Benie's Games Blog

I’m back in my house @ Dragon Forest after spending a full day on the Wild server. Though I feel like the citizens of Kyara are glad I left and do not wish to see me again for entering their local unannounced about what my intentions are, and begging to see the dragon.

By the way, you can check out my ‘vacation’ photos by clicking here.

But this is basically what happened with the time I did spend there, and why I’m not going back…

When I finally crossed into the Wild server, I was disoriented. I thought I was already near The Landing when I had to keep going north and then turn west. But after some time I finally got there.
Approaching Port Middi was a challenge, even with the owner, Middi, trying to guide me in by telling me it’s west of the stone structure on the sand called an obelisk. Finally though I found my way in. Though as I said, Kyara wasn’t expecting me and didn’t give me access into this strange tunnel I’ve never seen before.
The Middi person told me to leave my boat while he waited for Gavin to drag my boat into Port Middi who I didn’t know he lived in Kyara at the time. I went past this small lava field to Kyara’s large marketplace.
They weren’t kidding when they say that Kyara is the capital city of Jenn-Kellon. Anyway I waited, looked around. Looked through Vean’s homestead that he calls his own marketplace.
Time passed. I was unable to speak to Gavin about it and Middi logged off. So I asked Kyara’s local if someone can get my boat into the port, and someone named Rogue showed up and did just that.

Time passed and I continued to wait around the marketplace for something to happen, and Dream Master showed up as I was talking to angry in Steam. I honored his presence, told him who I was, and if I could see the inside of Kyara to get a few pictures. He said he wouldn’t have the time to arrange that, and mentioned about a dragon… “Dragon? You got a dragon in there?? :D” I said, nearly squealing like a happy pig. Sadly, I wasn’t allowed to see it, saying how they worked hard for something like nearly a year trying to keep this dragon alive, and about 5 minutes later he logs off.

Alittle later, Gavin shows up. And I tell him the same thing I told Dream Master, and he too denied me access to see the dragon, except by saying that not all citizens of Kyara even know of it’s location, and the fact he couldn’t bring it out for me because it would destroy every wall it gets led to.
I figured it was for my own good if I didn’t see it, and dropped asking them.

Anyway, before all of this, I purchased a nice 94QL pelt for 20c as a souvenir. I also asked Nosyt, another Kyara citizen if s/he could make me a high QL boat lock. The person said it would take 2 days. And at the time I didn’t mind waiting.. now I do.
The rest of that day(in RL) was pretty much… boring. And I eventually went to bed.

The next day, it was alittle more active. Kyara was still busy up in their fort, imping their lives away. But I still wanted to do something, like go to CV and see Kyara’s dragon, which sadly..both weren’t achieved. Why? I didn’t plan in the past to do said things.
Still, it was a sorta active day. It started with Middi wanting me to build a few things. Unfortunately I left my tools back at my house, but she gave me the tools I needed…and very nice tools they where — especially the enchants. I was able to go through a log and make a plank in 5 seconds.
And in return he gave me a 20kg, 60QL iron lump, and a matching QL whetstone. Got them done. Alittle later I asked Duce, one of the citizens of Kyara if I could have tools like Middi has.
He had to leave for awhile, and after some talk with Pinejon, another Kyara citizen if I would be OK to go to Valhalla myself, I left Kyara and headed there on my own.
PMed a few people here and there. Though they where all WLers. After stopping at the white light for a 2nd time, I got a few more pictures of the light, and some signs I found. Soon I found the way to continue SW to the landbridge, according to the map.

Once I got on the landbridge, I noticed a faint, black beam, far to the south of me. The black light! Continuing on, people started to fill my local. I PMed them as the precaution and found out I was finally near Valhalla.
I asked for a guide to get me to CV. Sadly, that would never happen. I got to their main gate and asked for access, but didn’t get it because I wasn’t a member of CV. So I logged onto Benie who still had my deed and writs back home, and tried to get ahold of Xallo, which I did. Explained the situation to him and he got me access through the north gate.
Back on DH, I went through it and turned right, heading towards a Palisade gate. Then stopped short as two people walked by me. I presumed they wanted me to wait for some kind of security check, and I was right.
I told the mayor of Valhalla I was through the north gate, but he said I’m not going any further until I become a member of CV. Again I used Benie to explain. This time he got on an alt in Wild and tried to tell them in PMs about who I was. But sadly, he could do nothing. So I decided to go back to Kyara.

As I went back, all I could think of was “Well. What now? Get the lock, the tools, and go home?”. Since I obviously wasn’t enjoying myself over there.
Made it back to Kyara ok, and saw Duce was back online but was on an alt, chasing someone. 10 minutes later he responds, telling me my tools are done and would be sending someone down and over to me to pick them up. So I run to Vean’s Place, get 2s from the bank(amazing how I can access my account back home), and wait for this delivery guy to come down. 5 minutes later the person shows up, I pay him and get the tools.
5 minutes later after that, I get an idea to just go back to JK-H, go through the tunnel to RC, leave my boat there and go home. Then post an ad on the Wurm forum, asking for a high QL boat lock where I can stay home while waiting.
And I did just that. Telling Kyara that I was ready to go, but lying that something came up that needs me back home. So I head down to Port Middi as someone gets my boat out, gets it through the tunnel and I take over.
Soon, I’m back in JK-H as Sol rises. And… the rest is history.

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Overall, I kinda enjoyed myself. But Kyara isn’t famous for dealing with visitors. But as much as I wanted to go there, I wanted to go back home just as bad.
But, can you blame Kyara for the way they acted? I mean. I didn’t really give them ample warning that I was going to show up.
At the time, I had no idea I was going to stay outside Kyara. I was planning to just use Port Middi for my boat and find a village that would take me in afterwords.

In other words… I fucked up my own vacation. Kyara had nothing to do with it. I should’ve asked around before I even left JK-H if there was a place for me in Wild that would be willing to take in a lone traveler for a week.
And as for wanting to see the dragon, blame my obsession for that. I was planning to stay outside Kyara as long as I can…. as long as it took, just to see it. I was hoping Dream Master would come back on, so we could arrange this to happen. Unfortunately that never happened.

I got word that this new server we where promised, and I was hoping would be like Wild and MR-H, turned out to be a tutorial server known as the “Golden Valley”. A place where newbies train up, and then have to go prem to go to MR-H, Wild, or… JK-H.
That’s right… JK-H is now a semi-prem server. Basically, Rolf found sympathy for non-prems that where in the server WAY before this happened, and will let them keep playing. But is encouraging everyone to go prem.
In my opinion, Rolf wants Wurm to be no better than WoW, using the term “monthly fee”.

They also released another feature. A thing for deeds as an anti-griefing system. Deed owners can allow or deny anyone building or destroying roads/fences/houses near their deeds.

Anyway. I’m sure none of you give a fuck to hear how my day went. But… guess what? You’re going to hear it anyway! So get comfortable.
I’ve been desperately looking for either a boat lock or a large anvil to make my own.
Though I finally found a boat lock, I noticed it was missing it’s key…. I asked kchat if boat locks had keys. They said they don’t, but I proved them wrong after consulting the wiki. So. Wiki FTW. 🙂
Seeing this, I went to “Plan B”, buy a large anvil and lug the heavy fucker home. Then make my own boat lock. Searched everywhere AGAIN in NT, and got help from a guy named Turtle, who questioned me as I was asking the location of said anvil in Local, of why I don’t live in a village. So I PMed him, saying I don’t get along with others. That’s why I live on my own.
As soon as I said that, he found an anvil for me at a decent price. So I paid for it and lugged it home.

Dropping it down next to my small anvil nearly made a crator, but at least I had it home. Then I proceeded to warm up my now imped to 40’ish QL forge, thanks to a guy I met yesterday in my local who lives on Wild, last night, as I was trying to make a large anvil.
Today, much like yesterday, the failtrain made it’s stop right ontop of my chance to make the boat lock, putting it at a sickening 7% chance.
25 times I tried making a single boat lock. Each time ended up in FAILURE! I nearly wanted to pull my hair out.
I make another desperate plea in kchat for help in hopes someone would be selling a boat lock, and Bianca comes to my rescue.

She tells me a friend of hers who has a 24QL lock(and the key) for 10c, and I buy it on the spot and she leaves. After running back to NT(I think it’s my 4th time) I search once again looking for cheaper mooring anchors. And once again, the only one that is selling them wants 1-2s per anchor. So… I have no choice, and regretfully hand over the coin and get them.
Then I hook up the new boat lock to my sailboat and moor it. With my mooring anchor stolen grief issue finally taken care of, I head home and restart work in the lake to remove the scar.

1 last thing before I wrap this up. I’m planning to visit the Wild server one of these days. It will be a new adventure for me. I’ve been asking around for answers to the many questions I had for a safe and happy trip. Unfortunately though, there’s nothing “safe and happy” about Wild.
PvP is everywhere there. And there’s a risk I can get 1-shotted by archers. So I gotta keep my head down or I’ll lose it.
I’ve been told the best course of action when arriving at Wild is to head to “Port Middi”, as it’s the most secured port for us WLers, or “White Lighters”(pretty much JK), then I have to ask Kyara, somehow, if I can buy a high QL boat lock.
After that, I have to ask kchat and see if any village is recruiting, and move in with them. You see, Wild and JK-H are two different servers. So it doesn’t matter if I own Dragon Forest or not.

Then somehow I need to get to CV(Coniunctis Virbius) to see Xallo. Hopefully if I do find a helpful town to take care of newbies and tourists(like myself), I can get a guide to take me to CV.

There’s one thing I can’t wait to ask Kyara. And that is “Do you guys have a dragon? I heard rumors that Kyara has a red dragon.”

I dunno what’s going on, but I just read a rumor that Rolf will be working on another server, similar to JK-H, coming tomorrow.
I don’t know what this means for me. But I don’t believe I’ll have to move to it. It’s going to be an entirely new server, made for new players.

I’ll be looking forward to this. This may’ve opened up my option to move even more. But then again.. the fact angry doesn’t wanna move will make things difficult.
But if both servers are under control of Jenn-Kellen, there won’t be any need to convert. It’ll be like in WoW. Going from Eastern Kingdoms(the new server), to Kalimdor(the current server), but without boarding a boat and going there. So I’ll be able to go server to server to get to angry and back home.
I hope the connection point to this new JK-H server will be on the eastern side of the Home server.

I saw this video yesterday of Rolf trying to get ahold of the 4chan users that where invading Wurm before the pre-/b/ raid.
It starts off as pretty serious with Rolf trying to give them instructions on how to play the right way.

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=ecbIxuH9Efk

And here’s a blog post from Rolf, talking to us regular players about them and the fact some of them are going prem.

“So lets roll!” -Rolf

As all of you may know, angry got me to wanna move to Annaysoan Point and found a new deed, named “Dragon Haven”.
That means I’m moving out of Dragon Forest, but I’m giving Benie control of it, so I’ll be able to pay for both deeds. Incase I ever decide to come back. Or, I may sell it. I dunno.

But lets go back in time to where Dragon Forest(or as it was named “Benie’s Homestead” in the past) was just a baby. To remember the times, good and bad, I’ve had with it.

It first started after I had moved from the camp, that me(as Benie), angry, and Matty lived at. I wanted a place to call my own, and thought the 2nd lake above Rockcliff would be a good place to be, since I loved living by a lake due to the shear beauty. Sparkyrich, one of the members of Greenside, had other ideas though. And after going up there proved to be more than I could handle, he got me on the right track and showed me a flat area near a lake.
I’ve passed by this area quite alot of times when I was still living at SoTR, helping vixeyrose with water. But never would of thought that some day I would own that piece of land.
He showed me around the place, and told me of these two mines that where already made. So I wouldn’t have to make my own mines. And I remembered how BIG they where. It blew me away. And then he showed me the view of the lake that would one day be where my house is.
I pretty much… just died when I saw that view. How incredibly beautiful it was. How could I say no?! And so, I took it.
A few days later, Sparkysgal, the owner of Greenside, got the HS deed for me, because I was low on cash at the time. She gave me it and I tried to found it. But alas, the village north of us, known as “Apple Bs”, was blocking this from happening. Fortunately she was able to contact the owner and got her to enable the option to allow deeds, and I finally planted it.
Alittle time after that and the stone slabs began to be removed one by one and replaced with grass. And then the houses went up. Sgal thought that I would want three separate houses for my HS. But found out that I just wanted one and let me do what I want.
It was from then on, and to this very day, I’ve been responsible for this homestead.

A few months passed, and my HS grew. I littered the place with my favorite tree in Wurm; Pine. The ramp to the lake was made. And I still remember going north of my HS one day to visit Oakvale. At the time we didn’t have boats, so I had to vacation on foot. Once getting there, I noticed it was on an island inside a small bay. I was amazed at the way it looked, and wondered if I could do it back home. Because at the time, my desire to keep my HS the way it looks was fading rapidly.

When returning home, I desperately wanted to try to redo the idea Oakvale had and tried to get to work. But my lack of knowledge of flatraising would cost me. Over and over I remembered desperately trying to seek help from kchat for a flatraising expert to come down here. Though I got a few, and even got some help for digging, it still wasn’t enough and it drove me past the breaking point.
So I gave angry the deed and quit….
And where that is, is now known as “The Scar”. Because it hurt so bad.

4 months later, I came back as Dragonhead. It was at this time when boats came into Wurm. And I regretted quitting so much. After a long time of suffering, I finally get the HS back.

But sadly, all the love I put into this place… was pretty much a distant memory when boats came out. They would fuck up everything I have ever worked for. As in, boats where useful for not just hauling goods across the ocean, but for people. Boats are known as “super carts”, or “floating carts”.

With the rise and fall of Beelzeboss, my hate for plank-making increased. Back when Dragon Forest was named Benie’s Homestead, planking was actually fun. Now, it’s… geh.

Dragon Forest has gone through alot of changes. Possibly even alot more when the goons where living on it. And sadly, it’s lost it’s beauty that it once had when I moved in. Because of my relentless changing to the land.
And now it’s pretty much lost it’s function because of boats. Ever since the tunnel was made from NewTown to Small Bears, it was like a calling that one day I would try to live by the ocean, instead of by a lake with no access to the ocean.

And as I look down, standing on another failed idea to improve the HS at the pier, staring at my rowboat. I can only hope my new life will be just as good as this place was to me. Though I don’t have any ideas at the moment for what is known now as Annaysoan Point, I hope to get some soon when I finally make my move.

But. What made me snap and realize what I was doing was pointless, and made me wanna move away from a great place? I’m still trying to figure that out.
It could be several factors. Depression. Boredom. Loneliness.
I think when I finally started to realize that living by this lake was bad, was when I had moved from Neveron, to the Northwestern side of the lake. Tried to make a boat pier due to an idea I saw on the west coast, and saw it was pretty much… pointless to even make a pier. Since I was the only one that would use it.
Then again, maybe it was the trip around the home server.

Everyone I knew in the past has either quit or moved far away, making me the only one living by that lake. Which could be another contributing factor.
But I think the number one thing was probably the fact I love being out on the water. I felt.. free. Like I could control my life as well as the boat taking me anywhere I wanna go. Letting the wind guide me.

The pain on the server from the recent /b/ raid is causing frequent, horrible lag spikes today. So much it’s making my chances of moving very difficult.
But despite the lag, there is… well, I should say was, a shred of hope. When I came on, the lag wasn’t as horrendous as it is now. I saw a guy named Vidken, who I found out later is the owner of Raven Point; the deed that’s in my way of planting on the land north of what was that “Restaurant at the edge of the universe” or something like that. It’s where angry showed me.

Anyway, I talked with him into letting me found it. But I didn’t. I wanted to see that area, E of NH. He had 2 hours until he logged off so I would have to move quickly.
Finally getting there, I noticed houses up on the hill, north of where I was planning to found. When I saw those and the road leading to a pier on the other side of the land.. I… I just stopped the power to think of what to do next.
And THAT’S when the lag spikes began to build up and slam into the server like the waves hitting a boat. I waited patiently for the lag to stop as a rat saw me and tried to attack. I saw this and attacked back, killing it easily.
When the lag finally stopped(for alittle bit), I looked again at the houses that where north of where I was and said to myself; “No. This place is already taken. I can’t do it.” and tried to go back to speak with Vidken again about that place.
When I finally got back… I was too late. He logged off and didn’t come back. I felt like kicking the side of my boat for taking too long to come up with a decision.
Still, I tried to remained optimistic of the situation, and went West of Chalice, little did I know it would still be owned by a village not on the fucking map.

Time and time again, it seemed like every good place I tried had a village not on the map. It was seriously pissing me off. And so was angry… of my constant whining to not wanna talk to the owners of the villages to let me in. It’s because I didn’t wanna piss anyone off, or even take the risk of being told ‘no’.

Time passed and angry offered to give me Annaysoan Point. At first I thought that there was no way it will work, as Annayyatta still lives there. And I would have to turn the deed over to him and let him found it as that name.
But angry told me that Annayyatta was planning to live closer to Bennie Bay. And that finally got me to say yes. Unfortunately though, the writs of members of Annaysoan Point where still there. And so I’m going to have to wait until they decay or if angry contacts them about this.

I tried to go home and wait it out, but angry got me to go to the bay for awhile and show him where I plan to found the deed. And I did. Though there was quite a delay until we went to Annaysoan Point with angry repeatably going AFK.. as usual.
But, we got there. And I looked around the place. The first thing I saw was the plentiful number of cave openings. Much more than Dragon Forest. Angry told me there’s a vast network of tunnels going under the settlement.

As nice as the place is though, it has alot of hurdles that will need to be worked out. I just hope angry will let me do them when the time comes. Though it will cost alot of money and time.
And also, dirt will be difficult to obtain as the only way to get it is through a dense, hostile-populated forest. Unless I start going back and forth from Dragon Forest, digging up the scar, and coming back here and dumping it where needed. But that would be 1 HELL of a chore to do.

Whatever will need to be done, I better come up with an idea before it’s time to move.

Tried to login today, and I was greeted by that error about “redirecting to another server that doesn’t exist”. Of course I thought that was /b/’s doing.
Went to the forum. But much to my surprise, no one was complaining about not being able to login. The only thing some where was the fact Rolf lowered the non-prem player count to 150.
And that’s not all that caught my eye. There was a rumor that catapults have their Machine options back.

With hearing that, it got me into Wurm.. and boy it did. I went right in.
Smiling at the comfortable 186 player count, I saw a pile of shafts sitting on the path to my house, and had a guy in my local trying to get Clay. After some talks with him, I found out he was a /v/ who was trying to live on his own.
After this, I went to check out my catapult and sure enough, the “Machine > Load” option was there. Now I can finally knock down that fence that in a way, prohibited me from doing the ramp to the pier.
And also the fact there was no lag,

But I had more important things to do. Clean up what /v/ and /b/ left from Old Brotopia. So I grabbed a cart and went up there, and then went to work. I tried to get kchat to help, but all they told me is to let the server take care of it. But it’ll take up to a month before decay to remove everything.

Hours passed, and I finally had Old Brotopia cleaned up. And also angry finally got on after spending all day trying to get on due to this non-prem cap. I took this time to restart my plan of moving. But due to the server cap, this proved to be difficult.

Getting DH to NT wasn’t the problem. But when I got there and tried to dual client, “No Soup For You!” kept coming up with Benie, saying the server was full. Time after time I tried connecting, ’till finally I got in and gave her my deed and the writs.
Angry however wanted his boat back. So I had to get Benie there. But he told me to wait at NH and we will go to Old Brotopia to help with the cleaning up.

Anyway, the rest of it is too long to explain. Just angry tried to show me it’s OK to live at the northern sea. But deep down inside I knew he hated it as much as me, as all 3 places I thought of moving to where already taken by places or buildings not on the fucking map.
Updated map dump MY ASS! Maybe I’ll have better luck tomorrow.

Or, then again, maybe I’m “doomed” to… live with what I got. By a lake with no access to the ocean.

So much has happened with this “raid” that took place in JK Home today, and I don’t remember everything. But, this is what I do remember…

It started as I was wrapping up my 2nd vacation around the Home server. I just came on, next to Anaysoan Point after getting the meals I needed. I flipped on /kchat to check out what’s going on in Wurm, as I was flying down the Northern Passage. And all I saw was a bunch of people calling themselves “bros”.
Time went on and I found out they where 4channers. And I also heard the direction they where going. Towards BBX.

Curious of what was going on and if they where heading for my HS, I finally reached the harbor of NT, parked my boat, grabbed the shit inside of it and RAN through NT, and down BBH.
As I closed in on the highway to Greenside, my Local began to fill up with people. Soon, there was like… I would say, at least 20-30 people. Maybe more. It was worse than Kchat.

I went down the hill and saw the damage known as “brotopia”. And learned of what is called “/v/” has moved in. And they where everywhere.

I continued to run for my HS and watched as my Local began to clear except for 1 person I caught walking up and down the path to my house, and gave him directions to NT(he was lost).
Getting there, my local was clear… for about 15 minutes. The rest of that day, members of /v/ came and went from my local, with some of them walking all over my HS, looking for clay they could dig.

Meanwhile, my desire to move grew and grew to the point that angry let me barrow Benie to start my plan. And my plan is thus;
1. Get Benie to NT.
2. Get DH(Dragonhead) to NT.
3. Give Benie the deed to Dragon Forest. Log Benie off.
4. Get money. Grab deed. Go land hunting.
5. If unsuccessful, get DH back to NT.
6. Get Benie to give DH back his deed.
7. Send Benie back to Bennie Bay.
8. Cuss on DH(when outside Aegis and Local is clear)…

However, that plan will be postponed due to… unforeseen consequences. In the form of a /b/ raid.

The next day after doing my chores, I attempt to log into Benie, and immediately notice how longer it’s taking to get in(getting kicked out should’ve told me that the number of players was way too high for the server to handle). And the lag until everything loads. I also notice how unusually busy NT is. But it doesn’t hit me until I leave angry’s boat and get to the token, when I see a truckload of people hanging around it.
Still, this doesn’t really bother me… until I log on DH, and try to get to NT. And notice how unusually laggy it is. Just then someone in kchat says “/b/ is attacking Wurm!”, or something like that. When I try to respond, it takes 5 minutes until it shows up.

All this was doing, was sickening me. I tried to just ignore it… but it was just too much. Tried to get back home and noticed the house was missing, and I could even walk through it like it wasn’t there. Even the walls where invisible. The server was so laggy that it couldn’t load the collision models.

Hours pass and I try to get back into Wurm after seeing the player count is 307, and succeeded. I wind up near BBX, like I never made it home due to the insane lag.
I go back to brotopia… and see what appears to be what’s left of a hunting party that tried to kill a dragon. Bodies, littering the highway. And brotopia was pretty much a ghost town.
After helping out a /v/ n00b who was “stuck” and didn’t know how to use his Climbing button, I get word that /b/ got bored and left the server. However, the damage to the server and the forest can still be seen, and felt. And the reason /v/ migrated far south of NT was because of /b/.
Thinking about my HS, I turned around and went in that direction as quick as I can. When I got there, the house is still there… but… the Willow was chopped down. As well as 1 of my pine trees that was near it. Also my boat was gone (again).
Fortunately this time I didn’t have to look far, as it drifted just NNE of my pier. Didn’t want to explain the last time it got lost because I’ve already explained enough about these eventful 2 days.

But who’s going to clean up the mess at Old Brotopia? And is this truly the end of the /b/ raid? I don’t know right now. Only tomorrow will hold those answers.

I just hope I can finally get this plan even started, let alone done. Even if I don’t find a new place, at least I can say “I tried”.

Ah. The first Wurm blog entry of 2009…

Why is it that most if not all MMORPG’s I have played, cause me to pretend I’m an actor in some soap opera, moaning and groaning that things aren’t working the way I want?
Wurm is no different. Though it isn’t a true MMORPG, it still has drama. And if you want a taste of this drama… well, you better be hungry. Because I got alot of drama to feed everyone.

Basically, what’s going on in Wurm lately is quite a few things. 1 thing, I’ve been on my sailboat alot last week. If you’ve been in the Wurm forum, I’ve been trying to get Joedirttwo the help he needed to complete the incomplete landbridge, north of Deathgate Falls. There’s been alot of controversy over the completion of this landbridge.
If it is such a wise thing to do, or will it piss alot of boaters off to not have access to Valerie Bay anymore.
Before I started this thread of asking for help, I’ve also been ‘busy’, helping Joedirttwo out with this landbridge. More like trying to convince him what he’s doing is pointless, since no one else seems to want the bridge to be finished.

And if that’s not bad enough, evil gale winds blowing in the wrong direction and fog where not only trying to piss me off; they where delaying me, and getting me lost.

Anyway, passing that, we go back to Dragon Forest. Ahh yes… the home of drama, my arch nemesis. And my has it been so filled with drama it would flood Bearback Lake.

This drama started with my old friend, the “Maybe I should move. Boats are out and I wanna live by the ocean!” thought, which I explained in the post below this.
Trying to keep my depressed brain busy, I started work on the ramp idea angry had. But guess what? He may’ve had the idea, but that didn’t mean he was going to help me with it.

And when that day came when I finally got him down there, I actually wished I didn’t. Because as soon as he stepped into the sphere known as drama, he started carrying on how it’s “my fault” for something that happened in Bennie Bay.
And that thing was me going behind his back and telling Baalel about the thing with angry wanting to go back to Neveron and putting Baalel in charge of the bay. Angry kept on saying that Baalel said that he didn’t wanna be responsible, which was a shock to me. I thought he would be happy, not angry with the news.
Because as much as he cared to see Bennie Bay prosper, I thought for sure he wouldn’t mind. It turns out I thought wrong.

And to this very day, angry is blaming me for Baalel leaving, because he didn’t wanna risk angry actually giving control of Bennie Bay to him.
Since then, angry’s been losing members.
Yes. It was wrong by going behind angry’s back and telling Baalel. But like I said, I thought he wouldn’t mind.

Ohh, and the drama train didn’t stop at the station of Blame and Untrustworthy… no no no. It kept going. And it’s about to derail.
Angry, being well… himself, said that he was ‘done’ with my ramp which I didn’t get a chance to help him with, and left.
After apologizing multiple times to him about him not trusting me, once again I tried to get him to help me… bad move. Train FUCKING derailed!
He said that I treat him like a slave, and took all the sorries I said and made them hollow.

And so, with the drama train now on fire, I stopped playing Wurm after that. Me and angry also aren’t talking to each other as much.
Anytime I mention the word “Wurm” anymore, he won’t talk all day. Or until I talk about something else.
Which makes it very difficult since I still need help.