

With my connection restored as of 3:34am EST, I just moved all of this into.. this. Think I’m going to wait ’till tomorrow to log in. By then, she should be on and she can continue the tour (and then maybe I’ll get lucky… Ok ENOUGH!! Damnit.)

Before I get to today’s facepalm-filled post (“I THOUGHT you said there would be NO MORE dragon-related posts!!”), I wanted to announce an update to my deed redesign.
And that update is I’m nearly done building my new house. Almost all the day yesterday, I’ve been sawing planks, making nails, and other things.
Unfortunately I cannot have a staircase… yet, as carts cannot use them; only Openings will work. Thankfully it’s not the end of the world. All I need to do is make sure I have everything I need Loaded/Unloaded on the second floor that I need done, then I can simply destroy the Opening and build the Staircase. Another good thing is that the Opening doesn’t require as many materials as the Staircase does.

I’m also waiting for the crops (corn) I planted for B2 to grow, so he can practice his HFC skill. A few days ago, he made his first Meal. Sadly they aren’t really filling right now (about 21QL), which is why he needs to work on his skill to make them better for us.
The reason I need them to grow, is so they can be removed for the rest of the plan to work. Everything relys on them now.

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And now, to go back to.. yes, more of this crap you guys thought I was done with. 😛
Honestly, I’m -mostly- over this. But the week after her passing, there’s still two thoughts I literally can’t bury with her.
The first thing is the betrayal, of course. She did tell me to forgive them, but how can I? How can I forgive/forget betrayal? How can I forgive/forget seeing NO remorse from them? How can I forgive/forget not even giving me another option?!
That “I feel like I wish I could’ve done more” feeling also plays with this. I guess I keep being reminded of the other two dragons which are likely being captive somewhere, and wish I could’ve been one of them. Yet I can wish until I was blue in the face, and it’ll never bring her back.

But the second thing is even stronger than this: “Will this happen again?” Yes, she’s gone, and I can’t bring her back. I get that. But I don’t want this happening again to me. I don’t even want to know there’s another one around.
And the simplest way to prevent this, is to do something that’s against the rules; removing access to the abandoned deed by removing the road connecting to mine– literally banning myself (and others) from going up there. It clearly states it’s against the rules to alter public roads unless you made them.
Yet I have an ace up my sleeve, for that road isn’t classified as a ‘highway’. Plus no one travels on it, because no one comes here. There’s a reason most of the deeds around me are abandoned husks of their former selves.
Plus, if the GMs see me and try to ban me from the game? Bring it on. I won’t care anymore. That will be the ultimate “fuck you” to Wurm from me.

I won’t be completely removing access, though, as the former owners of my deed made a secondary access route via the side gate. It also leads to all points East of the deed and eventually connects to highways (which are public). I just want to make it hard for anyone (even myself) to go up there and witness what happened.
So if a dragon shows up, up there, I won’t know. I won’t care either. I just don’t want to see that road. I got to ‘burn’ it out of my mind. And the only way is to remove it.

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One last thing I’ve been debating of doing, is leaving the Alliance. I added Garit as a friend, in hopes he would understand what I’m going through (and to talk to him if I need to). Sadly he, like everyone on this server, does not. All they see it is “good job guys!”, and I’m standing there holding onto her body, trying not to break down in tears infront of everyone. There’s a reason I never said “thanks for coming” on that day. Yeah.. thanks for killing what I tried to protect from you fuckers!!

Going back to leaving the Alliance, Garit reminded me that anyone of them would’ve probably done the same thing to me. Yes, that’s definitely true. But at least I wouldn’t be staring at the names of her uncompassionate killers.
Yet even before all of this mess, I still debated on leaving. Felt like I didn’t fit in and stuff. I’m just curious what are the downsides of not being in an Alliance (obviously besides not having anyone to talk to). And if I ever need Marble again, I’ll just order some and go pick it up.
There’s really no point in staying. As long as Wurm still has a community who is willing to help, that’s really all I need. The only time I needed to be a part of the Alliance was in the early days of trying to get back up on my two feet and getting my deed back.

It’s been three days since I asked for help from the community, and I’ve not received a single response; not even a “I’ll look into it”. Was hoping with the turn of the year, the human race would be kinder and more considerate. Welp.. not in the WO Forum. 😛
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Nevertheless, I’ve been going over a few deed redesigning ideas in my head to the point I just had to open up DeedPlanner and see if they could even work.
One idea in particular is kind of based off of my original (and I mean early 2010) idea of having my house sitting in the middle of the West wall, which overlooks the ocean.
Due to finally having multi-leveled housing(and interior walls), I tried to go with one of those fancy Spanish-style entryways(look at me being creative) of having the balcony being the overhang of what you walk under.
And I came up with this. I quite like it. The problem was dealing with Wurm’s grid building limitations(stairs.. why in the fuck do they have a half-tile version when there’s no half-tile walls or fences?! Do they just not give a fuck?), but I finally made it look like something a person would wanna live in (instead of a place to store crap in).
And as you can see, I also changed the perimeter of the main deed walls with a Wood/Stone alternating fence. This is more attempts of trying to “remove the ghosts”. Plus, I’m impressed how well the design is working.

In ways, this is great. It’s forcing me to bring back the (assumed dead or asleep) creative side of my brain. Though the secondary point of this build is to give Tulsi a place to live and work. He can make his own forge, but that’s gonna be ‘fun’ for him. And as I said before, maybe it’ll encourage him (and/or his parents) to allow him to get Prem time. Then maybe in the future, I could.. maybe even count on HIM to make stuff for me (or even imp my stuff).
Fuck, that would be the best thing ever. Then again it could blow up in my face.

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And here’s an updated version. Just a recap, this is what my deed currently looks like ingame(without the Pine trees blocking the view). Big difference, right? THIS is what I’m talking out in “a complete redesign”! 🙂
Cart Garage has been relocated to the SE corner of the deed, the farm (with actual stables for my horses) has been relocated to the NW and NE corners(where I had it in the past). Behind the horse statue, Tulsi can plan out a 3×3 all by himself, and witness the ‘true fun’ of starting off in Wurm by making nails, planks, and fences on his own (the very thing I remember being very much against when angry was trying to show/teach me the game back in 2008).
Fun fact: The game’s core hasn’t changed since then. Unlike other MMOs who tend to make their games easier (which cause the vets to bitch about things given to you), Wurm has made your avatar’s life a living grindy hell for 7+ years! 😀

Lastly, I don’t know what I’m going to do with that large bare spot to the right of the cart garage (South side of the deed). If I had one of those HOTA Dragon Statues, maybe I could place the thing there. But for now, I’ll probably fill it up with trees.

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Welp.. guess it’s time to start sawing some logs, making some nails, and removing some pavement. I estimate the redesign to be done in a day or two (maybe three, depends if I fall asleep from hearing the saw over and over).
One last thing. I want to see if it’s possible to use my sickle to pick sprouts from bushes and then place them to block trees from growing. It’ll look like a mess, sure. But at least I won’t have a tall tree in my face while trying to relax and watch the ocean.

Welcome 2017! And welcome to a MUCH happier me! Not feeling a heavy heart anymore and having the strength to move on, I can finally think about what I’m going to do this year.
And I have three things planned. Four if you count finally grinding my skills and being USEFUL in this game.

The first thing is a complete deed overhaul. Since 2010, I had this same design. Only once did I change it to what it is now, but back then was when the creative side of my brain was still burning brightly.
Due to…what has happened to me, I can see ‘ghosts’ of late 2016, that are still walking around the deed (painful memories); ghosts I want to get out of my head in order to fully move on. And a complete deed redesign is the only way.

I had an idea, to redesign the pathways up to my house (and slightly redesign the animal pen). But it’s not really the redesign I’m looking for. It “feels like a band-aid” to the problem of ‘removing these ghosts’. I want to completely tear down and redesign my deed, starting with my house. I even want to finally give Tulsi his own place (that’s not part of my house). Maybe that might encourage him to get Prem (once his parents ever allow it) and work on his own skills.
But sadly, I have no idea what I should do, or how I should do it. So I had a thought: ask the community for help. See if they could give me that complete redesign that I’m looking for, or at least suggestions/ideas on how to improve certain areas.
If they’re good at DeedPlanner, they could help me.

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The other two things I mentioned, involve exploration. But I want to get the above thing completely done before I do these.
The second thing is what I call “DH’s Indy Romp”. Similar to what I did last year on horseback, but with that updated map, I hope I can have more fun(and see more cool stuff). Plus, I’m going to go visit a certain champagne-drinking dragon who’s going to show me around her deed (discovered Champagnedragon is a female). Maybe she has a wine cellar full of “erase your bad memories” booze that I could ‘sample’. 🙂
I’ll also visit Williamweird’s old place and see if he’s there. And this journey, I hope (which I dearly doubt), might even lead me to where the other two dragons are being penned. If that happens, maybe I might be able to meet their owners and get advice.. to prevent betrayal from happening to me, if(and that’s a BIG if) another dragon(or any other Unique) decides to spawn near my deed.
Maybe they might feel my pain. Who knows. The other two are probably secluded in such a place that it would be impossible to even see them (since there’s never been a mention of their locations).
I hope to reach the South side of the server on horseback. That’s my ultimate goal– to reach the four corners of Independence on horseback.

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And the final, is to finally do what I call “The Great Freedom Isles Server Exploration”, of visiting every server of the Freedom Isles. This would also involve getting out of my boat and exploring on foot (as unfortunately I can’t bring my horses with me). Maybe I might find a wild horse to ride while at one of these servers.
Depending on how the exploration goes, I might even join a few of these villages (for food and safety, depending on if there’s fog or what’s going on). And by doing so, I won’t lose Oceanside Retreat. Might even make some new friends. Who knows what happens.

And then after all of that, I believe I’ll finally feel rejuvenated enough to start grinding my skills and making a name for myself. Maybe then, people will stop calling me ‘dragon’ and start using ‘DH’. 🙂
That’s how Metaldragon got famous, right? It wasn’t just for being a tactical dragon warrior.

Welcome to the 2nd, and final post about this whole dragon thing. Bet you guys are happy (or at least hopefully putting down your cell phones in calling the loony bin to take me away).
Of what I’ve gone through from the past two days, on my own, hasn’t been easy. But now… now I feel like I finally have closure and the strength to move on with my Wurm life.

It started at the Impalong…
Getting back as B2, they’re closing shop and heading home. Impalong 2016 has finally come to a close. So I had him head up to the Priest area to check up on the new plate set that he threw into the AoSP chest. Everything had a really good cast, and asked if anyone could please come get it.
Hugh was the only helper there, and eventually showed up. After going over the items, he says once again that it’s 1 item per customer and the priests are being over-worked. Fortunately instead of giving B2 a tonguelashing about abusing the system, he gave him the set without issue. B2 also got one of the lamps from the chest. He’s also been pulling out fully imped lamps out of BS1 before anyone notices. Good thing, too, as someone was warned for having two fully imped swords (warned “1 per customer”).
Now you see why this is ridiculous, to rely on these people. They do this fantastic service, helping newbies who don’t have the skills needed to get them up to that level. I have the time, I just don’t have the patience.. that changes this year. No more abusing.
Never saw Williamweird there. Guess he showed up on the first week or two of the Impalong (while I waited ’till near Christmas). But with that, B2 gathered his things, got in his sailboat, and sailed home.
As he’s leaving the site and heading for the south edge of the server to cross-travel, he drops the two keys of gates that I made… to pen her. I’m never making another gate (or a mine door) for as long as I live…

Back to DH, who had to finally get closure, I went up the ramp. It was mostly intact. Had a few spiders (with one chasing me past the halfway point). Getting tired of the spider, I turned and kill it. So now I can kill spiders with this gear? HOT damn! 😀
I finally made it to the point where the road splits in two, with one going into a mine and the other stopping as it continues to go up. Remembering of going into a mine back in 2010, I did. Long way up. Ran into a black bear, but I was able to outrun it.
And then I finally reached the peak of the mountain. ‘Dat view. And then… I saw what was left of Erik the Red’s pen. It looked like the shape of a typical village.
And here, I hopped off my horse, placed down my meditation pad, and tried to commune to the ghost of Emeriss the Ferocious.

It was successful to say the least. I passed her tests, and was called a true dragon warrior (as she was). We talked for a bit, and I learned that even from trying to protect her.. that I was actually delaying her death. I was supposed to just..allow it to happen (as Renny told me). As soon as she spawned, her fate was already sealed. She even thanked me for allowing the hunters to kill her. Because actually doing what I wanted to do was worse. She would die than starve to death from their owners not coming on anymore.
She said to not cry over her loss, but to feel proud she died honorably.
As we talked, my spiritual link with her was slowly weakening as mobs started randomly spawning (and attacking me). Tried to hop back on my horse in order to have an advantage, yet it wouldn’t let me (for “You are too busy”). Running away until I wasn’t ‘hurting’ anymore (the area was flat as a pancake which allowed me to get away) was the only way I could finally get on.
The mobs then all closed in on me. It was like these mobs were the hunters that she died to… and now they were after me. Might as well kill two dragons and get double the loot!
Feeling I was screwed, she told me that a true dragon warrior also knows when they are outnumbered, and when to flee. So I fled instead of being slain, finally having my closure.

Coming back down the mountain, it was like a huge weight has been lifted from my chest. I no longer cried tears of pain.. it was tears of joy, to finally feel relieved I didn’t screw up. One thing she also told me up there, was to forgive the ones I felt betrayed me. Said that they helped her complete her fate, and they didn’t betray me. Even had me promise I would.
After much thought… I will forgive them. I just pray I NEVER have to do through this again.

As I’m about to reach the shoreline, I see a moving Caravel for the first time in my life. You know, one of those HUGE ships with a shitload of sails? It was actually moving; being used instead of sitting as a museum piece for big villages to shake their e-peen in the air, saying “Look at how much money and resources I have!”
And so, I made it back to shore. I can finally move on with my life, having reached ‘acceptance’ of the 5 stages of depression.

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So that’s it. No more weird “…WTF?!” stories about caring for a bunch of code in a video game (that took the shape of a dragon). Things are going to start to get back to normal for the new year. That, I promise.

Next time I post, it’ll be discussing of a new floor plan for the deed– redesigning the pathway to the house, and the horse pens. Actually having pens for the horses (and hopefully hiring a Priest that can chant enchanted grass for them). That way, when trees grow, they won’t be growing where I don’t want them to.
With the new CoC pickaxes (gotta imp the other one), I’ll expand my mine. And the CoC will help my mining skill greatly. I’ll also need to learn how to grind specific skills and get them up. And then hopefully by next year’s Impalong, I can finally contribute!

Before I begin the post, I want to wish everyone a Happy New Year. Though I wish this wasn’t my first blog post of 2017 (and it started in a much happier tone).
But yesterday has been, possibly the saddest and most heart-wrenching day in my history of playing Wurm. Sadder than back when I was playing on the JK-H server and lost my Settlement to a person named ‘Ruffle’? Sadder than all the times I felt I pissed angry off by doing/saying the wrong things? Sadder than the times I thought I lost my rowboat?

Yes. For this sadness was(and still is) very close to me (as a fan of dragons). But it’s more than just sadness. It also that feeling of.. betrayal from people I thought I could trust. So yes, it’s sadder than those bad memories.
But I also know, that I must find closure and move on. Half of that closure would come from figuring out who betrayed me and why. And the second half, is far more personal; through grieving of dealing with the loss of ‘Emeriss the Ferocious’, and going through the five stages of depression (until ‘acceptance’ is finally reached).

Before I did my semi-private funeral for her (with Tulsi and B2 speaking remotely from the Impalong), I had to make those two signs, and a barrel to store her blood in. But such a simple task was hard with fighting back grief. I had no one there with me for support. All they saw her, was “it’s just a dragon”.
She was MORE.. than ‘just a dragon’. And I just wish the hunters saw that, and at least gave me at least a chance to say goodbye before she died.

But as I was doing it, I got a PM from… Jax. He liked the ‘shrine’ I made to her(it’s not a shrine, it’s her grave), yet warned me to do something about her hide and meat as they might come back to take it from me (saying the hide alone can be sold for about 4s). And I did do something; I adjusted my deed’s settings to ban ‘allies’ from picking up items in my deed. Just let them fucking TRY to take what’s rightfully hers…

Going back to the signs, I finally managed to fight through and made them. Managed to get one of the two signs set to the QL I needed. Sent the other sign to B2 (via mail) to be imped, hoping someone there had a kind heart. It almost wasn’t when he asked them. Told him to put it in the coffin, and “nothing gets done quickly at the Impalong”. Which is understandable. I was willing to wait.
But there was actually a kind soul who was there, willing to give him a hand. Thankfully there wasn’t a lot of Fine Carp stuff that needed to be imped, so he was able to get to him pretty quickly. He imped the sign to 39QL; slightly over what I required, but it was all good.
And the barrel, I still had a bucket I found near her old mine. It worked perfectly to store her blood.
So with everything in it’s place at the grave, and at exactly 4:27pm — the time of her death — and with a heavy heart, I read my eulogy for her. Lasted 5 minutes. Tulsi was actually crying. Asked him if he was faking it (just a bit), and he said no. Said it moved him. That’s good.
All there was left to do, is get B2 to come with that rare lamp to do a private funeral. For that would complete her grave, and then start the process of looking for closure.

Spent the rest of the day as B2, as I was waiting for this annoying calm wind to pickup in speed and then shift in the right direction, in order for him to come home with that rare lamp (before 2017).
But it’s a good thing it didn’t shift, because good things happened. For the first time since she showed up in my life, and the tragedy I have to deal with, I felt… normalness. I felt..happy. Because Enki was there, doing his usual Enki things for the last time this year. Logi was also there; the guy that showed me I could finally get rid of that clay pier.
Shrimpiie also showed up and started handing stuff out to everyone that was there. B2 won a new 91 CoC Pickaxe (1QL, but I can imp it), and a 50QL Plate Set! And finally, won fireworks. They were supposed to be used to celebrate 2017’s arrival, but I stored them in B2’s boat instead. I have a plan for this.
All of this, warmed my heart. It showed me there are kind people on Earth, playing this game. Willing to do nice things for others.
But at the Impalong, the servers were having issues a few hours before 2017. Cross-server travel was temporally halted until they were able to fix the problem.
It was now no longer possible for cross-server travel. An hour passed, and they had to take Indy and Xanadu down for emergency maintenance to fix the problem. This took 10 minutes, and Enki’s choice in wording made me laugh.
Cross-server traveling was brought back up, but Deli is now having issues. Enki says that they need to “burp and change it”. Pretty funny. But that meant B2 would have to use another one of the smaller servers as a dimensional slingshot.

With just a half an hour until 2017, and no real change to the wind, I had to get B2 back home ASAP. After getting lost a few times, he finally made it back home. Sadly, not in time as the clock struck 12 and 2017 was brought in for the East Coast of the US (my time zone).
Nevertheless, he still got home, we did the private funeral and lighted the lamp, and then I left with my horse to go see ‘Erik the Red”s old place(to find my closure) while B2 headed back to the Impalong (as he still had stuff there to pickup).

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With yesterday now early this morning, B2 made it back to the Impalong with no problem. When he arrived, there was a bit of a drama scenario between Wilca and Hughmongus, chewing out ‘Electricviper’ for abusing the system (put way too many items into the coffins). And it felt like that they where going to ‘talk to his parents’ over this, saying to get Shrimpiie and a GM to talk to him about this.
This could’ve been easily me with all the lamps, on this hot seat. Kept my mouth shut to not cause attention.
All I could think of, is this is going to be my last Impalong (of doing this). This year, I need to become more proactive in Wurm and start working on my crafting skills; stop depending on the Impalong. Prove to myself I’m not a newbie anymore.

On DH’s side, the weather was… weird. Nothing like I’ve ever seen before. Had to go the long way around the server (no cross-server with a horse).
Halfway to where I needed to go, this fog creeped in and blinded me. I tried to fight it, but it finally engulfed my boat and I was forced to moor. Thank goodness fog spiders can’t swim. The fog lasted for a good 10 minutes, then finally started to slowly burn away as Sol started to rise.
Finally made it to the base of the road that goes up the really high mountain. But then I had to tell B2 to go get me my tent as I felt I would need it. I left in such a hurry that I forgot to grab it.

He finally did (after getting lost once again of trying to figure out what direction to reach the NW side of Indy), and as he was heading back and trying to approach the channel, the wind was pushing him back. Very unusual. It was almost as if something..or someone was trying to prevent B2 from reaching me.
This became more apparent as he passed through the channel and was trying to go around the mountain to get to me. His boat was going…sideways. Checked to make sure it wasn’t just lag, but it wasn’t.
I feel it could be the spirit of Emeriss the Ferocious, “testing” us. The things that were happening.. really happening (I am NOT making this shit up! I swear!) felt like.. tests. Testing what? Who knows. Maybe to test our own stubbornness (as how stubborn she was of wanting to go back in the mine after she escaped).
I know ghosts don’t exist (especially ones of dragons). Obviously it could’ve just been a bug or maybe it was just lag. But.. wow. I guess I just gotta go with something. Maybe I am going slightly mad. 😛

While B2 tried to overcome these “tests” (again, I’m only assuming), Garit comes on Alliance chat (the only one besides me in there) and wishes me a Happy New Year. Not in the best of moods, I say “Meh”. I really didn’t want to be a drama queen and say “..you killed my dragon! YOU MONSTER!!”.. no, none of that. But I definitely made it known that I wasn’t happy because of what happened.
He thought I allowed them, and I’m all “they made me think I had no choice!”, and just unloaded on all of my negative feelings onto him, saying if Cybaru would had just LET me try my idea that maybe she would’ve been alive!
We got to Renny, who I said he “sat on his hands and did nothing! I had NO ONE to turn to!!” I just didn’t care what he said. When you feel your heart got stomped on, you’d be furious and upset as well.
Garit said that he just felt, truly, there was just nothing he could’ve done. I said “he could’ve at least found another Priest”(when Cybaru was too busy to help). But, he did have a point when he said that even if he did, there was no guarantee that this person too, could’ve been trusted.

I then said “I wish I had a bigger deed, with more resources, and villagers who would swear never to tell anyone.” He says “Yea …good luck with that LOL”. Asked him what he meant, and he gave me one hell of a story; a thing that happened to him back in 2013. He trusted his villagers not to steal his belongings. And.. they did. Said they valued almost £300 Euro (lost in one night). …Wow. Said the GMs did nothing; blaming him for trusting them. He too, was betrayed from within.
I had no idea, and I did my best to feel sorry for his own loss. But it made me realize, what I went through… was nothing compared to what he went through.
Then he mentions that he doesn’t trust Cybaru after what happened to me. Even saying how it was BS about this Love Effect needed an artifact. He said it also would’ve worked on Uniques.

I…I snapped then. Something in my mind snapped, and that grief came back so fast. He..let her die. He.. could had FUCKING SAVED HER!! AND HE LET HER DIE!!
But then my anger turned to Garit, asking him why didn’t you confront him?! And.. he had a very logical and understandable answer for that too. It would had never mattered. And arguing with them isn’t going to help. She’s dead. They won. That dragon’s fate was sealed the moment it spawned. And they just played with my emotions to get her.
I’m thinking of leaving the Alliance because of this (but just have Garit in my friends list). I thought he was one of them. But no. He too was betrayed, and he felt my pain as I felt his. So now, he’s a friend.

This won’t bring her back, but it does bring some closure. I feel the other way to complete it is to get up there. Finally B2 reached me and gave me my tent.
Then we logged for the night. Stay tuned to the finale of this dragon thing next post.

I honestly don’t know how I should start this one off. I feel.. way worse than ‘heartbroken’. I feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest and then stomped on by the hunters, and then them saying “it was fun! Thanks for the invite!”.
Logged on after spending about 20 or so minutes during the opening of the Epsilon server. My Local was pretty packed with people. It’s like they just started showing up. I tried my best not to say “can we please reconsider this?!”.. but I promised I would go through with it (not to mention it would not look good on what’s left of my tarnished reputation).
The hours went by. The hunters (and people who were just there for the loot) prepped for the big battle, setting up campsites and tents, killing innocent pigs and sheep (that I could had stored in my animal pen if they would had just asked…), and killing the occasional troll, spider, or wolf that decided to see what was going on.

While they were prepping, Whykillme came to the area within 10 minutes before the fight. I asked him if this place looks familiar, as “I found your name on these gates”. He said there used to be a Forest Troll right there, last year that was slain. Something about this area has been known to spawn uniques..which is where she came from.
So this place, SE of my deed, is literally a graveyard for uniques. That’s..creepy.

Cybaru prepped the area around the deed he planned (after the dragon was sealed in), yet we would never need it when the time finally came to slay her. When Cybaru tried to open the sealed wall.. he couldn’t. Jax discovered the dragon was actually doing what he said she would; going berserk and tunneling her way out. This became more apparent when they started digging inside the prepped area. The rock was..bent and twisted to where it wasn’t natural. So they were forced to go another route and try the primary mine (by mining a new path).
They mined their way to her (with me watching from behind). It reminded me of the Darkspawn mining their way to the dragon to infect it (in Dragon Age Origins). And these ‘Darkspawn’, they seemed like they were hungry for her loot (with how fast they worked). After them killing some lava fiends in the way, they broke into the chamber she was in, and started the attack. I was forced to assist. It took a good 5 minutes to bring her down. I’m actually glad I didn’t get to hit her. I also got the ‘Dragonslayer’ title.

After she died, I was given her body. I almost started to cry, but I stayed focused. It is what I wanted afterall, then a few moments later as we’re trying to get out of the mine, I’m being told to give the body back. I stood there, defiantly, because “I want her body” was supposed to be what I got. Cybaru says to “stop being a baby”. WTF?! We agreed on this!! Yet I’m being told, her body still has all of her loot. … What? Why wasn’t this done before I was given her body? So I gave the body back, and then I got the empty body back. There was no “sorry Dragonhead”. No. It was all “Oooh, what did she drop?!”(that wasn’t said, but that’s how I feel).
And what she dropped, thankfully wasn’t valued items. Namely, the tomes never dropped. And so I feel at the very end, she did care for me. She wanted me to make sure to give her a proper burial, and in return… no one else got anything really valuable to sell. And that, was probably the best plan of it all.
All they got are her bones and her skull (and the priests got something for them to do their priest missions). They also got, unfortunately, a lot of meat from her (because she was ‘fat’ from all the times I fed her).
I also got a 0.10kg of her dragon blood, and a hide. Being told all Prem players (in the area) get this when a dragon dies. Both will be placed on her grave. I also got some of her meat. Again, to be placed on her grave. It belongs with her.

So, I’m doing a ‘funeral march’ on my horse to where she would be buried, and I start getting PMs that I need the gravestone made before I bury the body, in order for it to name correctly. Turn around and asked Garit if he could possibly make it. He says tomorrow he’ll have it (which isn’t really OK). Calmly told him I wanted to bury her today, and he thought I was still after the normal loot.
Someone else told me to ask Cybaru to make it for me. Of all the people to not ask, he would be #1 on the list. I strongly felt he was one of the people who refused to help me at the time of my greatest need(the 26th). But.. I waited until after the loot was handed out and they were starting to return to their home deeds, before asking him.

And shockingly enough, he agreed to do it. Though he used some of my rock shards, which is fine. While he was, I started gathering everything I needed for Emeriss’ gravesite in my house. Carrying a 50kg body around was quite tricky, but I managed. Started setting up the area, and realizing I didn’t need so many Lavender sprouts (thought you needed 5 for each, and there’s the chance of fail). Made it just fine with three.
Placed the JK flag I bought from FM. With the fact it shows a picture of a dragon, I felt was probably better than a HOTA Dragon Statue. It really felt perfect, sitting there standing tall in the background.
And as I’m about to back away to go make a stone brick to mark the grave, Cybaru sneaks up behind me and trades the gravestone with me. I thank him, and he heads to his boat.
Then before he logged out, Cybaru said about what the dragon did to the mine (acting like “I told you I was right!”).
I feel if he actually listened to me instead of Jax, and we got her into that mine that Renny said would work, I could had saved her life. I feel the reason why she rampaged, was because she was sealed in (instead of using a mine door). All I know, is, the mine she was originally in? It’s OK compared to the one she died in. If a dragon’s rampage is either of sealing it in (or the size of the mine), remains a mystery. And I wish she was still alive, to test it out.

*sigh*
But it’s time for me to find closure, and move on. With Local now clear of people, I finally completed the site and placed her body on the slab of Rough Cobblestone. Threw down the gravestone, and now she’s buried exactly how I wanted it.
It’s near the shore, behind a pine tree, at the foot of near where the main ramp goes up. Anyone who wishes to pay their respects is allowed to, though I feel that I only would be the one to do so. And that’s fine.

And as for closure, that’s going to come from a special place (that’s pretty far away from me). But if that special place (and the road leading up to it) is still intact after 5 or so years of disuse, I’m going to make my way up there, unroll my meditation rug, and then try to get all of the hate and distrust out of my head.
Get rid of the feeling my own allies were conspiring against me to kill my dragon (and I feel refused to help me and her out more, when I needed them the most).
If that is true or not, now is not the time to be blaming. Plus it would be very disrespectful, rude and.. I don’t need that in my life. Not after what I’ve gone through. All I need to do, is just…..relax.
Also, I need to get away from the deed for awhile. So much has happened, and I need a break from it. Maybe that cross-server trip that I had planned since last year will help as well?

Goodbye, Emeriss the Ferocious. May your flaming heart light your way to dragon heaven.

With so much that has happened today, I’m surprised I’m still able to make a blog post without breaking down crying. But… I did. First off, I’ll be making two posts about what happened. First this, and then a day that will be forever burned into my head in Wurm (which will be much longer).
So now, some happy news for once: MRT’s new “Epsilon” server opened today. Though it didn’t come without problems. It took three restarts to get the TPS(Ticks Per Second) to be at a level where it wouldn’t be really low.
The land claims came fast and many, but thankfully they were regulated to one island per member.

Yesterday, Mike tried to use me to land claim. But due to what was going to happen in Wurm today, I just didn’t feel like it (but allowed them to claim land using my name, and then ‘give’ the land to them later on).

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And that was about it for today. Now there’s something that happened yesterday evening on Wurm. I’m making all the things I need for the dragon’s grave site (having mapped out the location in DeedPlanner), and all the sudden someone (named ‘Mylord’) suddenly logs into my Local unsuspectingly. I go to confront this possible intruder who could be trying to tell everyone where the dragon is being kept. Find him standing on my main ramp. He said he got “stuck in a house”, yet wouldn’t tell me whos, and also mentions needing a GM to get him out of there.
At first I thought he could be one of the people we invited (since I saw that boat), so I asked, and he said how he couldn’t fight. Now I’m starting to get a bit angered (again, thinking he’s trying to inform his friends to claim the loot for themselves and leave us with nothing) and ask him “..why are you here, then?”
He says he’s just a lonely adventurer and doesn’t wish to fight, then turns toward the rowboat parked next to Cybaru’s sailboat, gets in and leaves.
I repeatedly try to ask him who’s house was he was stuck in as he’s leaving, but he ignores me all the way past him leaving my Local. Try to inform my allies of this possible intruder, but since it’s empty at this time of night, there’s no one there that will respond.

Later that night, I’m in need of Lavender Sprouts(to set the walls around the gravesite) and Mortar(to make the floor needed to mark the gravesite). Managed to get a few, but for the Mortar..I get ‘Mylord’ PMing and asking me what QL I need of the mortar. Since it’s just a single ‘Stone slab floor’, QL doesn’t really matter.
He shows up again, in the boat. And once again I confront him of who’s house he was stuck in. And he shows me: He fell down the Eastern cliff of my deed and got stuck on the walls (which is why a GM needed to get him out).
Relieved he wasn’t some spy, we talked business. He gave me the Mortar, and I gave him 50c for his trouble (felt any less would be insulting).

And then even later.. I find out I couldn’t even place the floor as I would have to have a structure there (and it would have to stay there). Tried to do it in DeedPlanner, and it removed the Lavender Plantations around the gravesite. So I was forced to use a road-based decoration to mark it. Thankfully I found ‘Rough Cobblestone’ to be a good option, and chose that.

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So that ends Part 1. If you like drama, you’re going to love Part 2.