Benie's Games Blog

Finally, after months of suffering. It has come to an end. I now have my land back! 😀
How I got it was talks with Ruffle on the Wurm Forum. I convinced her to destroy the writ, keeping me from throwing down my deed to reclaim what was rightfully mine, and sculpted with my two hands.

You can’t tell how happy I am. Finally I can remove the very scar that caused me to leave Wurm, and undo what I did in the past. No more will I have to suffer, wondering why I quit.

Of course this means I’m going to be more active in Wurm, building my house and dooring my two mines. Not to mention going back to my old HS and move my Cog to Small Bears to begin moving.
And here Friday’s coming and I’m going to be getting more money to afford Fallout 3 and World of Goo. I must say it’s bad timing indeed. Since I have this habit of not just playing a game for 1 hour and quitting, unless it pisses me off.

Getting Fallout 3 would “interfere” with my reconstruction projects in Wurm. ‘Tis a drag really, and I so want that game.
Another thing is angry. No doubt he will try to ‘help’ me with my reconstruction.

I haven’t been doing hardly anything in Wurm lately. But let me go over what I mean with this entry title;
Found out it’ll be harder than I thought to flatraise the area and angry convinced me again to move back to my old, old, old HS(my first HS by Bearback Lake) and gave me another size 5 HS deed, and said he would use 1 of my money alts, Benietwo, to watch over Ruffle’s house as it decays.
Yesterday as I was playing FarCry 2, he said the goons are definitely coming back to the Home server and reconstructing Bearback Mountain, and are spreading out, and told me to come down here and camp out, waiting for Ruffle’s house to fully decay.

So, after giving my deed to The Old Homestead to Benie, I went down there with angry’s help (he took me on his boat then I walked down there) and made it safely.
There’s a guy named ‘Drazak’ there(of course my obsession wanted to picture him as a little dragon). I try to talk to him and he doesn’t respond. I tell angry and he said he’s probley one of the goons.

Time passed and Drazak finally spoke to me, asking if he didn’t mind that he lived near me. I questioned where his house was and found it up on a hill, Northwest of my old, old, old HS.
A little time after that, and angry logs in as Benietwo and listens to our conversation, and says he’ll try to get rid of him. I tell him not to because Drazak is cool and he’ll help me rebuild my house.
But angry still wanted to try to see if he wanted to go to Bennie Bay. And after some talking with angry and Drazak, he agreed to it.

So then angry was helping him out and then asked me to help haul some planks. Feeling the niquil I took(I got a head cold) kicking in, I thought fast and said “Oh shit, I gotta go! Something just came up!” and logged off.
Of course angry probley thought that was a dirty trick I pulled, but it wasn’t. I was tired and didn’t really feel like hauling planks for miles to Small Bears.

After what happened Wednesday, I was about ready to quit as I stated in my previous post. But I thought “Maybe if I help him with what he needs to do, he’ll help me”.
Once angry got on yesterday, I gave him the cold shoulder like he did me that day. Soon he asked if I was upset. And I kinda let him have it, saying that he’s in my way of doing my plan. Eventually I forgave him after he explained why he didn’t respond Wednesday.
He said that Bennie Bay will soon be getting a new citizen, and ‘Bletoum’ is the person’s name. He was up at NT helping the guy.

Anyway, I asked him again if he would set the village to allow me to plant the deed I bought Wednesday from NT as I was getting data of my old HS, and he finally agreed to do it and told me to disband the other.
Finally it was done and I planted the new deed. And now…. ugh. Now I’m expecting people to help me raise the ground up. My good side said saying “(my real name), you got to do this yourself! Remember, you’re living on your own. So you got to do everything on your own.”, but my brain said “STFU!!! I NEED HELP NOW DAMNIT!!!”.

I tried to fight my brain as I moved my stuff from the former HS to my new HS, while angry was frantically looking for his lost sailboat. Soon my brain gave up and I tried to help angry find his sailboat by asking kchat.
After the 2nd time asking, 5 minutes later I got a PM from ‘Levedara’. Little did I know she was a GM. She asked me why am I looking for this boat. I explained it’s angry’s boat and told him to talk to her. Finally she recovered his sailboat, and his missing rowboat as well.
Angry then told me to start smelting lead ore. How we’re going to have to make some anchors. I went right to work, thinking if I help him, he’ll help me with my HS.
As I headed to Bennie Bay, I spotted something on the cobblestone on the path to my HS. Picked it up and it was a iron trowel, named (Free to a good home). I thought it was Baalel’s until I saw the name of the maker being ‘.or…’.
Anyway, Angry mined ore as I fueled the forge. Time went on and we started talking about random things. Some stuff I rather not explain in this post. Then it went to me explaining the way I am and how I expect people to help and stuff.
He felt my pain and said that things have changed. How I always have someone helping me. Though I think that’s a bunch of bullshit.

Hmm… how to explain this? Well, I have been trying my damnest to make the current HS work… but I can’t.
Reason being? The house I want is too BIG for a size 5 homestead. Plus the idea for the ‘raised’ porch poorly executed. And, once again I feel trapped. 🙁 Hill over here. Hill over there. Hill behind me with rock tiles. And a hill I made to flatten the HS… I just can’t work with it!
On top of it, when I went to start construction of the house, I forgot I needed nails… and I needed 14 nails. I tried to ask angry for help, but he’s too busy feeding his face to make a forge.

After alittle thought, I had no choice but to use Bennie Bay’s highest QL forge. And after a few stupid mistakes by me(forgetting I needed wood to burn, my flint rock to light the forge, my pickaxe to get iron ore, and my small anvil to make the nails), and still more non-help from angry… my patience burned up like a dragon’s fire, saying to angry “Remind me to NEVER ask you for help again.”, and getting a message from his mom about him not listening to her.
I’m guessing, which I don’t wanna think I caused it, that I made angry too depressed to do anything because of what Spore did to me.

Anyway, I just lost all desire for the game after that. Saw how stupid it was to build a house, how my plan will never work because I think too big, how I felt trapped.. yadda yadda yadda.

Today however, after some thinking, I had an idea to finally make this work. To do what I was going to before, before angry gave me the idea to put it up there. Turn it into my old HS. And what better way than to go to my old HS, draw it in Mapper, buy a new deed, and start construction?
And the name of the new HS… “The Old Homestead”. It’s a perfect name, and I can thank angry for the base idea of “The Hidden Homestead”.
With this, I can build a SMALL 2×3 house, and be happy with the view of the ocean, and not feel trapped! Well, I hope anyway. It’s going to need a ton of dirt to raise up the rest.

As time went on though, I suddenly got depressed again. Probably because I now know I have to raise the ground up by myself, since I am living on my own. But yet I feel I need help.
But why should I? Why have I lost the desire to live on my own? Yet I have no desire to live with anyone.

I wanted to devote this day the day I begin construction of my new homestead. But… I don’t wanna. I feel it’s going to fail like everything else. The rock tiles are depressing me.
I mean, I don’t even wanna try. I can feel and see it, not working. But, I need a place to store my stuff.
It just feels pointless to build a house. And if it’s not just the house, it’s the endless planks I’m going to have to make to build the deck and porch with floorboards. And with no help.

I can’t think of a plan of this, because I can’t really work with those fucking rock tiles. Like I said, Spore caused this “pointless feeling” I have. And there’s no way it could be reversed.