I had a pretty rough night’s sleep, the ‘meeting’ (more like a giant mess of finger-pointing) still fresh on my mind. It really is interesting how one game can cause so much on one’s mentality (like Wurm does).
As for my mother, she got most of her issues fixed. I had to set a few final touches up for her (including telling her how to avoid Windows telling you to install updates). Last night, her computer hung up due to so many updates (and didn’t fully complete). Thankfully she can still use it as normal.
Spent half of the day on the Best Boi Discord Server (as I typically do, when I feel I have very little interest in joining VRChat). Random conversations here and there, with myself adding in to a few of them. Suddenly one of them starts talking about someone being a mod, then we’re talking about who would make a good mod, I state “that’s up to the mods to decide, not us”.
And then it starts, one saying how CommanderCharms was “a very good option” to be mod (he got promoted to mod while I was sleeping), and how “people will listen to him and shut the fuck up when he speaks”. This made me chirp in, saying “I get that, but… that is going to scare people away from meetings.” And it felt like we were finally having a proper, civilized community discussion about what happened with the ‘meeting’. There came a part where it was like, me -VS- someone who was pissed off about the way the meeting was done. I said “we needed a wakeup call, it could had been a lot worse”, but the person feels that they “didn’t actually try to solve the problem” and “they just yelled at the community”. He has a point, and so did I.
Charms also chirps in, stating the reason why they had to be harsh, going by his “observations”, they “couldn’t count on the community to have common sense” (referring to the plaque).
And he’s right.. yet I also wish they didn’t 100% yell at us. We’re human beings (a furry is a human being). We make mistakes. We’re not animals who don’t know what is right from wrong! YES we fucked up, but at least allow us to defend ourselves!
We’re not all kids. Some of us are actually married in real life, and have kids (just like Kibble). And not the entire community (including myself), DM’d him!
*sighs*
It could had been handled better. Even if they felt they “couldn’t count on the community to have common sense”.. it could had been handled better. And this feeling is not going to go away, anytime soon. I’ll never be able to look at the ones that were speaking in that ‘meeting’, the same ever again. It’s not just Kibble, but them too that I’m scared to say anything to them (ingame).
And I don’t think it’s done. There’s still the upcoming meeting this Friday. Kibble (if he even shows up, and I wouldn’t be surprised if he doesn’t after this) would probably tell us how ashamed he is of us. And he has every right. What the people did that DM’d him so many times (and were jealous over the plaque), is highly inexcusable. The only thing I can pray, is Ashi didn’t add onto the problem.
Of course, I’m not playing the victim card for being swayed by Jrock (and being part of that private meeting, thinking Kibble didn’t understand us). That still bothers me (even though I’m done with Jrock). It bothers me that how he was so fucking convincing, and never once did I think of taking my concerns to the mods. Yet even if I did, I probably wouldn’t feel convinced by them. As I said before, I didn’t know what to believe in. I was filled with so much toxicity that I couldn’t think straight.
It does feel great to have my thoughts to be readjusted for the better, refusing to ever go that far with server drama. If I see a problem, they get reported.
Zero-Tolerance Policy, as Charms said. Though I pray (dearly).. the ones that are responsible for the multiple DMs, have understood what happened (and will stop harassing Kibble). I don’t want to see this server getting shut down, over an 8th of the community being bad bois (and/or gurls), for not appreciating (and respecting) the hard work the man has done for us.