Back from a system upgrade

I got my system upgraded yesterday. I now have a shiny, new motherboard, 2GB of DDR-2 RAM, a new Geforce 9400GT video card, and a 2.20GHz Quad-Core CPU.
However, I’m not happy, and neither is angry.

Why angry isn’t happy: For not believing him that I didn’t have to reformat my C drive and they told me I had to. I told him why, because it would give a shitload of driver problems. But he refuses to hear it.
WHAT could I do?! WHAT?? I explained to him that my friend (angry) told me I didn’t have to do it. That he’s been messing with computers alot. And all they told me was that will be alot of corrupt drivers.
Was I supposed to just walk away with my computer? Then how would I get the upgrade then? Do it myself? HAH!

Why am I not happy: I learned that I was cheated. I was told they would give me a 3.0GHz Quad-Core CPU, and it turns out to be a 2.20GHz… I paid, nearly $500, for something that’s 0.19 FASTER?! My old CPU was a 2.01GHz.
They claim that Crysis will fly with this. .. How. HOW?! 2.20GHz will NOT MAKE CRYSIS FLY!!

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Websites past, come to the present. Thanks to Google

Google is celebrating it’s 10th birthday. In memory of this occasion, they are now using the database from 2001.
I am finding bits and pieces of my two old domains, TheBeaverDam.com, and a long, forgotten one; BJsWorld.net.
Here’s the archive of all the pages found of the two domains between ’99 and ’05;
BJs World.net | TheBeaverDam.com

I don’t remember anything about BJsWorld.net. Why I bought it and stuff. All I remember is TheBeaverDam.com. But, my god the history.
How I remember how I used to be SO obsessed to TAB back then. My obsession has really gone downhill since they where canceled, and the memories of all the petitions I tried to do to convince a corrupted Nickelodeon to put TAB back on the air.

December 31st, 1999, is when TheBeaverDam.com was born. It lasted for nearly 6 years. But, as things go, when you feel like you got better things to do than worry about a site that a show has been pretty much forgotten, it’s time to shut it down.
And as for BJsWorld.net. I still have no idea when it was created. But I am getting a more of an idea what it was used for. Just not why.

The last known domain I bought before this one, was HamtaroTBD.com. It was a sister site of TheBeaverDam.com, based from another one of my (used) to be favorite shows; Hamtaro.

Not to mention, I didn’t even know angry back then. He was around 7 years old when I made my sites. Also my HTML pretty much sucked. But thanks to Visual Page(which I still use to this very day) I was able to make good homepages and stuff.

The links, what I heard will stay active for the rest of October. Hopefully more pages of my past will come up.

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More crushed feelings from The Dragon Megathread

I’ve been told in here that I’m a “butthurt fagget”(was a bad idea to go through WordPress). That I am. Because everything I thought I knew about dragons, was all a big lie. Yet another crushing blow for my obsession.
Today, it’s been pretty quiet until I asked about the dragon in Dragon’s avatar not having horns. I was told that dragons don’t have horns… wtf. Course I felt insulted and tried to show him that YES, dragons have horns. But I was under mounting pressure to provide proof. So I said “going by the pictures”, but pictures don’t tell you shit from the facts.

And the fact is. Dragons never existed. There’s no denying that. Yes I know they never existed! But I’m not going to let them tell me they never had horns either.

I just thought of a new name for that thread. The “Ben doesn’t know SHIT about dragons Megathread”… sooner or later I feel I’ll be told “You don’t deserve the title of ‘obsessed’ to dragons”. Because I don’t have a true obsession. If I was really obsessed, I would buy everything dragon-related. Hell. I would start a dragon fan domain to show how much I love dragons.
I would be registered to every forum ever existed that has to do with dragons.

I feel I will NEVER, go that far to be obsessed. Nor do I want to. All I need to do is control my obsession. Tell it to stop taking over my life.

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Spy sappin’ mah Game!

Wurm Online is down this morning. Aka, the site.. everything Wurm-related is now showing this page from SiteGround.com, stating that the account is not active.
Sounds like Rolf forgot to pay for it this month…

I’m sure this is just a temporarily “downtime” and it will be back up sometime today.

UPDATE: Nearly an hour ago, the game is back up… in a way. For some reason I have downloaded a patch that was released 15 days ago(2.4.5), and now it’s saying I’m using an old client.
I’m not the only one. EVERYONE is getting this issue. Hopefully it will be fixed soon. Though I am very much concerned that the server is also 15 days ago. Meaning my HS never existed. In a way that would be a good thing, as I know that’s not a good place to found because of those fucking rock tiles.

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Final dragon in Home server slain / New road from HS to Bennie Bay

Yesterday:
Angry needed help in finding out the correct ML needed to drive my Cog. I ask kchat, and get shocked to hear that another dragon has been found on the Home server, and sadly.. slain. 🙁
What’s worse? MD and Drago killed it. Another painful attack in the heart of my obsession. I couldn’t bare to ask after I saw that. 😐
My obsession could treat it like “Well, maybe that dragon had to be put down. It was sick, and they had to do what had to be done.”, but that’s just dumb to think that. I would sound like an immature little kid that doesn’t know what reality is.
Yet, my obsession still cannot understand, and how it should be written, that if you use “dragon” in your name and/or an avatar, you must be obsessed to dragons. But it’s never going to happen.

Today:
After I got the update, I saw Baalel on and he said that he’s working on a path to connect the farm to my HS. Of course I agreed to this as it would give me easy access to the village. However, it won’t make my HS, “The Hidden Homestead” so… hidden.
But, I don’t really care anymore. It’s just a name. Plus I can always change it without angry knowing about it.

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Update released (2.5.0)

An update to Wurm has been released today, with new features to the login. The features are;

  • A new “You must agree to the EULA before you can play!” option.
  • A profile feature that I believe, you can switch video settings between accounts… VERY useful indeed for testing and dual client.
  • You can also set up multiable accounts.
  • It also has better chat logging options.
  • And an option to save your skills to a file upon exiting.

The other update, a new bar ingame that shows “Selected: (what you selected with your mouse)”. However there doesn’t seem to be a way to toggle this on/off. I’ll need to ask the Wurm Forum for a way.

After playing longer, I found out the Skills window has been changed. It now lists your current skill, and shows the max for every skill. Useful for if you die or your skills decay, to see which ones you need to get back up. Gaining skills shows up in green letters, and I believe losing skills shows in red.
Not only that, but it shows the gain/loss rate. Very, very useful indeed.

And also, this new “affinity” thing I’ve heard about. Not much is known with it, but what I have heard it’s something about that 1 of your skills will go up the fastest. And you can have up to 5 of them.
You can gain or lose them only on the Wild server, by being slain by another player.

How you find out which one of your skills has an affinity is looking at your skills and looking for a ” * ” near one of them. Once I know more about this “affinity” thing I’ll update this post.

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Too depressed to do anything

Ever had one of those days when your so depressed, you seem like everything that used to be fun to you is too boring to do?
I am. And it’s been happening for awhile. The reasons? There’s plenty. Maybe it was the way Beel treated me in Wurm. It could be that.

I believe it’s from the games I have played. Games like Spore, Gmod, and Wurm. I believe that Spore caused my depression due to it’s boring Space stage. I mean, it seems like ALL you do is get as much money as you can. Get the best spice. All I hear anymore on Facepunch is how to get the biggest payout in Spore.
That really zapped my fun. It feels like the thing is lacking big time.
I have stated what it lacked before. With the lack of missions, and how it just didn’t seem “fun” to me. You can’t hang out with your creations in Space stage. I don’t think ANY mod.. will make it fun in my eyes.
Even when I heard about Spore, I wasn’t excited about it. I didn’t care about it. It just didn’t sound like my kind of game. Yet, it’s stuck in my head, pestering me about how much of a failure it is.

There’s another reason I say “Spore sappin’ mah fun!” Due to what has happened in Gmod and Wurm; how everything I do seems to fail. When it came to making a dragon creature, thinking I could control my obsession like this, turned into another failure because I couldn’t get the damn thing to look like a dragon.
It wanted to turn my dragon into an ape.

With Gmod. Like I said it seems like everything I do fails. When I tried to build a boxcar with working doors, the sliders spazzed on me.

And with Wurm… well. If you read my old blog in the past before I turned it into a personal forum, it also had it’s share in failures. With my island failure, and rock tiles, and… ugh.

And, angry blames himself for all of this. All of the pain these three games have caused me. He lets it eat himself up and refuses to listen to reason, making it very irritating.

On top of it, my grandmother had a heart attack a few weeks ago, but survived. But is suffering from memory loss. I feel she will die near Christmas.
If this happens, it will be the #1 thing that ends my enjoyment. And possibly my reason to live.

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A Wurmtastrophe

Alot has happened in the last … mmm well, alot has happened. Ohh yeah. I’m using WordPress for my blogs now.
It first started with my last post that didn’t get published here that we found Letac’s place. A day ago, I decided to go up there and take a look around after angry got access to the gatehouse writ there. I was hoping I could see the inside of the mine for myself, but was denied due to myself not having access.
Time went on and me and Baalel talked, then I went back to picking pine sprouts. He left alittle after that. I was about to when I saw Letac’s name flash in my local. Got alittle closer and saw it again.
Tried to talk him into letting me access into the writ, and was finally able to look around (not in the mine yet) and see if I truly wanted this place. After some measurements and talks with Letac, I’ve decided that it’s perfect and I want it.

I then had to wait several hours for angry to log in. Finally he did and went with me to give me access to the gates, and gave me the deed. Before I planted it, he gave me a suggestion to plant it further away than I thought of. We went up the hill and to this area with this hill and said to plant here.
I studied it, and thought “well the rock tiles shouldn’t be a problem here” and agreed on it, which made him happy that he actually had a good suggestion.
And then, I had to name it. Time passed and we both agreed on the name “The Hidden Homestead”, and boom, it’s founded, with a person PMing me just to say ‘gratz’. I then proceeded to go get my tools from Bennie Bay and begin work clearing the area and then flattening.
A day passed (which is yesterday) and I continued to flatten. Quite alot of things happened here, but I’ll skip them all since they aren’t important.
I was talking to angry about giving me the keys, when I happen to glance at my Event log and saw “The homestead of Halcyon has just been disbanded.” staring at me in green letters. I suddenly lost the availability to breath! FINALLY!! Something I’ve been waiting for MONTHS has finally happened!
However… I didn’t really want it back. Not because of what was about to unfold, but the fact the past… needs to be that. PAST. Meaning it’s over and you gotta move on. But angry encouraged me and even gave me control of Ctrlaltdelete so I can go down there and reclaim it.
Soon I agreed, and then all I wanted to do was just to get down there. And everytime angry wasn’t moving I yelled at him. Finally we made it back to find Ruffle’s house still there.
I then noticed that angry wasn’t with me… he went on a detour to bad memoryville, aka Neveron. Since he had the tools and I’m impatient, I pleaded him to come over and start work on a marker to reclaim it.

As time went on, things started to get ugly with angry QQing about Neveron and how he wishes I never moved out. Soon I got tired of hearing it and took angry’s alt back to Small Bears, and angry logs off, saying he’s going to tell Ruffle to reclaim her homestead. I pretended that I didn’t hear that since I was pretty much on the verge of defriending, but I kept my cool.

Later on, he gets this crazy idea to turn Bennie Bay into Neveron Bay. I’m actually in support of this as it will make him happy. But then I said something that started bugging him. I try my best to tell him that I’m not lying with him being convinced due to this ‘voice’ that spoke to him, saying that I will hate it… yeah. Whatever.
Then I have to prove I’m not lying by walking Ctrl back to Neveron, picking angry up, and walking with him back to Small Bears. So I do. And after a very long trip, I’m back at my new HS where I’m currently writing this post.
Speaking of the HS, I’m half done with flattening. Once I finally get everything flattened, I can plan what I want in Mapper and proceed to move in by moving out of my old HS.

It’s going to take awhile to get used to WordPress. But I should eventually.

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The Dragon Megathread going down the shitter

Yep. The Dragon Megathread on Facepunch.. or should I call it “The Dragon Sex Megathread” has really gone down in coolness.
It seems like every page now has 1 or more posts of nude dragons. Or dragons fucking cars, and… well, I don’t wanna say every bit of it.

And what’s been happening more and more, is involving me ever since I listed my theory of dragons on that thread. And just today, I got a nice “surprise” in the thread after a long day in Wurm…
Seeing Dragon’s new avatar, shitting on my old avatar. 😐 That pretty much has killed what’s left of my obsession. Here I’ve been thinking dragons are cool. Only to find out all they think about is sex?!

That’s not what Draconian.com states. And yet even that, I get criticized by Dragon himself that he can’t believe I’m basing my theories off of a site, and questions how I called myself a “dragon expert”.
I never stated once that I was an expert on dragons.

It all started really good too when the thread started, encourging me to post some pictures of dragons. I posted the one that became my old avatar… since then it just went down the shitter.

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Portal: Prelude coming at end of September

This mod I never heard about suddenly popped up on Facepunch yesterday. It was put into secrecy until yesterday according to what I read.
Here is the official site for this unofficial mod to Portal;
http://www.portalprelude.com/

According to what I read, the mod is based before GLaDOS was ever turned on, and real Aperture Science employees guided test participants through the many puzzles. Their work got so boring that they decided to make a living machine to replace them.
Do you still play as Chell? Or as Chell’s mother? We will never know until they release some more details.

Still, this is awesome. It’s rumored to be slightly longer than the original Portal. Having 8 chapters, 19 test chambers, 48 challenges, and 6 advanced maps. And the best news? It’s FREE! 😀

Seeing how I spent nearly $150 this month alone on games, I want something that’s free.

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